Running from feelings

starting to reflect after my relationship with the pisces has ended, and i am begining to notice why i acted the ways i did, and all of the problems i see came from me running from my feelings and not even knowing it. i remember DG coining this term sometime before and i didnt quite understand it, i dont know if its a gemini thing, but deep down ive come to terms that im terrified of the emotions that i feel, and even of emotions that i dont feel and think i should feel. i guess this is part of the gem male growing process. . its scary.

how i would operate is that i would start to feel even the slightest emotion, and my mind would kick in and take over and make me a totally different person, it would tell me how i feel and ive come to realize that it is hard for me( or my mind) to realize how i feel, and that it would argue internally with my heart and logically determine why i dont feel this and that, and even convince myself that i dont feel this way. my mood when i am this way is especially grumpy, angry, and i dont like myself when i amlike it, which is why i am trying to come to terms with how i feel. this use to be a way of life for me, and i used to not think anything of it when i did it but now i see. i sometimes compare it to things i learned when reading about abhraham lincoln because he was the same way, also an INTP.

can i hide from them? for a time, and i know when im doing it now subconciously and i still do it sometimes, but when i am alone they start to catch up with me. the longer i run the worse i get, and the harder it is to accept. thanks for the understanding and support earthy 🙂

Do you by any chance have any aquarius in you? Because I do the same!! I run away from emotions that I feel for someone or have the potential of feeling for someone. The moment they start to affect me, as in I start to feel strongly for them, I withdraw. I pull the famous aqua disappearing act because I fear becoming co-dependent on that person.

Posted by anearthygemini
You see, one thing I'm trying to get a good sense of is, if you are telling your heart what your feeling, if your mind is that strong, was your mind ever truly aware of what your heart was feeling. Did your mind ever figure out your heart? Feelings change and can be unpredictable. It's not easy to keep track of feelings.

when i go through these things, there was always a voice in me that begged me not to take an action based on what my mind was telling me that i feel or dont feel, and it was always there but my emotions and thoughts were too loud for me to heed it, gradually, i have listened to that voice and after i calmed down i realize that those thoughts,anxieties and worries are not how i truly feel, and that i just have severe expectation problems along with other insecurities. i think too much, as she would put it. its nice to know people care, i appreciate it all 😄

hi westside! you have been missed! 🙂 what i see is that you are growing. and, to see that you are learning this about yourself at such an early age, makes me smile. 🙂 like Earthy says, it is normal. but, i didn't learn this until my 30's! big, GIANT hugs to you!!!

"...and even of emotions that i dont feel and think i should feel."

I can relate to this. I have an Aries moon and Aqua venus. The things I think I should feel, I don't. As far as running from feelings.....I used to do this when I was younger. Then I learned that by doing that, I was limiting myself and all I could experience. How was I to know what type of person what good for me, if I never gave that person a fair chance?

As I have grown older, I am more mature with my feelings and emotions, I just learn to express them in different ways. It's fun to experience those feelings IMO, because I have a lot of fun and I learn something new about myself and others every day.

Im gem sun with aqau ascendant...

And i in someway run from feelings,its because something the other one said or done to make me question my feelings.
I dont trust people.I dont believe in love forever.Feelings are heavy to carry.I feel the best when im single.
And i really dont have the longing to live with someone,i love living on my own doing what the fuck i want.

I got my first kid when i was 19 and second one when i where 21,i stayed with their dad,a leo for about 12 years.Im now 30 and kicked him to the curb couple of months ago because i met so many others,i wasnt true to him.
So now i just want to enjoy life freely.Ive played the family game,and boy does it SUCK!!!!
Families make me puke,they rarely are as happy as they seem.

Free love is the way i want to go =) tears of love wont make me stay.
And its almost terrifying how fast i get over people,i stay depressed for about a week and then im over it for good.

Taurus moon here

I run all the time, then i always get caught. ALWAYS. guess we all can't hide forever. So now i'm simply embracing those and being much more mindful...exploring my emotional core and understanding what i can or cannot reveal and when i can.

Gems and those water signs...ugh. They are wayyyy too emotional IMO. *sigh* and I have all this water in my chart:

sun: gemini
ascendant: cancer
moon: libra
merc: taurus
venus: cancer
mars: taurus
jupiter: taurus
sat: pisces
uran: virgo
nep: scorpio
pluto: virgo
lilith: sag
asc node: cancer


I think all the water in my chart (Cancer) makes me so emotional--at the wrong times! And while the earth in my chart makes me an organized person earth puts a damper on the fun the Gemini in me wants to have. And that Libra moon is not helping me one bit, lol! All the water and earth = mud. *sigh*

alot of stuff from everyone, and i appreciate it all. thank you again for the advice elusive, it is the same pisces that i made a post about on the pisces forum, since then i have dug myself into a whole by not doing what i know i shouldve done, and telling her how i feel and contacting, and now i must slowly dig my way out of this whole ive dug. getting better tho. i think there is alot of stuff that was said that i can learn much from and still have not yet figured out yet, and i appreciate it all.