Rebuilding 15 years of Sagittarian friendship

Okay. So I met this Sag when I was really young. He was and still is my bestfriend. All our life we always been there for eachother. We had our moments when we liked eachother but we were never on the same page (stupid and young) the end of highschool he met another girl, around the same time he was also leading me on when I thought we were finally going to try with eachother.



He got the girlfriend, bombarded her in my everday life (our families know eachother) so therefore I had to see her.

I pushed him away couldnt handle it, enotions were spilled and he felt really sorry, eventually I went on to college, only visiting home ocassionally. Cut off all contact with him. Nothing was the same.

4 years later I have matured, accepted, tolerate and have healed, I lost my only bestfriend and deep down was in love?

Anyways so I texted him told him if he was up we could try to rebuild our friendship even though I know it cant be the same. He said he would like that.

He was catching me up to date in his life, I'm motivating him to keep pushing because he is discouraged and lost about things. And he told me he missed talking to me. Then when I sent him a link about a job he again said he really missed me. We have been continuing to talk.

I think we both felt a huge loss and feel more stable back in eachothers lives.

Its just so hard to seperate what could have been from what is now.

Why do I continue to have to be a apart of his backbone and support him? Obv thats what friends do but still so hard.

Can we actually be just bestfriends and the emotions go away? We have both cried on the phone with eachother thags how deep our emotional connection is and I just dont know even still if I can do it.