The Dumping Garden (a Trois) (Page 2)

little break**

Love is good enough

Beep beep beep (backing up) Eeeeerrrr(dumping)

I haven't had sex in over a year! I am young and slim and pretty and lively but so in love with one man that I can never give myself to anyone else!

I can't be with him though he would gladly have me if I offered myself. The more that time goes by the more I feel that no one is worthy of breaking this fast but him. I roll in my sheets with desire and men can smell what I have become but I turn away before they can advance.

All I want is his love but each day I am so afraid that I will fall and come to him for one moments bliss.

I never imagined I could be so strong to go through every day of waiting, but how strong am I if each day is one long fantasy of his body?

I feel like a flippin martyr.

I'd tell you what I really feel but you won't believe it's true. I'd sure tell you what I see but you won't believe it's real.

What I think of you really don't matter, if you don't believe it to be true. See love is like hate in ways, as they both come to life upon your approval. The same way people can only hurt you if you allow them to; People can only love you, if you allow them to. You seem to believe the bad things that are said about you more than the good ones. You believe in your haters more than your lovers. So they always end up being the ones getting the best of you or at worst the most of you. They have more impact on you because you believe them and welcome them into you heart day in, day out.

So look at the amount of people who got to hurt you, in this life, compared to the amount of people who got to love you in this life. It should give you a good idea of who you give more importance to.

So with that being said, I'm gone and wish you love. Real love. The Love from within, learn to love yourself first and eventually you'll understand your love ones better. You'll understand why they love you so much, seeing Now, what they've been seeing all along. Hopefully you'll treat you next, the way you should have treated me and I'm good with that. Deal.

Rays Heart

Hi FA and Luna 😄

I'm here ^_^. I was pulled away from the interwebs for a while -- it was all out of my control but now everything is okay.

The madness of it all lies the sheer beauty of its presence.

Hey SG! "Hugs"

they taught me how to feel, and then cut me wide open.

Imagine there's no Heaven
It's easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky
Imagine all the people
Living for today

Imagine there's no countries
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace

You may say that I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will be as one

-John Lennon

There are times when I really really really really infinity can't wait. *sigh* but I have no choice right now.

My fingers are crossed... for both verdicts. That said, I'm officially completely insane. NUTSO!

Must... find... a distraction!

*scampers off and rummages through art supplies*

I feel i am valued only when i am about to be lost.

I got the job that i wanted but it wont make me truly happy if i don't get location of my choice. I have spend two years of my life in the city that didnt mean anything to me and now its time that i go back. More than anything i cant be away from him anymore. We both have waited for this time and now that the time has come i am still worried about the location company gives me. It means a lot to me.......i hope i get what i want

I've enjoyed the fact that you always saw me as an ideal man. I've enjoyed it all along until I realized that, it's the only thing that is keeping us apart. So from now on, I would love you to see me, as you see yourself, so we can hopefully be not so good for each other, together.

@cappysweetie, glad to see u back 🙂🙂~!!!!


Ahh, finding a job is a lot harder now then ever!! Grrr.

I'd hate to know how much of my life has been utterly wasted WAITING. I think I'd actually vomit.

Don't you hate PMS———? Arg. Can't even stand myself now.

I hate it... HATE IT when my heart runs off with my mind.

I'm left desperately trying to rescue my sanity...

why am I so damn weak.

one should have minimum affairs in one life.. coz no matter how much u in love with some one today, u would long to be with those you have once loved at one point or the other.

My goal seems a bit far now, how long before I can see the flowers on the hill?

I'm feeling this way right now:

Posted by ParisianCappy

Posted by marshmallow
There is an entire world inside . Much larger than thats outside but we go on living something else altogether. Is it that there was something before or there will be something after ? Was is real at some point of time or beyond time ? Something which is beyond our reach and understanding . If not then how am i suppose to explain this . Why does it hurt so much ..even after years ? Why so much of emotion for nothing real ? Why did the tears come when i was alone? Its so painful i feel weak physically . In middle of crowd i felt pukish . In the car today i screamed twice without making any noise . I cant even share with anyone. I just keep it inside. I just close my eyes. Some times i smile and sometimes i crave . I never though i would feel for this. Life is funny . I didnt plan it. and let it go again and again .

I never had any answers. Not that i asked for any but how was I suppose to? I would have been so stupid . I just felt and kept quite .

Is it all just some chemical reaction happing inside our mind ? Wow so all this for nothing true. Just some fucking chemicals . Who knows the truth .

Is it that life is long and i will see it some day some time or is it that i had always known it and i will know it again someday . Or i will just need to bear the pain . For now i will just do that.

marshmallow you are an old menber of dxp didnt know that

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Yes i am..use to be little regular back then. I first came on dxp in 2006...that profile deleted 😢 ....but wasnt here in between for a very long time .

Posted by ParisianCappy

Posted by marshmallow

Posted by ParisianCappy

Posted by marshmallow
There is an entire world inside . Much larger than thats outside but we go on living something else altogether. Is it that there was something before or there will be something after ? Was is real at some point of time or beyond time ? Something which is beyond our reach and understanding . If not then how am i suppose to explain this . Why does it hurt so much ..even after years ? Why so much of emotion for nothing real ? Why did the tears come when i was alone? Its so painful i feel weak physically . In middle of crowd i felt pukish . In the car today i screamed twice without making any noise . I cant even share with anyone. I just keep it inside. I just close my eyes. Some times i smile and sometimes i crave . I never though i would feel for this. Life is funny . I didnt plan it. and let it go again and again .

I never had any answers. Not that i asked for any but how was I suppose to? I would have been so stupid . I just felt and kept quite .

Is it all just some chemical reaction happing inside our mind ? Wow so all this for nothing true. Just some fucking chemicals . Who knows the truth .

Is it that life is long and i will see it some day some time or is it that i had always known it and i will know it again someday . Or i will just need to bear the pain . For now i will just do that.

marshmallow you are an old menber of dxp didnt know that

Yes i am..use to be little regular back then. I first came on dxp in 2006...that profile deleted 😢 ....but wasnt here in between for a very long time .

i prefer marshmallow it show how soft you are

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It also shows that i am not creative enough to think of a new username and used the name of a thing that was kept next to me 🙂

When life robs you , sometimes you have to rob it back

Posted by Capri__unicorn
1 step forward, 6 steps back with you.

Giiirrrrrrlllllll..

My back hurts from this god forsaken garden chair I have in here, can't sit like a normal person and probably already resemble Quasimodo.

Why to give power to someone to be able to squeeze the best out of you and throw it away? Some one could take the innocence away and some the dedication away . I survived on those and one by one everything is taken . What would be left i wonder

Dear 2017 please bring lasting Smiles and laughter and happiness. However and whatever way .