Jikanyotomare
@Jikanyotomare
8 Years
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Posted by aquarius_beautyI'm 100% certain I was a good woman to him. He knows that. He just doesn't want to man up. Hed rather lie, hoe around on FB, smoke weed all day, and be lazy. It's the same reason doesn't move in with his mom because he wants to act an a**. He sleeps on the floor in a smelly apartment when he moved in with his mom he'd be ale to get back into school, find a job, and save for a car. ??
I feel for you. But, you need to go out and distract yourself. Time will heal your wounds.
As far as you feeling like he lost a good woman, you either were or you weren't. In his eyes right now, you weren't. Aquas don't like to be in emotional tumultuous relationships. Jealousy being an incredibly negative factor against you.
You should just focus on yourself. Heal, reflect, and move on. If you were truly a good woman to him, he will return. But he won't stay if he doesn't see a significant change in you.
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He chose to walk out of my life "twice" because he can't man up and appreciate a good woman. The worse thing I've ever done was lose my temper over something stupid and accuse him of cheating. Other than I was 100% loving, giving, honest, and loyal to him.
After we broke up he literally wrote an FB post about how some women are trophies.They don't lie, cheat, or entertain other men. They're 1000% loyal. I'm single, where she at? He literally described me and it felt like a slap in the face.I think I cried for two days.
I loved him so much but he just didn't appreciate me or anything I did.
I even got counseling to work on my issues for us & now I may be disqualified from the military because of those records. I don't know yet. I won't know for sure until next week.
Every day I feel so much anxiety worrying about him, what he's doing, & whether I'll be able to join the military. I put off the military for him & my mother but he doesn't even know that.
I'm tired of feeling for him. I'm tired of worrying about him. I'm tired of hoping he'll come back. I'm tired of thinking about him. I just want to let go, get myself together, and become a proud Airmen.
He used to be everything I ever wanted but I don't want someone who doesn't want me & walks away without a word.