Have you found your purpose in life?

I’m sure all this covid shit has caused major existential crises. Before all this all I cared about was looking the cutest at all the parties/events I went to, traveling, eating out, etc. I don’t think I can do any of those completely safe within the next few years. Not definitely with this oompa loompa as pres. So now I think I’m settling for popping out an Elon Musk or a Keanu Reeves as part of my new life goals. Just makes life easier during old age ya kno? Put mama in an oceanside home. I don’t know I’m still trying to figure things out. What about yall?

Posted by WarAngel

I think I have. I don't look up at the ceiling fan when I wake up in the morning and dread going to work.

I have a nice balance of living in the city versus living in the country. I'm in a good place and I'll have plenty of options to travel soon enough. 😊

Ugh that is kind of an issue for me as I’m helping my parents who live in the city consider moving to a bigger home but the good ones that don’t cost absurdly double are all out in the suburbs on the outskirts of the city with the heaps of empty land and cows. My dad & I work together within the city and are just struggling to let go of the city for a bigger home in the ‘country’.

Posted by Devil

I'm trying to forget the past so I can become what I need to become.

So I can go and do how the Italian mafia does it and get revenge for what has been done to me after 3 years when the object of my revenge thought I forgot.

What was done to you? And you can become whatever you need to become as long as you own your mind and understand that whatever thoughts that come your way can be controlled. I suggest Eckhart Tolle audibles if you haven’t checked them out already. Helped me become mentally stronger when I needed it.

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I’m sure all this covid shit has caused major existential crises. Before all this all I cared about was looking the cutest at all the parties/events I went to, traveling, eating out, etc. I don’t think I can do any of those completely safe within the next few years. Not definitely with this oompa loompa as pres. So now I think I’m settling for popping out an Elon Musk or a Keanu Reeves as part of my new life goals. Just makes life easier during old age ya kno? Put mama in an oceanside home. I don’t know I’m still trying to figure things out. What about yall?

share pics of your cute outfits, i am always looking for ideas

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I don’t use social media so I don’t always take pictures, I mostly do if it’s a formal event. It’s just my Leo placements that crave looking my best if I’m gonna be seen in certain settings other than that I love my sweats at home!

Posted by tiziani

Not necessarily. I definitely used the fear of death to exercise and schedule everything, plus a lot of common sense flooding in where I keep a budget, and plan all my work by the hour.

but once I started making full use of my time, I started getting cocky "I can learn this skill too, and this, and this" which is a classic way to lose track.

I am better off just doing instead of thinking too far ahead.

Honestly I fear aging more than death and hate how vain it is. Men are just stinkin lucky their value skyrockets with age as women of all ranges appreciate the wisdom and maturity that comes with it. Does not work out as well for women.

And yesss. I get so much more things done when I completely stop thinking about it and just actually start doing it no questions asked.

Posted by Antiphates

Yeah, even ages ago. I just fucked up by straying from that path and find personal happiness. That ruined everything and now I'm mostly potatoing ahead trying to rekindle that fire.

What was this previous path that you strayed from? And don’t reply if it’s gonna be ambiguous!

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I think I have. I don't look up at the ceiling fan when I wake up in the morning and dread going to work.

I have a nice balance of living in the city versus living in the country. I'm in a good place and I'll have plenty of options to travel soon enough. 😊

Ugh that is kind of an issue for me as I’m helping my parents who live in the city consider moving to a bigger home but the good ones that don’t cost absurdly double are all out in the suburbs on the outskirts of the city with the heaps of empty land and cows. My dad & I work together within the city and are just struggling to let go of the city for a bigger home in the ‘country’.

I'm at the outskirts of my major city with the cows and it's affordable still here in Texas. I can drive into San Antonio with some time management but live far enough to not deal with light pollution. Perfect!

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I’m in Texas too! Houston. The housing prices here are literally at their all time highs, even in the suburbs..

Posted by Prince_Pisces

I'm only interested in entertaining and enjoying myself. We're here for a limited time anyway.

Yes ofc but how to do this when you have loved ones who are high risk? Or are you just another one of those apathetic millennials livin it up like pre-covid?

Yes I have. To live in a country i love, near the sea and mountains, in a safe and friendly environment.

I have found peace and freedom and do what i love.

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I think I have. I don't look up at the ceiling fan when I wake up in the morning and dread going to work.

I have a nice balance of living in the city versus living in the country. I'm in a good place and I'll have plenty of options to travel soon enough. 😊

Ugh that is kind of an issue for me as I’m helping my parents who live in the city consider moving to a bigger home but the good ones that don’t cost absurdly double are all out in the suburbs on the outskirts of the city with the heaps of empty land and cows. My dad & I work together within the city and are just struggling to let go of the city for a bigger home in the ‘country’.

I'm at the outskirts of my major city with the cows and it's affordable still here in Texas. I can drive into San Antonio with some time management but live far enough to not deal with light pollution. Perfect!

I’m in Texas too! Houston. The housing prices here are literally at their all time highs, even in the suburbs..

i remember you can get a mansion there for 250K have things changed much in 4 years

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Maybe in the deep country side far from actual civilization. To give you an idea, my parents are looking for a 5 bedroom, around 4,000 sqft home not too far from the city that was built as recent as possible, I think the cheapest I’ve seen is $ 430k.

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I think I have. I don't look up at the ceiling fan when I wake up in the morning and dread going to work.

I have a nice balance of living in the city versus living in the country. I'm in a good place and I'll have plenty of options to travel soon enough. 😊

Ugh that is kind of an issue for me as I’m helping my parents who live in the city consider moving to a bigger home but the good ones that don’t cost absurdly double are all out in the suburbs on the outskirts of the city with the heaps of empty land and cows. My dad & I work together within the city and are just struggling to let go of the city for a bigger home in the ‘country’.

I'm at the outskirts of my major city with the cows and it's affordable still here in Texas. I can drive into San Antonio with some time management but live far enough to not deal with light pollution. Perfect!

I’m in Texas too! Houston. The housing prices here are literally at their all time highs, even in the suburbs..

i remember you can get a mansion there for 250K have things changed much in 4 years

Maybe COVID will revert it back lol

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I thought it would too but it’s not going to. A family friend got a home back in 2011 or so for $ 240k. 3,800+ sqft, 5 bedrooms, 4 baths, gated community. It’s value is now near $ 400k. It’s also in the outskirts of the city.

Posted by MyStarsShine

Yes I have. To live in a country i love, near the sea and mountains, in a safe and friendly environment.

I have found peace and freedom and do what i love.

Omg which country is this? I too have imagined myself one day residing in such a place. Please share more details. What kind of dwelling are you in there?

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Yes I have. To live in a country i love, near the sea and mountains, in a safe and friendly environment.

I have found peace and freedom and do what i love.

Omg which country is this? I too have imagined myself one day residing in such a place. Please share more details. What kind of dwelling are you in there?

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Ireland and i rent a cottage a few minutes walk from the sea. Its a very relaxed safe place to live, a piece of heaven 💚

Posted by SassyKiwi

I’m sure all this covid shit has caused major existential crises. Before all this all I cared about was looking the cutest at all the parties/events I went to, traveling, eating out, etc. I don’t think I can do any of those completely safe within the next few years. Not definitely with this oompa loompa as pres. So now I think I’m settling for popping out an Elon Musk or a Keanu Reeves as part of my new life goals. Just makes life easier during old age ya kno? Put mama in an oceanside home. I don’t know I’m still trying to figure things out. What about yall?

I guess to answer this there are somethings you'd need to know about how I've ended up where I am today:

The 1st of which would be the story/narrative/poem that I had written about my earlier life - CLICK HERE

The 2nd would be the story of my experiences with suicide - CLICK HERE

Which would ultimately lead us to the 3rd thing... a story that I usually don't tell anyone; however, it was depicted in the following poem written for/about me by the amazing Miss Rebecca Ann on Commaful















So, to answer your question: "Have you found your purpose in life?" - I'd like to think so.

What I did was not without cost. One of the prices I have had to pay is to have all of my subsequent days feel borrowed so to speak. Not in a bad way. Strangely the opposite. So, I figure I'm still here for a reason, and because I've been left with this feeling attached to me and my days I've been trying to make it my purpose to remind others of the value in their own lives as well as the lives of others. Nobody should have to dance with death, and pay a price, simply to be reminded that they have value & their life has worth.

That's why I volunteer for things, have shifted my daily focus, and even my individual focus towards encouraging betterment. It's not always easy. A lot of times it can be misunderstood, but... I try to do what I can, when I can, with what I've got. *shrug*

Anyway, let me stop talking now. This is probably way way longer than anybody will even care to read as is. It's best I don't keep prattling on.

Each of you matter & each of you has a purpose. Regardless of your spiritual belief you can believe in that. Remain Blessed.

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Posted by SassyKiwi

I’m sure all this covid shit has caused major existential crises. Before all this all I cared about was looking the cutest at all the parties/events I went to, traveling, eating out, etc. I don’t think I can do any of those completely safe within the next few years. Not definitely with this oompa loompa as pres. So now I think I’m settling for popping out an Elon Musk or a Keanu Reeves as part of my new life goals. Just makes life easier during old age ya kno? Put mama in an oceanside home. I don’t know I’m still trying to figure things out. What about yall?

I guess to answer this there are somethings you'd need to know about how I've ended up where I am today:

The 1st of which would be the story/narrative/poem that I had written about my earlier life - CLICK HERE

The 2nd would be the story of my experiences with suicide - CLICK HERE

Which would ultimately lead us to the 3rd thing... a story that I usually don't tell anyone; however, it was depicted in the following poem written for/about me by the amazing Miss Rebecca Ann on Commaful















So, to answer your question: "Have you found your purpose in life?" - I'd like to think so.

What I did was not without cost. One of the prices I have had to pay is to have all of my subsequent days feel borrowed so to speak. Not in a bad way. Strangely the opposite. So, I figure I'm still here for a reason, and because I've been left with this feeling attached to me and my days I've been trying to make it my purpose to remind others of the value in their own lives as well as the lives of others. Nobody should have to dance with death, and pay a price, simply to be reminded that they have value & their life has worth.

That's why I volunteer for things, have shifted my daily focus, and even my individual focus towards encouraging betterment. It's not always easy. A lot of times it can be misunderstood, but... I try to do what I can, when I can, with what I've got. *shrug*

Anyway, let me stop talking now. This is probably way way longer than anybody will even care to read as is. It's best I don't keep prattling on.

Each of you matter & each of you has a purpose. Regardless of your spiritual belief you can believe in that. Remain Blessed.

Your such a beautiful writer

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Thank you, but you're too kind. Haha.

I look at writing more like art than language, so in that regard (to me) all writing is intrinsically beautiful. Sure some more so than others, but there's always somebody out there who will appreciate it nonetheless. 😊

Regardless, I do appreciate the kind sentiment. Thanks again.

*Post Edit* - I wanted to make sure you were you before I said anything, but so are you ninja. You just keep yours more hidden in the shadows than I do; haha. Are you still over there? I left Commaful for Writ.Co 😐 Not sure how I feel about that yet.

Posted by bumboklatt

My life has always been me moving around having fun and exploring new places. But i realized how toxic the USA(culture) is. Its not for me. Plus theres no way im gonna work 15-30 years just to buy a pile of sticks we call "houses"

As far as this covid thing its been weird how ive kept ahead of all the inconveniences. First i moved from the epicenter of where it started (covid)before the public knew about it. Then i quit my job (i was essential)right when it got super strict. Then i left the country right before these riots started.

Anyways, i had set goals and right now im at the peak. I never settle. I always keep moving thats what living is to me. I got my backup set in case covid decides to wreak more havok.

After my next goal, im going to focus on travelling for pleasure rather than for business as i have been doing.

Amen, I like everything you just said. My ex just said today “I guess we all settle” and I said “Never. I’d rather die than settle.” It’s not for me, been there done that. Done being a consumer with nothing of value to produce. Where are you living now?

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I’m sure all this covid shit has caused major existential crises. Before all this all I cared about was looking the cutest at all the parties/events I went to, traveling, eating out, etc. I don’t think I can do any of those completely safe within the next few years. Not definitely with this oompa loompa as pres. So now I think I’m settling for popping out an Elon Musk or a Keanu Reeves as part of my new life goals. Just makes life easier during old age ya kno? Put mama in an oceanside home. I don’t know I’m still trying to figure things out. What about yall?

I guess to answer this there are somethings you'd need to know about how I've ended up where I am today:

The 1st of which would be the story/narrative/poem that I had written about my earlier life - CLICK HERE

The 2nd would be the story of my experiences with suicide - CLICK HERE

Which would ultimately lead us to the 3rd thing... a story that I usually don't tell anyone; however, it was depicted in the following poem written for/about me by the amazing Miss Rebecca Ann on Commaful















So, to answer your question: "Have you found your purpose in life?" - I'd like to think so.

What I did was not without cost. One of the prices I have had to pay is to have all of my subsequent days feel borrowed so to speak. Not in a bad way. Strangely the opposite. So, I figure I'm still here for a reason, and because I've been left with this feeling attached to me and my days I've been trying to make it my purpose to remind others of the value in their own lives as well as the lives of others. Nobody should have to dance with death, and pay a price, simply to be reminded that they have value & their life has worth.

That's why I volunteer for things, have shifted my daily focus, and even my individual focus towards encouraging betterment. It's not always easy. A lot of times it can be misunderstood, but... I try to do what I can, when I can, with what I've got. *shrug*

Anyway, let me stop talking now. This is probably way way longer than anybody will even care to read as is. It's best I don't keep prattling on.

Each of you matter & each of you has a purpose. Regardless of your spiritual belief you can believe in that. Remain Blessed.

Your such a beautiful writer

Thank you, but you're too kind. Haha.

I look at writing more like art than language, so in that regard (to me) all writing is intrinsically beautiful. Sure some more so than others, but there's always somebody out there who will appreciate it nonetheless. 😊

Regardless, I do appreciate the kind sentiment. Thanks again.

*Post Edit* - I wanted to make sure you were you before I said anything, but so are you ninja. You just keep yours more hidden in the shadows than I do; haha. Are you still over there? I left Commaful for Writ.Co 😐 Not sure how I feel about that yet.

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I really relate to you and I hope one day I can put it all down on paper like you have here. It’s powerful and not everyone will experience it like that.

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My life has always been me moving around having fun and exploring new places. But i realized how toxic the USA(culture) is. Its not for me. Plus theres no way im gonna work 15-30 years just to buy a pile of sticks we call "houses"

As far as this covid thing its been weird how ive kept ahead of all the inconveniences. First i moved from the epicenter of where it started (covid)before the public knew about it. Then i quit my job (i was essential)right when it got super strict. Then i left the country right before these riots started.

Anyways, i had set goals and right now im at the peak. I never settle. I always keep moving thats what living is to me. I got my backup set in case covid decides to wreak more havok.

After my next goal, im going to focus on travelling for pleasure rather than for business as i have been doing.

what are your placements? so you never want to settle down in a place? you want to move your whole life?

My placements are aqua sun 5th house. Scorp moon virgo rising. Half my chart (including mercury)is in cap 4th house. Plus I have MC in Gemini.

I was working towards staying in one place but I started to hate San Diego. And my hometown has changed. So i realized places change and im never fully happy being in one place for too long. I like adventure, culture and learning/seeing new perspectives its what truly makes me happy

I actually envy your way of being. I wish i had done that when i was younger, now i feel like i am too old for those type of adventures and set in my ways

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Pff.

You have demonstrated here, on more than one occasion, that there is much 🔥 left within your drive, spirit, and determination.

I have absolutely no doubt that if you wished to re-channel that fire towards those types of adventures not even you and/or your own set ways could stop you from attaining your goal.

You're also quite intelligent (which you try to hide sometimes), and even more open-minded than you often portray yourself to be as well; therefore, I have faith in your ability to do just about anything you set your mind too... for what they may or may not be worth.

🙂

Simply knowing the deeper meanings of life means nothing to me. I want to truly feel it on the deepest level possible without any words or signs trying to describe it to me. Not just the good parts of life either. All if it.

Yes, I think so.

yes, finally.

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My life has always been me moving around having fun and exploring new places. But i realized how toxic the USA(culture) is. Its not for me. Plus theres no way im gonna work 15-30 years just to buy a pile of sticks we call "houses"

As far as this covid thing its been weird how ive kept ahead of all the inconveniences. First i moved from the epicenter of where it started (covid)before the public knew about it. Then i quit my job (i was essential)right when it got super strict. Then i left the country right before these riots started.

Anyways, i had set goals and right now im at the peak. I never settle. I always keep moving thats what living is to me. I got my backup set in case covid decides to wreak more havok.

After my next goal, im going to focus on travelling for pleasure rather than for business as i have been doing.

Amen, I like everything you just said. My ex just said today “I guess we all settle” and I said “Never. I’d rather die than settle.” It’s not for me, been there done that. Done being a consumer with nothing of value to produce. Where are you living now?

Right now im in Mexico. I was gonna go to Europe then the virus hit. So as soon as the restrictions open up im gonna head over there.

I agree with you about life in the US. I realised early on that it wasn't for me either. I was in NYC on a vacation and apart from shopping, I can't say it took my breath away. By choice, I'm not really into busy cities anymore although I lived in major cities most of my life. The most relaxing city I have ever lived in is Melbourne. But I would rather move to the burbs like Ballarat or Bendigo or Woodend or even move to Auckland for some chill life. Where in Europe do you plan to go next?

Yeah its a very puritan and introverted culture(even tho it tries to portray the opposite) i want to go to Spain and then from there who knows

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Will it be your first trip to Spain?

i've become super unreliable, fickle and irresponsible. wasn't always like this but i don't know how it happened. used to have a stick up but now i don't care. i'm prepared to drink my way to the end of this year and sabotage my relationship as best i can tbh.

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i've become super unreliable, fickle and irresponsible. wasn't always like this but i don't know how it happened. used to have a stick up but now i don't care. i'm prepared to drink my way to the end of this year and sabotage my relationship as best i can tbh.

how is the sex

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haven't had sex in months coz travel restrictions/quarantine

I don't think I will ever find my life's purpose. I like not thinking about it and life surprising me along the way.

I never have the ambition to even try and draw it out.

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My life has always been me moving around having fun and exploring new places. But i realized how toxic the USA(culture) is. Its not for me. Plus theres no way im gonna work 15-30 years just to buy a pile of sticks we call "houses"

As far as this covid thing its been weird how ive kept ahead of all the inconveniences. First i moved from the epicenter of where it started (covid)before the public knew about it. Then i quit my job (i was essential)right when it got super strict. Then i left the country right before these riots started.

Anyways, i had set goals and right now im at the peak. I never settle. I always keep moving thats what living is to me. I got my backup set in case covid decides to wreak more havok.

After my next goal, im going to focus on travelling for pleasure rather than for business as i have been doing.

Amen, I like everything you just said. My ex just said today “I guess we all settle” and I said “Never. I’d rather die than settle.” It’s not for me, been there done that. Done being a consumer with nothing of value to produce. Where are you living now?

Right now im in Mexico. I was gonna go to Europe then the virus hit. So as soon as the restrictions open up im gonna head over there.

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I’ve be feeling a strong urge to move to Italy. I can’t seem to place where it comes from but it’s there. I’m marinating on it and planning.

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My life has always been me moving around having fun and exploring new places. But i realized how toxic the USA(culture) is. Its not for me. Plus theres no way im gonna work 15-30 years just to buy a pile of sticks we call "houses"

As far as this covid thing its been weird how ive kept ahead of all the inconveniences. First i moved from the epicenter of where it started (covid)before the public knew about it. Then i quit my job (i was essential)right when it got super strict. Then i left the country right before these riots started.

Anyways, i had set goals and right now im at the peak. I never settle. I always keep moving thats what living is to me. I got my backup set in case covid decides to wreak more havok.

After my next goal, im going to focus on travelling for pleasure rather than for business as i have been doing.

Amen, I like everything you just said. My ex just said today “I guess we all settle” and I said “Never. I’d rather die than settle.” It’s not for me, been there done that. Done being a consumer with nothing of value to produce. Where are you living now?

Right now im in Mexico. I was gonna go to Europe then the virus hit. So as soon as the restrictions open up im gonna head over there.

I agree with you about life in the US. I realised early on that it wasn't for me either. I was in NYC on a vacation and apart from shopping, I can't say it took my breath away. By choice, I'm not really into busy cities anymore although I lived in major cities most of my life. The most relaxing city I have ever lived in is Melbourne. But I would rather move to the burbs like Ballarat or Bendigo or Woodend or even move to Auckland for some chill life. Where in Europe do you plan to go next?

Yeah its a very puritan and introverted culture(even tho it tries to portray the opposite) i want to go to Spain and then from there who knows

Will it be your first trip to Spain?

No, 2nd. Ive been through most of mediterranean Europe before

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Nice.....have you been to Barcelona and the Balearic isles?

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My life has always been me moving around having fun and exploring new places. But i realized how toxic the USA(culture) is. Its not for me. Plus theres no way im gonna work 15-30 years just to buy a pile of sticks we call "houses"

As far as this covid thing its been weird how ive kept ahead of all the inconveniences. First i moved from the epicenter of where it started (covid)before the public knew about it. Then i quit my job (i was essential)right when it got super strict. Then i left the country right before these riots started.

Anyways, i had set goals and right now im at the peak. I never settle. I always keep moving thats what living is to me. I got my backup set in case covid decides to wreak more havok.

After my next goal, im going to focus on travelling for pleasure rather than for business as i have been doing.

what are your placements? so you never want to settle down in a place? you want to move your whole life?

So i realized places change and im never fully happy being in one place for too long. I like adventure, culture and learning/seeing new perspectives its what truly makes me happy

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Amen, brother! I love your placements.

I've been really enjoying my bidet