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So we didnt talk for a day, that night i dreamt that he sent me text messages and being lovely, woke up... nothing 😢

another day goes by without any contact.. by this point i was starting to go mental, but knew he wanted space so didnt contact him at all. had another dream last night that he kissed me and hugged me and told me he loved me. woke up at 5am balling my eyes out. i knew he was awake at 630 cause he has work today. messaged him saying "when will we talk again?" didnt reply but i saw that he was on facebook so he defiantly got my message.

balled my eyes out some more. couldnt handle it anymore i NEEDED answers, so drove to his house.. and i know i shouldnt do this but went on his facebook on his computer only to find in his facebook messages to his friend (who has also just broken up with his girlfriend) that he plans to break up with me. it said "im breaking up with tash this weekend i reckon, fu*king so hard to do hey, it sucks. shes an awesome girl, prob too good for me but i just dont feel comfortable being in a relationship hey" his friend said "yeah i know how it feels" and my guy says "yeah im looking forward to it in some ways but not in others, i think shes kinda expecting it and i hate to break her heart but i got to be true to myself hey" and his friend asked why.. he said "i just dont feel the same about her as i usd to and its like i have to act to love her"

(please dont all jump at me for snooping but i honestly needed something. i HATE not knowing where i stand)

so basically, hes at work at the moment but is planning to end it. After i read that ^^ i walked around his whole house and packed up all my belongings and left my key on the bench. Still havent said anything to him. and not going to.

got in my car and balled my eyes out and this song came on.


time for me to move on 😢
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Posted by CluelessCancer
Posted by Sag89
We all have been guilty of the worship. I cheat and worship at the same time tho. We have all been guilty at some point....



LmAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SAG89 I'm sorry, but your the funniest poster on DXP..the shit you say.

GOLd.

I CHEAT and WORSHIP at the SAME time THO...
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Haha it's the sag honesty, just flys out!
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Posted by Sag89
We all have been guilty of the worship. I cheat and worship at the same time tho. We have all been guilty at some point....



LmAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SAG89 I'm sorry, but your the funniest poster on DXP..the shit you say.

GOLd.

I CHEAT and WORSHIP at the SAME time THO...



you shoudn't cheat.
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Well I'm just saying it has happened.
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Posted by CluelessCancer
Posted by Sag89
We all have been guilty of the worship. I cheat and worship at the same time tho. We have all been guilty at some point....



LmAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SAG89 I'm sorry, but your the funniest poster on DXP..the shit you say.

GOLd.

I CHEAT and WORSHIP at the SAME time THO...



Haha it's the sag honesty, just flys out!



but how do you do that, separate your emotions to be able to do that, i want to go sleep with men right now, but i can't..i still feel loyal to the Virgo although he's possibly getting around town.
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What do you mean separate emotions?
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Posted by Sag89
We all have been guilty of the worship. I cheat and worship at the same time tho. We have all been guilty at some point....



LmAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SAG89 I'm sorry, but your the funniest poster on DXP..the shit you say.

GOLd.

I CHEAT and WORSHIP at the SAME time THO...



LOL seriously she's a real piece of work
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Are you laughing at me or with me?
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Posted by Sag89
Posted by CluelessCancer
Posted by Sag89
Posted by CluelessCancer
Posted by Sag89
We all have been guilty of the worship. I cheat and worship at the same time tho. We have all been guilty at some point....



LmAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SAG89 I'm sorry, but your the funniest poster on DXP..the shit you say.

GOLd.

I CHEAT and WORSHIP at the SAME time THO...



Haha it's the sag honesty, just flys out!



but how do you do that, separate your emotions to be able to do that, i want to go sleep with men right now, but i can't..i still feel loyal to the Virgo although he's possibly getting around town.



What do you mean separate emotions?



Nevermind.
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I never loved anyone I've ever dated so I just didn't care. ( even tho it may have felt like it at times )
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Posted by Sag89
We all have been guilty of the worship. I cheat and worship at the same time tho. We have all been guilty at some point....



LmAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SAG89 I'm sorry, but your the funniest poster on DXP..the shit you say.

GOLd.

I CHEAT and WORSHIP at the SAME time THO...



LOL seriously she's a real piece of work



Are you laughing at me or with me?



With you. I know the ones that laughed at you ended up getting the old cheat-and-worship.
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lol....
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I think he made that letter up because he knows you will snoop around and will find it. So he did it so he wouldn't feel bad about breaking up with you face to face.



^ my thoughts too.

It sounds so scripted.

That's what I would do
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"How can I cut this off without her acting a fool?"
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Dear friend,
"i hate to break her heart but i got to be true to myself hey... I mean, i just dont feel the same about her as i usd to and its like i have to act to love her"

At least he cared enough to put in the effort.
...either that or he's scared you're going to leak his nudes :X
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Posted by Sag89
Posted by CluelessCancer
Posted by Sag89
Posted by CluelessCancer
Posted by Sag89
We all have been guilty of the worship. I cheat and worship at the same time tho. We have all been guilty at some point....



LmAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SAG89 I'm sorry, but your the funniest poster on DXP..the shit you say.

GOLd.

I CHEAT and WORSHIP at the SAME time THO...



Haha it's the sag honesty, just flys out!



but how do you do that, separate your emotions to be able to do that, i want to go sleep with men right now, but i can't..i still feel loyal to the Virgo although he's possibly getting around town.



What do you mean separate emotions?



Nevermind.



I never loved anyone I've ever dated so I just didn't care. ( even tho it may have felt like it at times )




Respect I guess.

what is the sign that determines how we love?
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😭 😭 😭 😭 😭 😭 😭



Ya I did the tears thing too against the wall. I did the throwing up thing. I did the anxiety body full of pain thing for weeks. I lost weight.

Why suffer? Let it go....



whoa it just happened to the poor girl. this post says i, i, i me mre me so do the,virgo posts. i heart you cc but it seems as tho you have a hard time seeing outside of yourself sometimes just sayin.
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^^^^Agree with this! I've been observing cc trying to figure out a way to get over her Virgo--post after post. So I was just wondering how is it that she can give advice like "get over it" when she hasn't? Not trying to come down on you cc but yes, practice what you preach and know that it will take this girl time just as it will take time for you to get over your situation. :-)
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Posted by VirgoYawn
I'm going through the same thing scorpio24. Was with a Pisces for 4years, engaged, and both had tattoos of each others name :/ Hadn't seen or talked to her in 3months but found out she already found someone. Makes me think she had someone while we were still together lol 😢 To be honest I wasn't happy in the relationship...but damn, I feel so miserable now that she's gone. Only thing that keeps me going is I might be as happy as I was when I first started dating her. I already know she is :/



By any chance do you know what her moon sign was??
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Posted by scorpio24
maybe aussie boys are different to americans?? haha..

anyway, im hoping he gets home and eventually realises what he's lost, i worshipped the ground that he walked on. not anymore. 😢



And this is why he doesn't feel the same way about you anymore... You are 1st, 2nd and 3rd, you don't worshipped the ground nobody walks on.... You are too nice, too good, there is not exciment anymore, he lost respect...

The good thing is you are done and now you can start over, focus on you and your happiness, be strong, do not contact him at all, and trust me he will be back and he better find someone completely different, you can do it, this will make you stronger.
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Posted by scorpio24
😭 😭 😭 😭 😭 😭 😭



Ya I did the tears thing too against the wall. I did the throwing up thing. I did the anxiety body full of pain thing for weeks. I lost weight.

Why suffer? Let it go....



whoa it just happened to the poor girl. this post says i, i, i me mre me so do the,virgo posts. i heart you cc but it seems as tho you have a hard time seeing outside of yourself sometimes just sayin.



You know what sucks about this it's happening to so many women. I need to get around people that are happy in their relationships, because this just depresses me so much, like I'll never find love. that it's impossible.

DXP can be depressing sometimes. Especially lately. All these men cheating on their girlfriends, people breaking up left and right.

😢
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I did all that too, I broke up with my boyfriend of 4 years and lost my guy, job (we had a business together), and home in 1 day, I have cried, had anxiety attacks, lost weight, get in my car in the middle of the night and scream my lungs out so I could feel some peace and maybe be able to go back to sleep, I woke up my sister crying asking her if I could sleep with her in her bed, i waited countless hours for texts, emails, phonecalls, I wondered what the hell is wrong with me— Is there something essentially wrong with me—
At some point, I chose to learn from all this drama instead of becoming a victim, I read a lot of books, I worked on myself everyday and I focused on being happy, is the only thing that really worked.
So I think there is a positive side to all of this, the difficult times are put in our lives as a learning opportunity, it depends what we choose to do that makes all the difference.
I am happy, I have an amazing boyfriend and we are in love, as in any other relationship there are challenges but now I now that I WANT to be with him but I don't NEED him to be happy and that is just liberating

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I know everyone thinks it was staged and I'm not in denial, I just know that it wasnt cause the Internet we use actually comes from next door and hardly ever even works on his comp, ecpesially in the last week when I tried to go on the computer in general while we were still okay and it just wouldn't log onto the Internet so I had to use my phone, also,. 1. We don't live together 2. I have a key but very rarely will I go there if he's not there and he knows this. 3. Yes I took all my belongings but it was just little things he probably wouldn't have noticed straight away like, my hair straightener from the bathroom draw and little things, it's not like I took furniture or anything like that I just had a few random bits and pieces there. 4. Him and that friend have known eachother for years and that's seriously how they talk to eachother lol :/
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Well yeah I packed my stuff up but it was minor stuff, I think it would be extremely rude and disrespectful from his part if we don't break up properly and have proper closure. That's just so unfair. And also the fact that he is truly afraid of losing me as a friend (which he will. I'm not gonna be his friend after a break up) but he's said to me a few times that's what most bothers him cause he would still really want me in his life. So by just not giving me proper closure, that's just rude and would make me
Not want to be his friend even more :/

Also I have found out that for the last 2 days he has been extremely occupied, the whole time. Either at work or fixing his motorbike or being with friends, he has literally been doing something the entire time. If virgos do regret things will it take a while for them to realise? And will they need some alone time were they aren't doing anything to make them miss u a bit? (Not saying this will happen, just talking generally now)
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😢

Doesn't help that I haven't been sleeping properly and have now had 3 dreams in a row of him being nice to me 😢 what do they mean!

Sometimes when I have had dreams they have literally came true. Example I have heaps of pairs of denim shorts, and I had a dream that the zip on 1 particular pair broke. The NEXT day it actually did!

Another dream was about how I went to the nail place I go to to get shellac nail polish and they told me it costs extra for them to take the already existing nail polish off..then the next day I went to the place and they told me if cost extra. Lol :/ I know it's just little dreams but its weird?
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Posted by scorpio24
😢

Doesn't help that I haven't been sleeping properly and have now had 3 dreams in a row of him being nice to me 😢 what do they mean!

Sometimes when I have had dreams they have literally came true. Example I have heaps of pairs of denim shorts, and I had a dream that the zip on 1 particular pair broke. The NEXT day it actually did!

Another dream was about how I went to the nail place I go to to get shellac nail polish and they told me it costs extra for them to take the already existing nail polish off..then the next day I went to the place and they told me if cost extra. Lol :/ I know it's just little dreams but its weird?



I love shellacs! But ya that is weird lol
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okay, so u wont believe what i did....LOL :/

i couldnt handle it anymore!! so i knocked on his door this morning at 830, woke him up and he opened the door and i thought he was gonna be a jerk but he was actually nice and said hello and let me in.. then i was kind of like "sooo whats the verdict" and hes like "i dont know." and said i was too full on and needed to chill out. and i said "well you used to say that you could see yourself marrying me, and that u wouldnt stay with me unless u thought there COULD be something there in the future, right now do u think im worth this?" and he said thats what hes trying to figure out (and he is still unsure) but he said even though hes been soo productive and busy the last 4 days this has still been on his mind the WHOLE time.

and so then he was being quite nice, and offering to make me a smoothy and stuff lol cause he was having one.. and i was soo strong i only cried a little bit which is good for me coz the last 4 days i have been pathetic and balling my eyes out. and he sortof said in a down on me way "do u want a cuddle" but it was a serious question coz he knows i love affection, and i was like "nah, i actually dont" then it somehow got onto the topic of him going motocross riding (i ride aswell) and today will be the first time hes ridden in 6 months since he broke his leg.. and it turned into me going aswell coz i havent been riding much either and now its autumn. so yeahhh. :/

also, i said.. "maybe i should stop sleeping at your house every night and not see eachother as much coz i think thats part of the problem" and he was like "yeah probably"

so yes, here i am.. and we will probably eventually spiral back down to this at some point again but i cant help myself i have way too much hope. im kind of disappointed in my self. :/ ahhhhh
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Scorpio24... As a Virgo male myself, when we say that we're "still thinking about it", we actually know the answer... Sorry :/

Waiting for him to try and "figure" it out is a trick we do, so we don't have to deal with because it evolves to much emotions. Pathetic and cowardly, yes. It's a young un-murtured Virgos worst trait. I'm pretty sure I'll be getting bashed for this, but I'm just giving you some insight, and most likely the truth of your situation. Why was he being so nice? Simple, he feels bad for you, and as Virgos, we like to cheer people up, it's as simple as that. If your just going to wait for an answer, you'll be waiting your whole life. You and him both know it.
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Posted by scorpio24
okay, so u wont believe what i did....LOL :/

i couldnt handle it anymore!! so i knocked on his door this morning at 830, woke him up and he opened the door and i thought he was gonna be a jerk but he was actually nice and said hello and let me in.. then i was kind of like "sooo whats the verdict" and hes like "i dont know." and said i was too full on and needed to chill out. and i said "well you used to say that you could see yourself marrying me, and that u wouldnt stay with me unless u thought there COULD be something there in the future, right now do u think im worth this?" and he said thats what hes trying to figure out (and he is still unsure) but he said even though hes been soo productive and busy the last 4 days this has still been on his mind the WHOLE time.

and so then he was being quite nice, and offering to make me a smoothy and stuff lol cause he was having one.. and i was soo strong i only cried a little bit which is good for me coz the last 4 days i have been pathetic and balling my eyes out. and he sortof said in a down on me way "do u want a cuddle" but it was a serious question coz he knows i love affection, and i was like "nah, i actually dont" then it somehow got onto the topic of him going motocross riding (i ride aswell) and today will be the first time hes ridden in 6 months since he broke his leg.. and it turned into me going aswell coz i havent been riding much either and now its autumn. so yeahhh. :/

also, i said.. "maybe i should stop sleeping at your house every night and not see eachother as much coz i think thats part of the problem" and he was like "yeah probably"

so yes, here i am.. and we will probably eventually spiral back down to this at some point again but i cant help myself i have way too much hope. im kind of disappointed in my self. :/ ahhhhh



Damn... Intervention needed!!! Question, what did u acomplished with that visit—? I won't give up on you, you are so very young there is still hope, read that book, it works... Marriage— I am 33 and the veredict is still out about wanting to marry my boyfriend, there are so many factors... Why are you thinking about that now? And why kn earth are you bringing this up to a young young Virgo... Ahhhh :-/
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Posted by moongirljj
In other words go back to being the woman he first met, the woman who isn't afraid or impacted by his every move. Back to the time before any fear of losing him even entered your head.



im trying, heres an example: i just got home from motocross riding... and tonight he might be going to tea with his house mate and his girlfriend, i think he will invite me if he goes with them cause he said i could come this morning, but he's also invited to go with our other friends.. but i think thats just all boys, so i wont be invited. (which is fine, dont wanna go anyway) EITHER way.. the last few months i have noticed that im the one who is always initiating the contact and hanging out with eachother.. so tonight i am not going to message him unless he messages me to invite me, and if not.. ohwell ill text him before bed saying thanks for taking the bike to the track for me and good night with a smiley face. i think its little things like that that will make him feel more free and wont make him feel like he HAS to invite me and has to act like he loves me. ??

its just so hard to do cause im so insecure in the relationship (not with myself) coz i know the relationship is unstable.. but if i want go back to how i was at the start im just gonna have to. i do have lots of friends i can distract myself with.

do you think if i go back to being heaps more relaxed with the relationship like i was at the start that it could be good again?

also.. you guys say that he already knows the answer.. well i dont understand, if he already knows it why would he just not break up with me already?? wouldnt it be easier and less stressful for him if he just didnt have to deal with me anymore?? i dont get it.. cause i have said to him "okay fine, should we just break up then??" and he has specifically said (last week when we first began our "break) that he doesnt want us to break up. :/

i need to stop getting so emotional over everything and just chill out i think? very hard to do though.
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