Determined Scorpio... (Page 2)

Well... I understand that people make mistakes... and I am willing to forgive him as long as he has realized that he did make a mistake... I always forgive... always... and I will always give someone another chance.... I can only hope that he will give me another chance...

Well you see with the graphic design... most people want plain and abstract things... I would always get really creative and do stuff that most definitely stood out... but it's not what people are looking for.. in most businesses... they all want the same kind of boring thing... and while I could do that... I alway tried to push something more creative and unique.. and it never went over too well... a lot of people think I should be a video game programmer... because I am so creative and "out of the box" compared to most graphic designers... I don't know.. you have to go to a school for a long time to do that... and you are limited to where you can live if you do video gaem design.. but it's somethign to think about.. and yes, I do plan on taking a few business courses too, everyone says you can't go wrong with those..

LOL @ P-angel

I think that he was just a little to hasty in his decision.... and should've thought about it more rather then jumping the gun... but hey you live and you learn... and I've learned from this... and I'm still learning.. and I can only hope that he does as well...

Instant decision is faster isn't..no mess to deal with..and why waste valuable energy on torture..although fun it is!..I would just get it over with..too many things to do in life..

everyone messes up... and you have to forgive... forgive and move forward...

You know I tried the whole I hate him thing and tried the whole anger towards him and all of that.. thought about getting revenge and everything else... but it just didn't suit me... 2 seconds later I went back to wanting him again... I've never been good at getting revenge... I always give people chance after chance... but trying to hate someone is so hard... especially when you love them so much.. I don't see how people can grow to hate their ex loves so much... I think I will always love mine and want him forever...

I guess that's why I want to do something crazy and spontaneous to get him back.. I'm just very creative... and so is he... and I know he appreciates creativity and uniqueness.. and I want to plan something in a few months time when he's forgotten about me... and just surprise him... I know that it would be a pleasant thoughtful surprise... that not even he could resist... 😄.

John is no longer a person .. he's become an object you want to possess.

John is the man of my dreams... wouldn't you go anything to get the man of your dreams back??

Absolutely .. however, as ironic as this may sound coming from a Pisces, the man of my dreams is a real man, not fantasy .. a real man does NOT kick the woman he loves to the curb and before I can even stand back up, another woman has taken my place.

People make mistakes... and he made a big mistake... he's only 26 and still has a lot of learning and life lessons to go through.. and I think that this is one of those for him.. I think that this experience will only make him see the error of his ways and become a better person from it... just like I am... and I still believe despite it all.. that he is the one for me... I don't know... I've always been very loyal to those I love... no matter how much they hurt me... I always give them chance after chance... I believe that life deserves all the chances in the world... and I'm willing to give him another chance if he will give me one.... I can only hope that he will...

"I've always been very loyal to those I love... no matter how much they hurt me... I always give them chance after chance"


You say this as though he is standing at the door, begging to be let in and forgiven and because you are loyal you will give him another chance .. when in reality, he's in another woman's bed.

Have you no dignity?

No dignity... no pride... just a lot of nothing...

The truth is I'm just really fucked up from all of this... and I don't think anything will help right now except a lot of coke and rum...

I do think I am worth it... but I always think he is worth my love... and there has got to be a way to make him see that... I don't care what anyone says... he was totally crazy about me at one point... and I know that he hasn't forgotten about me... I know that it will take time... he's going through a really tough stage right now... no one is telling him what to do in his life... for the first time in his life he has to figure things out on his own... it's sink or swim time for him and I hope that he swims... I just won't give up hope... someday he will return to me... I pray for that everyday...

"for the first time in his life he has to figure things out on his own... it's sink or swim time for him and I hope that he swims... I just won't give up hope"


The irony in this that you cannot see, in which everyone else can .. is that you already have given up hope ..

It's sink or swim time and we all hope that you rise to the surface and start swimming, instead of sinking in your lost hope.

All of these things you fear .. is in yourself .. YOU are sinking, YOU have given up hope .. and we can only hope you one day, real soon, become aware of what you cannot see at this moment.

I hope so badly that he will come back to me... but there is a greater fear that he may not... I am sinking in my lost hope... I am drowning in my own sorrows... and I can't pick myself up... I just don't know what's wrong with me..I've never felt this way in my life... I don't know if I will ever recover... I think I will only be okay if I get him back... if I don't get him back.. I think I will just keep sinking... there has to be something... there has to be... I'm not losing hope... I'm living in fear that he will never come back to me...

Why can't I just let him go?

Easy because he broke up with YOU and how DARE he!! Now you want him back so you can show that you have power of him and then will break up with him showing him once and for all who is boss.

You probably like him, but really don't like him like him. This is all just a power game I think because you have been insult in the manner of he left you before you could leave him, whenever that would have been in chosing to leave him.

I'm living in fear that he will never come back to me...

Rather you are living in fear that you will not have the power to get revenge on him...that is what you really want, revenge for leaving YOU! For some probably ugly pisces girl.

No... I don't want revenge... I want him back... and if I get him back... I will never let him go again... I will spend every day trying to make him happy... that's all I want... the chance to make him happy again...

"Easy because he broke up with YOU and how DARE he!! Now you want him back so you can show that you have power of him and then will break up with him showing him once and for all who is boss"


Virgo102 .. I can't tell you how many times I saw my Scorpio son do this. In fact, before anyone ever responded on the Astrology board to her, I was telling my fellow fish this exact thing in our tank. My son would wail, carry on .. you'd think the whole world was ending .. until he got this woman back .. then he walked out on her and never looked back. He did this with EVERY ex-partner he had.

I have never been one to seek revenge... I know what a bitch karma is.. and I know that what I am going through is karma for all the times I wouldn't listen to him... for all the times I would never admit I was wrong... for all the times I yelled and screamed... but it will eventually stop... and he will eventually forgive... he should... forgiveness is important... redemption...

That's not how I am though.. how old is your son? I want him back to that I can be with him forever... I wouldn't go through all of this suffering to get him back so that I could hurt him.. that's not my nature... I realized I made a lot of mistakes... and I want a chance to prove that I have learned from my mistakes and that I can make things right again... I would never want anyone to go through the hearache and pain that I am... especially not him...

LOL @ gtommy!..hahah

Message posted by: Scorpio702 on 4/30/2007 11:40:38 AM ip: xxx.xxx.xxx.159
... and what I did... So everyday I would threaten to leave, and scream and yell at him, and I've even destroyed some of this things...


Message posted by: Scorpio702 on 5/4/2007 12:42:11 PM ip: xxx.xxx.xxx.90
... for all the times I yelled and screamed... but it will eventually stop... and he will eventually forgive... he should...


S702 .. it's finished .. you yelled and threatened to leave one too many times. I'm sure he did love you very much at one time .. it's been over a month .. he's gone.

Had it been an Aries, Leo or another Scorpio .. perhaps he would "play" the power struggle game with you. A Pisces won't do it .. we swim away.

If by some chance he ventures back .. it's for a piece of ass ..

All I can do is wait.... and hope and pray every day that he will come back to me... there is nothing else I can do now...

Hmmmm...I do hate to see Scorpio chicks do this to themselves...just don't understand it really...

"Why waste time and energy on something that's over."

YEPPERS!

I guess I just didn't want to accept the fact that it really is over.. I was trying to hold on to some false hope... and I realize that now... just really hurts me.. never saw this coming... guess that's life for you...

LOL..yes honey its life!...come to DXP and we'll all gladly share with you!..

So who's the next victim

::rubs hands::

So who's the next victim

::rubs hands::


o dear!
PRRREDAAATORRRR!!!

mm, I don't think she's progressed there yet, but, when she does .. look out world because she is defo relentlessly intense ..

Is it a bad thing to be relentlessy intense?? (or are you talking about someone else?). All I can do is make me better... and while I still have my setbacks, I have realized that all I can actually do now is just work on me... because he knows exactly how I feel, he knows that I want him back, and he doesn't want me now... and he might not ever want me again... so me dwelling on it will only delay my progression even more, and allthough I do still dwell and cry and wish that he would come back to me... but ultimately only he can decide if he wants to come back to me. It's in God's hands now... and I pray everyday that John can find it in his heart to forgive me and give me another chance, and that's all I can hope for. From what I know about John and his family, and his past relationships... and just how he is in general... I do have a feeling that he will at least want my friendship in the next year, and hey even if all I ever have is friendship with him again... then I will cherish that friendship for the rest of my life.

"Is it a bad thing to be relentlessy intense??"

Not at all.

Thirst, hunger, love etc make all of us obsessive and it hurts when our logical brain tell us one thing and our heart tells us another.
Time heals everything but its a matter of living (going through) until it heals.
Self-study helps a lot.
If we understand why we think, behave and do the things we do then it helps soften the hurt.
Having a small idea of how our brain works, helps.
Astrology helps.
Go to www.astro.com and click on Portrait and fill in your birth details and study what they have to say.
Go to www.adze.com/ScopesMart and do the same over there too.
Go to www.usbridalguide.com/special/chinesehoroscopes/Snake.htm click on your chinese animal and research more from other website.
Slowly your mind will accept what your brain tells you.
It takes time so......patience.
Love is so saddening.....so many get hurt. if only there was a way.........