Lol so I am trying to distance my feelings from the Cap I love and I keep doing unconscious things! Yesterday I totally embarrassed myself. So another coworker came up and was asking me about some files that has to do with his department and he overheard it and thought it was new work for them because we're gets low in the winter. So he came over trying to figure out what we're talking about and she has never talk to him before and I said "look at him he hears about work and his ears perk up." Then not thinking I scruffed his beard under his chin (like in a gentle he's so cute gesture) it was obviously affectionate he didn't look opposed to it he smile (however it could have been an embarrassed smile) but then he walked away and she was like girl is that him? (because I had talk to her about him before, loud ass gemini that she is) then she said I see a little chemistry there you got to have rights to tug somebody's beard. So I'm laughing embarrassed and I say he can hear you she's like OK got to go. He came back over 15 minutes later completely sober it seems like completely just drained of smile and I'm wondering if he heard her. He still told me bye when he left like made sure I saw him say bye, but damn! I can't believe I did that! Like he was mine and in front of someone else! Do you think I should apologize or should I just pretend it didn't happen?
