TAUREAN MESS. Please help.

Hey everyone so i need quick help.

Taurus and i have been broken up for two months, but he admits to still liking me and its the sae from my end. So we had to work together and all that, we dont meet otherwise or call but when we are at work, we are friendly and jovial. After the first month, things began getting person and led to him revealing he still likes me dearly but is going for therapy and needs to know if he should get back. So this was happening. And then one day his friend asked him dude arent you killing her by being around her ? and he said not like it isnt killing me.

then last week he hugged me to apologise for all that he did. then later we spoke about things. the next day he made a move and asked if we should get back. I stopped him and asked him if he was sure, he wanted to get back. he said he is still confused and began crying. I heard him out and later said he needs to want me. And when he feels he does e can see about it ( we only have about 2 months together).

So he goes on a trip back home 5 days ago, for 3 days he intiates messages and contact through random forards or just oneliners. i also just gave one word replies and didnt get carried away. He comes back and net thing i know he is all distant and weird, i tried to be normal but he seemed odd, so i kept away too. When i kept away he began coming around ( not as much as before) but e did go out of his way to come sy or do silly stuff to make me laugh. i would just smile politely and do my own thing, because i was just giving him space and complying.

LAst night he mesaged me asking if i told his best friend about the day when he made a move i said no i told him i told her about a hug he gave me few days before that. and then he goes " oh man you thought that was me being intimate" " i said listen your friend was talking about her boyfriend and all i said was that you hugged me and i didnt let go because i missed you and came back and hugged you on my own later. i said i am fully aware it was an apology hug and you made it very clear to me i havent read into any of it. i spoke purely of my own feelings" he never replied.

Minutes later his friend texts me saying, dude he tells me you both are just friends and i asked him so nothing happened between you both after the breakup ? and i said well he knows it all. and then she messaged later saying dude im his bestfriend i love him, but honestly he doesnt deserve you. I dont think he will come back. I said that's okay then. and then she messages saying he seems very clear about the breakup .

Now his friend knows nothing about what happened at his home that day, and he himself told me clearly that he misses me and is still confused. now he is telling his friend otherwise. Why ?

I have to meet him in 2 hours, how an i go about this, lets say he starts blaming me, i dont want to get defensive or justify, i want to take the back seat, how do i do that without provoking him ?

im 24.

When he made the move last week i told him you cant have the best of both worlds. a little like what you told me just now.

But then i also acknowledged his confusion and his feelings for me.

however he sent me this long message about how he was wrong and has respect for me and that he will come back now only when he is sure and that i shouldnt hang around. I am not hanging onto him okay, but i honestly want him. Even if i tell myself to move on in my head there will be a part that tells me i want him and it sucks because when we broke up we never fought and with so much happening we never fight, things alays draw us together but then he analyses things too much and then restrains from allowing it to take its own course. I cant blame him beause eversince ive known him he has always been this way.

But since his way of acting up yesterday and then he told his friend whatever it is and she told me he seems sure i have been a little effected by it . I told her to stop pushing him and explaining things to him because he knows it all. and she said this is not about you, he is messed up and is inflicting pain on himself and i have to explain it to him.

any chance that he probably conveyed he doesnt want it as a means of defense ? im just trying to understand the deal here.

so what happened is things continued to be normal between us both, went for work and lunch.

He continued to be a little possessive of me. He told it outright when he encoutnered one of my old crushes and went to his face and asked hims " hey you are X from here right" when the guy said YEAH how do you know ? He goes NO QUESTIONS ASKED. He also said that i was so tempted to say " i knew this day would come 😛"

Then he asked me " what plans for valentines" and smiled sheepishly.. I said " "grand celebrations" and just laughed and he laughed too and we read sad valentine memes together and joked around.

The next day on valentines someone put up a particularly nice picture of me he was the first to like it. Then i wished everyone a happy valetines through text, and messaged him saying " happy valentines day, thankyou for always having my back :*" he replies saying " happy valentines (my pet name) 🙂"

I hadnt gone to college and had practice, so he messaged specifically asking hey are you coming to practice. And then my status was " you are the death of me" which is short of " you are the death of me but it hasnt killed me yet" I was talking more in terms of my own desires and defeat and expected people to ask but not him.

He asked " who is your death ?" and i said its a poem 🙂 and apologised bout not informing earlier about practice.


later at night i got a message from him saying " Is there any other issue going on in your life other than our breakup" and i asked him why do you ask. he replies saying general knowledge .. so i said "yeah. slightly. HAH general knowledge I see " but its nothing big like he knows its just ive matured a lot off late, and find mundane friendships pointless ... but after y reply he never responded.