I am 24 years old and have tried working for eight years despite me having an Auditory Processing Disorder and ADD. This only affects my ability to cognitively function fully. It affects my attention span, short term memory, my ability to process and hold information I hear. This has caused me a lot of anxiety on the job which affects my work performance. I have had at least eleven jobs these past eight years but most of them only lasted short term for a few weeks or few months except for one that lasted two years because I had Vocational Rehabilitation Services before while working part time. I was living on my own for years since I've graduated high school but have been homeless off and on because I can't gain stable income. I am now staying with my grandparents because I am seperated going through a divorce. My grandmother is forcing me to apply for disibility but I don't know if I want it because I know SSI can be a long process and I can't bear staying with family much longer. My family is not supporting my idea to work or go to get vocational training, to gain new skills, or get Vocational Services again and everyone refuses to help me. No one is on my side or is willing to hear me out. Most of my family are control freaks, dominating and overbearing. I can't make any decisions on my own regarding my life or think for myself while staying with my grandmother if I try to she gets angry or offensive. My grandmother forces me to eat meat and other meat products sometimes when I'm a vegetarian. I can't pick out any of my clothes or wear my hair the way I want. She forces ideas, opinions and hobbies upon me that I don't like. All I want is to be my own person and live an independent life. I have been depressed months now and I feel more worthless overtime because I have no income no ability to go anywhere but stay in a dark room like I have nothing to live for. I'm isolated from everyone I know including my friends and other family because my grandparents stay in a town now far from the city with no access to other transportation unless my grandparents can take me somewhere. I feel that I am dependent on my grandparents and family financially but I don't want to feel that way. It makes me uncomfortable. I have a four year old son who is depending on me and it makes me feel worse.
