Hi, having a hard time, I know it’s my fault. I was in a Long Distance Relationship, and then at xmas she moved to Chile, which is twice as far. Just managed to find time off work to see her and was about to book 23 hr flight although I was annoyed it’s so far. Then I noticed on facebook she was tagged with another guy, so I started talking to her this morning and she was calling me her love as usual, then I asked about the other guy and she said it was my fault because I hadn’t made any effort to see her, and I was her second plan, that she wanted to get married but I didn’t. Anyway just feel like crap now. I don’t know what I expected to happen, I guess this is what I expected but it just feels crappy. And I haven’t seen her in one year and a half so I kind of get it. I’ve dated other women so I know I’m an idiot anyway. I did love her, that’s the only thing I suppose. Now I guess I have to realise she was always dating other men. But I’m not going to visit her when she has another man. I guess my question is how do I get my head right? I think when she was 10hrs away it was bad, so I should have just let things go along time ago. It’s probably just my ego is bruised? I think I’m just thinking she always talked crap about loving me in the first place? If this morning she was saying she loved me, until I asked if she had a boyfriend. I dunno, any advice? I guess I just have to think logically, 23hrs away is impossible, and at the moment I’m just angry and frustrated. I knew she was probably sleeping with other men and just telling me she loved me, and I think she loved me, but then I thought I don’t want to go all that way to Chile if she has a boyfriend there. Sorry, I’m just realising how stupid and how much of a waste of time all this was.
