Aqua/Aqua relationship

Just wanted to post this. As a few of you may know, I am married to a taurus, but am having not really physical, what I call kissing cousins relationship with another Aqua. This is what he recently said to me in an email:

Does it work with the horoscope thing . maybe so
>Yes my feelings are genuine. Just kept things inside because was
>easier.
>If I say something I mean it.
>Maybe it is the stars When it hits I just have to get it out.
>Just because you are warm, wonderful, sweet, kind, understanding,
>loving, forgiving, sympathetic and highly intellegent and not to
>mention very very cute a great kisser and snuggle real good.
>Why can I not tell you these things. THE truth is an absolute
>defense.
>What I am saying is true

Just had to share. God, what he says to me is just absolutely wild to me! What am I to do— He is so different from my Taurus. My Taurus is rugged and Manly and this Aquarian is just the opposite. He knows what exactly I am thinking. almost at all times, and he says that he is the same way! He told me yesterday that he figured out about his wife. (she's aries) He does love her because he has spent time with her and has children with her, but he DOESN'T LIKE HER ANYMORE. Is that Aquarina or what— We make such excuses that it's funny to other aquarians!

I am really going through a time right now. We are starting to get really, really, really close. And it's scaring the poop out of me! My husband (taurus, me aquarius just in case you didn't catch that!) have a great history. I really do love him. But I know that if this aqua man walked up to me right now and said let's go, I could do it. Is that bad—? I only know personally of one other Aqua/Aqua relationship. I love them both dearly, they are great people and a great couple, the only aqua/aqua relationship I have ever known.

I feel like lately I have become more aware of myself as a person in the last year because I have been around more Aquarians this past year. Should that make me act more Aquarian? I feel like it has. I have had my influence around me and that's why I have become 'ME' again.

Yeah, I got off the subject. will stop now. just needed to get some stuff out. thanks for letting me do it. I knew y'all would!!

mindy

i'm going through something similar! I am also in a marriage with an Aries and although i love him there is something missing ~ come to think of it, the relationship has always been missing something.
like yourself i have changed dramatically in the past year. since 02 my life was turned upside down and i rolled with the punches.
The most important thing to me is my family. They come first. But deep down i sometimes want to throw caution to the wind and do whateva i want for a change. that's when reality checks in. i ask myself who was w/me throughout the chaos? who supported me through all those rough times?
as u can see i really don't know w/ i'm suppose to do. i feel suffocated at times i know whats morally right but there are times i don't give a crap. i too have a relationship, not a physical one, with another man in my life. he is the one i want to be with but can't have. like u if he told me tomorrow lets go i would. i keep beatin myself up for this type of thinking. i know i'm cheatin (this is not like me) although i'm not having sex or anything it's still a form a cheatin.
i'm glad i read your post - i identified with it. i thought i was the only one going through something like this. i'm confused - i feel i'm selfish i have everything a girl could want - right now i hate being me.

Cielo, I was married to an Aries before. There always seemed to be something missing. I sometimes felt as if I had "settled" just because all of my friends were getting married. He was a great guy. Really nice, did for me all the time. Got anything I wanted. But you know what? I was a real b***h with him. I was a horrible person. I didn't like myself at all. Then I met my taurus. He literally swept me off my feet. He really took me by surprise and had me from the first kiss. We were great together in the beginning. Still are actually. Taurus are very sexual and I just can't hang, I guess. I want to, but I feel bad that I'm just not interested. We've been together 15 years (or more?) now. It just isn't on the high priority list for me. Now we argue about it. I tell him that the reason I'm not interested has more to do with the fact that I need more attention, more mental attention, to be able to want to have sex. I don't get that from him. That's our main problem always.

I feel horrible about what I am doing. He does too. We both feel bad about it. But we are enjoying each other. How do I describe it? I guess it's like what I told him the first time that he kissed me. I said we cannot do this. We both have very, very strong people behind us and both would be highly pissed. But we have stopped and started many times. Now, it's like I mention it and we keep on going! No, nothing physical yet. But it is getting close to that. Just because that is human nature.

I know what you mean about feeling suffocated. I keep saying that I feel like I'm going thru a mid-life crisis. I am 46 yrs old and just feel like I need to run away. I know what all the jokes are about now! hehe But really, that's how I feel. I feel like I need to be doing everything at once. I want to experience so much. And so much more than I know that I am going to experience.

I know also that it is not right. There is nothing that I can do about it anymore. Except to walk away. That would be the only way that it would end, is if I were the one to do it. I just can't do it right now. I know that I am jeopradising everything, but I can't help it. We would lose so much if anyone found out what was going on. There has been talk, but hopefully, we have talked around it. We are part of "group" of friends and neighbors, and shriners. He is a Shriner, my husband is a shriner. That is a BIG no-no, to play around. You will be booted out of the organization in a heartbeat, and the Masons too. He says that he weighed all that out before he kissed me. He feels he has already done that and that is fine if he loses all of that. Scarey, huh?

So much to say....I know how you feel and I am sorry that you are going thru this. It's hard, very confusing, but you will deal with it. That's part of our nature. We will deal with, no matter what.

Take care. Thanks for posting. Makes feel better!

mindy