Ive been hiding

so im going to overthink this as usual. so here's the deal.

long story short, im sitting in the Aries bathroom on top of the sink. He is straddling me and feeding me bong hits. the door is closed and were being silly and intimate at the same time. he's half naked and the intensity between us is soo thick i can hardly breathe. i wrap my legs around him and bring him in closer.

he feeds me a hit and i choke. as my eyes are watering from the laughter and choking. he says to me "where you been at?" i was startled because i had decided that i didnt want to dwell on the past. but before i could say a word he utters "you been hiding?!" i said yes. actually. he wants to know what im hiding from. how im always welcome. how he wants to come around more. mmmmm its hard to explain but the nervousness in his voice was sexy to me. he doesnt talk about his feelings. it was so intimate of an experience for me. such a close proximity, no where to run. he was raw and childlike. it was almost as if he was reaching out to me. but he knows im shy. we non-verbally finish the conversation. in no way did i feel like he was trying to play me.

the rest, ya know.

but the truth is, i have been hiding from him. hiding from the fact that i am about to lose control with him.

i looked up our composite and it shows alot of 8th house action. sun moon and mercury all in the 8th house. cancer rising.

i think at first, he was uncomfortable with the plutonian energy but after a month or so, he is starting to become more comfortable.

what do you think?

Posted by cheekyfaerie
So he likes the chase, but he's giving you permission to meet him half way?

yes, thats my feeling. like i wont be seen as pathetic for calling/texting. like my chasing wont be in vain.

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Posted by DMV

Posted by cheekyfaerie
So he likes the chase, but he's giving you permission to meet him half way?

yes, thats my feeling. like i wont be seen as pathetic for calling/texting. like my chasing wont be in vain.

Well, I'd probably start slow so I wouldn't spook him, but it's great news he wants to be caught. If your gut says he's not playin' you, then go with it.

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ive been taking notes from my therapist and been real chill about the whole thing. its been hard but im trying to understand an empathize with someone elses' relationship approach. i dont have to lead and take control.

Posted by starlover
Is this the same Aries you finished with DMV cos you felt you were a part of a harem?

yes. same one

Posted by starlover
Why did you go back, if you don't mind m asking?

😉, not at all

well in the 2 months that we stopped calling and i mirrored him, i did think about him but that whole trapped comment caused me from even dialing him. he never stopped trying to get my attention on fb. id count on him reading my wall history and i started observing him.

then i said hold on. i go through my own insecurity moods where i may be feeling a certain kind of way and act out. then id want the guy to just see where im coming from and somehow know that it was a passing phase. id want them to give me a second chance, even a third. but when it comes to the guy trippin out, i would be like screw this and never even look back.

so i decided to see things from his perspective. have a better understanding and empathize where a man is coming from. rather than it be all about me and my feels.

does this make sense?

no, i dont believe he's put away his black book, but i will spend more time with him.

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Posted by starlover
Why did you go back, if you don't mind m asking?

😉, not at all

well in the 2 months that we stopped calling and i mirrored him, i did think about him but that whole trapped comment caused me from even dialing him. he never stopped trying to get my attention on fb. id count on him reading my wall history and i started observing him.

then i said hold on. i go through my own insecurity moods where i may be feeling a certain kind of way and act out. then id want the guy to just see where im coming from and somehow know that it was a passing phase. id want them to give me a second chance, even a third. but when it comes to the guy trippin out, i would be like screw this and never even look back.

so i decided to see things from his perspective. have a better understanding and empathize where a man is coming from. rather than it be all about me and my feels.

does this make sense?

no, i dont believe he's put away his black book, but i will spend more time with him.

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do you think he's full of it?

Posted by tiziani
You have a therapist now? Maybe I should look into one

make sure they can tell you the honest truth as they see it and not what you want to hear. i say that because sometimes people, even strangers, dont tell me the truth.

Posted by RainDancer88
This sounds like it could really turn into something spectacular 🙂 He seems to know and understand your ways perfectly. Best of luck DMV. I love reading your unfiltered adventures, Im all excited for you!!

Do not overthink, just go with it. Occupy yourself and be happy - embrace the happiness!! Aries dudes are cool with the way us sags (esp cancer risers) are with our emotions.

🙂 Look forward to hearing an update.

i actually re framed from cuddling with him. in a strange twist, in the middle of the night, i felt him inching closer n closer till he was up under me.

he is also a cancer rising.

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no, i dont believe he's put away his black book

If that ^^^ is true, then why would you feel .....

Posted by DMV

.... the fact that i am about to lose control with him.

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It just makes zero sense from a woman of your age and experience.

To be in total lust with him, and want to spend time rejoicing in the melding of your two bodies is understandable .... but, that's not the impression I am getting. It sounds more like you are worried that you're going to become helplessly in love with a man to whom you know has other women on his mind, if not his dick.

You've never gave me the impression that you were so weak-minded. How can you actually know his character when it comes to the ladies, and still find yourself so desperate?

At any rate ... he sounds like a fun piece of ass ... enjoy

lol, that actually makes me think.

Its not that black book that increases my fear of losing control. its more so, losing myself and what i want to do with myself. when i get into deep into a relationship, its the fear of forgetting who i am and my own needs that need to be fulfilled. kinda like freedom??

when i first started talking to him, YES! the alarms were blazing at the thought of having my emotions used against me. being one of his girls. i wanted to the only one. I still do, but im not as fixated over it like i was.

im becoming more secure in myself and what i have to offer. so much so i dont worry about the other girls.

i mean, i have options 2.

Sounds weird

Posted by cheekyfaerie
...he likes the chase, but he's giving you permission to meet him half way...

I really like this. That's all.

If this guy is a player...what's the point?

Posted by exoskeleton
if you wanna be the only one, why not tell him so?

I wasnt thinking about it at the time. I just wanted to enjoy the moment.

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Posted by DMV

when i first started talking to him, YES! the alarms were blazing at the thought of having my emotions used against me. being one of his girls. i wanted to the only one. I still do, but im not as fixated over it like i was.

im becoming more secure in myself and what i have to offer. so much so i dont worry about the other girls.

i mean, i have options 2

Probable distinction between you & "the others"? They may not have recognized warning signs as you did, or had no forewarning & perhaps didn't know the score until they were right in the thick of it & it was too late. Awareness could be a game-changer, you know what his track record is like & the others in the harem presumably did not...given he trapped them in compromising positions, most notably of the barefoot & pregnant variety.

As long as you don't let him get the best of you, he won't. But maybe keep in mind that he's demonstrated what he's likely to do if you let your guard down ALL the way.

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youre so right. I was thinking about this earlier today. I do know a bit about his track record.

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Posted by beautifulsoul74
If this guy is a player...what's the point?

You could get badly hurt DMV 😢

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We shall see. 😉

Hes older. We were friends b4. Hes currently "watching" me. Starting to notice a pattern.

Posted by Curiousram
Be careful.. as a fellow aries sun/mercury i've lead on a lot of guys and once commitment came my mind was like "nope time to go i don't want this" kind of thing. I've lead on a lot of guys but thats either due to me being vain or being afraid of commitment. I remember part of your old post saying he had a lot of other kids with different baby mommas, that would be a red alarm for me.

well we're just fucking right now.

But I do think he is a commitment phobe or extremely selective. With this Pisces girl, 4 years she spent running after him and no commitment from him.

with this leo girl, she had to have been seeing him for a year. Had a baby and still no commitment from him. She still likes him. Both of these girls are my friend so its hard to watch them swoon over him, meanwhile hes up my butt, literally lol.

I just figured from jump street to NOT chase after him or do anything theyve done. Ive seen his reaction with them and these are intelligent women.

so im cool with fucking him. I do like him and could see myself with him, but im not as open with my feelings as I once was. More guarded. I just laugh, am giddy, and act shy when he opens up. Then I wait and watch.

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Posted by Curiousram
Be careful.. as a fellow aries sun/mercury i've lead on a lot of guys and once commitment came my mind was like "nope time to go i don't want this" kind of thing. I've lead on a lot of guys but thats either due to me being vain or being afraid of commitment. I remember part of your old post saying he had a lot of other kids with different baby mommas, that would be a red alarm for me.

well we're just fucking right now.

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DMV, I'm just trying to understand something. If you two are just fucking, why the hiding and the questions. Just fucking implies that its not serious, but you're treating it as if it is. Honestly, you first need to decide what it is you want. If you truly want something serious, then you need to let him know that...like now. Good sex and potential never makes up for wasted time. Can't just spend life in limbo

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Posted by DMV

Posted by Curiousram
Be careful.. as a fellow aries sun/mercury i've lead on a lot of guys and once commitment came my mind was like "nope time to go i don't want this" kind of thing. I've lead on a lot of guys but thats either due to me being vain or being afraid of commitment. I remember part of your old post saying he had a lot of other kids with different baby mommas, that would be a red alarm for me.

well we're just fucking right now.

DMV, I'm just trying to understand something. If you two are just fucking, why the hiding and the questions. Just fucking implies that its not serious, but you're treating it as if it is. Honestly, you first need to decide what it is you want. If you truly want something serious, then you need to let him know that...like now. Good sex and potential never makes up for wasted time. Can't just spend life in limbo

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its not serious to me yet.

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Posted by DMV
But I do think he is a commitment phobe or extremely selective. With this Pisces girl, 4 years she spent running after him and no commitment from him.

with this leo girl, she had to have been seeing him for a year. Had a baby and still no commitment from him. She still likes him. Both of these girls are my friend so its hard to watch them swoon over him, meanwhile hes up my butt, literally lol.

I just figured from jump street to NOT chase after him or do anything theyve done. Ive seen his reaction with them and these are intelligent women.

so im cool with fucking him. I do like him and could see myself with him, but im not as open with my feelings as I once was. More guarded. I just laugh, am giddy, and act shy when he opens up. Then I wait and watch.

One thing I luv about sag, you are not judgmental....

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my history is just as colorful as anyone else

Ah, the strong intense passion only a strong alpha fiery male can deliver to quench the desires of passionate fiery female.

My Lion and I have had similar intimate scenarios similar to that. Isley Brothers, Curtis Mayfield, Issac Hayes or Erykah Badu playing on the stereo and we are in our usual Saturday night place, me on the bathroom vanity with my drink in hand and him standing against the wall with his and we talk and laugh. His eye's flashes intently on me and he bites his lower lip and places himself between my legs, grabs my hair close to the my skull and brings my head back to nibble on my neck. He then whispers in my ear: "What is it about you?" He is asking what makes me so different then the others he has come across in his life.

I pull back and look him dead in the eyes and reply: "I love you, I know you, I accept you." And he knows I am telling him it is because I know who he is, why he does what does and his desired out come and I accept him fully to his core. So little verbally spoken but so much is said to each other through our connection and vibe, we get and understand each other.

I don't know if it is because I am a strong alpha female but I have never understood the "chase". I don't have time to play the chase game. And I think that is what men like about me. Let's cut the bullshit. Do you like me or not? You are just wasting my time otherwise. I don't play by the rules: do I text or not. If I enjoyed myself. I text and let you know. If I am thinking about you. I will let you know.

OK, so you know his past. You see how he has been with the others. You are already having sex with him. But you are interested in possibly more. Well, don't invest to much emotion into him right now. Sit back and observe him. That is what I do. I watch and observe. I get a sense of who the person is, what they are about and their intentions. If I keep emotions at bay I can get a more unbiased assessment of that person and if I deem them worthy of being with me.

I didn't know my Lion before hand. He was the man of the street with a following. They were attracted to his power and what he represented. And the couple who did get close enough to him couldn't handle the abrasive truth he forces you to see within you. Couldn't handle his expectations.

Cont...

I didn't change him nor did I try. I just laid out what I would and would not tolerate. But with him, what it came down to, I offered environment he has been craving by just being me. The man who people respected due to fear or desire to be like him was able to put that hard mask down and be his true self with me. The man who others see as intolerant and stone cold is able to show his tender and rich giving heart to me and exposes those deep emotions no one has ever seen or experienced from him. The man who had a strong phone lock and a different woman to meet the different aspects of his life but not one was able to give him the total package and NOT ONE was able to give him what he wanted the most: meet him intellectually and stimulate his mind (he has a Sagittarius Moon and Gemini Mars). He leaves his phone unattended and without a lock on it around me (I don't pry either). I am the only one he has ever desired to marry. He is truly happy and content because I meet everything he has ever desired. And god does he do the same thing for me.

I didn't change him or expected him to change. Wanted him to be himself. I was just me. And I told him what I would not accept or tolerate. He respected that and me. As I told him from the start, your true self will exposes itself as time goes on and I will know who you are and your true intentions. And they have and I love everything about him.

@theLioness, wow. your story really moved me. so you feel the passion im talking about? the nonverbal communication.

He was the man of the street with a following.

he has asked me what it is about him that women go crazy for. i thought he was half bragging and half really wanting to know. the man of the street with a deep following. women go nuts. i used to find it intimidating and a bit competitive but not so much anymore. i still get butterflies whenever i see him. he definitely has presence and power although he doesnt relish it in or flaunt it. its subtle.


i just remembered how i used to bathroom with the door open at his place. didnt even give it a second thought.

i just remembered how i used to bathroom with the door open at his place. didnt even give it a second thought.

lol, how intimate.

The passion, connection, intensity and nonverbal communication is so intoxicating. To know you are bonded with someone at such a deep and intimate level and you understand each other at that level is satisfying and hot.

We had the same conversation yesterday about what makes women go crazy over him. We were at the store and had to get something from behind the glass cabinet. He said when the store clerk came up and saw him she got a huge grin on her face, until she turned down the isle and saw me. LOL It happens every time, I see it and most the time they don't care I am there with him. They get all googly eyed over him and giggle like school girls. I just sit back, watch and laugh. It is very fascinating to watch the effects he has on people.

It doesn't bother me because I know he is mine and it is the man he is. Tall, strong, commanding, confident, charismatic (yes he should have been a politician) He doesn't have to flaunt it, he just naturally exudes it from his pores. He can't help himself. It is what make him who he is. As it drives women nuts because they are attracted to the power. Me, what drives me nuts is what makes the man and who is. Every morning I wake up to him, I fall head over heels all over again.

Posted by DMV
so im going to overthink this as usual. so here's the deal.

long story short, im sitting in the Aries bathroom on top of the sink. He is straddling me and feeding me bong hits. the door is closed and were being silly and intimate at the same time. he's half naked and the intensity between us is soo thick i can hardly breathe. i wrap my legs around him and bring him in closer.

he feeds me a hit and i choke. as my eyes are watering from the laughter and choking. he says to me "where you been at?" i was startled because i had decided that i didnt want to dwell on the past. but before i could say a word he utters "you been hiding?!" i said yes. actually. he wants to know what im hiding from. how im always welcome. how he wants to come around more. mmmmm its hard to explain but the nervousness in his voice was sexy to me. he doesnt talk about his feelings. it was so intimate of an experience for me. such a close proximity, no where to run. he was raw and childlike. it was almost as if he was reaching out to me. but he knows im shy. we non-verbally finish the conversation. in no way did i feel like he was trying to play me.

the rest, ya know.

but the truth is, i have been hiding from him. hiding from the fact that i am about to lose control with him.

i looked up our composite and it shows alot of 8th house action. sun moon and mercury all in the 8th house. cancer rising.

i think at first, he was uncomfortable with the plutonian energy but after a month or so, he is starting to become more comfortable.

what do you think?

Seriously, does anybody remotely know how many guys DMV writes about?

BUMP

So during a fight night party, me and the aries are flirting all over the place. very different energy than the last time we were at a party. we were not going to let the scorp take us off of our game. so much non verbal communication, eye staring, name calling.

He did something that really stood out in my mind. some girl (aka HO) was talking to him and they were standing in front of me. Im staring the both of them down, and was like 80% concerned. He glances my way, we make eye contact, and then backs up from the girl but still continues to talk to her.

i may be over thinking things, but did he just put my feelings first? Do you think he put space between them to let me know nothing is going on? one of things i mentioned to him was his ladies man reputation. idk, but it stood out to me and really turned me on. like big time. shit like that really lights my fire.

i didnt go home with him because he didnt offer. Boy was i ready!! From what ive noticed about his patterns, is that he likes to lead. he like to initiate to keep some sort of control over his insecurities. he seems to respond better when i give positive reinforcement and let him miss me.

he stood either behind me, in front, or to the side of me. He circles me and i likee. I keep my eye on him all night to. i will glance back at him and see him staring me down. or he will be talking to some HO and i just make sure hes blocking himself and not giving them "open" energy.

i have been trying to keep a lid on all this passion i feel for him. its so encompassing. I will see him like some ho FB status and inside, i am flipping out and my jealousy meter goes from zero to a 100 real quick. i thought about him all day yesterday. he is so damn good looking, has a great job. good grief.

he was standing behind me and while the fight is on, i hear someone calling my name. i know its him, but ignore. i want to hear him say it again. my name flows out of his mouth as a declarative statement. so direct. so answer me right now. i turn around and he points to his money pile for all the bets hes taking.

why does this man inflict so much passion within me.

Posted by cheekyfaerie
Uh... der. Of course that was for you. It showed respect for you? But that's easy to do when you're a few feet away. I'd be more worried about what he did behind my back.

true dat. the measure of a person is what they do when theyre away from your sight.

to think that lil ol me mattered. i feel so special. lol. hes sooo dreamy.

Aries Chart

Sun Aries 17.48
Moon Aries 22.09
Mercury Aries 24.01 R
Venus Taurus 6.19
Mars Cancer 29.04
Jupiter Gemini 29.27
Saturn Leo 23.55 R
Uranus Scorpio 15.28 R
Neptune Sagittarius 18.14 R
Pluto Libra 15.17 R
Lilith Cancer 8.59
Asc node Libra 5.58

Saggis Chart
Sun Sagittarius 3.39
Moon Scorpio 26.58
Mercury Scorpio 25.29
Venus Capricorn 19.49
Mars Virgo 20.02
Jupiter Libra 29.48
Saturn Libra 18.41
Uranus Sagittarius 0.36
Neptune Sagittarius 23.49
Pluto Libra 25.46
Lilith Sagittarius 6.55
Asc node Cancer 23.36

i would have been totally down for a booty call. i left at 1am. i even stayed up for an extra hour just in case lol

I love this story, it's so exciting!

He has the same sun, merc and venus as me. did you say his asc was cancer too?

Make it fun! Play the game! Run, I'm so sure he will chase you!

😉

"... call ... an extra hour just in case"

You're outstanding. with your openness. how powerful.

Posted by JROI
I love this story, it's so exciting!

He has the same sun, merc and venus as me. did you say his asc was cancer too?

Make it fun! Play the game! Run, I'm so sure he will chase you!

😉

im pretty sure he is a cancer rising, but not sure.

im learning that aries are quite the children. You have to play a game with these guys. you have to be just a childish, playful, and not so serious with demands. BUT you also have to be direct and to the point.

M'hhhhm. fun fun fun! but when strong feelings are involved, play time is over.

Posted by JROI
M'hhhhm. fun fun fun! but when strong feelings are involved, play time is over.

things are so up in the air, but i like his use of telepathy.

ooo man, when he just happens to look up and see staring at him. he can barely hold the gaze. i feel that he feels a sigh of relief when he sees me staring at him. its like a quiet reassurance. ive noticed him trying to hold back a slight smirk.

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Posted by JROI
M'hhhhm. fun fun fun! but when strong feelings are involved, play time is over.

things are so up in the air, but i like his use of telepathy.

ooo man, when he just happens to look up and see staring at him. he can barely hold the gaze. i feel that he feels a sigh of relief when he sees me staring at him. its like a quiet reassurance. ive noticed him trying to hold back a slight smirk.

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These are the kind of moments I love... it brings back a certain innocence to dating. You get so excited and such a warm feeling inside. And that annoyance as well of wanting so desperately to know what's going on, but really you enjoy not knowing at the same time!

Posted by DMV

He did something that really stood out in my mind. some girl (aka HO) was talking to him and they were standing in front of me. Im staring the both of them down, and was like 80% concerned. He glances my way, we make eye contact, and then backs up from the girl but still continues to talk to her.

idk, but it stood out to me and really turned me on. like big time. shit like that really lights my fire.

Hmph. This would get my juices going too. Depends on the status and the man, but I would read that as "I'm making it known I'm off limits". We'd need to find a room quick.

Posted by DMV

...my name flows out of his mouth as a declarative statement. so direct. so answer me right now.

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And this^^^ oh lawd...*takes a looong sip of tea*

P.S. 😆 @ "aka HO".

She is some Ho. They all hoes for even talking to him, even glancing at him. I own him till im ready not to.

sometimes, when i get jealous. i want to become the biggest coldest bitch he ever met, but i cant. im just made he isnt giving all those smiles to me and me only.

I Haven't told him jack squat yet. I will next time i have some quality alone time with him.

Im going balls to the wall. ImmA tell that fool errthang about my feels.

Posted by dontgetmewrong
Just be careful DMV..

with?

Posted by dontgetmewrong
"With?"

Your heart.

yeah. ive already been through his sidestepping. so now im more prepared on how to handle his fits.

But truth be told, i knew i was a goner the minute i laid eyes on him like 5 years ago. it was just a matter of him making a definitive move.

I told him that through the years, i repeatedly told myself that i cant handle my feels for him so i always told myself no.

i think i want to ride this train

OMG DMV he has an aries moon!

yes with aries keep it playful. we like playful. aries moons are extremely innocent at heart.

remember the time when we were young and the height of romance would be to hold someone's hand? while you blushed like crazy..we're stuck in that age.

i adore arian energy when they like someone. it's beyond cute and endearing.

i know i am mad biased with this but i have sag placements too and dat rising.

i can't help it with aries.

Posted by Damnata
OMG DMV he has an aries moon!

yes with aries keep it playful. we like playful. aries moons are extremely innocent at heart.

remember the time when we were young and the height of romance would be to hold someone's hand? while you blushed like crazy..we're stuck in that age.

i adore arian energy when they like someone. it's beyond cute and endearing.

I will try to lighten up more lol. I can be quite stiff and scared.