PATH TO HAPPINESS (Page 2)

LOL!
YEAH Sweets!

Back off, way off not unless you are ready for a heavy roller coaster ride. It is just good to keep him under the impression that he cannot have you.

my day is good.
ate a nice breakfast, went to the gym,
had a big lunch, some icecream, got bored
took a nice long nap, so im feeling fine.
a great sunday.

now i will just wiat til it cools down abit and then i will go for a nice walk outside.

lol

IVE DECIDED.

if he calls, i will not answer.
its too late to apologize.
lol
haha jsut listened to that song by timberland, lol amazing!

mmm foood at LLT i want breakfast but krobe still not good advice from you though cause too many holes in ur story. Yes keep shining Sweet fatale i will tell u thi smuch once you have us in your sights and sho wlove and share each other little thought s and goals we will get u hitched. We kinda mysterious at times because we tend to feel out the situation relax and when we ready come to u and when we cum to u it's LOVE AT full force.

BlackKnoxx

Too many holes like what?

I had a man. I told my Cancer friend I had a man. He wanted to be my man. I told him we could be just friends, no sexual contact. We remained friends and talked from time to time. He said he wanted to have a relationship with me, I was moving way too slow to give him one. I told him that I wanted to do things on MY terms so he did not feel as if I was leaving my man for him.

He chased me and begged me for a relationship. When I was ready to give him a relationship, he told me he was scared. I am saying, OK, be scared, while you are scared, I am not going to sit around waiting on your ass or feed your negativity of being scared. I can't help the way he feels right now. I am not chasing him though. If he wants to be scared, I will back way, way, back and let him be scared. I don't chase after men. Nope, not me. It is too many out here that will appreciate a good woman. I am not looking for a man anyways, I need to get myself together, so I want to be single.

What is hard to process on that note. Can anyone else see any holes I left out of the story?

uhoh! im scared! night time is coming and im starting to miss him again.
even worse, the week is coming, theres going to be plenty time on the bus and wiating around being bored in class when im going to want to call or txt :S

now im sad..... he's not going to come back, he thinks im psycho ... its been 5 days 😢

inao krobe, sounds normal to me... bu im not a cancer... so i dont knwo how blackknoxx is interpreting it

come on LLT you can do itttt. JUst busy urself i'm chceeerin u on but i do not want this too be about krobe ITs about you and having a kind of zen like experience. EVer tried writing a poem.

Day6 - feeling torn

a poem? haha , no, well actually yesi have, but it always comes out soudning dumb so i scrap it.

i kno i can do it, after this, it would be dumb for me to give up now after doing so good.
but, i dont know...... now i get the feeling that what he said may be true, that he wnats nothign to do with me, so now im starting to hurt again.

Lil.ladie.taurus,

Just keep doing you, you will be OK, sometimes you have to step back away from distractions and do yourself. You will live through it, and in about three weeks when he returns, just tell him right now, you have things that you need to take care of for yourself.

Thank you LK, well said, it does NOT MATTER what another person thinks of YOU!

He might not come back, be prepared to deal with that. Come here when you start to feel the need to impulsively do something to make sure he will come back.

I dont want him to think that he can't have me. He is the type who if he thinks he cant have me he wont even try. He needs to see me react to what he does and says. And I've figure it out, he isnt even playing games, he's doing the same thing to me that I did to guys in high school. Making them stand behind the glass until the proved they wouldnt break my glass rose, then when they proved it the wall came up and they were allowed in. I can give him that courtesy. I told him "I'll be here to go there when you're ready to go there". And we talked later on and he seemed really relaxed and relieved for a change.

thankyou leokitten, that was the most positive feedback i ahve ever gotten from u 🙂
so, i willl honour ur kindness, and take those 3 questions into consideration today.
not into consideration actually, i will pound them into my brain. lol
thnx

chnage of thought, IM DYING... i wanna call him or txt him... BADLY..... but i dont kno wut to say to get him to respond.
you know what, nvm, if i have nothign good to sya i wont sya nothing at all.
ughhh.. im gunna crack, i can feel it.

No you arent, dont say anything. Dont text him dont call him. I promise you if you do it afterwards you'll feel like an idiot with no self control.

Don't focus on needing a response from him, think about how he hurt you and pushed you away, how inconsiderate of your feelings he is....use the truth as fuel and start the fire with the rose colored glasses Hun. If he was so grand and so good he wouldnt be doing this to you, he would be treating you right, but he isnt and you deserve someone who will treat you right...who will treat you better than he has, better than he wants to.

😭

Its ok Ma. Its like withdraw, you have to take the time to get it out of your system before you can function properly without it, but withdraw is never a bad thing, its just a step in the process of moving on. You'll be ok. If you cant take it one day at a time take it an hour, if not an hour a minute, if not a minute, a second...just every second you feel like calling him dont do it.

thankyou SF, uve been a major help

Its ok Ma. Its like withdraw, you have to take the time to get it out of your system before you can function properly without it, but withdraw is never a bad thing, its just a step in the process of moving on. You'll be ok. If you cant take it one day at a time take it an hour, if not an hour a minute, if not a minute, a second...just every second you feel like calling him dont do it.

Good advice, he will probably ignore your calls anyways. I think sometimes Cancer men like to sulk, if he likes to sulk let him. He wants alone time and he is probably saying things to hurt you so that you will leave him alone and let him have his alone time. Just chill out, take a deep breath and relax.

yes krobe, i believe u are right. at first he was nice about it, said he coulnt do it ne more, and that he was sorry. wouldnt tell me the reason for this decision of his, he said it did not matter. it was when i kept bothering him, and callin when he started to be mean and say things like, i wnat nothign to do with u etc....

so thankyou, uve made me feel alittle better bout the situation, i can stop thinking he hates me, and jsut think that he needs space.
now maybe i can focus on me.

"and for the record, i do not think cancers leave. my major experience with cancers is my sis in law and my bf. they stick things out. they stay and stay and stay, evern probably past the point they shoudl leave for their own good. a cancer who is with you, is with you. period."

leokitten - You couldn't have said it better, especially the part about staying past the point when we should leave. I can say I am guilty of that.

LeoKitten, you are funny. LOL!

SHe already stated that she was a Taurus, unlike us Leo's they have and abundance of patience that you nor I would tolerate from another individual. I have a best friend who is a Taurus, and trust me they can TOLERATE!

It is good that she is coming to the boards venting, I hope we have given her some help and support.

my best friend is a taurus. and if a man spoke to her like that she would sooner throw all her good china at his head and send him to his grave than she would stick around pining after him. hell no! respect!

Well that is the thing. My best friend DOES the same thing to her husband and she will SMACK him real quick if he even spits wrong. Tauruses don't play when they love you. LOL!

IM HAPPY TO REPORT THAT I DID NOTHING!! lol yay, thanks leo..... instead i called up my cuzin and we went to the mandarin, and then feeling like a lump of crap, i went to the gym, and here i am now hahha... and im feeling much better... no intentions in contacting anymore. i made it thru... woohoooooooo... 2morrow will be 1 full week... IM READY FOR IT

lol good stuff LLT! Keep that douche at a distance, you don't need anything that won't benefit you in your life! Keep at it eh!

haha yuah, ive gained 15 lbs since ive started talking to him lol.... tsk tsk... not good.... ive alreday lost 3 lbs since ive stopped lol

You will go good liladie

I lost about 40 lbs over the summer, it was HOT! And it still is VERY hot where I live. So, how does it feel to go a week? LOL! I feel you honey, I feel you!

lol it feels really good to go a week, i gotta admit, i wanted to call him this morning, but i thought... no... then what is this whole board for? so i went to check it out, and i saw that idea of setting a goal to lose 2 lbs this week, and i LOVEDD IT.
si thas wut ima do, got my workout gear on and ready lol

haha,awwwwwwww, yay cant wait! then if i were to see him, he will see how god damn hot i look without him lol

ive been crying all morning, iano wuts happeneing to me...

withdrawl, thats just him and the pain he caused oozing out. Welcome it, experience it, enjoy it because its part of the process of growth and maturity.

Leokitten, you have good ideas. LOL!

haha aww i love u lol ur awesome lol thanks

YOU DONT WNAT TO KNOW.
LET THE BASHING BEGIN!
i called this morning.....twice in a row, no answer.
i was still on a high, so i decided i wnated to call again, but before i did, he called me back.
i was shitting my pants, here we go, be ready to get defensive.
i answer , he says: WHATS UP— as if NOTHIGN HAPPENED.
i wa sshocked, said: not much at school, u?
him: work
me: kool
him: whats up?
me: iano
him: u called?
me: yah
him: what for?
me: to talk
him: about wut?
me: LOL I dont even know, i wasnt expecting u to call back.
him: lol ok
me: um, do u wnana chill tonite?
him: wut do u wanna do?
me: not sure
him: well i dont know
me: okay i will let u go then
him: alrite, ttyl
me: bye?

OMG, IT WAS SO MESSED UP
i didnt kno wut to say, lol

LOL! Girl you Tauruses are a mess. I couldn't chase after a man like that. LOL! But you go girl. You go girl.

LOL im still in shock, iano wut to whether, whether its a good thign or a bad thing lol

lol iano wut to think*

aww you were doing so good...

lilladie i mean

well everyone its a good thing i did call, cuz we talked again that dya on the phone, and he was aksing me all sorts of questions, why i want him in my life, and a million other things liek why i liek the sex, etc, he even said: do u love me? and got me to say, i duno, sumtimes... he said: u do... and i said: i guess... thinking since hes asking me all these quetsions he does care. he got me to pour out all my deepest feelings for 45 minutes, only to tell me that he is not attracted to me at all, that it was fun at frts then he started to get disgusted and it wasnt fun anymore. i wnated ot throw up, i wnated ot hang up, i wanted to scream, cry, and tell him i hated him, but i didnt, instead i stayed on the phone like the pathetic person i am with no self respect ( tahknyou leokitten) feeling sry for myself, and still tryna get sumthign nice out of his mouth. after more torturous words, and me holding onto nohting, we hung up the phone. i cried for 3 hours like i was just killed. i have never felt so disgusted by myself in my life, i have never been so disgusted with him before in my life. i went home and ripped up all his photos and all the lil diary entries i wrote about him when we first met, and i thru it on his driveway. intense yes, but i do not care. cuz as far as i am concerned hes dead to me. and i DO NOT, deserve this shit. HE HAD me wishing to take my own life. and i HATE him, for making me hate msyelf. i will never be the same again, but i will be stronger.

Well LLT, hopefully this time you got it through your stubborn lil taurus head and it will be easier to move on. it seems like retarded torture and a lot of people may lift their noses and shake their heads but if you learn from it then you'll look back and appreciate it. We've all done stupid things, despite the inability of some to admit it, it's a part of life.