Want my cancer man back. Anyhow. Please help :-(

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I'd been dating my Cancer man for over a year. We had ups and downs, but were pretty much inseparable. We've been in a long distance, but we're inseparable on the phone when apart, spending each night together on skype, watching movies, shows, soaps etc. We had the most amazing convos, and loved being with each other. In the beginning, when we started coming close to each other, after about two months, he had mixed feelings about me, and told me he wanted to go away for a week, and see if he'd like to come back. I was hurt but let him go. I cut all contact, and he came back ten days later asking me to take him back, and how he was sure, I was the one he wanted to be with. I took him back after alot of drama, and since then we've been together. Somewhere in the middle I caught flirting with some woman, and broke up. He came back, and said I was the one he wanted to marry and settle with, and asked me to forgive him. How it was harmless, and how he couldn't think of living without me. He apologized alot and since then we started making plans of our future. Where we wanted to go in life, and booked our gmat exams, decided to an mba together. Few months ago, we started having some really nasty fights when he disclosed to me things about his past (he slept with hookers after being dumped by his ex gf, and visiting strip clubs for lapdances few times when he was younger). I was broken, because I always saw him as this pure, loving tender man. The fights became nasty, and he cried a few times. I was so intensely hurt, and helpless, but they didn't stop. And in my anger I said bad things to him during the fights. We kept breaking up for a few hours, and then getting back together. Either of us would cry and take the other back, melting with apologies and tears. He started to get fed up, and last week I realized what I had been doing and decided to put a stop to all this fighting since he's the one I loved so much. And let go off his past. Unfortunately, it was too late. Friday night he came home from work very late and tired and was unwell. I had no idea. I started teasing him on texts, he thought it's serious and I am fighting with him, and he shut off his phone and went off. I kept texting him next day and he said he's fed up off the fights and wants to go away. I apologized and cried and begged, and he didn't budge. He said he didnt' love me anymore, and was completely over me. That he had let go off me. I thought he's just mad.
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I tried the entire week last week, and he said he's helpless he feels nothing for me. He doesn't feel physically attracted to me, and I seem like a stranger to him. He said he couldn't remember any happy times and he was totally and completelt done with me. Last night he told me how I turn him off since I've been trying to get him back. So, I was a little hurt and angry. And told him I'm out, I can't try anymore. I'm not that needy about him. He was like, please forgive me for everything. I'm sorry, I don't love you anymore. And I don't even want to because of the fights.

I had bought him a play station last week as a surprise, which would be delivered somewhere in the coming week. So I texted him today, that he would receive it, and he should keep it. He said it's too much, I acted mature, called him and told him it wasn't anything and forget abt it. He said fine. And I texted him saying sorry about chasing him, and it wasn't becayse I'm needy, but because i loved him. He replied saying, i don't have to explain things, and how he knows me, and he thinks of me as the strongest girl on earth. I sent a "Haha, thanks, that's sweet, bye". And he replied with a bye.

I don't want him gone. And I would do anything in my life to make it work with him. Will he ever forgive me and remember the happy times and come back?
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He didn't confess to me. He blurted it out after one fight, when he said he wants me to gone, and FYI he slept with hookers too. And then I told him that it's okay, and I'll never let him go through that again. I let go off it for a week, before feeling low one day and asking him for reassurance about it. He got annoyed and said why am I bringing his past up and told me I am irritating him. The fights happened, I apologized everytime, and I took care off him. In every way possible, except I made the mistake of not forgetting it too soon.

Please don't look at me as an awful person, my love and feeling are genuine, and I want to fix it. Please help me guys. We both loved each other very very deeply. And I don't want to be with someone else.
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Jynja, I did see it. The first time he told me, I broke down and hugged and comforted him. And he was shocked, that I still wanted to be with him. He asked me how I could be so forgiving. It wasn't about then. It was about later. And yes, I did the mistake. I am human. I realized when I saw it hurt him, because I really loved him and his hurt made me hurt too. He was gone before I could make him see I've let go off it.

Please tell me what to do 😢 I've left him alone. But I can't get by two hours without him. He and I were inseparable. We wouldn't go thirty mins without bbming each other. Did everything together. I need to make him forgive me. I realized things late, but I just wants a second chance.
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Leo 😢

Guys, I know I did the mistake of not letting go off his past. But I really cared about him every day. He told me last week too how he felt close to me. The fight on the weekend wasn't even about his past, it was a misunderstanding over text. I did as much as i could to make him happy when were together. leaving love notes, writing poerty, taking care of his meals, and we were indeed very close. His flatmate told me he hasn't eaten properly since he's broken up with me. And I haven't eaten in over a week myself. I can't imagine my life without him. Please help out.

I have let go off him. My happiness is with no one else. If you say I should go away, I will.

Please help me if there is any other way. I repent. And I seek forgiveness. I realized it two weeks ago, and in the last two weeks I have felt nothing but sick as to how I let my own self come first, and not him.
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well I no his piss off ,really bad I been there before where I was piss until I'm at apoint were I can't trust no more. With cancers u have to watch what u say and the hurtful thing u do. The more u beat on them or the deeper the pain the more they go in there shell. Also the longer u leave them in pain the harder for them to recover. There have been damanges made. The best advice I give u is to let the ego go ,go to him and tell him how much u love him and say some of the things u said here . Tell how how u feel . Drop the ego cause cancer are not empress with that. U don't have to beg or plead to him. Just tell him how u love him and why. Its about making him feel safe and love. I do believe his act his ending point. I been there like your cancer.I think his angry feel mistreated he may don't trust u and probably feel a lot of hate against u. And that probably why he said his not attracted to u because your that part u show him was a bad place for him. U told us a lot in the first entry but its a lot I don't no so I can only give u a half ass opinion.
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This is a sad story and I remember you confusedleo... (i think)

A broken trust and confidence is so inexcusable. Especially since you at first were understanding and accepting of his past at FIRST... but turned around and broke that confidence. He showed a part of himself that was so sacred and ashamed... and he probably rejoiced in the fact you still loved him. But to turn around and use that information against him.. repeatedly... ouch

I know you are very apologetic but all people/ sun signs have deal breakers. This is one for a Cancer and I believe the "Switch" has happened. This is beyond a Cancer's choice, it is almost an automatic defense response.
If you cause a hurt that big... the heart will reject you to protect from future pain.

You are not an awful person but even now... you are being selfish and your true nature is on display. You know how your actions have affected him and yet you still want him back because of the way he makes YOU feel. YOU love him, YOU want him, YOU needed reassurance so you felt it was okay to throw someone's personal choices at a low time in their life back at them.

Those choices had nothing to do with you... yet you made them about you.

Begging, crying and pleading is such a huge turn off. You've gone there too.. so that is two major strikes. He has told you that.

The ONLY thing you can do is stop begging, stop sending gifts, stop thinking about yourself and how to get him back.. and respect his wishes. If the love was really there and he has time to heal HIMSELF, cause only he can do that... he may come back but boy oh boy, be prepared for some head games.

Trust is so huge for water signs... I can't even tell you. I remember one time my ex broke a confidence I told him years ago. It was a very small thing... but he knew what my telling him meant. He threw it in my face one time... and I never trusted him again. Never told him anything personal again.

Honestly... that may have been the beginning of the end for us, now that I think about it...
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I'm letting go, and will wait for his return. I know he will come back. If not sooner, then later. I don't care about his mind games, his anger, his everything (He's Venus in Gemini! - How do you think the relationship started in the first place?). I know this time if he comes back, there will be ten times more hard-work. It took me a long time to make him trust me and start loving me. I am willing to bear everything, because I know his value.

I'm leaving him alone, like everybody has been saying. I have cried and cried the entire week. I have cried to him, broken down with him, his heart melted, but then went away again the next day. I've never had ego with him. He was my love, my life partner, and I'm not an immature kid. His worries worried me more than him. I just want his happiness, and if it isn't with me, then it isn't 😢
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Posted by confusedleoo
I'm letting go, and will wait for his return. I know he will come back. If not sooner, then later. I don't care about his mind games, his anger, his everything (He's Venus in Gemini! - How do you think the relationship started in the first place?). I know this time if he comes back, there will be ten times more hard-work. It took me a long time to make him trust me and start loving me. I am willing to bear everything, because I know his value.

I'm leaving him alone, like everybody has been saying. I have cried and cried the entire week. I have cried to him, broken down with him, his heart melted, but then went away again the next day. I've never had ego with him. He was my love, my life partner, and I'm not an immature kid. His worries worried me more than him. I just want his happiness, and if it isn't with me, then it isn't 😢



Lioness, you have to let him come find you to have an honest conversation with him. Right now the more you try the worse it gets. I also sympathise with you on how much it can hurt you to hear a man tell you that he slept with hookers before. In the future, rather than pick fights try to honestly ask/tell your cancer what bothers him/you. It's easy for you to be direct and honest as a leo, stick to your strength and you will be very happy!!
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Posted by shellshocker
This is a sad story and I remember you confusedleo... (i think)

A broken trust and confidence is so inexcusable. Especially since you at first were understanding and accepting of his past at FIRST... but turned around and broke that confidence. He showed a part of himself that was so sacred and ashamed... and he probably rejoiced in the fact you still loved him. But to turn around and use that information against him.. repeatedly... ouch

I know you are very apologetic but all people/ sun signs have deal breakers. This is one for a Cancer and I believe the "Switch" has happened. This is beyond a Cancer's choice, it is almost an automatic defense response.
If you cause a hurt that big... the heart will reject you to protect from future pain.

You are not an awful person but even now... you are being selfish and your true nature is on display. You know how your actions have affected him and yet you still want him back because of the way he makes YOU feel. YOU love him, YOU want him, YOU needed reassurance so you felt it was okay to throw someone's personal choices at a low time in their life back at them.

Those choices had nothing to do with you... yet you made them about you.

Begging, crying and pleading is such a huge turn off. You've gone there too.. so that is two major strikes. He has told you that....

Trust is so huge for water signs... I can't even tell you. I remember one time my ex broke a confidence I told him years ago. It was a very small thing... but he knew what my telling him meant. He threw it in my face one time... and I never trusted him again. Never told him anything personal again.

Honestly... that may have been the beginning of the end for us, now that I think about it...



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Posted by shellshocker


Trust is so huge for water signs... I can't even tell you. I remember one time my ex broke a confidence I told him years ago. It was a very small thing... but he knew what my telling him meant. He threw it in my face one time... and I never trusted him again. Never told him anything personal again.





^^^^This especially needs a second round because some just don't get it....
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On the thing were he said he been with hookers I would have felt weird about that to. Especially when u seen someone a certain way then they say something that make u change how u seen them. He actually did the same to her in away. He said that hes not attracted to her anymore in my opinion its because he seen her act in ways that he didn't like. Not trying to say she not wronge but on the hooker then hell yea I would have felt uncomforable with that. Sleeping with hookers is not a thing u get rewards for.
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I don't know what to say. I feel very low and abandoned. I accept my faults. If he doesn't give our relationship a second chance, then

Yeah, the hookers part was difficult for me. Thing is my dad left my mom three years ago. He had been cheating on her with endless hookers, and then divorced her for one. This happened right after my mom had his third child. My mom almost committed suicide, and has been very lifeless and depressed since, and I've been raising my younger brother. They had a happy loving marriage for eighteen years. The Cancer boy knew all this right from the time we started dating, and he knew how much my parents divorce had destroyed me seeing my mom like that. Which is why I understand why he didn't want to share this information with me. When I found out about him having slept with hookers, "because he wanted the experience and he didn't feel answerable to anyone" (his exact words), the night when he told me, I saw something helpless and tender behind those words and felt so close to him, and terrible about things he went through. But after a few days, my fear returned. I am human!!(Also, he used to get regular lap dances when he was in states for a work project). This was a man who had asked me to marry him a few months ago, and the fate of my mom kept freaking me out, and I ran to him for reassurance (I didn't know what else to do), and he told me I am irritating him. We leos have stupid issues with pride and I'd get hurt and fight with him.

I know this was all his past. I took some time dealing with it. But I wish he'd forgive me. And remember the million times we were happy together. Maybe I made this about me. But I gave him ALOT. He was two timing me when our relationship started, and left the other girl for me two months after being with me. I knew he used to hang out with her, and they would go out for drinks etc. He said she's an old friend, and I didn't want to put conditions. I found out somewhere in the eighth month through another friend and let go. He also left me on New Year day, after promising me on NYE how he couldn't be with anyone else but me. I let him go and sort his head out.

I screwed up. Will he never forgive me!! Should I send a last final apology email in a few days?
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Maybe I made the last post sound like he's the bad guy. He never was. He made some mistakes too. That's all. He was a wonderful caring guy, when I went through tough times. And I was there for him unconditionally when he was jobless and going through a very dark period of his life. He told me how I was the only source of happiness he had during those months, and I gave meaning to his life everyday. We fought for a few months, but I am willing to change for him. And he says he has no love left for me, and isn't attracted to me. Until last week he was feeling close to me. After that overnight he decides it's over, and says he was feeling distant since a month, but never said it.
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Daymm!!! I texted him by mistake. I was texting this other friend to call me, and in a sudden rush i wrote and sent the text to him instead. He instantly called back, and I disconnected, and texted him saying it was a mistake, and he should ignore, it was for this other friend of mine. He replied with a "Hmm". This was a genuine mistake. Sigh. I actually did leave him alone. Now he'll think I was acting a like an immature desperate child playing games.
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Posted by confusedleoo
Daymm!!! I texted him by mistake. I was texting this other friend to call me, and in a sudden rush i wrote and sent the text to him instead. He instantly called back, and I disconnected, and texted him saying it was a mistake, and he should ignore, it was for this other friend of mine. He replied with a "Hmm". This was a genuine mistake. Sigh. I actually did leave him alone. Now he'll think I was acting a like an immature desperate child playing games.



How exactly do you intend to have him back when you hang up on him when he calls....lol. Do you actually believe that hanging up on him is not "immature desperate child playing games"?
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I hung up, cause talking to him would have broken me down. And I can't take his coldness anymore. I have cried for over eight days now, and haven't eaten one proper meal a day. The tears barely stopped yesterday. Hearing again how he doesn't love or want me would destroy me. Just his text saying "Hmm" broke me down for two hours. I'm trying to move on with my life now and distract myself with work. I'll wait for him to come back, if he wants to.
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He was two timing me when our relationship started, and left the other girl for me two months after being with me. I knew he used to hang out with her, and they would go out for drinks etc. He said she's an old friend, and I didn't want to put conditions. I found out somewhere in the eighth month through another friend and let go. He also left me on New Year day, after promising me on NYE how he couldn't be with anyone else but me. I let him go and sort his head out.

For some reason you're caught up in making excuses for his bad behavior, you can't see that you've become so desperate to have this guy in your life that you've lost all of your self respect. He knows he can treat you however he wants, because you have always allowed it.

And he says he has no love left for me, and isn't attracted to me. Until last week he was feeling close to me. After that overnight he decides it's over, and says he was feeling distant since a month, but never said it.

This makes perfect sense to me, but for some reason this has come as a surprise?! My intention isn't to be harsh, I just think you need perspective. Put yourself in his position, you say you were inseparable at one time so you know how he thinks. For him to throw it in your face that he slept with hookers in the midst of a fight says a lot. Right? I mean if he truly knew what your mother just went through, that was intentionally supposed to hurt you to your core. You fight dirty too. What kinds of awful things were you saying to him to make him cry?! I don't actually want to know, but I think you should think about these things. Would you want to be with someone who is constantly fighting and attacking you? And for you, do you really want to be with someone who says intentionally hurtful things to make you feel insecure? Just concentrate on how you're coming across, it seems obvious you are turning him off. The only way I see you having a second chance, is to leave him alone. And if you make the mistake of texting him, answer the phone if he calls you, it looks worse this way.
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Daymm!!! I texted him by mistake. I was texting this other friend to call me, and in a sudden rush i wrote and sent the text to him instead. He instantly called back, and I disconnected, and texted him saying it was a mistake, and he should ignore, it was for this other friend of mine. He replied with a "Hmm". This was a genuine mistake. Sigh. I actually did leave him alone. Now he'll think I was acting a like an immature desperate child playing games.



Maybe you meant to send it to him just to get a reaction?!! Just saying.
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I really didn't. I was texting this other friend and was on a call at the same time talking abt him, in my disturbed absent minded state selected his number instead without realizing. It was such a split second thing. The message was "What's up, call me when free". And I didn't realize, until two seconds later his name started flashing on the phone. I instantly realized what a blunder, panicked and disconnected, and sent him a text saying, "Shit. Please ignore. Sent you by mistake. Wasn't a ruse, was texting Sam".

I really don't feel like going after him anymore. I yearn and long for him, but I will not disrespect myself any further for him. I'm just caught between this whole conflict, where I fluctuate between thinking everything was my fault and I deserved this, or he's a jerk who's dumped me.

Anyway. I've thought a lot about everything. I know he's over me. I just wish this text thing didn't happen today. I had resolved to disappear from his life until he returns, if ever. Anyway, I'm still going to do that. If he loved me, he'll miss me and return. If not, then there's nothing to cry about anyway.
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Moonbunny,

As sweet as those words sound to my ear, how I wish that was the case. He has told me as clear as possible over and over again that he wants me gone. Last night I was online on gtalk, and he came online for a split second. And one minute later he was missing from my chat list (meaning he not just blocked me, but also deleted me from his contact list). If he misses me or longs for me, he has made up his mind he doesn't want me. I have to face this. It has been three days since I've heard/spoken to him.

And this was a man around whom my life revolved. We talked all day, until he slept off and from when I woke up. We've had dinner together each night and talked daily for hours and hours giving each other hourly updates of what we're upto. We lost all our friends, family etc. I cried to him endlessly last week to not end us, but he was stoic and cold. He told me he doesn't feel anything and it's all empty. He said it in all honesty, saying he tried to feel for me, but it's blank, he's let go off me after our last fight and he's never coming back. He said he's forgotten me, and I should too.

The loneliness I feel cannot be described in words. Last night I slept in his T-shirt hugging his picture. I have to move on. He isn't coming back. Or if he is, it will be far in the future, if he doesn't find someone else soon.
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I hope you can help me understand my Cancer man...............


OK here goes, met this guy (Cancer) great chemistry, etc., sweet nothings etc., then he told me he did'nt think it would work out between us .............. I was very upset at this outcome as I assumed that we had gelled quite well he told me he had never been drawn to or liked someone so instantly as he had with me I was one of the most likeable, interesting people he had ever met ........... confusing signals. We had had sex (which was entirely against my own rules) but hey ho so double whammy for me. So I am now not only hurt but feeling quite cheap as well!!



Couple of days later he contacts me by text to ask if I am OK - I said GREAT how are you?? He said he had the blues but did'nt want to talk about it ........ would I like contact I said OK however I kept the conversation on a 'friendzone' level as did he - however as I liked him so much my feelings were developing even more over this period of time.
More confusion - he called me everyday - he responded to my text within seconds - however I was concerned he was just stringing me (he is a loner) and I was just someone to talk to. After much introspection and during our telephone conversation I said to him ' I don't know what it is you want from me' ............... he said he did'nt know either he is confused ........... and did'nt want to hurt me again - so I told him I could'nt be his friend, which upset him as he said he loves talking to me but I felt strong enough to say that I was'nt prepared to hang around whilst he sought 'clarity' as I valued myself too much and I had other offers on the table and he was holding me in a place. Finished the call by saying I maybe would call him when I was next in town !!

Few days later feeling sad and sorry 'AGAIN' I texted him to said I missed him terribly and I hoped he was OK ?? ........... he responded by saying he was missing me too but he was so stressed he can't think straight (workload) and probably would be like this until he returns from his business trip which is couple of weeks away - he finished text by saying he Hoped I was OK ??

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Does this behaviour sound familiar - is this guy just stringing me along or is he behaving like a typical Cancerian
What should I do

We now have tentative texting as he was so strung out - and he has offered me his flat whilst he is away on business and we are to meet up !!!

I'm wracked with anxiety as I want the relationship to move forward but don't know how to play this very confusing situation.
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Maybe I missed it in my skimming...but why is no one talking about the "he said he is not attracted to me physically?"

Ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm


I have a feeling there is something going on here that we are not being told.

1. Do you give him money?
2. Is he really attractive, perhaps more than you are use to?
3. How do you feel about the way you look.

I personally think you might have some self esteem issues. You seem like you need to just be by yourself for a while. If I did not know your username I would not believe you were a Leo.

What is really going on? This is so not about this Cancer man. This is about you.
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No. I am financially better off than him, but he earns well and enough and spent on me. Would take care off my bills on and off, and would buy me things all the time, flowers this that. He used to call me a "s-e-x goddess" for about 11 months of our relationship, telling me how I obsessively turn him on. The fights killed it. Plus his whole past with hookers etc killed our bedroom life, as I physically distanced from him a little after I found out. When he told me he doesn't physically get attracted, I asked him is it becayse i'm not beautiful or smthn, he's like ofcourse not, "you are so beautiful, something is wrong with my head.". He said he felt disconnected. The first two days when I was trying to bring him back, he told me he'd go to his office washroom and sit and look at my pictures to try feel something, but he felt nothing. He's just over me. That's all I make off this whole thing.

Also, I'd bought him a PS3 two weeks ago, which got delivered tdy. He wanted one for months and months, and I bought myself a new phone abt ten days back and thought I should get him smthn too. It was supposed to be a surprise, but I told him about it once he and broke up, just so he doesn't think I've done it as a bribe after our break up. He told me to cancel, but I told him it doesn't matter, now it's already done, and it really wasn't such a big deal. He recieved it today. He didn't even text to say thanks, or acknowledge he's recieved it. What do I make of that? Is he even more turned off by me? Or he's planning to return it back to me??
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Is there anything at all that suggests that he may ever come back for me? I'm not a needy girl (contrary to how I behaved in the end with him), and can happily let him go and sort his head out for months. I'm understanding my mistakes, and have no grudges or anger against him. Except I feel very sad today that he didn't even send me a message out of courtesy that he recieved the ps3. But I guess he has his reasons to hate me. I still love him a great deal, and I hope he finds his happiness even if it is with someone else.

I just need to know if he may come back for me? He did love me alot, and I want to make it upto him. Maybe he did stop loving him/maybe he was too hurt and shut me out. Does anything indicate he might return? Or he is just going to move on?
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This is totally a case of (I hate that I'm going to say this, hate, hate hate). He's just not that into you.

There is no rhyme or reason. He's not getting the feeling he's searching for from you.
He gets all the correct separate feelings (you're beautiful. you turn him on. you give him love), but not the total package feeling (that je ne sais quoi that is the difference between caring for someone and being head over heels in love with them).

I wouldn't hold my breath for him to return to you. And if he does, I would seriously question getting involved again, unless it's evident that he is feeling the total package feeling.
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deezie
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19 Years1,000+ PostsPisces

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Ok. I'm just saying what I'm seeing.
There are striking similarities to a situation I was in (down to the gift, with no gratitude part), when I was mid 20's.

You'd know best. But you're looking for opinions yes?

Things weigh heavy on him. Clearly. I'm not going to tell you that translates into "he loves you and he'll be back".
Sorry. And I fully accept that I may be entirely wrong. Just my opinion.
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Nala
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13 Years1,000+ PostsLeo

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So let me get this straight. He buys you flowers and you buy him a playstation. He earns well but he wants this playstation for months and months and you buy it because you bought yourself a phone.

He did not call to say thank you.

Do you think he might be using you? Only you know the answer and you don't have to share it with us.. but I beg of you...To thy own self be true.

He said to your face that he is not attracted to you but yet he accepts a $ 300 gift from you. Does this seems like a class act to you? Again this goes back to your self esteem issue. I personally think you ought to thank your lucky stars and walk away now. You will be right back here in 3 months with the same issue.

His behavior and his words mirror each other. There is no contradiction here. If you are attractive and here is the most important part (you believe you are)then find someone who deserves you because it sounds like he does not.
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confusedleoo
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14 Years

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He just messaged telling me how thankful he is for the PS3. He just got it now, I thought he'd have received it yesterday. He didn't use for momoney guys. I'm not a na??ve dumbass girl. I'm the one in the wrong here, inspite of how it ended. I didn't treat him right and he left me. Simple. I want to make things right but he doesn't want me anymore. I wish he'd give us one chance. I wish he'd miss me just a little and come back once 😢
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krebbsmann
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13 Years500+ Posts

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@confusedleo

HE IS NOT THAT INTO YOU!!!! and if he cums back he ll use u physically to satisfy his needs. now before jynja gets on with her claws on my back :p leave him....he's looking for something more emotionally fullfilling and that for us cancer men is more than beauty! so leave the poor guy alone...he already has his past to haunt him everyday of his life! and improve your self esteem... one advice i like to give to all leo women!🙂 all the best! happy diwali!
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confusedleoo
@confusedleoo
14 Years

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@krebbsmann

X: I'll battle it out with my parents.
X: I'll build the trust you wanted.
X: I won't leave this lovely girl.
X: I can't.
X: The more you push the more I flip. But I hesitate. Because you're not a random usual girl.
X: Because you're special.
X: Because I love you. In a not so easily tangible way.
X: I am sorry I destroyed you today.
X: Please please don't hold it against me.
X: I'll come to your city. We'll start our life there.
X: I mean it.
X: I want to be with you. Only you.
X: No other girl has made me feel special and no other girl meant so much to me like you.
X: Please print this convo and paste it somewhere. Coz if I flip again this will be my pledge that should deter me.
X: I love you.

He wrote this last month on chat when we patched up after a fight. Was he not into me?