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Understanding Your Astrology and Its Impact on Dating Confidence
Your Leo sun and Cancer moon can make you feel nervous and shy around potential partners. It is common to experience insecurities and overthink interactions. Recognizing these traits can help you manage nerves and communicate more comfortably, leading to more genuine connections and less self-criticism in dating situations.
Idk but when I feel like I messed up I just go silent to make them feel insecure about the interaction too 🤣 now we both feel weird and they need to fix it
he also mentioned showing me around his hometown and hanging out with his friends. but in texts, doesn't really say much or anything. is this just politeness?
i told him he always seemed mysterious to me.
it's been hours but i still feel like throwing up from the nerves. i think leo will prob be on the mysterious 12th house for me. he seems so comfortable with me me while i'm just chaos inside my head around him. i can't even remember being this nervous in a long time 😫😫
Is this the slipknot guy or something? Why do you care about it, he is a human too. Maybe even boring and dumb.
Idk. Leos usually like outgoing women, but can be attracted to shyness too. I think he should be aware of that. Not a bad thing.
Just wait and bleed. Jk!
Wait and see, soon you will know. He'll call you in no time if interested. Tho not sure about that cancer moon.
Slipknot 😂
No wonder she’s nervous
I’d be bricking it 😆
Just wait until he text you. And try not to be so shy next time 🙂
i just felt like i couldn't contribute much to the convos plus he insisted on paying for everything and those were very expensive places. usually, i always pay for half but he just won't let me and he knew the staff coz he lived there before so i just felt even more embarrassed the whole time coz i've put up a fight over it for a few mins. i'd feel less embarrassed if i contribute to like one thing at least.
Leo men don’t do well with the rejection. He probably feels a bit awkward and unsure. Like why didn’t you kiss him passionately? 😛
Movie wasn’t a bad choice
You method acting as an aspie was the culprit.
i'm not always this excessively neurotic but i've never dated anyone this much older than me and now i know that it makes me feel insecure. i feel like i was just always at the receiving end and like some kinda smooch/user.
this makes me so uncomfortable but i really want him. i just don't know how to express it. he hugged me during the movie and i can't even look at him and it was DARK. i felt like crying at home coz i feel so embarrassed.
This seems like every Virgo date I went on. Except for the one I ruined myself 😆
Virgo ... the shy sign 😊
Gurl....lol....didn't I tell you to chill? 😂 that Leo is so confused right now.
Leo men like to pay for shit so don't feel bad. And no he is not going to let you pay.
This is making me wonder about all my Virgo interactions in the past where I thought he was acting fucking weird AF and now I'm wondering if it is because he was being shy 😂
This seems like every Virgo date I went on. Except for the one I ruined myself 😆
Virgo ... the shy sign 😊
My Virgo rising makes me seem shy but I'm mostly avoidant, efficient and selective
The girls I dated were definitely not shy either lol but they do entertain a good date at the beginning and spaz out at the end.
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“spaz out”
😂
Idk but when I feel like I messed up I just go silent to make them feel insecure about the interaction too 🤣 now we both feel weird and they need to fix it
Lol this why I have trust issues lol
Old people don’t like texting format unless it’s to rant about stolen elections on the Facebook.
So don’t stress about the lack of texting. See if he’s gonna ask you out again.
Yeah. Vape some cbd with a low dose of thc if any while hanging out with him. I'd say take a valium, but he might be determined to get you drunk. Maybe you should just drink with him or turn up already a little buzzed lol. What relaxes you?
i told him i just humiliate myself when i drink and some traumatic incident from my early 20s with alcohol. so he said he smoked some stuff a lot and he'd bring me to the mountains to smoke with his friends if i wanted. and something about amsterdam and my schedule. he asked about my sched like he wants us on vacation every weekend. and i zoned out, never answering coz the idea of hanging out with his friends makes me even more nervous. hell he talks to me without his mask on while i forget to take off mine most times. imagine how much i'd cling to him if he was the only one i knew there 😭😭
Idk but when I feel like I messed up I just go silent to make them feel insecure about the interaction too 🤣 now we both feel weird and they need to fix it
How is it working so far?
Idk but when I feel like I messed up I just go silent to make them feel insecure about the interaction too 🤣 now we both feel weird and they need to fix it
Good tactic 😂😂😂, will remember.
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I thought you need to take advices about relationship from people who are successful in relationship.
Leo men don’t do well with the rejection. He probably feels a bit awkward and unsure. Like why didn’t you kiss him passionately? 😛
He didn’t want her to throw up all over him 🤷♀️
Movie wasn’t a bad choice
You method acting as an aspie was the culprit.
i'm not always this excessively neurotic but i've never dated anyone this much older than me and now i know that it makes me feel insecure. i feel like i was just always at the receiving end and like some kinda smooch/user.
this makes me so uncomfortable but i really want him. i just don't know how to express it. he hugged me during the movie and i can't even look at him and it was DARK. i felt like crying at home coz i feel so embarrassed.
Leo suns are understanding people, even with people who don’t communicate their issues.
My Leo friend dated this bipolar Pisces moon chick who wasn’t worth the trouble, yet he took pity on her because her wealthy parents pretty much disowned her. She would throw flowers he got her on the highway, run out of restaurants, yell at his family, etc. All unprovoked. She felt she could Dempsey roll him like that because he was a genuine gentleman to her.
My advice to you is don’t take advantage of his patience because of your own shortcomings. Leave your Winnie the Pooh plushie at home and put on your big girl pants.
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Great post!
And as I was happy that finally somebody made a smart post - here OP is shitting her baby diaper again (down below):
the idea of hanging out with his friends makes me even more nervous
🙄🤦♀️👻
Do you compliment him ever? Or does your shyness keep you from giving compliments?
Just relax Virgal. Leo men can be very funny and flamboyant. Boyish and charming. My ex Leo was that way. Just relax, they are not judging you as much as you judge yourself.
Be very present, you may just end up enjoying yourself very much
Do you compliment him ever? Or does your shyness keep you from giving compliments?
i tell him that it's impressive how he's done different kinds of work and how amazingly shocked i am that he thinks of his band as just some hobby lol
when he brought me to that place, it's like everywhere he pointed he was somehow involved in. he is super extroverted. i told him he lived so much life 😎😎
Do you compliment him ever? Or does your shyness keep you from giving compliments?
i tell him that it's impressive how he's done different kinds of work and how amazingly shocked i am that he thinks of his band as just some hobby lol
when he brought me to that place, it's like everywhere he pointed he was somehow involved in. he is super extroverted. i told him he lived so much life 😎😎
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Do you focus on anything other than his music? What else does he do?
Do you compliment him ever? Or does your shyness keep you from giving compliments?
i tell him that it's impressive how he's done different kinds of work and how amazingly shocked i am that he thinks of his band as just some hobby lol
when he brought me to that place, it's like everywhere he pointed he was somehow involved in. he is super extroverted. i told him he lived so much life 😎😎
Do you focus on anything other than his music? What else does he do?
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yeah he was casted in theater too for a musical, he's also worked in some hospital records place for couple years, he's taught ice skating to kids on his off days and a lot of artistic pieces he helped in creating hangs all over that part of the city we went to.
Movie wasn’t a bad choice
You method acting as an aspie was the culprit.
i'm not always this excessively neurotic but i've never dated anyone this much older than me and now i know that it makes me feel insecure. i feel like i was just always at the receiving end and like some kinda smooch/user.
this makes me so uncomfortable but i really want him. i just don't know how to express it. he hugged me during the movie and i can't even look at him and it was DARK. i felt like crying at home coz i feel so embarrassed.
Leo suns are understanding people, even with people who don’t communicate their issues.
My Leo friend dated this bipolar Pisces moon chick who wasn’t worth the trouble, yet he took pity on her because her wealthy parents pretty much disowned her. She would throw flowers he got her on the highway, run out of restaurants, yell at his family, etc. All unprovoked. She felt she could Dempsey roll him like that because he was a genuine gentleman to her.
My advice to you is don’t take advantage of his patience because of your own shortcomings. Leave your Winnie the Pooh plushie at home and put on your big girl pants.
Great post!
And as I was happy that finally somebody made a smart post - here OP is shitting her baby diaper again (down below):
the idea of hanging out with his friends makes me even more nervous
🙄🤦♀️👻
Shut up Gemilongtitties
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Dumbass!
I am telling you she is beyond beyond…but you said right thing and if she missed it - the end is near. Unless of course man wants a young piece of ass…
Do you compliment him ever? Or does your shyness keep you from giving compliments?
i tell him that it's impressive how he's done different kinds of work and how amazingly shocked i am that he thinks of his band as just some hobby lol
when he brought me to that place, it's like everywhere he pointed he was somehow involved in. he is super extroverted. i told him he lived so much life 😎😎
Do you focus on anything other than his music? What else does he do?
yeah he was casted in theater too for a musical, he's also worked in some hospital records place for couple years, he's taught ice skating to kids on his off days and a lot of artistic pieces he helped in creating hangs all over that part of the city we went to.
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He is an extrovert Leo with a capital *L*
😂
As opposed to a woman talking incessantly, before grabbing someone’s cock and ending the first date with what will be a ONS….I think you behaved admirably!
Also, it takes two to have meaningful conversations or to break the ice…a man of his age should know how to initiate anything or make yourself feel comfortable in his presence….don’t blame yourself for what is his failure as well.
Joey jordison died last year dude
it's not him but they've played together before.
plus joey a taurus i think.
As opposed to a woman talking incessantly, before grabbing someone’s cock and ending the first date with what will be a ONS….I think you behaved admirably!
Also, it takes two to have meaningful conversations or to break the ice…a man of his age should know how to initiate anything or make yourself feel comfortable in his presence….don’t blame yourself for what is his failure as well.
we've held hands. but i can see he's been online a couple times on and off now but still no reply to any of my usual messages. hasn't even opened them from what i can see- maybe intentionally avoiding them.
maybe he wanted more, like he was offended that i didn't get drinks with him. maybe he's used to not being turned down for anything. or maybe i was just too awkward that he felt he didn't like me anymore. oh well i messed it up but nothing i can do about it.
As opposed to a woman talking incessantly, before grabbing someone’s cock and ending the first date with what will be a ONS….I think you behaved admirably!
Also, it takes two to have meaningful conversations or to break the ice…a man of his age should know how to initiate anything or make yourself feel comfortable in his presence….don’t blame yourself for what is his failure as well.
we've held hands. but i can see he's been online a couple times on and off now but still no reply to any of my usual messages. hasn't even opened them from what i can see- maybe intentionally avoiding them.
maybe he wanted more, like he was offended that i didn't get drinks with him. maybe he's used to not being turned down for anything. or maybe i was just too awkward that he felt he didn't like me anymore. oh well i messed it up but nothing i can do about it.
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You don’t know that. Let’s say you went for drinks, got drunk quickly (like a true Asian), then took a taxi to his place for drunken sex. Next morning, he ignored your messages. Would this scenario make you feel better?
As opposed to a woman talking incessantly, before grabbing someone’s cock and ending the first date with what will be a ONS….I think you behaved admirably!
Also, it takes two to have meaningful conversations or to break the ice…a man of his age should know how to initiate anything or make yourself feel comfortable in his presence….don’t blame yourself for what is his failure as well.
we've held hands. but i can see he's been online a couple times on and off now but still no reply to any of my usual messages. hasn't even opened them from what i can see- maybe intentionally avoiding them.
maybe he wanted more, like he was offended that i didn't get drinks with him. maybe he's used to not being turned down for anything. or maybe i was just too awkward that he felt he didn't like me anymore. oh well i messed it up but nothing i can do about it.
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Leo’s who don’t pursue you, is a bad sign. Usually when they want you, you’ll know. You are facing the icy Leo now and it is not pleasant after so much hot pursue. If he wants you, he will come again. If not, that’s it. Maybe his pride and ego is wounded, who knows.
But yeah, if he wants it, he’ll come and get it!
As opposed to a woman talking incessantly, before grabbing someone’s cock and ending the first date with what will be a ONS….I think you behaved admirably!
Also, it takes two to have meaningful conversations or to break the ice…a man of his age should know how to initiate anything or make yourself feel comfortable in his presence….don’t blame yourself for what is his failure as well.
we've held hands. but i can see he's been online a couple times on and off now but still no reply to any of my usual messages. hasn't even opened them from what i can see- maybe intentionally avoiding them.
maybe he wanted more, like he was offended that i didn't get drinks with him. maybe he's used to not being turned down for anything. or maybe i was just too awkward that he felt he didn't like me anymore. oh well i messed it up but nothing i can do about it.
You don’t know that. Let’s say you went for drinks, got drunk quickly (like a true Asian), then took a taxi to his place for drunken sex. Next morning, he ignored your messages. Would this scenario make you feel better?
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i'm not good with my drinks. and my driving is just as bad. i used to have a driver in the past coz i used to park anywhere and fall asleep on the wheel.
the place he chose was halfway between us. but i thought he really liked me 😢
As opposed to a woman talking incessantly, before grabbing someone’s cock and ending the first date with what will be a ONS….I think you behaved admirably!
Also, it takes two to have meaningful conversations or to break the ice…a man of his age should know how to initiate anything or make yourself feel comfortable in his presence….don’t blame yourself for what is his failure as well.
we've held hands. but i can see he's been online a couple times on and off now but still no reply to any of my usual messages. hasn't even opened them from what i can see- maybe intentionally avoiding them.
maybe he wanted more, like he was offended that i didn't get drinks with him. maybe he's used to not being turned down for anything. or maybe i was just too awkward that he felt he didn't like me anymore. oh well i messed it up but nothing i can do about it.
Leo’s who don’t pursue you, is a bad sign. Usually when they want you, you’ll know. You are facing the icy Leo now and it is not pleasant after so much hot pursue. If he wants you, he will come again. If not, that’s it. Maybe his pride and ego is wounded, who knows.
But yeah, if he wants it, he’ll come and get it!
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leos are so crushable. a leo pursued me once before too. really handsome guy too and super generous. they both liked sending pics of themselves and where they were a lot of times. but i'm rarely like that. i don't take pics of myself when i order a drink out. very rarely would it even crossed my mind.
when i sent him pics of my workplace, he even thanked me lol. this a similar experience i have with aries men minus the pics. i feel like it's too high-maintenance for me. i've usually dealt with quieter dudes but i really wanna get away from that now. too much mind games.
As opposed to a woman talking incessantly, before grabbing someone’s cock and ending the first date with what will be a ONS….I think you behaved admirably!
Also, it takes two to have meaningful conversations or to break the ice…a man of his age should know how to initiate anything or make yourself feel comfortable in his presence….don’t blame yourself for what is his failure as well.
we've held hands. but i can see he's been online a couple times on and off now but still no reply to any of my usual messages. hasn't even opened them from what i can see- maybe intentionally avoiding them.
maybe he wanted more, like he was offended that i didn't get drinks with him. maybe he's used to not being turned down for anything. or maybe i was just too awkward that he felt he didn't like me anymore. oh well i messed it up but nothing i can do about it.
You don’t know that. Let’s say you went for drinks, got drunk quickly (like a true Asian), then took a taxi to his place for drunken sex. Next morning, he ignored your messages. Would this scenario make you feel better?
i'm not good with my drinks. and my driving is just as bad. i used to have a driver in the past coz i used to park anywhere and fall asleep on the wheel.
the place he chose was halfway between us. but i thought he really liked me 😢
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Oh yes! I remember your ex wanting to borrow (or claim?) your chauffeur! Congrats to becoming more independent and driving yourself.
Yeah, feeling rejected after one date sucks for a few days. Never happened to me but I really wish it did….would have wasted less time and dated someone more compatible or enthusiastic 😀
so this leo sun/cancer moon brought me to this place he hasn't been to in 10 years and he did most of the talking. we had dinner, coffee and watched a movie. but i felt so awkward, nervous and shy that i can barely look at him. i remember conversing in return about astrology, my rabbit, our planned beach trip and thailand trip. i must've looked really uninterested like always 😭😭 he didn't seem deterred yet at the end of the movie, he asked if maybe we can get drinks? in a panic, i quickly said: "not really." but if he wanted to then maybe but i quickly excused myself coz i felt like throwing up from the nerves. he walked me to my car, gave him a quick peck supposedly on the cheek but he turned his mouth and i all but ran to my car wtf is that thing i do. like why do i exist just to suffer? i felt so embarrassed and awkward.
and my phone was dead so i got to text him only after i got home. i said i had a pleasant night and asked him if he got home safe too. then a little lol at how he always stays up until 3am coz i'm lame at flirting wtf is that thing i do. his only reply was: "got home safe too."
and that's it he's still online and nothing 😭😭 you gotta understand that i felt a bit insecure coz he's a kinda famous musician and much older that i just kinda built the panic in my head 😭😭 but then he used to say this about our texts to each other: "it's okay to have this comfortable silence sometimes too." this was when i felt apologetic coz i felt boring and like i wasn't texting him enough.
OP gives me very unsettling, messy, impatient, etc. energy. Very uncomfortable. I gotta go.
As opposed to a woman talking incessantly, before grabbing someone’s cock and ending the first date with what will be a ONS….I think you behaved admirably!
Also, it takes two to have meaningful conversations or to break the ice…a man of his age should know how to initiate anything or make yourself feel comfortable in his presence….don’t blame yourself for what is his failure as well.
we've held hands. but i can see he's been online a couple times on and off now but still no reply to any of my usual messages. hasn't even opened them from what i can see- maybe intentionally avoiding them.
maybe he wanted more, like he was offended that i didn't get drinks with him. maybe he's used to not being turned down for anything. or maybe i was just too awkward that he felt he didn't like me anymore. oh well i messed it up but nothing i can do about it.
You don’t know that. Let’s say you went for drinks, got drunk quickly (like a true Asian), then took a taxi to his place for drunken sex. Next morning, he ignored your messages. Would this scenario make you feel better?
i'm not good with my drinks. and my driving is just as bad. i used to have a driver in the past coz i used to park anywhere and fall asleep on the wheel.
the place he chose was halfway between us. but i thought he really liked me 😢
Oh yes! I remember your ex wanting to borrow (or claim?) your chauffeur! Congrats to becoming more independent and driving yourself.
Yeah, feeling rejected after one date sucks for a few days. Never happened to me but I really wish it did….would have wasted less time and dated someone more compatible or enthusiastic 😀
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fire sign men seem so child-like too like it's so cute.
he dragged me to a drugstore to look for a blood testing kit. and gleefully told me that if we had the same blood type, we can drink red wine together for health benefits 😂😂
he was talking about it like a kid in a candy store. it was adorable 😍😍
the one time i dated someone cool and it's over 😭😭
As opposed to a woman talking incessantly, before grabbing someone’s cock and ending the first date with what will be a ONS….I think you behaved admirably!
Also, it takes two to have meaningful conversations or to break the ice…a man of his age should know how to initiate anything or make yourself feel comfortable in his presence….don’t blame yourself for what is his failure as well.
we've held hands. but i can see he's been online a couple times on and off now but still no reply to any of my usual messages. hasn't even opened them from what i can see- maybe intentionally avoiding them.
maybe he wanted more, like he was offended that i didn't get drinks with him. maybe he's used to not being turned down for anything. or maybe i was just too awkward that he felt he didn't like me anymore. oh well i messed it up but nothing i can do about it.
You don’t know that. Let’s say you went for drinks, got drunk quickly (like a true Asian), then took a taxi to his place for drunken sex. Next morning, he ignored your messages. Would this scenario make you feel better?
i'm not good with my drinks. and my driving is just as bad. i used to have a driver in the past coz i used to park anywhere and fall asleep on the wheel.
the place he chose was halfway between us. but i thought he really liked me 😢
Oh yes! I remember your ex wanting to borrow (or claim?) your chauffeur! Congrats to becoming more independent and driving yourself.
Yeah, feeling rejected after one date sucks for a few days. Never happened to me but I really wish it did….would have wasted less time and dated someone more compatible or enthusiastic 😀
fire sign men seem so child-like too like it's so cute.
he dragged me to a drugstore to look for a drug testing kit. and gleefully told me that if we had the same blood type, we can drink red wine together for health benefits 😂😂
he was talking about it like a kid in a candy store. it was adorable 😍😍
the one time i dated someone cool and it's over 😭😭
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Was that an alcohol tolerance patch test? He’s looking for a drink partner 😂
As opposed to a woman talking incessantly, before grabbing someone’s cock and ending the first date with what will be a ONS….I think you behaved admirably!
Also, it takes two to have meaningful conversations or to break the ice…a man of his age should know how to initiate anything or make yourself feel comfortable in his presence….don’t blame yourself for what is his failure as well.
we've held hands. but i can see he's been online a couple times on and off now but still no reply to any of my usual messages. hasn't even opened them from what i can see- maybe intentionally avoiding them.
maybe he wanted more, like he was offended that i didn't get drinks with him. maybe he's used to not being turned down for anything. or maybe i was just too awkward that he felt he didn't like me anymore. oh well i messed it up but nothing i can do about it.
You don’t know that. Let’s say you went for drinks, got drunk quickly (like a true Asian), then took a taxi to his place for drunken sex. Next morning, he ignored your messages. Would this scenario make you feel better?
i'm not good with my drinks. and my driving is just as bad. i used to have a driver in the past coz i used to park anywhere and fall asleep on the wheel.
the place he chose was halfway between us. but i thought he really liked me 😢
Oh yes! I remember your ex wanting to borrow (or claim?) your chauffeur! Congrats to becoming more independent and driving yourself.
Yeah, feeling rejected after one date sucks for a few days. Never happened to me but I really wish it did….would have wasted less time and dated someone more compatible or enthusiastic 😀
fire sign men seem so child-like too like it's so cute.
he dragged me to a drugstore to look for a drug testing kit. and gleefully told me that if we had the same blood type, we can drink red wine together for health benefits 😂😂
he was talking about it like a kid in a candy store. it was adorable 😍😍
the one time i dated someone cool and it's over 😭😭
Was that an alcohol tolerance patch test? He’s looking for a drink partner 😂
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is that what it is? 🤔🤔
he said it's a blood testing kit but unfortunately, they weren't selling it in that specific drugstore.
i just thought it was some weird goth thing with the blood lol. he centers his whole nutritional plan around his blood type.
As opposed to a woman talking incessantly, before grabbing someone’s cock and ending the first date with what will be a ONS….I think you behaved admirably!
Also, it takes two to have meaningful conversations or to break the ice…a man of his age should know how to initiate anything or make yourself feel comfortable in his presence….don’t blame yourself for what is his failure as well.
we've held hands. but i can see he's been online a couple times on and off now but still no reply to any of my usual messages. hasn't even opened them from what i can see- maybe intentionally avoiding them.
maybe he wanted more, like he was offended that i didn't get drinks with him. maybe he's used to not being turned down for anything. or maybe i was just too awkward that he felt he didn't like me anymore. oh well i messed it up but nothing i can do about it.
You don’t know that. Let’s say you went for drinks, got drunk quickly (like a true Asian), then took a taxi to his place for drunken sex. Next morning, he ignored your messages. Would this scenario make you feel better?
i'm not good with my drinks. and my driving is just as bad. i used to have a driver in the past coz i used to park anywhere and fall asleep on the wheel.
the place he chose was halfway between us. but i thought he really liked me 😢
Oh yes! I remember your ex wanting to borrow (or claim?) your chauffeur! Congrats to becoming more independent and driving yourself.
Yeah, feeling rejected after one date sucks for a few days. Never happened to me but I really wish it did….would have wasted less time and dated someone more compatible or enthusiastic 😀
fire sign men seem so child-like too like it's so cute.
he dragged me to a drugstore to look for a drug testing kit. and gleefully told me that if we had the same blood type, we can drink red wine together for health benefits 😂😂
he was talking about it like a kid in a candy store. it was adorable 😍😍
the one time i dated someone cool and it's over 😭😭
Was that an alcohol tolerance patch test? He’s looking for a drink partner 😂
is that what it is? 🤔🤔
he said it's a blood testing kit but unfortunately, they weren't selling it in that specific drugstore.
i just thought it was some weird goth thing with the blood lol. he centers his whole nutritional plan around his blood type.
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You should have said you use something much more predictive than blood type....astrological placements! 😄
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so this leo sun/cancer moon brought me to this place he hasn't been to in 10 years and he did most of the talking. we had dinner, coffee and watched a movie. but i felt so awkward, nervous and shy that i can barely look at him. i remember conversing in return about astrology, my rabbit, our planned beach trip and thailand trip. i must've looked really uninterested like always 😭😭 he didn't seem deterred yet at the end of the movie, he asked if maybe we can get drinks? in a panic, i quickly said: "not really." but if he wanted to then maybe but i quickly excused myself coz i felt like throwing up from the nerves. he walked me to my car, gave him a quick peck supposedly on the cheek but he turned his mouth and i all but ran to my car wtf is that thing i do. like why do i exist just to suffer? i felt so embarrassed and awkward.
and my phone was dead so i got to text him only after i got home. i said i had a pleasant night and asked him if he got home safe too. then a little lol at how he always stays up until 3am coz i'm lame at flirting wtf is that thing i do. his only reply was: "got home safe too."
and that's it he's still online and nothing 😭😭 you gotta understand that i felt a bit insecure coz he's a kinda famous musician and much older that i just kinda built the panic in my head 😭😭 but then he used to say this about our texts to each other: "it's okay to have this comfortable silence sometimes too." this was when i felt apologetic coz i felt boring and like i wasn't texting him enough.