the dumping garden (Page 5)

you lost nearly everything you were. you arent anymore. kiss it goodbye and just go, love. leave weakness by the roadside... it's so incompatible with the strength you will rebuild. your parents showed you everything you need to know and you have the one thing so many are crazy about and the one and only thing you'll ever need. tell yourself the same thing i've told everyone else... you have so much to look forward to and you know it.

*🙂s @ JD*

thanks JD. you are awesome. and i am a happy home for those hugs! 😄

we leave things hanging in the balance
hoping for an easier answer when the answers are already easy
we plot through other avenues
and life sometimes unfolds not as well as it could have

...and what we left hanging eventually fades

falling off your track
...get back on
prove this to yourself.
you live for you and everyone.
but you first.

Fake story, most likely fake photo as well.

Intuition is separate from experience and is a mind just as real as that which creates the ego but is not of the same as the mind that creates the ego. What intuition uses is different, that's what is it separate and only a person who quiets their ego based mind enough to listen, can really know their intuition. I see you do not have that skill.

The road to hell is paved with good intentions, dealing with you, that's certainly true. Slander and insults to cover up your own actions, I guess you feel really great attacking people after you steal from them, must make you feel really big to lie to the world and pretend you are a victim. A game was played, what I just describe is it, you played your victim game one more time to the world, some day an innocent person will pay a very heavy price for you, so you can play victim one more time. I'm sure you'll proclaim your remorse and say you are sorry, but the other person can't have what was taken from them brought back words. When you do wrong, you have to DO something to make it right, maybe you'll learn that the next time.

If I really wanted that information, I could have it, without your even knowing it, but I respect the rights of others and the agreements I make with them. I see you are a person who lacks any real principles and such ideas of honoring agreements are foreign to you. Oh don't worry, I'll leave you alone, not like that was an issue, I wasn't the one stealing after all it was you, but I'm sure you forgot that point, you're just mad you got caught and can't admit you are no victim at all in this case. I have no room in my life for fakes, that includes you.

so tired..

wow! that's energizing Cap!!

thanks cap! that's a good question. wish i had a great answer! guess i've been isolating myself lately.

it is cool to see you so fiesty and ready for what's next!

he's doing much better. thanks for asking.

what changes are happening with you?

in my life i feel changes on the horizon. just not there yet.

you are saying that these lies are enough. you are saying that never again will you look at the sun setting at that feel good level... and write about this memory... senses heightened and you see a delicate web, but you'll never write about this one... spider just waiting... the sun... something loves touching you in the most brilliant way... so warm... long shadows drawn on the ground... you know we are all beautiful in that moment no matter what has happened that day. everything you see as it naturally lays... so easy... so simple... snow melting... streams running... the earth is damp and soggy... nature's glitter you really love... you soooo want to go for a walk through it all... it's inviting you... just like feeling him is the closest you can ever come to a home... so natural... so easy... so simple to say 'yes' ...we give in and we try to control... nature and anti-nature... a key is discovered ...but it opens a door to another mystery ...and you'll never write a word about it because that part of you says no. right now this is just a beautiful view. you havent stepped into it yet. you are seperated. you haven't felt gravity set in and sink you down into the mud. you havent smiled that smile yet. its not in your eyes. it isnt real. and you'll never write a beautiful word about it until it is. you can look at your world... you can be reminded in everything you desire as you go about your day... but you wont ever desire. this is not material... nor feeling made manifest. eyes havent spoken... minds havent exchanged. never again you feel... you think to yourself... you are waiting to hurt someone... too difficult... easy, but a slow difficult kill... you are waiting for control... you are simply waiting for things to fall naturally as they will ...into your web ...is this foolish or is this just intricacy. i think it is foolish

glass seperates you and your eyes always from what you long to be a part of. these places are where you want to be with your friend and soul mate... to be part of together.

this is how you know that you will never write a word about these moments... they are closed... built on the things you never wanted to be. you compromised and you never wanted to... and sadly... you sold out on yourself. think about that.

never a beautiful word
just remember that these are walls
you can lose yourself in your own intricacy
and you know better
dont let them wall you in too
dont let them lose you
you know better

hell. maybe this IS some sort of mid-life crisis. thought that was covered throughout the 90's, beginning to end.

hey cap, change, "on the horizon" to BEYOND the horizon. cause i have no idea what is ahead.

got my dailys though... and they are real simple.. wake up, take a moment to give thanks, and make the best of the rest of it.

serously though, I'm trying, with care and respect, to learn more about herbs, and oils (aromatherapy). other stuff too...

CP, WOW!

heyo... thanks tripod 🙂 i've missed your sn 'round here. good to read ya back on the board!

yesterday i thought
today i let go
could be that tomorrow i hang on again
but today i dedicate to letting go
it cant always be me, i tell myself
let me reach and find it to let go of
tomorrow hanging on
and then tomorrow i will think about
saying goodbye
wishing i knew how to be heard
they only listen when it's easy to
i hope 'goodbye' is just as easy to hear

you'all are amazing writers!!

read last night that tourmaline is good to wear when dealing with, EXPECTATIONS.

rubellite (pink) to deal with others expectations of you.

watermelon (green and pink) to help with your expectations of you.

thanks for the kind greetings! will return later tonight. SUNNY DAYS ALL!!

Im tired.

Leave me alone, im lonely...

I come
I read
I learn...

Its what I do best, learning from the problems and situations of others...some day I'll have to learn first hand...Im sure. But for now i'd rather not.

"wow, I wish something like that could happen to me..."
"I really really like these people, whom Ive never really met..."
"I hope when im that old, im not going through that shit..."
"when will people ever learn..."
...all thoughts.....made possible by....[you]....

waterhere...no existe....


sorry.

yes darlin! anytime...all the time.

my favorite astrologer is Michael Lutin. read his dailys called "Next Week in Review" from his website, "Where's the Moon?".

ahas!!! and sometimes a good laugh for the hurtin.

yeah, i agree. nothing really helps till it's replaced.

relpaced with the wonderous....

if i knew then, what i know now..

now is 53.

believe. trust. have faith.

follow your dream

share your gifts

give thanks

you're more blessed than you realize.

relpaced, ahh.. my bad, replaced

ha ha ha ... sorry!

all i got is patience!

ahhh,.... to sleep, perchance to dream.

and oh god, how i love to dream!!!!

cap, are you into gemstones?

It's your sense of reality that needs the adjusting. Case in point: http://www.dxpnet.com/opinion/messages.asp?id=617680&p=1&sort=asc<BR>
Still up to your old tricks I see.

Still can't face the fact you did something you know was wrong, so you attack and insult to justify yourself. As I said, someday a very innocent person will pay a very big price so you can go on pretending you are the victim. And only you will think it is justified, for all others will know you just can't face reality.

benn studying and working with stones for awhile.. LOVE IT! it's a great hobby.

Tripod presents cap with a beautiful emerald encrusted tiara.

abundance!!

Chase and Pawlic:

"Cocreating with Emerald: the energies of emerald are uplifting and healing, for they connect you with your Source. Emerald can increase your awareness of abundance in other forms than purely monetary, and encourages gratitude when you are dealing with issues of financial support. It can also contribute to your sense of feeling supported by Higher Guidence. There are times when acknowledging our abundance brings just the healing we need.:

personally, i love emeralds.

CHEERS TO US!

mostly ya just gotta decide which dog you're gonna feed.

the crazy one with rabies who's driven to blood lust and will kill you.

or the one that loves you unconditionally and will always be the best guardian and companion ever!

some red stones can increase the desire for sex.

patience grass hopper.

you'll know!

personally, i love garnets too.

there is a completely natural red diamond and they are very rare, probably exquisite too! alas, never seen one.

gotta go!

to bed

love and awesomeness!!

the rest of the day to you!

It was a matter of principle, you showed you have little when you couldn't keep your agreement then you wouldn't restore the agreement after you broke it. I don't have respect for that or the people who do such things, any tone you felt offensive, frankly you had it coming after your lack of concern not just for me but for what your word means. If you can't respect your own words, why should anyone else? Why don't you do everyone a favor, forget I exist, stop your silly postings and leave everyone to be and forget I exist and I will do likewise.

hey

hey AGUAAQI!!

it was that damned underline!! (other post)

if you don't mind me asking... what the ?

around here, we'all love agua!

thought so..

not real fond of ICKY.

sidesteps icky-poo-poo..

i caint' read that shit.

as if


FT

whoa. other thread...(the rhymin one)

what a suprise so suddenly, like BAM!

interesting energy....

hmmm.....

oh! oh!! me! me!!


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