Cancerlady~ Have a great party!! Happy Birthday

Cancerlady~ Have a great party!! Happy Birthday

P.s. wish I could join in on the FUN!!!

wwwwwoooOOOOOOSHHHHH...!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY CANCERLADY....!!!

Happy Birthday To You. * CancerLady*
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Yes Merry christmas!
Oh no wait... happy birthday. Yes thats the right one. Yay for Birthdays and parties and cake.

Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday dear Cancerlady,
Happy Birthday to you.

And many, many more.
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Yeah you have to tell us all about your partay! So we can pretend we were all there partying it up with you. : )

Happy - Happy birthday CancerLady! Hope you had the time of your life celebrating the awesome Lady that you are!

Brash on!

Happy b-day cancerlady,have lots,lots and lots of fun.Parental tone now,don't do anything I wouldn't do*wink wink*he he.

Happy Birthday Cancerlady!

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YOU ARE GOING TO BE DRUNK TONIGHT!
YOU ARE GOING TO BE DRUNK TONIGHT!

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Haffo you are funny. Cancerlady Monday is already here. Wake up. We want a full un edited report on your brithday party. You, lady of all that is sex-citement, you. You sure know how to teach people to chill out and express their deepest self.Now out with every detail.

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It's so good to see so many people care. Overall it was an excellent party after I got over the mini-disasters that happened last week. Did any other Cancers have a weird week last week?

First of all, let me say SeizetheDay is truly as beautiful and fun in person than she is on here. VirgoSquared is a very unique individual and I must say I was quite pleasantly surprised when I met him. My party was a blast! (Even though I kinda neglected those two a bit they forgave me) I was pretty drunk too Haffo, so that must have worked! LOL

After my party my best friend and I went to a reggae club here & stayed out til about four. That was mad fun but I slept like ALL day Sunday! All in all it was a GREAT TIME even though not as many people came so I had alot of extra food!

THANKS AGAIN FOR COMING STD & VS!

Cancerlady

NOW for the drama...Last week was HELL! But my biggest goal from now on is to learn to roll with the punches.

1. Of course the whole music/producer thing...Only 2/8 of the people I worked with on the album came so seems like shady behavior runs in the group!

2. The stupid Taurus guy who VOLUNTEERED to get me a DJ (long story short) didn't come through nor did he feel the need to tell me I wasn't going to have a DJ until I called him on Saturday. Needless to say that was the straw that broke the camels back with him...I'm DONE, he is an ungrateful bastard! There was no show because of this but it was still okay.

3. The other guy who helped me fund the party had to go to New York at the last minute so none of his people came at all. This wouldn't have been a problem but I counted them as guests and over bought. The upside to that is that even though he couldn't make it to the party he still bought the kegs...Yeah him!

4. I broke up with Mr. Pisces on Friday in WalMart. Long story short after he officially told me he wouldn't be back in time, Needless to say I was down. He was still talking about his stupid car & his problems not even focusing on the fact that he was missing my b-day. So I was short with him and hung up...then I called right back and said I think we should cool it. So he said he figured as much & hung up on me. Called back 5 min later talking bullsh!t about him losing $ $ $ and me not caring. He wouldn't let me get anything out so I was like f-you and your $ $ $ . I then turned off my phone & wouldn't anwser. He called about a million times, left me like 10 voicemails and 8 text messages. So the next morning I still hadn't talked to him. His messages went from Oh you're so selfish to Please don't give up on us.

I was tired of him calling so I picked up and he was so sincere sounding and hurt that I agreed to talk to him when he gets back. At this point I am not sure what I am going to do because thoughout those messages he said (In a very mean way) all the things I've don that have apparently been bothering him but he never told me. He had a few good points so I realize that I am not as perfect as I thought I was and that we tend to have quite a bit of misunderstandings. We'll see, but all of you should be happy (or sad) to know I didn't do it with any other boys. I really didn't see anybody I wanted and I felt bad even thinking about sleeping with someone else. This is getting long and I have to go to lunch so.....PEACE!

Cancerlady

Sorry to hear about all that CL but it sounds like you ended up having a great time anyway so thats great!!

Wow.. Cancerlady.. that story makes much more sense now that I'm sober... *hic*

IT WAS GREAT MEETING YOU!!!!! .. oh and.. nice dress (call me) 😉

Despite all the issues surrounding the party, I had a great time. I think VS agrees with me on this.. YOU are truly fun, beautiful and vivacious.

Happy HAPPY Birthday!

P.S. eff Mr. Pisces.. he don't know what he's missin!

CL I hope everything works out for you and I'm glad your bday still rocked.
I'm sure you'll make a really great album and you'll find a perfect boyfriend and all tah tgood stuff. Thats my birthday wishes for you.

Glad u enjoyed ur party,Ms cancerLady... One thing i do note,Mr Picses maybe using dat car thing as a cover story.jus a hunch, no matter. He would use every charm in da book to get u back. (Never once have i heard a Pisces apologise,lol).

Happy belated Birthday CL!! I'm glad you enjoyed your birthday and also got to me STD in person....thats great.....Sorry so many people flaked on you....but it only takes a few good friends to have a good time. Pisces aren't fainthearted when they love you.....they almost never dissapear,,,,always in the background lurking,,,,flip flopping from kissing your a** apologizing back to hating you and vice versa....lol

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Cancerlady enjoyed reading your feed back. Sorry about your Pisces. I am sure you will work it out with him. You seem to be a lot into him.

Thanks guys....

I am supposed to be seeing him tonight. I just hate the thought that someone would deliberately lie to me like that for no reason! And if he was going to lie...he could have come up with something better than that. That just makes me think he thinks I am an idiot that can't put 2 and 2 together. He says he has the police report though so if that's real then I will have no choice but to believe him.

If I find out different though I swear to GOD I am going to make him pay because I DON'T like to be made a fool out of and I can be just as evil (if not more so) as I can be nice. This side rarely comes out but the rage I feel inside at the THOUGHT of him consistently lying to me for his own pleasure let's me know it won't be pretty...He better hope his intuition tells him to get out before I let loose.

Cancerlady

cl

I'm glad to hear that your party was fun (not without drama, but fun)! Hey the beer was there so it couldn't have been that bad!

You'll have to give us the low down on how Mr. Pisces is acting. For your sake (and I guess his by the way you were talkin!) I hope the entire story was true and not some old bs.

Girl- that libra man is confusing! His ass better not be playin with me either!
Everyone thinks of a cancer as loving and mothering, but for real don't piss us off or you will see a whole new definition of the word "crab" and boy do we pinch hard when we are mad!!

Good luck - with that man of yours

clvzl

Everyone thinks of a cancer as loving and mothering, but for real don't piss us off or you will see a whole new definition of the word "crab" and boy do we pinch hard when we are mad!!

Boy i'm trying to tell you! I can be a SUPER B!TcH when provoked...And my wrath though rare is nothing to play with because I lose my mind!
C-Lady

beware the wrath of cancerlady at your peril............you tell that guy tonite just what he missed and how he wasn't missed by you lady!!!!!.....give him food for thought!!!!

I KICK YO A $ $ ...
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Naaa, too bloody...Go with the way I will get off scot-free!

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Muahh, Ha Ha Haaaa!

hey CL~ did you meet with him last night??

No that f-ing bastard didn't come back because of the weather. Honestly, you don't know how hard it is for me to love him. He SAID yesterday that he would be back before I got off work but I can't depend on anything he says.

Yesterday after he told me that I was so angry & heartbroken...Why am I not supposed to want to be with my boyfriend? I know that his life style is not for me because he ALWAYS wants to do everything on his terms...I can only see him when HE is in town or when HE finishes his business or he answers the calls when HE feels like talking to me. If I do the same thing he flips the f-out! I know he definitely wants his cake & eat it too but he's got another think coming if he thinks that's gonna fly with this girl.

I'm going to put it like this...I have told him SEVERAL times that I can't really deal with the type of relationship he wants. I guess it seems hypocritical b/c I keep taking him back but there ALWAYS comes the time when I just get so tired that I can't take it anymore and I completely shut that person out of my life. I feel like that point looms closer and I don't think he realizes it.

I cannot be neglected or I WILL move on to greener pastures, that's my word!

CL

GEG

Thanks for caring...Maybe I should come visit you and we can have a girls night out!

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Get F-ed up! Get F-ed Up!

you should come and visit we would have a blast! Although there is not much to do in fresno im sure we can find a club or two!! And if were drunk who the F**k cares right!! (the bartender in your pic is wearing a speedo) love it!! lol

Well i hope for his sake he has his ass back in town tonight!! or its bye bye now! lol

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Be more like this...ha ha ha ha

What is Fresno like anyway?

CL

HMmmmm cancerlady u can cry on my shoulder,anytime. I think dat is why he feels he can do that to u,cause u taking him back, and never(and is true)u here once hear a pisces say sorry,without some kind aargument. But when they wrong they feel guilt wash over them.But on the whole he makin too much excuses now. I suggest ..one mo try.And if he raises his voice without merit,drop hints(dat is what pisces do .sorry folks)and seem disinterested,then call it quits. Just have fun,don't answer his calls,either.if he knocks on da door.LOck it.lol

CL~ It's Hot, and boring and the men here suck!! lol im just kidding! Its o.k. I was born and raised here. I like it...but some people hate it. Most people who leave the "NO" (fresno) always come back. Its nice cause we are not to far from the beach (pismo) and SAS FRAN...is not to far away (shopping) lol!

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Update for all those who care...

I don't think this is going to last much longer. Last night he didn't come over until after 1am, he didn't buy me a present at ALL, and on top of that...he had the nerve to tell me that my birthday will never be as important as him getting $ $ $ . He tried to put it in a kind way but he literally said those words. Therefore I feel there is no future for us. I will always come second or third or fourth while he expects me to worship him.

In the beginning when we first started seeing each other he used to always be like "I miss you so much" which would go in one ear and out the other because I knew he was running game. Somewhere along the line I actually started to give him the benefit of the doubt that he might be telling the truth. I know it was when he got bitten by that spider, stood me up, didn't call me for like 2 weeks and I didn't believe him until he actually showed me the humongous hole in his a $ $ . Now I'm back to the point where I don't believe a damn word he says!

Last night was so terrible for me because I feel myself slipping away and I think he knows it. I was just looking at him thinking, "Can't I do better than this? Don't I deserve somebody who will be there for me when I need him and not only when it's convenient for them?" Hell I didn't even want to have sex and that's not me at ALL!

He asked me what I was thinking because I wasn't my usual touchy feely or playful self...I said nothing but then he told me exactly what I was thinking. Normally this would be okay but I don't need somebody in my head like that who really only cares about themself because he has the best advantage to manipulate me. Besides he told me he is going to be doing these state to state seminars again, and when he was doing those, I would see him maybe once or twice a month.

I'm not going through that BS again, but it sucks because I allowed my heart to get involved. Not as much but I am really tired of being single for a while and with him I might as well be! Oh by the way his police report was conveniently left in his car and he conveniently forgot to show it to me this morning. That's okay though because if I remember correctly...Police reports are public records and if it exists...I should be able to track it down.

It also pisses me off that he would insult my intelligence by giving me these inane excuses and I am supposed to accept it? Ha Ha Ha...Whatever!

Cancerlady

U see what i mean,ah boy,CANCER LADY Mwwwwwah we love u ma, keep ur headup. U have many shoulders u can lean on fo support and love. Well das how Pisces do it at times, they would drop hints to show that if u really can see thru their mindgames and lies.
this pisces has took it to da limit,don't worry been thru almost the same thing CANCer lady with a Pisces female. DO not fall for the stories. Even if he states that MONEY would be more important dan ur birthday den he is an a** tell him dis trini say so.Therefore it means MONEY would be more important than u generally. BUt as the old saying goes "What goes around comes around". But why lie?WHYYYYY do some pisces do THAT?They know they'll get caught and feel guilty and play victim,lol.Dat would be fo another post.

"Even if he states that MONEY would be more important dan ur birthday den he is an a** tell him dis trini say so.Therefore it means MONEY would be more important than u generally."

No wonder why Cancer's are always broke. Also, I didnt know that Pisces loses his car everyday. That one may just be a coincidence. It was very unlucky time, because it met Cancerlady's birthday.

Haffo...

It's not about that one time, it's about his need to control everything to HIS convenience. I could understand random bad stuff happening to you, but they always seem to come up at the times that I have something important planned.

Besides, like he said to me (on voicemail when I was ignoring him) "You aren't making me any money...you don't get anything poppin off for me as far as money...Why should I care about your birthday/age?"

Well I feel like he isn't paying my rent...he certainly doesn't ever buy me anything not even a birthday gift, flowers, nothing! So why should I give a F-ck about his $ $ $ ?

Cancerlady

hey CL have you seen him?

Yeah the last two nights in a row...He came over. Of course I STILL haven't seen the police report but he is really sticking to this story.

I haven't caught him in a blatant contradictory lie but if he is, he'll slip up eventually.

He's so cute though... 🙂

CL -

Hey girl - keep ya head up! I know that is is probably cute and all, but you really don't deserve to be treated like that! You already know this so all I can say is follow your heart. Your heart will always tell you if it is right or not. Never listen to your head (you may do something irrational!) we cancers are beings of emotion and that is why I say your heart will lead you in the right direction. I have to say that if you didn't even want to get physical with him . . . your heart is already telling you.

"It's not about that one time, it's about his need to control everything to HIS convenience. " this is how i feel sometimes with mr. libra, so i know where you are coming from. The 20th is my b-day and he said that he was going to get me a gift, but we'll see if he is going to try and play the mr.pisces card! He better not or my pincher is coming out! I guess that sounds bad, like all i care about is a gift but that isn't it at all. If he just shows me some feeling or takes me somewhere to spend some time with me I would enjoy that just as much as a gift. So don't get me wrong i'm not a gold digger, you probably know what I mean.

Anyways - hope you feel better🙂
clvzl!