When you feel the world betrays you...

You look at the world and start to question WHY DID THIS WORLD EVEN CREATED to begin with

You read some positive messages and what kind of mind state you need to apply to fix shit and all you want to do is to say SHUT the fuck UP

You curse at whatever while recalling your exes and including you own fucking partner and scream out loud in your mind, "Why the fuck didn't I had them when they were at their prime—!!"

You look at beautiful women and think "Surely its so easy for you to be happy."

And you BELIEVE in that there are beauty previleges

You feel no relationship, be it even from your parents toward you is real.

You think that you are ultimately stuck and you despise other people getting their turns to shine while you disbelieve yourself ever getting that turns.



When you remember people whom you see in great struggles, your mind just say, fuck that!



At the thought of God, you view Him as toying around human beings.

Then you go into a thought that you may be evil and you say, "then so be fucking it!"



And you feel your heart is just shrinking and then dispersed into nothingness

You are cautious of the possibility of other people being around you noticing how you are, and you wanna kill them with your eyes.



And thats how bad it is right now. .

And thats what I just wanna brood about right now and tomorrow and the rest of the weekend.



Yet, you feel fucking safe.

Safe.



Free.



And it helps you to feel better and strangely strong.

Because you feel the hatred. You feel sick and tired and want to turn everything dark by doing so.



Forget light worker and dark worker THEORIES.



People can come up with so many creative concepts they themselves not sure how they work as coping mechanism.



I dont cope.



I get down there to the bottom and just absorbing the darkness and be at one with it.

That's what I want.

That's where I am.



NOW.



Screw people and their peaceful and ridiculous happiness.

Screw myself.



And screw God himself. If this is the utmost betrayal for you then there you go. Why did you even create me to begin with. With all your omniscience, surely you already know that I can be like this. So why even make the punishment? Certainly it is for your own entertainment.

Screw the devil too, who the fuck says I'm teaming with you? You confused fucker.



And I want to find comfort in darkness.

O so ironic.

God says he will burn us in hell if we dont do what he wishes

But, when he burns us in hell, are we able to do what he wishes?

Rinse and repeat,

Create, burns, create, burns...

What is the exact solution in giving despair and pain to any creature he himself create if they do not do what he wishes?

Will that make those burnt ppl change their past?

No, since its irreversible.



Sounds childish.



If you want all humans to serve you then make us to be like angels who are basically imprinted and created solely to serve you. Why bother creating devil as well.



So weird and unaffective.



Im sorry but the whole concept doesnt fucking add up here.

moving our reservations from the 14th to the 15th i can forgive

but moving it from the 15th to the 16th just doesn't add up to me

Husband tried to sing some irrelevant song to our life.

He tried to make himself happy.

Just shut up. I know you are having shit ton of problems in your life and your trying to escape your stress by watching freaking funny videos or whatever non sense on Instagram.



You know what I hate, how much effort he makes to ACT and to believe its getting better.



Just shut the fuck up.

Posted by virgoOPPP

moving our reservations from the 14th to the 15th i can forgive

but moving it from the 15th to the 16th just doesn't add up to me

Just shut up. Its your fucking boss who reserved it for you.

Posted by sagaciouscorp

That’s why reincarnation makes more sense

It’s not god but our past behaviors in past lives

But is it what actually is?

I would have to die first to find out.

So frustrating.