So ive recently been feeling very eerie...Heres why, im pretty much a textbook gemini, absorbed by everything around me, and sparking interesting conversation with so many different types of people in different places. Then I met this girl...The physical attraction hit both of us hard, but unfortunately capricorns are VERY DIFFERENT indeed to myself and people alike. Shes drop dead gorgeous and just about the sweetest thing ever, but the more i got to know her, the more i started to envy her :/ for a classic gem like me seeing someone plan their life, set goals, have great achievements, and do it all with an understated style was eye opening. She definitely does not think anywhere near the broad and diverse level i do, but still i grew envious. Shes a graduated charted accountant and laywer, her paintings are highly valued, shes a top rated ballerina...the list goes on. She achieves anything she sets her mind to, and work is in her nature, so success comes therefore undoubtedly. The worst part is shes extremely mature almost all of the time. I feel somewhat ''powerless" now. I love life, i strive to experience something new everyday because the spontaneous surge of new knowledge drives me. As nice as this all sounds, what am i actually achieving by floating around like this? I Make people laugh alot and make them aware of lesser known important subjects on life. What does this mean? To feel somewhat satisfied with never knowing whats gonna happen to me at any time of day. And more importantly what does it achieve? eventually ill die, knowing that i found fulfilment in just learning a little bit of everything under sun while acting half my age most of the time makes me feel a little a little small and unimportant to myself. While the girl i met had a plan for herself looong ago and is going on to achieve whatever she wants. Shes essentially making her dreams come true. I dont even have any dreams that arent wild fantasies. im a successful author, I write incredible novels ill tell you that and ive made more than enough money, but stories just come naturally to my head, it doesn't feel like much effort when i write, but it feels like an achievement when i finish a writing a novel. Is this normal of me to feel jealous of how driven she is, how hard she works, her vision for herself, her i can work my way through anything attitude? Dont us geminis have our own unique form of dreams and vision for ourselves that can unlock a more serious side of us, or are we really content with following the wind to new situations forever? sorry for this jibber jabber, im a little stoned (; so just rambling now. anyone have any form of input for me? professional or novice is really doesn't matter. im very unused to this
