waiting to exhale

So last night, I was watching a movie with the sag and smoking a blunt. Then he blurts out i know youve been talking to someone.

Wth, how did he know lmao. Maybe he felt my moods going up n down lately. Especially how down ive been.

then he just jumps on me, tells me he loves me over n over, flips me over, lifts up my skirt, slides my panties to the slide and gives me the business. Kissing on me, hugging on me. Twisting my nipples. He flipped me over, grabbed my face and made me look at him eye to eye. He wasnt even thrusting inside of me. Just laid on top of me.

2 hours later. I just laid there and exhaled. Grinning.

Sidenote, I went to the ob gyn and I had a new male doctor. The thrill I get when the doc does my breast exam and sees my nipple rings lol.

makes me chuckle

Sags aren't exactly the jealous type huh? (:

Your brave! Male doctors creep me out lol

Posted by silentkiller
DMV, I gotta ask, just because you see Things in different way than me:

Do you ever think of sex as a power strugle?
I think about "feeling used" by a person? Being the user or the used.

Sometimes I wish I could go with the flow like this, but if there are no feelings there, I will think of it as fake and not worth it.
I don't know the backstory with this sag guy though, but it sounds like, there are def. SOME sort of feelings in there😉 I would be all like "OMG he loves me! What the fuck do I do?!?!?!?" 😄 But your way of handling Things seems very nice also.

casual sex isnt for every one 🙂

sex as a power struggle.... with some men, yes! and its not even the sex its the bullshit i deal with before and after the sex. sex itself is hardly ever the issue imo.

mostly watery men, especially with fixed personal planets, have issues with casual sex although the types i deal with wont admit it.

when the power struggles start with them, ive learned to back the fuck off all the way. there are personal problems that they have to deal with, all independent of me imo. if i dont back off, they suck me into an endless circle of a reward/punishment cycle surrounding sex. sex isnt sex but a form of control.

After that hot mess of a cancer sun i just needed a release. i felt like i was holding my breathe alot with him.


Moon Conjunct Uranus... helps me to detach when necessary. Although im very emotional. too emotional for my taste.

my first reaction is always out of emotion. then i get logical till i am forced to act on emotion again.