she was just my best friends sister, she became more. she grew to be my best friend, I fell in love, she wanted me to. her dreams were my own. all I wanted was to make her dreams come true. so i gave all i could when i could. she changed her mind i wasn't the dream anymore she wanted another though we were never actually a couple. he took her virginity. said shit i shouldn't have, told her to die out of lack of control over my intense emotions. she cried because of what i said. their relationship ends years later. finally speak to her the first time in years yesterday. she regrets their relationship. shes not happy. spoke of wanting to live her old dreams. the few things she said. felt like she didn't even care to talk to me to be honest. but i just wanted to see her. told my friend a few weeks back she already slept with another guy... had this guy pick her up last night referring to him as her friend a former cashier from work. what the fuck was i to this girl?? i still care more than i thought i could ever care for anything. despite how much she hurts me. yet i still yearn to make her dreams come true. i suppose my question is will my feelings ever matter to her. i know i fucked up saying what i did. but god dammit i can't change the way i feel. maybe some day but there hasn't been a single day in the past 5 years i haven't thought of her. do you scorp ladies think i'm just stupid and wasting my energy? would you forgive me? thank you
