Posted by brokenleo
I don’t even know where to begin.
I’m a Leo, he’s a Taurus. Yes, I know, bad mix, wish I had known that before I got involved 4 years ago.
This past week, in a firestorm of insults on both sides, our crumbling relationship came to it’s projected demise. I have read up on every possible topic for the Leo / Taurus dynamic, and it’s all very much exactly as it all reads. This time the no contact has reached a record breaking 4 days and counting.
I have looked back on past arguments and things were always smoothed over when I apologized, only this time, I’m not bending, he insulted me with the worst possible comment I have ever heard stumble out of his mouth. I have a pretty decent way of thinking, and I believe in, you don’t destroy and annihilate the ones you love. It was one thing to tell me when I was being a witch or something that rhymes with it, but to insult me on a personal level the way he did is unforgivable.
This relationship was the most gratifying and toxic relationship I have ever experienced. We loved hard, and we hate hard. It was this relationship that made me see the truely thin line between love and hate. Honestly, if you were to ask me what I’m going to miss the most I will tell you the incredible hugs that he gives and the mind blowing sex. I’m not young, so I know the passion that was in this relationship is rare.
That being said, of course I am in severe mourning, but I don’t think I want it back. What I want to know is, is this narcissistic man capable of feeling loss, or experiencing the hurt even close to the level I am?
He’s a Taurus on the Gemini cusp and I’m a Leo on the Cancer cusp. It’s this crazy combination that I can’t seem to look up and find answers for. I guess with these two cusp combos, I would like to figure out if this is worth fighting for or just moving forward? But more than anything I just want to know, how can he hurt me and say such hurtful things and not even flinch. I want to know is he capable of hurting, does he feel regret?
I know his Taurus mindset won’t do too well with no contact once he realizes I’m not going to contact him first. He hurt me really bad and I know that it’s most likely time to move on, but just in case those cusp bdays make this a dynamic that is truly special.
Help any thoughts please