VaCapri
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Hi there fellow capricorn women!
Any advise would be appreciated, thank you for time to read and reply to this for those who will .
1. That's so cute, glad it worked out for the point of years. Two kiddos and seemed great.
2. Yeah everyone changes probably 5-7 years.
3. You're not married and you can do the proper thing of just separating and saying that you want other things I suppose, at least no cheating going on physically.
4. Yes there was emotionally cheating and you liked the feeling because you and your current bff haven't been up to speed.
5. You have kids and must focus on them and yourself, and communicate but be honest with each other.
6. Could you leave to find your own place, do you make enough to support you, bills, and kiddos?
7. Just be honest that's all anyone can ask for. You know sometimes kihaving kid zaps the life out of each other where are the embers?
8. My mom and dad split after 13 years. And stayed in it to wait for my brother's to be a certain age before splitting and separating. The divorce took along time. My dad had a gff by then. My mom well she stayed single and had to pay the debt off my dad did her dirty with.
9. Good luck you know make sure this other guy knows too what's going on.
2. Yeah everyone changes probably 5-7 years.
3. You're not married and you can do the proper thing of just separating and saying that you want other things I suppose, at least no cheating going on physically.
4. Yes there was emotionally cheating and you liked the feeling because you and your current bff haven't been up to speed.
5. You have kids and must focus on them and yourself, and communicate but be honest with each other.
6. Could you leave to find your own place, do you make enough to support you, bills, and kiddos?
7. Just be honest that's all anyone can ask for. You know sometimes kihaving kid zaps the life out of each other where are the embers?
8. My mom and dad split after 13 years. And stayed in it to wait for my brother's to be a certain age before splitting and separating. The divorce took along time. My dad had a gff by then. My mom well she stayed single and had to pay the debt off my dad did her dirty with.
9. Good luck you know make sure this other guy knows too what's going on.
10. After said and done you can do whatever you want after. Including not really being in another relationship after so many years, so it might just be for fun and no harm in that either.as long as the kids are taking care of.
First, I just have to say. Please, please, please use sentences. And please use paragraphs. It makes your post hard to read and hard to follow when you don't. If it's hard to read, most people on here won't even bother reading it. So if you break it down for easier reading, you'll get more help.
Now. Why haven't you and the Pisces ever gotten married? I kind of feel like if he hasn't married you by now, then he's not going to. So, that's a thought to consider before thinking about another man. What I mean is, you should look at it as in why are your feelings dulled? Why aren't you married? Why has another man turned your head? Only you can determine what has gone wrong. Relationships have ups and downs. Is this just a down or is this a permanent problem? Do you still love the Pisces or are you with him for convenience?
Caps need stability and consistency and security. For me, living with a man, having children with a man that doesn't want to marry me, would give me thoughts to ponder. (I wouldn't have lived with him unless he was willing to get married, but that's my own personal belief and values - not judging, just explaining why I picked up on this). Unless you don't believe in marriage...then, that's different.
Does the Pisces know you're not feeling the passion and has he had a chance to correct that? It's hard giving up a relationship, but you need to really look into that relationship first before you should contemplate another one.
That said, sometimes we're with the wrong people. It may not have anything to do with this Cancer man. I think it's more of an internal struggle within you.
So, before making any forward progress with the Cancer, you really need to examine your relationship with the Pisces. Deeply, analytically, and thoroughly. Find out the why's.
Caps and cancers have a good repertoire, so I can see how this one just turned your head. Examine is it this man specifically or something else that has you attracted to him.
I guess, what I'm trying to say is really, really look withing yourself and really know your motivations before you do anything impulsively or foolishly. will you feelings about the Cancer pass quickly or are they deep and permanent?
Just know yourself before you make a move.
Now. Why haven't you and the Pisces ever gotten married? I kind of feel like if he hasn't married you by now, then he's not going to. So, that's a thought to consider before thinking about another man. What I mean is, you should look at it as in why are your feelings dulled? Why aren't you married? Why has another man turned your head? Only you can determine what has gone wrong. Relationships have ups and downs. Is this just a down or is this a permanent problem? Do you still love the Pisces or are you with him for convenience?
Caps need stability and consistency and security. For me, living with a man, having children with a man that doesn't want to marry me, would give me thoughts to ponder. (I wouldn't have lived with him unless he was willing to get married, but that's my own personal belief and values - not judging, just explaining why I picked up on this). Unless you don't believe in marriage...then, that's different.
Does the Pisces know you're not feeling the passion and has he had a chance to correct that? It's hard giving up a relationship, but you need to really look into that relationship first before you should contemplate another one.
That said, sometimes we're with the wrong people. It may not have anything to do with this Cancer man. I think it's more of an internal struggle within you.
So, before making any forward progress with the Cancer, you really need to examine your relationship with the Pisces. Deeply, analytically, and thoroughly. Find out the why's.
Caps and cancers have a good repertoire, so I can see how this one just turned your head. Examine is it this man specifically or something else that has you attracted to him.
I guess, what I'm trying to say is really, really look withing yourself and really know your motivations before you do anything impulsively or foolishly. will you feelings about the Cancer pass quickly or are they deep and permanent?
Just know yourself before you make a move.
And don't deny yourself happiness either.
Can you find it again with the Pisces or is it too far gone?
There are no guarantees you will find it with the Cancer either.
So, if you leave the pisces, don't leave just for what you feel for the Cancer. Leave because it's truly over with the Pisces.
Can you find it again with the Pisces or is it too far gone?
There are no guarantees you will find it with the Cancer either.
So, if you leave the pisces, don't leave just for what you feel for the Cancer. Leave because it's truly over with the Pisces.
The good news, as I see it, is that what you describe sounds more like infatuation than love. Maybe you're just bored within your realationship and needed an energy injection...which is what the cancer provides you with.
Whatever it is, I think you owe it to yourself, your partner and your kids to try really hard to work things out in your current relationship. Try to do things together - have fun! If it's not possible to salvage(doesn't seem like there is something specifically wrong with your partnership, so the word salvage may sound a little harsh), then at least you know you have done all you can do - no regrets. I would try to distance myself from the cancer during that time as much as possible.
Then, if it doesn't work with the pisces, leave him and try with the cancer.
The fact that you aren't married is not such a bid deal for me, as long as the relationship is secure, emotionally and financially(so that you're all secure in the case of a separation).
All the best!🙂
Whatever it is, I think you owe it to yourself, your partner and your kids to try really hard to work things out in your current relationship. Try to do things together - have fun! If it's not possible to salvage(doesn't seem like there is something specifically wrong with your partnership, so the word salvage may sound a little harsh), then at least you know you have done all you can do - no regrets. I would try to distance myself from the cancer during that time as much as possible.
Then, if it doesn't work with the pisces, leave him and try with the cancer.
The fact that you aren't married is not such a bid deal for me, as long as the relationship is secure, emotionally and financially(so that you're all secure in the case of a separation).
All the best!🙂
the 7 year itch?
if you ever felt as excited for the pisces in the beginning of your relationship then i urge you engage your rational mind - do you really think the grass is greener a few years down the road with the cancer? it's human nature to get less passionate about older relationship but the grass is only as green as we keep it.
if you ever felt as excited for the pisces in the beginning of your relationship then i urge you engage your rational mind - do you really think the grass is greener a few years down the road with the cancer? it's human nature to get less passionate about older relationship but the grass is only as green as we keep it.
does it hurt to think about how hurt the pisces will be when you walk away for anther man? if you don't care about that at all then yes please walk away for his sake.
if you are really at a cross road, you may just have to come clean and have a heart-to-heart talk with the pisces. let him know that despite how bad you feel your heart is drifting away. i hope the picture will become more clear after the talk.
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if you are really at a cross road, you may just have to come clean and have a heart-to-heart talk with the pisces. let him know that despite how bad you feel your heart is drifting away. i hope the picture will become more clear after the talk.
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if you are really at a cross road, you may just have to come clean and have a heart-to-heart talk with the pisces. let him know that despite how bad you feel your heart is drifting away. i hope the picture will become more clear after the talk.click to expand
Posted by iCloud9Posted by _it's because i am paranoid about signing up for sites like dxpnet so i created many emails i don't normally use just to sign up and i would lose keep track of them lol. the username helps me remember which email lol. there you go. there is nothing cool about the username except 9 is my lucky # lolPosted by iCloud9why did you choosed icloud9 as a nickname ?
if you are really at a cross road, you may just have to come clean and have a heart-to-heart talk with the pisces. let him know that despite how bad you feel your heart is drifting away. i hope the picture will become more clear after the talk.click to expand
thats actually a good idea
Thanks for all the comments, appreciate all the different angles taken. It's been over a year scince my partner changed, we had many talks, but he just doesn't seem to care anymore, he seems to be comftable with himself and who he is, with what he has, he prob doesn't understand that this behavior of his pushes me away, he's opposite of the man i loved in the first place, the only good thing i now see in him is that he loves hi's kids and he's not a bad person, but other than that, i couldn't say anything more about him, where before i couldn't stop talking about him ,saying how proud i'm of him, i don't know what changed him so much, but he doesn't want to get better, he's comftable where he is, thats why i think i might have to consider leaving, i'm not saying i'm atm, but considering.
@icloud9 yup, it hurts, but i'm more concerned about my children than him, he's not the same person, and knowing that pisces partner for so long, i could say he might just start saying alot things like you did, to make me stay, hi's manipulitive nature to put himself in a place of a victim had me for years, when he wants something he simply pretends he can't do it, he can't control it , he makes himself victim rather than accepting responcibility, time to time i ground him, but he keeps drifting, i know hi's games, and if i will leave they will not work on me, as sad or as hard it would be ....i don't want to live in this relationship or get married to this person and live my life miserable , just for the kids, no happyness for myself. no things to do, to follow, thats not what i want...i don't know if this would work out with cancer, i would like it to work, but now i'm starting to undestand one thing, that cancer might be the thing i needed ,a kick to get out of this relationship before it gets to marriage, i think i would be better of without him than i'm with him now, the only concerns i have is for children, i care about him and i want what's best for him to, but that doesn't mean i have to sacrifice my own happyness to make him happy, for person who i don't even love anymore. I'll figure this out, thank you guys for your time!
@icloud9 yup, it hurts, but i'm more concerned about my children than him, he's not the same person, and knowing that pisces partner for so long, i could say he might just start saying alot things like you did, to make me stay, hi's manipulitive nature to put himself in a place of a victim had me for years, when he wants something he simply pretends he can't do it, he can't control it , he makes himself victim rather than accepting responcibility, time to time i ground him, but he keeps drifting, i know hi's games, and if i will leave they will not work on me, as sad or as hard it would be ....i don't want to live in this relationship or get married to this person and live my life miserable , just for the kids, no happyness for myself. no things to do, to follow, thats not what i want...i don't know if this would work out with cancer, i would like it to work, but now i'm starting to undestand one thing, that cancer might be the thing i needed ,a kick to get out of this relationship before it gets to marriage, i think i would be better of without him than i'm with him now, the only concerns i have is for children, i care about him and i want what's best for him to, but that doesn't mean i have to sacrifice my own happyness to make him happy, for person who i don't even love anymore. I'll figure this out, thank you guys for your time!
Thanks for all the comments, appreciate all the different angles taken. It's been over a year scince my partner changed, we had many talks, but he just doesn't seem to care anymore, he seems to be comftable with himself and who he is, with what he has, he prob doesn't understand that this behavior of his pushes me away, he's opposite of the man i loved in the first place, the only good thing i now see in him is that he loves hi's kids and he's not a bad person, but other than that, i couldn't say anything more about him, where before i couldn't stop talking about him ,saying how proud i'm of him, i don't know what changed him so much, but he doesn't want to get better, he's comftable where he is, thats why i think i might have to consider leaving, i'm not saying i'm atm, but considering.
@icloud9 yup, it hurts, but i'm more concerned about my children than him, he's not the same person, and knowing that pisces partner for so long, i could say he might just start saying alot things like you did, to make me stay, hi's manipulitive nature to put himself in a place of a victim had me for years, when he wants something he simply pretends he can't do it, he can't control it , he makes himself victim rather than accepting responcibility, time to time i ground him, but he keeps drifting, i know hi's games, and if i will leave they will not work on me, as sad or as hard it would be ....i don't want to live in this relationship or get married to this person and live my life miserable , just for the kids, no happyness for myself. no things to do, to follow, thats not what i want...i don't know if this would work out with cancer, i would like it to work, but now i'm starting to undestand one thing, that cancer might be the thing i needed ,a kick to get out of this relationship before it gets to marriage, i think i would be better of without him than i'm with him now, the only concerns i have is for children, i care about him and i want what's best for him to, but that doesn't mean i have to sacrifice my own happyness to make him happy, for person who i don't even love anymore. I'll figure this out, thank you guys for your time!
@icloud9 yup, it hurts, but i'm more concerned about my children than him, he's not the same person, and knowing that pisces partner for so long, i could say he might just start saying alot things like you did, to make me stay, hi's manipulitive nature to put himself in a place of a victim had me for years, when he wants something he simply pretends he can't do it, he can't control it , he makes himself victim rather than accepting responcibility, time to time i ground him, but he keeps drifting, i know hi's games, and if i will leave they will not work on me, as sad or as hard it would be ....i don't want to live in this relationship or get married to this person and live my life miserable , just for the kids, no happyness for myself. no things to do, to follow, thats not what i want...i don't know if this would work out with cancer, i would like it to work, but now i'm starting to undestand one thing, that cancer might be the thing i needed ,a kick to get out of this relationship before it gets to marriage, i think i would be better of without him than i'm with him now, the only concerns i have is for children, i care about him and i want what's best for him to, but that doesn't mean i have to sacrifice my own happyness to make him happy, for person who i don't even love anymore. I'll figure this out, thank you guys for your time!
Thanks for all the comments, appreciate all the different angles taken. It's been over a year scince my partner changed, we had many talks, but he just doesn't seem to care anymore, he seems to be comftable with himself and who he is, with what he has, he prob doesn't understand that this behavior of his pushes me away, he's opposite of the man i loved in the first place, the only good thing i now see in him is that he loves hi's kids and he's not a bad person, but other than that, i couldn't say anything more about him, where before i couldn't stop talking about him ,saying how proud i'm of him, i don't know what changed him so much, but he doesn't want to get better, he's comftable where he is, thats why i think i might have to consider leaving, i'm not saying i'm atm, but considering.
@icloud9 yup, it hurts, but i'm more concerned about my children than him, he's not the same person, and knowing that pisces partner for so long, i could say he might just start saying alot things like you did, to make me stay, hi's manipulitive nature to put himself in a place of a victim had me for years, when he wants something he simply pretends he can't do it, he can't control it , he makes himself victim rather than accepting responcibility, time to time i ground him, but he keeps drifting, i know hi's games, and if i will leave they will not work on me, as sad or as hard it would be ....i don't want to live in this relationship or get married to this person and live my life miserable , just for the kids, no happyness for myself. no things to do, to follow, thats not what i want...i don't know if this would work out with cancer, i would like it to work, but now i'm starting to undestand one thing, that cancer might be the thing i needed ,a kick to get out of this relationship before it gets to marriage, i think i would be better of without him than i'm with him now, the only concerns i have is for children, i care about him and i want what's best for him to, but that doesn't mean i have to sacrifice my own happyness to make him happy, for person who i don't even love anymore. I'll figure this out, thank you guys for your time!
@icloud9 yup, it hurts, but i'm more concerned about my children than him, he's not the same person, and knowing that pisces partner for so long, i could say he might just start saying alot things like you did, to make me stay, hi's manipulitive nature to put himself in a place of a victim had me for years, when he wants something he simply pretends he can't do it, he can't control it , he makes himself victim rather than accepting responcibility, time to time i ground him, but he keeps drifting, i know hi's games, and if i will leave they will not work on me, as sad or as hard it would be ....i don't want to live in this relationship or get married to this person and live my life miserable , just for the kids, no happyness for myself. no things to do, to follow, thats not what i want...i don't know if this would work out with cancer, i would like it to work, but now i'm starting to undestand one thing, that cancer might be the thing i needed ,a kick to get out of this relationship before it gets to marriage, i think i would be better of without him than i'm with him now, the only concerns i have is for children, i care about him and i want what's best for him to, but that doesn't mean i have to sacrifice my own happyness to make him happy, for person who i don't even love anymore. I'll figure this out, thank you guys for your time!
Thanks for all the comments, appreciate all the different angles taken. It's been over a year scince my partner changed, we had many talks, but he just doesn't seem to care anymore, he seems to be comftable with himself and who he is, with what he has, he prob doesn't understand that this behavior of his pushes me away, he's opposite of the man i loved in the first place, the only good thing i now see in him is that he loves hi's kids and he's not a bad person, but other than that, i couldn't say anything more about him, where before i couldn't stop talking about him ,saying how proud i'm of him, i don't know what changed him so much, but he doesn't want to get better, he's comftable where he is, thats why i think i might have to consider leaving, i'm not saying i'm atm, but considering.
@icloud9 yup, it hurts, but i'm more concerned about my children than him, he's not the same person, and knowing that pisces partner for so long, i could say he might just start saying alot things like you did, to make me stay, hi's manipulitive nature to put himself in a place of a victim had me for years, when he wants something he simply pretends he can't do it, he can't control it , he makes himself victim rather than accepting responcibility, time to time i ground him, but he keeps drifting, i know hi's games, and if i will leave they will not work on me, as sad or as hard it would be ....i don't want to live in this relationship or get married to this person and live my life miserable , just for the kids, no happyness for myself. no things to do, to follow, thats not what i want...i don't know if this would work out with cancer, i would like it to work, but now i'm starting to undestand one thing, that cancer might be the thing i needed ,a kick to get out of this relationship before it gets to marriage, i think i would be better of without him than i'm with him now, the only concerns i have is for children, i care about him and i want what's best for him to, but that doesn't mean i have to sacrifice my own happyness to make him happy, for person who i don't even love anymore. I'll figure this out, thank you guys for your time!
@icloud9 yup, it hurts, but i'm more concerned about my children than him, he's not the same person, and knowing that pisces partner for so long, i could say he might just start saying alot things like you did, to make me stay, hi's manipulitive nature to put himself in a place of a victim had me for years, when he wants something he simply pretends he can't do it, he can't control it , he makes himself victim rather than accepting responcibility, time to time i ground him, but he keeps drifting, i know hi's games, and if i will leave they will not work on me, as sad or as hard it would be ....i don't want to live in this relationship or get married to this person and live my life miserable , just for the kids, no happyness for myself. no things to do, to follow, thats not what i want...i don't know if this would work out with cancer, i would like it to work, but now i'm starting to undestand one thing, that cancer might be the thing i needed ,a kick to get out of this relationship before it gets to marriage, i think i would be better of without him than i'm with him now, the only concerns i have is for children, i care about him and i want what's best for him to, but that doesn't mean i have to sacrifice my own happyness to make him happy, for person who i don't even love anymore. I'll figure this out, thank you guys for your time!
You say you had many talks - how clear and to the point were you?
I had talks with my ex husband for about 1,5 years before I filed for divorce, but it wasn't until then that he really got it. I thought I was being clear, but thinking back, I feel I could possibly have been even clearer.
Not saying you are not being clear, just really be sure the pisces gets the message, so that you can really do something about it before it's too late. Remember, he might not want to get the message...making it so much harder for you to get through to him.
I had talks with my ex husband for about 1,5 years before I filed for divorce, but it wasn't until then that he really got it. I thought I was being clear, but thinking back, I feel I could possibly have been even clearer.
Not saying you are not being clear, just really be sure the pisces gets the message, so that you can really do something about it before it's too late. Remember, he might not want to get the message...making it so much harder for you to get through to him.
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I have a realy good relationship with my boyfriend, we have been together for 8years, not yet married, have 2 kids, 6 yr old other one is 2yrs old, Pisces is the father of my children, we both had our ups and downs, can't rly complain much about the relationship, he's great father, provides for family and everything, but everythin seems way less now, back in the day he tried more, he was more passionate, he had more dreams, seems like the feelings that i felt for him back in the first 2-3years get dulled each year, i got used to the disapearing pisces trait, he does that from time to time, i know he's a good person, he's father of my children, and the person i have spent 8years with, but now where the trouble comes in.Around 6month's ago a new guy came in my workplace, at first he seemed kind of childish to me, but later on when i got to know him, he seemed like a realy good person, with goals, dreams, he works hard, has a good sense of humour, he makes me smile every time i see him i feel happy, something inside me feels reborn, the more we talk the more i feel like i can open up to him, he inspires me by his talk and actions, the scary thing is, i know he likes me, and i feel the same way, i feel like i love this person, this feeling is stronger then it was with pisces even in the start,i value each minute i spend with him, but i'm afraid even to admit it to him or even to myself, i feel terible about myself that i have a man that i have been in a relationship for 8years, but somehow i started to feel for this cancer guy, i don't want any judgment because i never acted on that love for a cancer guy, we laugh, we have a good time, but that's it, and i don't know what to do now, i feel like i'm cheating on my partner ,at the same time i feel like i'm cheating on myself because i'm denying what i feel for this cancer, i don't know what to do right now, im confused and i'm geting into depression state little by litte, my partner even noticed that i'm somehow different.Am i horrible person to fall inlove with another person while having a partner?I havn't acted upon it, but somehow im just ashamed of myself, never been in this position , what advise could any of you give to me? i'm searching for a solution for this, the thing i'm most afraid is starting a new relationship and risking all of these 8years go to waste if that relationship wouldn't last, i'm afraid that my children wouldn't understand, i also don't want to hurt my partner, but as the same time i feel like when i don't tell him the truth i'm building a world of lies around him, and thats not the world i want to live in. I could reject that cancer guy, because i'm a strong woman and i can control myself, but it's a first time that someone made me feel so good,alive,i feel like he awakened something in me that i didn't think i had before.