Losing it—?

Well something odd has happened... Amidst the back and forth, rollercoaster I have been on with my bull, something inside me changed.

We are no longer together but we still connect, talk, see each other here and there and hook up as well. I have concluded that I know what my feelings are and I love him. Entirely.

I love him in a weird way though, unlike I've loved someone ever. Its in the way that although we are not together, but the limbo isn't hurting me. I feel ok with him going and coming as he sorts himself out, I can honestly only pray he finds the path hes looking for. But for me, I don't feel that loneliness or that pain from being separated anymore. I feel like fighting for us in a subtle way, with patience. Just to wait for him, love him and be patient for his return.

I feel ok with this for some weird fucking reason

I feel ok with not hearing from him, I understand now

But I still want to be there for him, I feel all this love for him and he's in my thoughts, however, I feel safe in the space between us.

I think I finally went nuts. This is not normal for me. Is this normal in general—? Im posting this in Scorpio forum too because I think I lost it honestly.

Well posted in Taurus cuz hes a bull