Cortica

Uh hum, Cortica girl, where are you? You're a bit perturbed, what's going on my dear?

hello hello 🤢gt;

Not perturbed, just emerging from the great void of exam preparation!!!

I finished my last exam today (YAY!) which was on ideological displacement in Vietnam War films, so, for what seems like an eternity, I've been locked away in a dark room watching every possible war film you can think of. i get in this weird 'assignment mode' where I really think it's best that i avoid social interaction - all manic and silly.

Unfortunately, in combination with sleep deprivation and an immersion in the world of the combat genre, I've found myself inadvertently re-enacting scenes from films at highly inappropriate moments - the other day i was in the public toilets at uni and i thought there was nobody else there and just before I flushed i had this urge to yell 'Fire in the hole!!' (like i'd just thrown a grenade into a tunnel) and then I burst out of the cubicle doors. In what was possibly THE most embarrassing moment of my life, one of my lecturers from another subject was standing at the mirror doing her hair.

After that, I thought it was best that I remove myself from any situation where i might start babbling about panzer tanks and the importance of killing a deer with one shot.

Whenever someone has said hello, how are you going? I'm unable to stop myself from doing an impersonation of the sniper woman at the end of full metal jacket who's laying on the ground whispering 'shoot me...shoot me' - I don't actually lay on the ground, but I'm told my Vietnamese accent is fairly poor.

AAARRRGGHHH!!! I'm babbling again!! Can't...stop....my thoughts...from travelling through my fingers and onto the page....

Oh god - i think it's time for sleep!!!

Thanks for noticing I was AWOL - I mean absent - the board has seemed a little fragmented allround as of late and i think it's getting harder to keep track of people - how have you been lately?
How's your self-reflective crisis going? Have you been able to find direction within the great big fog of confusion?

LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL..I hear ya!

LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yeah, ive been in an exam hole too. Infact, i am still in it. I shouldn't even be on this board, but its my allocated break for the day. Suppose id better go. I get in these exam/assignment things (holes) too. Its really weird, its like you lose touch with reality. I dont want to talk to anyone, i dont want to see anyone. All i want to do is go to work and study. Im glad someone understands.

My self-reflective crisis is always going, lol, but im trying to sort it out by practising integrity. I figure, that until i have some REAL time to sit down and think, without having to study (you know what i mean), that i won't be able to sort it out as best i know how. Anyway, integrity is a good start.

I'd better go, i feel guilty for not studying.

Speak to you soon,
Martine.