I F**KED UP AGAIN :-(

As the title says, I f**ked up again.. Whats wrong with me. I got this good guy and I keep f**king up.

I called him twice wednesday, he didnt pick up or call back. he texted me yesterday, I called him and we kind of got in to an argument, because I was like "I bet you were with another girl".. he got so angry over this, and said, why do you think im cheating on you bla bla. dont punish me for the mistakes of an x... I feel like you are trying to control me, i dont like it, i dont feel the need to call you everyday bla bla..

and he is right.. Im just so in love, and so afraid of losing him that I act like an idiot, really...

at the end of our conversation he said, "after this phone call and you accusing me, i dont feel the same about you, i dont like this side of you. I dont like you anymore" wow, that hurt.. But i guess i deserve it.

Did his feelings really change over this argument, or is he just mad? 😢

I asked him, do you never wanna see me again, and he said i dont wanna answer that question.. we had a date saturday - today, and he said, the way im feeling right now, i dont wanna see you tomorrow.

I can see that its my fault, so i texted him today saying "im sorry for the way i reacted yesterday, i have been thinking about what you said, and you were right. i dont like that side about my self either, i really wanna change, and i promise it wont happend again." he havent answered yet.. been 5 hours... maybe he never will.. I dont know.
maybe he needs some time to think it through..

I recently found out that he is a leo-virgo cusp, i really dont know what that means, his birthday is 21. august...

Im really embarrassed to come to this forum, and writing this, because I know its my fault, and that I act weird sometimes...

what do you think?

btw.. i didnt even know we were in a relationship, he said "if you do this so early in the relationship, how will you react in 2 or 3 months"...

sorry for my english, Im not so good.

thank You... Im 24 and he is 28

You said you fucked up again .. key word is again

It's seems very easy for you to say it's your fault and apologize ... so easy in fact that it appears insincere .....


It appears to me that you think that just because you say the, "I'm sorry" words, that it gives you a license to fuck up ..... again.

You said 'again'



Once is forgiveable ...... so long as you are truly sorry and aware .... but the moment you do it again, then your words of express regret become null and void.


In reading this, I didn't pick up on anything that even resembled remorse on your part ... only empty words. I'd be willing to bet that it's not only this guy who can see your colors ... all of your relationships have likely followed suit .. because it's the one I see you're wearing in this thread

@TOC .. no but i think i have scorpio mercury, must have the same effect 😢



@P-angel.. no I dont think because i say sorry i can f**ck up again at all. Yes I think i f**cked up AGAIN, but this is the first time i am accusing him of something out of the blue. and I am very sorry... Cant even stop thinking about it.

Same topic again—

I just left my idea on Leo board.....it might help...🙂

I think the big picture here is...you two are clearly not on the same page...not even the same chapter...or same book.
Regardless if you're immature, insecure, jealous, over-reactive, paranoid, whatever.

He can't give you what you need/want.

@brianafay.., he called me last Night.., He wanna meet up and talk about it.. so i dont know, i Think at least we are Reading the same book :-P