the dumping garden (Page 6)

imagination

UFO Relation

Whoa. Bam. Thanks.

wow. mondays come and gone. and kid is talking about,"her car" again. getting her 1st drivers lic. soon.

...i hate that day and every other one like it... no regrets... just hate. it's no good, but there it is.

we all know that one day i'll get over it. and whatever... right now im thinking of hate.
is this easy for me? am i all that strong? NO. i'm definitely weak just like anybody else. just like YOU!
standing behind hurts and old scars like they are a shield ...like a coward. like they give me a right to be this way.

we didnt, damnit.
we simply
didnt.
we wont call the one question
an answer is unthinkable.
waves of goodbye
i'm crazy alone.
no one speak.
i dream im yelling to save you
and not a word comes out
no one hears me.
hot tears stream down my cheeks.
i'm crazy trying
we all believe we're alright.

logically we know the spiritual stuff regarding letting someone go, moving on....

emotionally it's a wound that takes all the time it takes, to heal.

patience eh?

atoning hearts... hang onto regret for dear life.

coffee? beer? or tea?

last call.

closing up early tonite.

do you care for loose or bag?

sometimes patience is all we got!

ealier, oh maybe hours ago, did you feel, hmmm, how do i describe it?,, kinda like the earth is quaking inside you? almost like you are a vortex and take it all in.. all the light and the dark.. whoooooshhhhhh

******* earlier

valerian or holy basil?

yeah it's me! thanks. hadn't considered that..

"deep sea with no hopes.. getting all the will,energy back.."

i'm thinking.

it was a question, because, well, i felt it. early in the evening last night. just wondered if you cap, or anyone else had a similar sensation.

cycles of life.. ya gotta love 'em.

best blessed teachers!

ya know, patience is cool. it adds to your mystery.

the doctor just said that people who take risks are healthier! good for the immune system! stronger. more experinced!

fair and balanced

well then dear cap,

holy basil for you. valerian for me.

"ealier, oh maybe hours ago, did you feel, hmmm, how do i describe it?,, kinda like the earth is quaking inside you? almost like you are a vortex and take it all in.. all the light and the dark.. whoooooshhhhhh"

nope... i was layin back on my bed watching The Departed. lol ...eatin brownies. 😛

however... it is soooo funny that you guys mention these cycles... i wrote in a blog early yesterday morning

...
lemme go grab it...

this is the feeling of giving up. now i simply want to be alone. even though i am right here. i am still lightyears away. because i already know. relearning what i unlearned when i left my last life. everytime truly feels like the first time. my wonder and my curse. here. still and still happily here. but beaten tense and stiff. quickly healed relaxed and resolved. glass over my eyes. dark in my eyes. strange words are these eyes. untempered am i. running a universal circle. beaten still. beaten away. lightyears away. somewhere on the farside of this life. i can feel you back home. as i am running this course. i've let myself go. so deep in myself. you read in the turn of words..

it feels like the planet and all of creation is wobbeling, and kinda takes me aback

yes... cycles of life. could very well be a resounding theme for the cappies these days.

valerian is the stinkiest natural sleeping aide herb.

check into holy basil!

CP!!! HEY!

Tripod!!! YO!!!

CAP!!! Heyo!!!

😛

wow

just discovered the herb, holy basil. y'all should do a search, and see what ya think.

can we share?

so are you into ayurveda, tripod?

perhaps deep realization, cap. which can be very moving

whats up cap 🙂

CP, am just beginning to learn more about herbs, and oils a little bit.

cap, just trimmed our rosemarys here, sooo beautifully fragrant! one has some small white flowers. and another has these deeper than perriwinkle/indigo flowers. certainly does my heart good!

awe... tripod... that sounds so nice. you should look up ayurveda... all about life, body, mind, sould and healing through strengthening systems with all natural things, rather than the western way of healing a sickness through perscription drugs with nasty side affects...

it's actually a lot more indepth than that, but i think you'd totally dig it.

do you practice it? i'm certainly intrigued with the nature of herbs!

i wish i did... i dont know much about it though. i saw a documentary on it once a while ago. it's a very insightful way of looking into life. id love to get into it, but alas... sooo much to do and so little time. perhaps i'll look up a book on it now though. 🙂

...and then...

...lose it in the pile of other books on my nightstand... lol!

cap... i totally get what you're saying... i'm moving in a few short months and between work and spending my last quality moments with friends... i have to fight for time with myself. and as fellow caps... i know we both understand how important alone time is.

there are stones for that

ooooooooh tell me 🙂

dangit... i was gonna go to bed, but now you've caught my interest. lol

hey i gotta get to bed too.almost 4 here! well, rose quartz is a good calming, soft, gentle healer. and it you think it's your hormones try some carnelian. love this stuff!

that is so excellant cap!! were you exposed to it growing up!??

ya... same here... i'm off to call it a good night.

g'niiiiight tripod and cap! 🙂

am chowin on some solea polenta corn chips. whoa!

and 'nite too!

and,cap, howdy! good day t'ya!

....puts THE BAG away.....

whoa!.... alophathy—

How do i find the answers? It seems so irrational and i am aware of it, yet still i hang on, dream & desire. It is you i desire ... ours souls are connected, our thoughts are in sync ... to feel the warmth of your body ... to embrace the depth in your eyes ... we are one, now and forever.