@aquaglass
13 Years1,000+ Posts
I just ended my 6 years long distance interaction with an addicted & drug dealer cancer.
I thought it would feel so bad, like it used to when we stopped talking before. But i feel ok, more like i feel nothing it's almost like numbness.
Have you aquas ever experienced similar thing?
i would never want long distance in the first place...
i would make it a reality..... earth dominant.. i think that's why i can make things happen.
earth is doing, and getting things done.
and i wouldnt want to deal with the constant suffering of wondering where he is or what he's doing. I'd like to know what my man is doing everyday. at all times lol even if he's working outside the home...at least i know he's out there working and always coming home.
now that i think of it..i experienced something similar, BUT i was married to him lol
the pisces first husband.. it was hard to let go, i cried every day and couldnt eat.
he is still in and out of prison. and got married again and divorced. He had many chances of finding a good woman afterward but couldnt keep her, due to the addiction and criminal activities.
It's really hard to care for people who have addictions. You will always come second. And whatever way they decided to fuck up their life is not something you want to deal with all the time.
You may feel some relief from it being over as well.
You've been druged for six years hence the numb feeling.
Btw my senses are always strong. I can even almost hear when the plants speaking.
My guess is that you have reached the end of your rope so to speak - it's almost like a relief from all the stress. Now it is time to focus on yourself and get re-organized for the rest of your life. You've done all that you could but finally realized it isn't up to you to change the situation. It is what it is. It doesn't mean you can't still like/love that person but from here on out, it will be from a distance. You've heard all the stories and listened to all the empty promises.
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I just ended my 6 years long distance interaction with an addicted & drug dealer cancer.
I thought it would feel so bad, like it used to when we stopped talking before. But i feel ok, more like i feel nothing it's almost like numbness.
Have you aquas ever experienced similar thing?