just venting

ok so i screwed it up with my aquarian man and he is no longer speaking to me. i know i should be moving on, but i am so upset and lots of things were left unsettled, so i cant get him or the situation off my mind. i'm still very much into him, and i'm hurt that he wants me out of his life. our fight broke out 3 weeks ago, and we've fought before, but we've never ignored each other for this long. i know i wont be able to move on unless i call him, or go and see him, but i have a feeling that wont go to well. i'm kinda just venting out here .. but if anyone has anything to say that might help id appreciate it. thanksss!

p.s. i'm a scorpio/sag cusp and i cant let things go unless its been settled!! and i'm big on talking everything out .. thats why this is driving me a little crazy.

"fight broke out 3 weeks ago, and we've fought before, but we've never ignored each other for this long."

If I remember right, you mugged down on some other guy while he was away, didn't you? This is a different kind of fight and he has too much pride to let you back in. You really need to move on.

😛

hey special

hey aguaa, rockychicky

some interesting convo(s) going on here...

prime! 🙂

my weekend's okay...how is the pumped life?

Ok what have I missed?

*munches on her popcorn*

Is Sag still in his psycho fit phase? Awww snap out of it saggy. All is forgiven from me anyway.

Message posted by: sagitTAUries on 8/13/2006 5:49:25 PM

^this user is assaulting my eyespace

*squints*

anyway...my gran is doing okay...she's back at home now but kinda weak...my mom has been doing the nursemaid thing and she's exhausted

schoene, you can fuck off if you'd like, if you've got a problem with freedom of speech, maybe you should get the fuck off the internet.

awwww...it's adorable when you swear...I never said anything about freespeach...you can jackoff all you want- just gives me mild eyestrain is all

"awwww...it's adorable when you swear.."

Yes so true saggy. You can be quite endearing when you're going on a full out vent. Much more appealing than when you're actually trying to be.

"go to fuckin hell"

wow who needs love poetry when you've got saggy?

prime- don't forget the before and after pics 😉

I photographed my good friend at the start of her competition building phase all the way up to competition day! It was over a period of a few months- I did it every week- it was amazing to see how the body developed over a period of time

like i said, no one's keeping you here, so get the fuck out.

*pets the bull through the SCREEN*

you fuckhead...lol...getting all worked up on a message board...life must be too happy for you 🙂

muse- what are your parents signs?

do you have sibs?

I'm actually surprised my biceps are stronger than my tris which should be the other way around. But once I start using the tricep rope, that should change. Upper back is very strong, I have yet to max out on that area. I could probably bump it up to 120lbs this week and see how that goes. I'm slowly working up to higher weights to see how the machine and my body handles it.

this is typical- the biceps respond the quickest out of all the upper body muscles...I found me biceps to be stronger also when I first started working out- the tri's were hard for me to get- pretty weak on most women

I'm here sb...just got something to drink and took care of some mail

UUHHHGHGGFGODD

my tummy is killing right now- I went the whole day and it was fine but now it's all hurty because I ate pizza for din which I'm not supposed to because it has everything that makes my belly feel sharp and twisty

😢

my rule of thumb is to use same weight for triceps and biceps to keep them balanced.

^that's great - 'cept even from the start I was no where near able to work my tris with what was far too light for my bis...ahhh well I'm not pumpin anymore- at my school where I dance it's considered evil to work out - my instructor clearly expresses her distaste for the muscular ballerinas...lol...it's not "classical"- I was always hyper concerned after a work out- afraid that she would notice or something lol...I couldn't really relish the development of my muscles 😢

that's the thing gl- I'm leaving for vaca on fri. and I don't really have time to get in for an appointment before that (it's complicated)!! I'm going to suck it up and get looked at when I get back...

I have found that I really can keep it under control by eating the right foods though...I just need to stick to it- otherwise I pay...it's all my fault that I'm hurting now 😢 so I can take the punishment...I deserve it...

I was getting sick of a diet of toast and oatmeal...blechhh...

I have had raisin bread for like every frickin meal!!!! UURghhh...at first I loved it...I was like--ohhh this is great yummmmyyyy- breakfast all the time yay- no hurty tummy!!!! Now I rather puke than look at that damn raisin bread...

I'm now undergoing serious alcohol therapy to sooth the pain

all the little pains just goooo away o_O

and that's another thing!!

where the hell is the doctor -_- anyway? he hasn't been in the office very much lately 😢

the thing with the gallstones is that eating grease and fat makes the pain because the gallbladder squeezes out the bile more to break down fats- the squeezing-when it grinds against the gall stones is what causes the pain 😢

I have noticed a direct relationship- that's why I'm pretty sure it's gallstones and not an ulcer- with an ulcer- fatty things- like whole milk can actually have a soothing effect- not the case here!!

it's not just fat- but anything that requires lots of bile to digest dense foods- I have trouble with chicken too 😢 but fish seems to be okay

salad is fine- no raw veggies though...they hurt a bit- but cooked ones seem to be fine

I can eat carbs fine too- lots of bread 🙂 which is good 'cause that's the one thing I can't live without!!