
I think that sometimes I'm just prone to assholery. Even though I don't mean to be a jerk. Also why do we push people away when they get too close. I really hate myself sometimes.

Posted by Rindaroo
Why sometimes do you take a step back & push someone away instead of just taking that step forward?
Posted by Gob_Shite
Based on real life experiences alone, it seems to be more of an epidemic among Cap women than Cap men...


Posted by MyStarsShineThank you.
Everyone is a jerk at times
I take my hat off to you for admitting to being in the wrong sometimes, it's the quickest way to putting things right
A rare occurrence for a Capricorn!
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Posted by lnana04A lot of times I realize that I initiated it. Unfortunately by the time I've come to my senses I've dug myself into a hole.a deep dark hole. I literally hate that about myself.
I just prayed about 2hrs ago that I be delivered of some of my ways because they can be ugly. I think some of us do have some weird ways, and as much as I can get upset thinking of how someone wronged me, usually all it takes is a bit of analyzing to see that I most likely initiated the wrongdoing. It's a hard pill to swallow realizing that you either need to push everyone away to prevent hurting them, or completely rewire yourself. Unfortunately, it seems easier pushing everyone away. Trying to change seems so hard sometimes.

Posted by MissLadyIceQueenPosted by lnana04A lot of times I realize that I initiated it. Unfortunately by the time I've come to my senses I've dug myself into a hole.a deep dark hole. I literally hate that about myself.
I just prayed about 2hrs ago that I be delivered of some of my ways because they can be ugly. I think some of us do have some weird ways, and as much as I can get upset thinking of how someone wronged me, usually all it takes is a bit of analyzing to see that I most likely initiated the wrongdoing. It's a hard pill to swallow realizing that you either need to push everyone away to prevent hurting them, or completely rewire yourself. Unfortunately, it seems easier pushing everyone away. Trying to change seems so hard sometimes.click to expand

Posted by Neno2You're supposed to chase us when we do the pull backs.Posted by MissLadyIceQueenYes,cap ladies are jerks sometimes?they run away from love
I think that sometimes I'm just prone to assholery. Even though I don't mean to be a jerk. Also why do we push people away when they get too close. I really hate myself sometimes.click to expand


Posted by EvoxxxscorpioPosted by MyStarsShinelol very rare indeed
Everyone is a jerk at times
I take my hat off to you for admitting to being in the wrong sometimes, it's the quickest way to putting things right
A rare occurrence for a Capricorn!
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Posted by EvoxxxscorpioPosted by MissLadyIceQueenlol maybe cause you're still young so it might change a bit when you get olderPosted by EvoxxxscorpioPosted by MyStarsShinelol very rare indeed
Everyone is a jerk at times
I take my hat off to you for admitting to being in the wrong sometimes, it's the quickest way to putting things right
A rare occurrence for a Capricorn!
🙂
If you only knew how much I loath myself for getting in my own way with stuff. Also that I can be such a jerk. I just stare in a mirror sometimes like why am I like this—?
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Posted by RindarooI honestly have no idea anymore , most people run when I freak out and start sabotaging the relationship or whatever it is. Reassure me that it's okay I guess? Don't leave , I think I might do this because once I realize I have very real strong feelings for someone I then realize that they have control over me. It makes me panic, bc at that point this person can make or break my day(s). Also it may also be initial freak out, I want to see if they have that "staying power" even when I'm being an emotional weirdo , jerk, whatever. I think it gives me some kind of comfort because then I realize that we can get through things.Posted by lnana04Yes that makes sense. So how do you get comfortable? That is if the person doesn't go away. is it a back and forth push/pull thing until you get there?Posted by Rindaroo
Why sometimes do you take a step back & push someone away instead of just taking that step forward?
In my experience, that step forward may require too much change that I'm comfortable with.
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Posted by RindarooIt would calm me down alot when I do pull backs if someone just said I love you, or I'm really into you, you're safe with me, I'm not going anywhere, you don't have to put your guard up it's okay. Anything comforting and reassuring. I over analyze so much that I will go over the good, the bad, the ugly, all in my head. You can guess which part I'm knit picking mentally when I start freaking out and pull back.Posted by MissLadyIceQueenWell this seems to be applying with my Cap bf too. My question is how are we suppose to handle them running away from feelings not just the actual situation? I know that's what happens & is due to his baggage. Are we not supposed to continue to deal with the issue when there is all this pull back behavior? He already has admitted to getting nervous sometimes but yet sits there & plans future things. —? It is so confusing. It's like that get too close and then woaaaah hold on now.Posted by Neno2You're supposed to chase us when we do the pull backs.Posted by MissLadyIceQueenYes,cap ladies are jerks sometimes?they run away from love
I think that sometimes I'm just prone to assholery. Even though I don't mean to be a jerk. Also why do we push people away when they get too close. I really hate myself sometimes.
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Posted by EvoxxxscorpioA girl can dream, about those dreamy dreamy Scorpios.Posted by MissLadyIceQueenlol you just haven't found your match as of yet. Who knows maybe a Scorpio might change that one of these days lolPosted by EvoxxxscorpioPosted by MissLadyIceQueenlol maybe cause you're still young so it might change a bit when you get olderPosted by EvoxxxscorpioPosted by MyStarsShinelol very rare indeed
Everyone is a jerk at times
I take my hat off to you for admitting to being in the wrong sometimes, it's the quickest way to putting things right
A rare occurrence for a Capricorn!
🙂
If you only knew how much I loath myself for getting in my own way with stuff. Also that I can be such a jerk. I just stare in a mirror sometimes like why am I like this—?
For the love of destinys child I sure hope so, or else I fear I may live my entire life alone. I'm being dramatic but I promise if I could choke myself out sometimes I would.
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Posted by RindarooPosted by MissLadyIceQueenHow far into a relationship goes this usually happen? I wonder if this is what my boyfriend is doing... idk I'm older so there's more baggage & probably I understand better. Or maybe it's my Sag optimism lol. And I'm dominant Cap so I understand some but not entirely. I would rather deal with things head on & force myself to take the step even if it took me a bit to get there.Posted by RindarooI honestly have no idea anymore , most people run when I freak out and start sabotaging the relationship or whatever it is. Reassure me that it's okay I guess? Don't leave , I think I might do this because once I realize I have very real strong feelings for someone I then realize that they have control over me. It makes me panic, bc at that point this person can make or break my day(s). Also it may also be initial freak out, I want to see if they have that "staying power" even when I'm being an emotional weirdo , jerk, whatever. I think it gives me some kind of comfort because then I realize that we can get through things.Posted by lnana04Yes that makes sense. So how do you get comfortable? That is if the person doesn't go away. is it a back and forth push/pull thing until you get there?Posted by Rindaroo
Why sometimes do you take a step back & push someone away instead of just taking that step forward?
In my experience, that step forward may require too much change that I'm comfortable with.
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Posted by RindarooFor every step back with me (if you can be strong for me through it, and just be that support I need with whatever I am freaking out about) then after I take two or three steps forward.Posted by MissLadyIceQueenIt's completely in his head! I'm pretty sure emotional triggers related to his ex & being very hurt. He has trouble when he thinks we are moving faster than he's ready to. But the thing is I'm not. It's about past people not respecting where he is really at. Plus I think we might have talked about it too much this week.. and instead of taking the step he backed up in an effort to be "fair". It is an action that tells me this after the conversations we had. I'm really in no hurry, i'm okay with letting things evolve. It just drives me crazy to see backwards motion instead of steps forward.Posted by RindarooPosted by MissLadyIceQueenHow far into a relationship goes this usually happen? I wonder if this is what my boyfriend is doing... idk I'm older so there's more baggage & probably I understand better. Or maybe it's my Sag optimism lol. And I'm dominant Cap so I understand some but not entirely. I would rather deal with things head on & force myself to take the step even if it took me a bit to get there.Posted by RindarooI honestly have no idea anymore , most people run when I freak out and start sabotaging the relationship or whatever it is. Reassure me that it's okay I guess? Don't leave , I think I might do this because once I realize I have very real strong feelings for someone I then realize that they have control over me. It makes me panic, bc at that point this person can make or break my day(s). Also it may also be initial freak out, I want to see if they have that "staying power" even when I'm being an emotional weirdo , jerk, whatever. I think it gives me some kind of comfort because then I realize that we can get through things.Posted by lnana04Yes that makes sense. So how do you get comfortable? That is if the person doesn't go away. is it a back and forth push/pull thing until you get there?Posted by Rindaroo
Why sometimes do you take a step back & push someone away instead of just taking that step forward?
In my experience, that step forward may require too much change that I'm comfortable with.
It varies depending on how emotionally connected we are. Sometimes sooner , sometimes longer. I'd just ask what's making him freak out and if there is anything you can do to make him feel more stable. This is the best way I know how to put this from a personal point of view. Goats climb mountains right? So imagine he's climbing a relationship mountain and he's stepped on a wobbly rock(which is probably just all in his head) it makes me super nervous and freaks me out bc I feel like if this rock gives I'm going to fall all the way down this mountain and get really hurt. Figure out how to make that rock a lot less woobly.
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Posted by Neno2Posted by MissLadyIceQueenYes,cap ladies are jerks sometimes?they run away from love
I think that sometimes I'm just prone to assholery. Even though I don't mean to be a jerk. Also why do we push people away when they get too close. I really hate myself sometimes.click to expand
Posted by Gob_ShitePosted by lnana04Posted by Gob_Shite
Based on real life experiences alone, it seems to be more of an epidemic among Cap women than Cap men...
I'm trying to see if I can argue with you there. Not sure if I can yet.
Even if you could, I wouldn't really care...
I know what I know and I certainly don't need any validation from anyone.
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Posted by MissLadyIceQueenI definitely can relate to this but not the jerk or asshole part. Everything else is on point! I am on the very chill side maybe too much. I hate conflict and am always the first to admit when I am wrong.Posted by RindarooI honestly have no idea anymore , most people run when I freak out and start sabotaging the relationship or whatever it is. Reassure me that it's okay I guess? Don't leave , I think I might do this because once I realize I have very real strong feelings for someone I then realize that they have control over me. It makes me panic, bc at that point this person can make or break my day(s). Also it may also be initial freak out, I want to see if they have that "staying power" even when I'm being an emotional weirdo , jerk, whatever. I think it gives me some kind of comfort because then I realize that we can get through things.Posted by lnana04Yes that makes sense. So how do you get comfortable? That is if the person doesn't go away. is it a back and forth push/pull thing until you get there?Posted by Rindaroo
Why sometimes do you take a step back & push someone away instead of just taking that step forward?
In my experience, that step forward may require too much change that I'm comfortable with.
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Posted by Gob_ShiteIm not reading all that sh#t, so unnecessary and b#tchy. I will never EVER quote you on anything else again, and I'm not wasting anymore of my beautiful Saturday on stupidity. My goodness, you'd think I was going back and forth with a female. Only a Cap male would find an opportunity for confrontation in something so innocent. Yeah, I will pray harder and maybe next time I'll pray for you too.Posted by lnana04
I'm trying to see if I can argue with you there. Not sure if I can yet.
And, in typical hardcore Cap fashion, you couldn't just say, "I agree" or "You're right". You had to dilute that sentiment, while alluding to the slight possibility that the very thing you're reluctantly agreeing to could still be wrong (hence my defiant reply, which got you on the defensive).
Next time, I suggest you pray harder...
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This post couldn't have come at a better time....just had an amazing night with my 3 year LDR Cappy and he is flying back today ? He has gone so quiet on me and I was geared up for this. Started out strong then time and thinking I started doubting...read your post and sent him a message saying I'm thinking of him. He wrote back about work etc (he dances around my feelings messages haha) he flies again later today to get training in his new job for a week. So I chucked him a reply saying big times ahead and I'll be patient and there even though he will be busy....it felt so amazing the other night then to completely have it swing right around? He does this every time we get together and even prior like he is testing me that I won't stand him or something. Any ideas on how I can ease him on trusting me, this, us?

Posted by MissLadyIceQueenPosted by Miscorpion
This post couldn't have come at a better time....just had an amazing night with my 3 year LDR Cappy and he is flying back today ? He has gone so quiet on me and I was geared up for this. Started out strong then time and thinking I started doubting...read your post and sent him a message saying I'm thinking of him. He wrote back about work etc (he dances around my feelings messages haha) he flies again later today to get training in his new job for a week. So I chucked him a reply saying big times ahead and I'll be patient and there even though he will be busy....it felt so amazing the other night then to completely have it swing right around? He does this every time we get together and even prior like he is testing me that I won't stand him or something. Any ideas on how I can ease him on trusting me, this, us?
Just keep being there for him. Keep being positive and reassuring him that you're there.
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Posted by MiscorpionPosted by MissLadyIceQueenPosted by Miscorpion
This post couldn't have come at a better time....just had an amazing night with my 3 year LDR Cappy and he is flying back today ? He has gone so quiet on me and I was geared up for this. Started out strong then time and thinking I started doubting...read your post and sent him a message saying I'm thinking of him. He wrote back about work etc (he dances around my feelings messages haha) he flies again later today to get training in his new job for a week. So I chucked him a reply saying big times ahead and I'll be patient and there even though he will be busy....it felt so amazing the other night then to completely have it swing right around? He does this every time we get together and even prior like he is testing me that I won't stand him or something. Any ideas on how I can ease him on trusting me, this, us?
Just keep being there for him. Keep being positive and reassuring him that you're there.
Ill keep trying and be there, it does get me upset to be honest I don't show him anymore as he stays away longer. The closeness, he gets so intense, passionate and does so many sweet little gestures, then once we part he makes minimal contact for a few days. I'm a Scorpio with Capricorn moon and I protect my heart...he tore all my armour down and I always tell him how amazing he is. I can't penetrate him and sometimes I just need to hear that I'm just as special as he is to me. You just can't help but wonder if you said or did something and if he will come back...I'm not one for instability. Some days its hard, I look so forward to seeing him and the moments are so special but I know it always comes with a price, him pulling away.
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Posted by MiscorpionPosted by MissLadyIceQueenPosted by Miscorpion
This post couldn't have come at a better time....just had an amazing night with my 3 year LDR Cappy and he is flying back today ? He has gone so quiet on me and I was geared up for this. Started out strong then time and thinking I started doubting...read your post and sent him a message saying I'm thinking of him. He wrote back about work etc (he dances around my feelings messages haha) he flies again later today to get training in his new job for a week. So I chucked him a reply saying big times ahead and I'll be patient and there even though he will be busy....it felt so amazing the other night then to completely have it swing right around? He does this every time we get together and even prior like he is testing me that I won't stand him or something. Any ideas on how I can ease him on trusting me, this, us?
Just keep being there for him. Keep being positive and reassuring him that you're there.
Ill keep trying and be there, it does get me upset to be honest I don't show him anymore as he stays away longer. The closeness, he gets so intense, passionate and does so many sweet little gestures, then once we part he makes minimal contact for a few days. I'm a Scorpio with Capricorn moon and I protect my heart...he tore all my armour down and I always tell him how amazing he is. I can't penetrate him and sometimes I just need to hear that I'm just as special as he is to me. You just can't help but wonder if you said or did something and if he will come back...I'm not one for instability. Some days its hard, I look so forward to seeing him and the moments are so special but I know it always comes with a price, him pulling away.
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Posted by WomiiPosted by MissLadyIceQueenI appreciate the fact that you're being so honest
I think that sometimes I'm just prone to assholery. Even though I don't mean to be a jerk. Also why do we push people away when they get too close. I really hate myself sometimes.
Some people will never be so honest rather they blame it on the other person.
I remember my ex used to say "omg I'm wicked right?I can be mean at times why do I even do these things to you ,even when I know you love me so much and you're so emotional i know you so well even more than i know myself i don't know why I do these things to you,but you know I love you more right? lord help me pls "..
Lol smh I wouldn't wanna deal with a Capricorn ever again nah!!!?
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Posted by MissLadyIceQueenLoL, this is how I feel sometimes. Like I want to hold up a sign that says " please stay away!"Posted by WomiiPosted by MissLadyIceQueenI appreciate the fact that you're being so honest
I think that sometimes I'm just prone to assholery. Even though I don't mean to be a jerk. Also why do we push people away when they get too close. I really hate myself sometimes.
Some people will never be so honest rather they blame it on the other person.
I remember my ex used to say "omg I'm wicked right?I can be mean at times why do I even do these things to you ,even when I know you love me so much and you're so emotional i know you so well even more than i know myself i don't know why I do these things to you,but you know I love you more right? lord help me pls "..
Lol smh I wouldn't wanna deal with a Capricorn ever again nah!!!?
I can't speak for all Capricorns but I suck. It's probably best you don't do dealings with people like me. Nobody deserves that emotional roller coaster.
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Posted by lnana04Posted by MissLadyIceQueenLoL, this is how I feel sometimes. Like I want to hold up a sign that says " please stay away!"Posted by WomiiPosted by MissLadyIceQueenI appreciate the fact that you're being so honest
I think that sometimes I'm just prone to assholery. Even though I don't mean to be a jerk. Also why do we push people away when they get too close. I really hate myself sometimes.
Some people will never be so honest rather they blame it on the other person.
I remember my ex used to say "omg I'm wicked right?I can be mean at times why do I even do these things to you ,even when I know you love me so much and you're so emotional i know you so well even more than i know myself i don't know why I do these things to you,but you know I love you more right? lord help me pls "..
Lol smh I wouldn't wanna deal with a Capricorn ever again nah!!!?
I can't speak for all Capricorns but I suck. It's probably best you don't do dealings with people like me. Nobody deserves that emotional roller coaster.
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Posted by CapzWeren't not God's. We are emotionally crippled sub humans.
WE ARE GODZ ! YOU HEAR ME !

Posted by ScorpioTruthPosted by Gob_ShiteI have not seen this with either cap men or cap women. I love you both the same. I think capricorns are simply misunderstood.
Based on real life experiences alone, it seems to be more of an epidemic among Cap women than Cap men...
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Posted by RindarooSee I told you you , and I'm glad you're good and feel a lot better. Just hang in there tiger. Once you get over that weird hump with us you're golden!
Well I feel better today. He called me after work last night (late shift). He's not backing up much lol. I guess I can handle it 🙂
Thanks for all the insight. I do so much better when I understand more. I do know why he does this & he needs reassurance, it just isn't my first reaction. His desire is actually to move forward but certain things freak him out just like you explained. Things need to be slow.. On my end, trust is important!

Posted by LovingSeraphinaPosted by MissLadyIceQueenDon't hate yourself.
I think that sometimes I'm just prone to assholery. Even though I don't mean to be a jerk. Also why do we push people away when they get too close. I really hate myself sometimes.
Love yourself. And know when you are ready to open up the the world we CAN'T WAIT to get to meet you.
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Posted by MissLadyIceQueenPosted by MiscorpionPosted by MissLadyIceQueenPosted by Miscorpion
This post couldn't have come at a better time....just had an amazing night with my 3 year LDR Cappy and he is flying back today ? He has gone so quiet on me and I was geared up for this. Started out strong then time and thinking I started doubting...read your post and sent him a message saying I'm thinking of him. He wrote back about work etc (he dances around my feelings messages haha) he flies again later today to get training in his new job for a week. So I chucked him a reply saying big times ahead and I'll be patient and there even though he will be busy....it felt so amazing the other night then to completely have it swing right around? He does this every time we get together and even prior like he is testing me that I won't stand him or something. Any ideas on how I can ease him on trusting me, this, us?
Just keep being there for him. Keep being positive and reassuring him that you're there.
Ill keep trying and be there, it does get me upset to be honest I don't show him anymore as he stays away longer. The closeness, he gets so intense, passionate and does so many sweet little gestures, then once we part he makes minimal contact for a few days. I'm a Scorpio with Capricorn moon and I protect my heart...he tore all my armour down and I always tell him how amazing he is. I can't penetrate him and sometimes I just need to hear that I'm just as special as he is to me. You just can't help but wonder if you said or did something and if he will come back...I'm not one for instability. Some days its hard, I look so forward to seeing him and the moments are so special but I know it always comes with a price, him pulling away.
I know. Try talking to him about that. His feelings matter, but your feelings matter as well.
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Posted by RindarooPosted by MiscorpionIt's always hard when you leave. I know when I was in a LDR the few days after was such a let down that my heart felt broken. He would call me & say you left me again... omg. Cuz he wanted me to move & I couldn't due to kids. Well he's another sign & dramatic lol.Posted by MissLadyIceQueenPosted by MiscorpionPosted by MissLadyIceQueenPosted by Miscorpion
This post couldn't have come at a better time....just had an amazing night with my 3 year LDR Cappy and he is flying back today ? He has gone so quiet on me and I was geared up for this. Started out strong then time and thinking I started doubting...read your post and sent him a message saying I'm thinking of him. He wrote back about work etc (he dances around my feelings messages haha) he flies again later today to get training in his new job for a week. So I chucked him a reply saying big times ahead and I'll be patient and there even though he will be busy....it felt so amazing the other night then to completely have it swing right around? He does this every time we get together and even prior like he is testing me that I won't stand him or something. Any ideas on how I can ease him on trusting me, this, us?
Just keep being there for him. Keep being positive and reassuring him that you're there.
Ill keep trying and be there, it does get me upset to be honest I don't show him anymore as he stays away longer. The closeness, he gets so intense, passionate and does so many sweet little gestures, then once we part he makes minimal contact for a few days. I'm a Scorpio with Capricorn moon and I protect my heart...he tore all my armour down and I always tell him how amazing he is. I can't penetrate him and sometimes I just need to hear that I'm just as special as he is to me. You just can't help but wonder if you said or did something and if he will come back...I'm not one for instability. Some days its hard, I look so forward to seeing him and the moments are so special but I know it always comes with a price, him pulling away.
I know. Try talking to him about that. His feelings matter, but your feelings matter as well.
I've tried in the past he gets upset and gives to me then distances even more. I'm at the point I'm overthinking that much I feel sick and I just want to go. I knew this would happen with me I'll start shutting down, blame myself and cry. He's been a big part of my life for 3 years...I'm seeing him in a months time as we live in different cities and I feel so excited to see him but I'm dreading the aftermath and it will happen all over again - Im sure of it! This is why I'm trying to figure a way....is my feelings in our goodbyes too much and it shuts him down? He makes our goodbyes so swift then I'll get a msg or too saying how amazing I am with kisses then poof minimal contact and he gets all busy at work. He's training this week in his new job and I woke to a message saying I hope you slept well...into my day and I'll message tonight...this is hard when it's backed onto a weekend of being together and him disappearing to a week of training. He means so much to me and I love him dearly....I've been so patient, wasn't at the start, would hit him up and back then he would say he loved me now he doesn't....I just wish I knew how he felt. Im guessing him seeing me and writing morning and night and calling me (whether it steamy or about our day) is a sign I'm important? What would you suggest over the week of him training? do I pop a msg in here and there or leave him to message me arghhhhhhhh thank you I appreciate your thoughts.
I suggest you do what ever is normal for you. I would guess he has trouble too, but you're having trouble makes it worse. Hugs!!click to expand

Posted by RindarooPosted by MiscorpionHang in there. It sounds to me like he still loves you. It's just hard. He's a Cap which of course makes it harder. With a dramatic sign, you have no doubt because they can't help but get all emotional. He's still there though, it says a lot.Posted by RindarooPosted by MiscorpionIt's always hard when you leave. I know when I was in a LDR the few days after was such a let down that my heart felt broken. He would call me & say you left me again... omg. Cuz he wanted me to move & I couldn't due to kids. Well he's another sign & dramatic lol.Posted by MissLadyIceQueenPosted by MiscorpionPosted by MissLadyIceQueenPosted by Miscorpion
This post couldn't have come at a better time....just had an amazing night with my 3 year LDR Cappy and he is flying back today ? He has gone so quiet on me and I was geared up for this. Started out strong then time and thinking I started doubting...read your post and sent him a message saying I'm thinking of him. He wrote back about work etc (he dances around my feelings messages haha) he flies again later today to get training in his new job for a week. So I chucked him a reply saying big times ahead and I'll be patient and there even though he will be busy....it felt so amazing the other night then to completely have it swing right around? He does this every time we get together and even prior like he is testing me that I won't stand him or something. Any ideas on how I can ease him on trusting me, this, us?
Just keep being there for him. Keep being positive and reassuring him that you're there.
Ill keep trying and be there, it does get me upset to be honest I don't show him anymore as he stays away longer. The closeness, he gets so intense, passionate and does so many sweet little gestures, then once we part he makes minimal contact for a few days. I'm a Scorpio with Capricorn moon and I protect my heart...he tore all my armour down and I always tell him how amazing he is. I can't penetrate him and sometimes I just need to hear that I'm just as special as he is to me. You just can't help but wonder if you said or did something and if he will come back...I'm not one for instability. Some days its hard, I look so forward to seeing him and the moments are so special but I know it always comes with a price, him pulling away.
I know. Try talking to him about that. His feelings matter, but your feelings matter as well.
I've tried in the past he gets upset and gives to me then distances even more. I'm at the point I'm overthinking that much I feel sick and I just want to go. I knew this would happen with me I'll start shutting down, blame myself and cry. He's been a big part of my life for 3 years...I'm seeing him in a months time as we live in different cities and I feel so excited to see him but I'm dreading the aftermath and it will happen all over again - Im sure of it! This is why I'm trying to figure a way....is my feelings in our goodbyes too much and it shuts him down? He makes our goodbyes so swift then I'll get a msg or too saying how amazing I am with kisses then poof minimal contact and he gets all busy at work. He's training this week in his new job and I woke to a message saying I hope you slept well...into my day and I'll message tonight...this is hard when it's backed onto a weekend of being together and him disappearing to a week of training. He means so much to me and I love him dearly....I've been so patient, wasn't at the start, would hit him up and back then he would say he loved me now he doesn't....I just wish I knew how he felt. Im guessing him seeing me and writing morning and night and calling me (whether it steamy or about our day) is a sign I'm important? What would you suggest over the week of him training? do I pop a msg in here and there or leave him to message me arghhhhhhhh thank you I appreciate your thoughts.
I suggest you do what ever is normal for you. I would guess he has trouble too, but you're having trouble makes it worse. Hugs!!
I appreciate your kind words....I nearly burst into tears. Must be an emotional day for me. Every time just keeps getting better...it's an amazing feeling and it feels so right it even scares me to be honest. I give him his space etc and respond lovingly to him. A year ago he nearly shut us down and said he can't give me what I deserve and he stopped saying he loves me. I stayed by his side after bombing his ph with my feelings to him etc and then backed off. He came back slowly and we are like we were he just doesn't say his feelings like he did and whenever I get slightly mushy he just sends kisses. If only he knew I'd be stronger if he would let me in....I keep feeling like he could do what he did a year ago. When I'm with him I don't feel anything but love...he's protective, he even spoon fed me my tea lol and I left him to work and he watched me from the window....if he didn't go quiet after being together I'd consider our relationship strong. I just need to know what's behind the quietness if i knew it was his feelings being strong for me I'd process the space with positivity!!! It's doing me head in that I don't know what he is feeling
Thank you so much, he truely is an incredible guy. I grabbed his face leaving him and looked him in the eyes and told him I loved him. While leaving I knew I may pay for that....he got me a teddy this visit and gave him to me and said he should have slept with teddy to get his smell in him hehe ts things like that and then he just goes so quiet and reserved...I'm snuggling it whenever I find a moment of missing him right now
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Posted by Gob_ShitePosted by lnana04
I'm trying to see if I can argue with you there. Not sure if I can yet.
And, in typical hardcore Cap fashion, you couldn't just say, "I agree" or "You're right". You had to dilute that sentiment, while alluding to the slight possibility that the very thing you're reluctantly agreeing to could still be wrong (hence my defiant reply, which got you on the defensive).
Next time, I suggest you pray harder...
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Posted by Neno2me unfortunately lololPosted by MissLadyIceQueenYes,cap ladies are jerks sometimes?they run away from love
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Posted by MissLadyIceQueenI feel you, I hate getting caught in emotions and having my emotions revolve around someone else's actions. It's why I've decided I need to work on making myself happy and having that happiness whether there's someone in my life or not.Posted by RindarooI honestly have no idea anymore , most people run when I freak out and start sabotaging the relationship or whatever it is. Reassure me that it's okay I guess? Don't leave , I think I might do this because once I realize I have very real strong feelings for someone I then realize that they have control over me. It makes me panic, bc at that point this person can make or break my day(s). Also it may also be initial freak out, I want to see if they have that "staying power" even when I'm being an emotional weirdo , jerk, whatever. I think it gives me some kind of comfort because then I realize that we can get through things.Posted by lnana04Yes that makes sense. So how do you get comfortable? That is if the person doesn't go away. is it a back and forth push/pull thing until you get there?Posted by Rindaroo
Why sometimes do you take a step back & push someone away instead of just taking that step forward?
In my experience, that step forward may require too much change that I'm comfortable with.
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Posted by MiscorpionWe don't like to talk about feelings all the time, especially if we've suppressed it or set it aside for later processing
This post couldn't have come at a better time....just had an amazing night with my 3 year LDR Cappy and he is flying back today ? He has gone so quiet on me and I was geared up for this. Started out strong then time and thinking I started doubting...read your post and sent him a message saying I'm thinking of him. He wrote back about work etc (he dances around my feelings messages haha) he flies again later today to get training in his new job for a week. So I chucked him a reply saying big times ahead and I'll be patient and there even though he will be busy....it felt so amazing the other night then to completely have it swing right around? He does this every time we get together and even prior like he is testing me that I won't stand him or something. Any ideas on how I can ease him on trusting me, this, us?

Posted by MiscorpionI'd msg whenever you feel like it. Let him know you're thinking of him. The fact he's contacting you is good. I'm not big on talking to someone everyday unless I'm either in love with them, or I really care about them.Posted by MissLadyIceQueenPosted by MiscorpionPosted by MissLadyIceQueenPosted by Miscorpion
This post couldn't have come at a better time....just had an amazing night with my 3 year LDR Cappy and he is flying back today ? He has gone so quiet on me and I was geared up for this. Started out strong then time and thinking I started doubting...read your post and sent him a message saying I'm thinking of him. He wrote back about work etc (he dances around my feelings messages haha) he flies again later today to get training in his new job for a week. So I chucked him a reply saying big times ahead and I'll be patient and there even though he will be busy....it felt so amazing the other night then to completely have it swing right around? He does this every time we get together and even prior like he is testing me that I won't stand him or something. Any ideas on how I can ease him on trusting me, this, us?
Just keep being there for him. Keep being positive and reassuring him that you're there.
Ill keep trying and be there, it does get me upset to be honest I don't show him anymore as he stays away longer. The closeness, he gets so intense, passionate and does so many sweet little gestures, then once we part he makes minimal contact for a few days. I'm a Scorpio with Capricorn moon and I protect my heart...he tore all my armour down and I always tell him how amazing he is. I can't penetrate him and sometimes I just need to hear that I'm just as special as he is to me. You just can't help but wonder if you said or did something and if he will come back...I'm not one for instability. Some days its hard, I look so forward to seeing him and the moments are so special but I know it always comes with a price, him pulling away.
I know. Try talking to him about that. His feelings matter, but your feelings matter as well.
I've tried in the past he gets upset and gives to me then distances even more. I'm at the point I'm overthinking that much I feel sick and I just want to go. I knew this would happen with me I'll start shutting down, blame myself and cry. He's been a big part of my life for 3 years...I'm seeing him in a months time as we live in different cities and I feel so excited to see him but I'm dreading the aftermath and it will happen all over again - Im sure of it! This is why I'm trying to figure a way....is my feelings in our goodbyes too much and it shuts him down? He makes our goodbyes so swift then I'll get a msg or too saying how amazing I am with kisses then poof minimal contact and he gets all busy at work. He's training this week in his new job and I woke to a message saying I hope you slept well...into my day and I'll message tonight...this is hard when it's backed onto a weekend of being together and him disappearing to a week of training. He means so much to me and I love him dearly....I've been so patient, wasn't at the start, would hit him up and back then he would say he loved me now he doesn't....I just wish I knew how he felt. Im guessing him seeing me and writing morning and night and calling me (whether it steamy or about our day) is a sign I'm important? What would you suggest over the week of him training? do I pop a msg in here and there or leave him to message me arghhhhhhhh thank you I appreciate your thoughts.
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Posted by MiscorpionI'd msg whenever you feel like it. Let him know you're thinking of him. The fact he's contacting you is good. I'm not big on talking to someone everyday unless I'm either in love with them, or I really care about them.Posted by MissLadyIceQueenPosted by MiscorpionPosted by MissLadyIceQueenPosted by Miscorpion
This post couldn't have come at a better time....just had an amazing night with my 3 year LDR Cappy and he is flying back today ? He has gone so quiet on me and I was geared up for this. Started out strong then time and thinking I started doubting...read your post and sent him a message saying I'm thinking of him. He wrote back about work etc (he dances around my feelings messages haha) he flies again later today to get training in his new job for a week. So I chucked him a reply saying big times ahead and I'll be patient and there even though he will be busy....it felt so amazing the other night then to completely have it swing right around? He does this every time we get together and even prior like he is testing me that I won't stand him or something. Any ideas on how I can ease him on trusting me, this, us?
Just keep being there for him. Keep being positive and reassuring him that you're there.
Ill keep trying and be there, it does get me upset to be honest I don't show him anymore as he stays away longer. The closeness, he gets so intense, passionate and does so many sweet little gestures, then once we part he makes minimal contact for a few days. I'm a Scorpio with Capricorn moon and I protect my heart...he tore all my armour down and I always tell him how amazing he is. I can't penetrate him and sometimes I just need to hear that I'm just as special as he is to me. You just can't help but wonder if you said or did something and if he will come back...I'm not one for instability. Some days its hard, I look so forward to seeing him and the moments are so special but I know it always comes with a price, him pulling away.
I know. Try talking to him about that. His feelings matter, but your feelings matter as well.
I've tried in the past he gets upset and gives to me then distances even more. I'm at the point I'm overthinking that much I feel sick and I just want to go. I knew this would happen with me I'll start shutting down, blame myself and cry. He's been a big part of my life for 3 years...I'm seeing him in a months time as we live in different cities and I feel so excited to see him but I'm dreading the aftermath and it will happen all over again - Im sure of it! This is why I'm trying to figure a way....is my feelings in our goodbyes too much and it shuts him down? He makes our goodbyes so swift then I'll get a msg or too saying how amazing I am with kisses then poof minimal contact and he gets all busy at work. He's training this week in his new job and I woke to a message saying I hope you slept well...into my day and I'll message tonight...this is hard when it's backed onto a weekend of being together and him disappearing to a week of training. He means so much to me and I love him dearly....I've been so patient, wasn't at the start, would hit him up and back then he would say he loved me now he doesn't....I just wish I knew how he felt. Im guessing him seeing me and writing morning and night and calling me (whether it steamy or about our day) is a sign I'm important? What would you suggest over the week of him training? do I pop a msg in here and there or leave him to message me arghhhhhhhh thank you I appreciate your thoughts.
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Posted by themilkyway36It's definitely important to be happy with yourself. Realizing someone else has control over emotions is by far one of the scariest things to me. Idk about other caps. It literally takes me forever to get real feelings for someone. So it's rare when it happens. Idk what to do with all the emotional intensity I feel. Here's to getting better with age I hope.Posted by MissLadyIceQueenI feel you, I hate getting caught in emotions and having my emotions revolve around someone else's actions. It's why I've decided I need to work on making myself happy and having that happiness whether there's someone in my life or not.Posted by RindarooI honestly have no idea anymore , most people run when I freak out and start sabotaging the relationship or whatever it is. Reassure me that it's okay I guess? Don't leave , I think I might do this because once I realize I have very real strong feelings for someone I then realize that they have control over me. It makes me panic, bc at that point this person can make or break my day(s). Also it may also be initial freak out, I want to see if they have that "staying power" even when I'm being an emotional weirdo , jerk, whatever. I think it gives me some kind of comfort because then I realize that we can get through things.Posted by lnana04Yes that makes sense. So how do you get comfortable? That is if the person doesn't go away. is it a back and forth push/pull thing until you get there?Posted by Rindaroo
Why sometimes do you take a step back & push someone away instead of just taking that step forward?
In my experience, that step forward may require too much change that I'm comfortable with.
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Posted by MissLadyIceQueenYour aqua venus probably has something to do with the running away from feelings too. Maybe it'd be easier for you to become friends with someone first and get to know them better before you decide to get romantically involved with them.Posted by themilkyway36It's definitely important to be happy with yourself. Realizing someone else has control over emotions is by far one of the scariest things to me. Idk about other caps. It literally takes me forever to get real feelings for someone. So it's rare when it happens. Idk what to do with all the emotional intensity I feel. Here's to getting better with age I hope.Posted by MissLadyIceQueenI feel you, I hate getting caught in emotions and having my emotions revolve around someone else's actions. It's why I've decided I need to work on making myself happy and having that happiness whether there's someone in my life or not.Posted by RindarooI honestly have no idea anymore , most people run when I freak out and start sabotaging the relationship or whatever it is. Reassure me that it's okay I guess? Don't leave , I think I might do this because once I realize I have very real strong feelings for someone I then realize that they have control over me. It makes me panic, bc at that point this person can make or break my day(s). Also it may also be initial freak out, I want to see if they have that "staying power" even when I'm being an emotional weirdo , jerk, whatever. I think it gives me some kind of comfort because then I realize that we can get through things.Posted by lnana04Yes that makes sense. So how do you get comfortable? That is if the person doesn't go away. is it a back and forth push/pull thing until you get there?Posted by Rindaroo
Why sometimes do you take a step back & push someone away instead of just taking that step forward?
In my experience, that step forward may require too much change that I'm comfortable with.
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Posted by iCloud9Idk probably does have to do with the sag and aqua. I have a lot of outer planets in cap. They are also in a stellium together in my 6th house with rahu. I don't mean to run , I'm not really running from love. I just start pushing people away when I realize I really care about them. It may or may not be cap thing.
i think it has more to do with your aqua venus and sagi mercury. the only cap you have in your chart is your sun. i have cap sun, venus and mercury and i seriously cannot relate.
i don't get the point of running from love. what's the worst? crash and burn? well, been there done that and what didn't kill me made me stronger lol. love is essential for my happiness. i'd always run towards love lol

Posted by youngaliPosted by MissLadyIceQueenthat's definitely a cap thing. it's called "fronting'" ?Posted by iCloud9Idk probably does have to do with the sag and aqua. I have a lot of outer planets in cap. They are also in a stellium together in my 6th house with rahu. I don't mean to run , I'm not really running from love. I just start pushing people away when I realize I really care about them. It may or may not be cap thing.
i think it has more to do with your aqua venus and sagi mercury. the only cap you have in your chart is your sun. i have cap sun, venus and mercury and i seriously cannot relate.
i don't get the point of running from love. what's the worst? crash and burn? well, been there done that and what didn't kill me made me stronger lol. love is essential for my happiness. i'd always run towards love lol
sags are too direct for it to be a sag mercury thing, and aquas just don't like to talk about their feelings, but they don't run from love. fronting is something caps do until they are able to gather their thoughts and make sense of their feelings towards you.
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Posted by youngaliI genuinely want to change this about myself. Every time I notice negative traits about myself I make attempts to work on it, and fix it. I don't like emotionally hurting someone I care about. I always feel really bad and beat myself up about it. Yeah most caps are very take it or leave it. I'm willing to work on myself to be a better person because I feel in the great words of a very good song "the love we make it's give and it's take" .Posted by MissLadyIceQueenPosted by youngaliPosted by MissLadyIceQueenthat's definitely a cap thing. it's called "fronting'" ?Posted by iCloud9Idk probably does have to do with the sag and aqua. I have a lot of outer planets in cap. They are also in a stellium together in my 6th house with rahu. I don't mean to run , I'm not really running from love. I just start pushing people away when I realize I really care about them. It may or may not be cap thing.
i think it has more to do with your aqua venus and sagi mercury. the only cap you have in your chart is your sun. i have cap sun, venus and mercury and i seriously cannot relate.
i don't get the point of running from love. what's the worst? crash and burn? well, been there done that and what didn't kill me made me stronger lol. love is essential for my happiness. i'd always run towards love lol
sags are too direct for it to be a sag mercury thing, and aquas just don't like to talk about their feelings, but they don't run from love. fronting is something caps do until they are able to gather their thoughts and make sense of their feelings towards you.
I seriously hate it about myself. Then when I come to my senses and try to explain and put into words why i pushed them away it just isn't enough, it made them insecure about me. It happens. I've got to learn how to stop doing this to myself. I know it's my own fault. It's never intentional.
yea, my ex-cap crush (?) did that to me as well. one minute it's like he's interested, the next he'd purposely push me away by ignoring me. i found his behaviour consistently inconsistent and asshole-ish and made the decision to bounce as i needed someone more consistent. (crazy words coming from a sag ?, that's how u know it ain't my sun talking.)
i honestly don't think it's something y'all WANT to do, but if you realize that it's something that gives off a negative vibe to people you truly like then, there comes a point where you have to think to yourself "do i care enough to work on it?".
sadly, most caps have this "take it or leave it" attitude about them. and usually aren't willing to change but would rather find someone that can accept the bullshit. ? (don't nobody try to debate on this lol)
i'm glad you are honest about your actions... but the question is.... what are you going to do about it?.
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