Literally leader of the assholes..

Overview of the past five months.

I will make bullet-points to make this as brief as possible.

* Upon first meeting my Taurus man, he was sweet. Showing me love from end, to end. In the beginning I took all his feelings lightly. I did not want anything serious in any regard. I did not want a committed relationship with anyone. I told him that from the get go, but he was always persistent in "having" me. He actually tried to walk away from me three times, but always returned.

*Eventually I started to like him, and without me telling him how I felt he "knew." He sort of backed up a slight , but was still affectionate, with a slight distant.

*The distance through me for a loop. I didn't like it. I felt he had lost interest, or wasn't interested, especially when one day he said nothing to me at all. So I told him I saw no purpose in us. He did ask why several times. I didn't explain. Later on I regretted this, and after a week of my "pestering" he allowed me back into him.

*Now after all that I finally have exposed all of my feelings to him, by word of mouth not just action. He is now nonchalant, seemingly uncaring about them, but says he cares about me. He's previously gotten jealous if I seem to have another male interest, or friend. When I seem distant, he initiates contact, otherwise its always me to say something first.

*Just recently he asked for my friendship "at this point." Saying he is not wanting to be romantically involved. He is dealing with life, as well as financial issues.


*About 3 months ago he was the first to say "I love you." doesn't really say it often, never has really, but last he said it first was the day after he told me his dad passed away. he said "love you." Later that day he said that head would make him feel better. I turned him down. Two times, he got quiet both times, and stop speaking with me til the next day, didn't act strange, was just himself.

*Last we saw each other was August,26th, 2014 between then, and now a-lot has happened. He has asked to see me as of this week, but I had to work. He hasn't asked since then, and he was over his family's house when he asked. I've met his Dad,and a cousin. His family, and friends KNOW of me.

* We have not had sex, just oral sex a few times. In-fact when he asked for my friendship, he told me it would not be a good idea if we had sex, but since then has asked for head, and sent me a picture of his pen.

I am totally blinded by my heart, because at times

(Cont)
He is sweet, and we connect on a level that we don't really understand, we are like magnets almost.
BUT HE IS LITERALLY the leader of the assholes. Hes knows it too. He can be MEAN.

This will be the last post I make, I'm going to wait a year to see what happeneds with him, but I want you guy's last little rebuttal on all of this before I go.

Any last words for me, some insight?(Dont do it! Run!) lol. Do you see something I am missing. Am I his play toy. I don't know, cant see it to busy being a fool in love with a fool? lol

Much appreciated..

-Bea

"*Just recently he asked for my friendship "at this point." Saying he is not wanting to be romantically involved. He is dealing with life, as well as financial issues."

This^ He is telling you flat out he cannot commit right now.
Take it or leave it, and don't expect anything will be changed in short period of time.

Noted

@Koniucha

Not for a relationship, just to see where this goes. I'm not hopeful for anything, I'm not even expecting anything. I don't mind being his friend actually. Its not that terrible. 🙂