What’s a Revelation or Epiphany that changed your life drastically?

What’s a revelation you had, or epiphany that you witnessed that drastically impacted your life? What was it? And how did it alter your life?

I’m not sure my example could qualify as either revelation or epiphany per se, but more so an event... a health related issue more precisely... prior to which I lived either in the past of the future. Hardly ever in the now!

Tried as I might have to truly experience the now, it eluded me at the best of times... up until the said health related phase of my life.

Suddenly, something shifted, wether on the cosmic or visceral level, or both... remains unknown, but I find myself deeply grounded in the present. With that came a sense of peace I can’t really say I’ve been as closely familiar with prior to that.

Alternatively... I’m just that old & ish just fell into place on its own!? Who knows! ;p

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I’m not sure my example could qualify as either revelation or epiphany per se, but more so an event... a health related issue more precisely... prior to which I lived either in the past of the future. Hardly ever in the now!

Tried as I might have to truly experience the now, it eluded me at the best of times... up until the said health related phase of my life.

Suddenly, something shifted, wether on the cosmic or visceral level, or both... remains unknown, but I find myself deeply grounded in the present. With that came a sense of peace I can’t really say I’ve been as closely familiar with prior to that.

Alternatively... I’m just that old & ish just fell into place on its own!? Who knows! ;p

Can’t say you’re an odd man out here, I hear many people say life threatening circumstances will make them appreciate wha they do have. I wish peace was something you could bottle up, and drink when you needed to find stable ground. But it seems like most of us have to experience something life changing to help us get there.

Do you meditate?

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I'm waiting for mine 😕

Hahaha, me too. I find that meditating helps. But it’s such a power struggle, because you really have to be disciplined and dedicated to it.

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I’m not sure my example could qualify as either revelation or epiphany per se, but more so an event... a health related issue more precisely... prior to which I lived either in the past of the future. Hardly ever in the now!

Tried as I might have to truly experience the now, it eluded me at the best of times... up until the said health related phase of my life.

Suddenly, something shifted, wether on the cosmic or visceral level, or both... remains unknown, but I find myself deeply grounded in the present. With that came a sense of peace I can’t really say I’ve been as closely familiar with prior to that.

Alternatively... I’m just that old & ish just fell into place on its own!? Who knows! ;p

Can’t say you’re an odd man out here, I hear many people say life threatening circumstances will make them appreciate wha they do have. I wish peace was something you could bottle up, and drink when you needed to find stable ground. But it seems like most of us have to experience something life changing to help us get there.

Do you meditate?

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No, definitely not unique in that respect. As far as meditation goes, also a no. At least not in a traditional sense, but I do find gardening and/or being in nature in general, exceptionally therapeutic. Painting/ creating with my hands are is just as soothing & rewarding!

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I'm waiting for mine 😕

Hahaha, me too. I find that meditating helps. But it’s such a power struggle, because you really have to be disciplined and dedicated to it.

Why are you meditating?

I really need some sort of epiphany right now. Have so many difficult emotions

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^^ That’s why. I know some people like to blow it off as being hippy dippy, but have the ability to control your mind, ground yourself and think rationally in emotionally heightened moments is power move!

Alright alright alright 🤯

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I’m not sure my example could qualify as either revelation or epiphany per se, but more so an event... a health related issue more precisely... prior to which I lived either in the past of the future. Hardly ever in the now!

Tried as I might have to truly experience the now, it eluded me at the best of times... up until the said health related phase of my life.

Suddenly, something shifted, wether on the cosmic or visceral level, or both... remains unknown, but I find myself deeply grounded in the present. With that came a sense of peace I can’t really say I’ve been as closely familiar with prior to that.

Alternatively... I’m just that old & ish just fell into place on its own!? Who knows! ;p

Can’t say you’re an odd man out here, I hear many people say life threatening circumstances will make them appreciate wha they do have. I wish peace was something you could bottle up, and drink when you needed to find stable ground. But it seems like most of us have to experience something life changing to help us get there.

Do you meditate?

No, definitely not unique in that respect. As far as meditation goes, also a no. At least not in a traditional sense, but I do find gardening and/or being in nature in general, exceptionally therapeutic. Painting/ creating with my hands are is just as soothing & rewarding!

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Oh I get that completely! I feel that way about dance. Having a good outlet can do wonders. Meditating can also be done by visualization techniques. I have a morning and evening ritual that works as a way to ground me and clear my energy.

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Alright alright alright 🤯

Hahaha, I love these. I briefly worked in sales and they’d make us watch these sort of videos to encourage us to “sell more.” Lol

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Hahaha, I love these. I briefly worked in sales and they’d make us watch these sort of videos to encourage us to “sell more.” Lol

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It all boils down to 'You can do eet!' said many different ways lol

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I'm waiting for mine 😕

Hahaha, me too. I find that meditating helps. But it’s such a power struggle, because you really have to be disciplined and dedicated to it.

Why are you meditating?

I really need some sort of epiphany right now. Have so many difficult emotions

^^ That’s why. I know some people like to blow it off as being hippy dippy, but have the ability to control your mind, ground yourself and think rationally in emotionally heightened moments is power move!

Sometimes I sit in the forest and do that I suppose. Do you believe in energies? Like vibrations? I try to elevate my vibration. I have nervous energy I am a Gemini but right now I am plagued by negativity

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In general yes, but I’m starting to evolve my thinking; and by that I mean, I think the older your soul is—the less influential LOA and energies are on your journey. Like to me, I’ve noticed you can align your vibration to match what you want, and still be evaded by it.

And sometimes, that’s the lesson, just learning to accept what you can’t control and embracing the flow of your individual life.

2016- I realized corporate America was no place for black people.

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I'm waiting for mine 😕

Hahaha, me too. I find that meditating helps. But it’s such a power struggle, because you really have to be disciplined and dedicated to it.

Why are you meditating?

I really need some sort of epiphany right now. Have so many difficult emotions

^^ That’s why. I know some people like to blow it off as being hippy dippy, but have the ability to control your mind, ground yourself and think rationally in emotionally heightened moments is power move!

Sometimes I sit in the forest and do that I suppose. Do you believe in energies? Like vibrations? I try to elevate my vibration. I have nervous energy I am a Gemini but right now I am plagued by negativity

In general yes, but I’m starting to evolve my thinking; and by that I mean, I think the older your soul is—the less influential LOA and energies are on your journey. Like to me, I’ve noticed you can align your vibration to match what you want, and still be evaded by it.

And sometimes, that’s the lesson, just learning to accept what you can’t control and embracing the flow of your individual life.

I try to fight all the time

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Same. But I’m starting to realize it’s kinda a great feeling when the universe tells you “you don’t have to be so controlling.” Other people have the issue of being too reckless with their decisions. I find relinquishing control is easier than learning how to gain control.

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2016- I realized corporate America was no place for black people.

Now what? You still have to work.

Did you start your own business?

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I'm waiting for mine 😕

Hahaha, me too. I find that meditating helps. But it’s such a power struggle, because you really have to be disciplined and dedicated to it.

Why are you meditating?

I really need some sort of epiphany right now. Have so many difficult emotions

^^ That’s why. I know some people like to blow it off as being hippy dippy, but have the ability to control your mind, ground yourself and think rationally in emotionally heightened moments is power move!

Sometimes I sit in the forest and do that I suppose. Do you believe in energies? Like vibrations? I try to elevate my vibration. I have nervous energy I am a Gemini but right now I am plagued by negativity

In general yes, but I’m starting to evolve my thinking; and by that I mean, I think the older your soul is—the less influential LOA and energies are on your journey. Like to me, I’ve noticed you can align your vibration to match what you want, and still be evaded by it.

And sometimes, that’s the lesson, just learning to accept what you can’t control and embracing the flow of your individual life.

I try to fight all the time

Same. But I’m starting to realize it’s kinda a great feeling when the universe tells you “you don’t have to be so controlling.” Other people have the issue of being too reckless with their decisions. I find relinquishing control is easier than learning how to gain control.

Don't you feel too passive though? I am naturally quite reflective. Projectr in human design I don't really make things happen usually I'm more waiting but sometimes I wonder if Im just wasting my life and not being proactive

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No. Cuz I’m not a passive type of person, I love control. Not controlling others—I can’t be bothered, but making plans and structuring my life to accomplish every goal is how I roll. And of course the universe pisses on my plans every chance it gets. So yeah, no I could stand to be a little passive, especially after the 3rd time getting knocked down. You get to a point where all you can do is sit and wait.

But you know you, your issue very well could be lack of productivity. Are you indecisive and scattered brained?

That the hippie era wasn't some magical time and that hippies weren't these cool people but rather the same type of narcissistic, social justicy douchebags with mental issues that we have today . And so we go in cycles. Had i lived in that time I would definitely have been the narc .lol

I sleep better knowing I haven't missed a thing.

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That the hippie era wasn't some magical time and that hippies weren't these cool people but rather the same type of narcissistic, social justicy douchebags with mental issues that we have today . And so we go in cycles. Had i lived in that time I would definitely have been the narc .lol

I sleep better knowing I haven't missed a thing.

I think you meant this more to troll, but I do think about this...like how do you get a generation go from being rebellious and free spirited to so confined and judgmental?

Obviously age can make us wiser...or bitter...but it is odd; you expect this from baby boomers, but not Gen X.

**i guess the baby boomers were the youth of the 70s but you get my point

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I'm waiting for mine 😕

Hahaha, me too. I find that meditating helps. But it’s such a power struggle, because you really have to be disciplined and dedicated to it.

Why are you meditating?

I really need some sort of epiphany right now. Have so many difficult emotions

^^ That’s why. I know some people like to blow it off as being hippy dippy, but have the ability to control your mind, ground yourself and think rationally in emotionally heightened moments is power move!

Sometimes I sit in the forest and do that I suppose. Do you believe in energies? Like vibrations? I try to elevate my vibration. I have nervous energy I am a Gemini but right now I am plagued by negativity

In general yes, but I’m starting to evolve my thinking; and by that I mean, I think the older your soul is—the less influential LOA and energies are on your journey. Like to me, I’ve noticed you can align your vibration to match what you want, and still be evaded by it.

And sometimes, that’s the lesson, just learning to accept what you can’t control and embracing the flow of your individual life.

I try to fight all the time

Same. But I’m starting to realize it’s kinda a great feeling when the universe tells you “you don’t have to be so controlling.” Other people have the issue of being too reckless with their decisions. I find relinquishing control is easier than learning how to gain control.

Don't you feel too passive though? I am naturally quite reflective. Projectr in human design I don't really make things happen usually I'm more waiting but sometimes I wonder if Im just wasting my life and not being proactive

No. Cuz I’m not a passive type of person, I love control. Not controlling others—I can’t be bothered, but making plans and structuring my life to accomplish every goal is how I roll. And of course the universe pisses on my plans every chance it gets. So yeah, no I could stand to be a little passive, especially after the 3rd time getting knocked down. You get to a point where all you can do is sit and wait.

But you know you, your issue very well could be lack of productivity. Are you indecisive and scattered brained?

Not scatter brained but any idea is immediately followed by reasons why I should or shouldn't do it and I go through it all in my mind and then I'm too exhausted to actually do it!

I am the opposite to you lol

God laughs at my "goals"

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Nah. God laughs at mine. Me and him are at odds right now *eyeroll* lol.

But anyway, I’m the same. It’s funny, cuz a lot of people think I’m daring or a risk taker to my goals, but I’m not. I overthink EVERY thing. The difference is I don’t talk about my goals, dreams or plans with people. I sit and sit, analyze, map out, wash, rinse, repeat until I’m ready to enact it. By the time I’m making a move, to everyone else it looks random or impulsive. Lol

Recently though, I’ve been considering getting a life coach. I don’t come from a family of much means, let alone a family that really knew much about building wealth, and personal development, so I want to align myself with a mentor who can help me find efficient ways to accomplish my desires.

Consider finding something similar, or join a professional society and cultivate a natural relationship with people who can become a mentor to you.

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That the hippie era wasn't some magical time and that hippies weren't these cool people but rather the same type of narcissistic, social justicy douchebags with mental issues that we have today . And so we go in cycles. Had i lived in that time I would definitely have been the narc .lol

I sleep better knowing I haven't missed a thing.

I think you meant this more to troll, but I do think about this...like how do you get a generation go from being rebellious and free spirited to so confined and judgmental?

Obviously age can make us wiser...or bitter...but it is odd; you expect this from baby boomers, but not Gen X.

**i guess the baby boomers were the youth of the 70s but you get my point

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Not trolling.

Our culture and history isn't as unique as we like to think. It goes in cycles. It goes conformist, then rebellion, then rebellion against the rebelling (which puts as back at conformist) and so it goes. You can almost set your watch to it, like every 30 years these major events flare up. Like that clown in that Stephen King story lol

Even the trans thing - just a cultural phase. We're at the peak about now where everyone's confused (and blames any normal teen problem on "gender dysphoria").. Camille Paglia talked about this in detail. It's been done, only now we have the medical ability to srsly fuck up our kids from the start. Can't get a tattoo but u can get a penis.

It's quite fascinating how unoriginal and predictible we are.

But yeah even the hippies (the thinking ones) eventually washed their hair and put on a suit cuz playtime was over and real world with real ppl was around the corner.

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I'm waiting for mine 😕

Hahaha, me too. I find that meditating helps. But it’s such a power struggle, because you really have to be disciplined and dedicated to it.

Why are you meditating?

I really need some sort of epiphany right now. Have so many difficult emotions

^^ That’s why. I know some people like to blow it off as being hippy dippy, but have the ability to control your mind, ground yourself and think rationally in emotionally heightened moments is power move!

Sometimes I sit in the forest and do that I suppose. Do you believe in energies? Like vibrations? I try to elevate my vibration. I have nervous energy I am a Gemini but right now I am plagued by negativity

In general yes, but I’m starting to evolve my thinking; and by that I mean, I think the older your soul is—the less influential LOA and energies are on your journey. Like to me, I’ve noticed you can align your vibration to match what you want, and still be evaded by it.

And sometimes, that’s the lesson, just learning to accept what you can’t control and embracing the flow of your individual life.

I try to fight all the time

Same. But I’m starting to realize it’s kinda a great feeling when the universe tells you “you don’t have to be so controlling.” Other people have the issue of being too reckless with their decisions. I find relinquishing control is easier than learning how to gain control.

Don't you feel too passive though? I am naturally quite reflective. Projectr in human design I don't really make things happen usually I'm more waiting but sometimes I wonder if Im just wasting my life and not being proactive

No. Cuz I’m not a passive type of person, I love control. Not controlling others—I can’t be bothered, but making plans and structuring my life to accomplish every goal is how I roll. And of course the universe pisses on my plans every chance it gets. So yeah, no I could stand to be a little passive, especially after the 3rd time getting knocked down. You get to a point where all you can do is sit and wait.

But you know you, your issue very well could be lack of productivity. Are you indecisive and scattered brained?

Not scatter brained but any idea is immediately followed by reasons why I should or shouldn't do it and I go through it all in my mind and then I'm too exhausted to actually do it!

I am the opposite to you lol

God laughs at my "goals"

Nah. God laughs at mine. Me and him are at odds right now *eyeroll* lol.

But anyway, I’m the same. It’s funny, cuz a lot of people think I’m daring or a risk taker to my goals, but I’m not. I overthink EVERY thing. The difference is I don’t talk about my goals, dreams or plans with people. I sit and sit, analyze, map out, wash, rinse, repeat until I’m ready to enact it. By the time I’m making a move, to everyone else it looks random or impulsive. Lol

Recently though, I’ve been considering getting a life coach. I don’t come from a family of much means, let alone a family that really knew much about building wealth, and personal development, so I want to align myself with a mentor who can help me find efficient ways to accomplish my desires.

Consider finding something similar, or join a professional society and cultivate a natural relationship with people who can become a mentor to you.

Oh I am completely impulsive when I actually do something. As soon as I think about it it won't happen

Yeh I see a therapist.. she's really cool but it is challenging. Last time I felt so negative it was awkward but she was cool with it. I'm ok for money it's more like finding something meaningful and fulfilling in career and life/relationships I struggle with. I am a degenerate gambler lol but it works for me financially it's just I know people who do things that they really believe in and I wish I had that kind of peace of knowing you are doing what you are supposed to be doing. Also, recognition like I know someone who owns a shop dedicated to environmental sustainability and everyone thinks she is a heroine and no one gives a fk about me in that regard so I am jealous of that

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Ah, well you gotta do something meaningful to get that sort of validation. But you also probably aren’t doing anything meaningful because your motive isn’t genuine. Contradictory energies here, no wonder you’re blocked.

You should take some time to join clubs, or just spend more time in your hobbies. Turning that into a career is a tremendous feat. I’m doing it right now, but it took me 5 years to get my foot in the industry I want. Now I’m here, and it’s a whole new grind. She probably didn’t get her business and the recognition she has overnight.

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That the hippie era wasn't some magical time and that hippies weren't these cool people but rather the same type of narcissistic, social justicy douchebags with mental issues that we have today . And so we go in cycles. Had i lived in that time I would definitely have been the narc .lol

I sleep better knowing I haven't missed a thing.

I think you meant this more to troll, but I do think about this...like how do you get a generation go from being rebellious and free spirited to so confined and judgmental?

Obviously age can make us wiser...or bitter...but it is odd; you expect this from baby boomers, but not Gen X.

**i guess the baby boomers were the youth of the 70s but you get my point

Not trolling.

Our culture and history isn't as unique as we like to think. It goes in cycles. It goes conformist, then rebellion, then rebellion against the rebelling (which puts as back at conformist) and so it goes. You can almost set your watch to it, like every 30 years these major events flare up. Like that clown in that Stephen King story lol

Even the trans thing - just a cultural phase. We're at the peak about now where everyone's confused (and blames any normal teen problem on "gender dysphoria").. Camille Paglia talked about this in detail. It's been done, only now we have the medical ability to srsly fuck up our kids from the start. Can't get a tattoo but u can get a penis.

It's quite fascinating how unoriginal and predictible we are.

But yeah even the hippies (the thinking ones) eventually washed their hair and put on a suit cuz playtime was over and real world with real ppl was around the corner.

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Ah, so the epiphany is to just do you, embrace your individuality—because everything else is cyclical. Why conform or rebel for things that are just fads anyway.

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I'm waiting for mine 😕

Hahaha, me too. I find that meditating helps. But it’s such a power struggle, because you really have to be disciplined and dedicated to it.

Why are you meditating?

I really need some sort of epiphany right now. Have so many difficult emotions

^^ That’s why. I know some people like to blow it off as being hippy dippy, but have the ability to control your mind, ground yourself and think rationally in emotionally heightened moments is power move!

Sometimes I sit in the forest and do that I suppose. Do you believe in energies? Like vibrations? I try to elevate my vibration. I have nervous energy I am a Gemini but right now I am plagued by negativity

In general yes, but I’m starting to evolve my thinking; and by that I mean, I think the older your soul is—the less influential LOA and energies are on your journey. Like to me, I’ve noticed you can align your vibration to match what you want, and still be evaded by it.

And sometimes, that’s the lesson, just learning to accept what you can’t control and embracing the flow of your individual life.

I try to fight all the time

Same. But I’m starting to realize it’s kinda a great feeling when the universe tells you “you don’t have to be so controlling.” Other people have the issue of being too reckless with their decisions. I find relinquishing control is easier than learning how to gain control.

Don't you feel too passive though? I am naturally quite reflective. Projectr in human design I don't really make things happen usually I'm more waiting but sometimes I wonder if Im just wasting my life and not being proactive

No. Cuz I’m not a passive type of person, I love control. Not controlling others—I can’t be bothered, but making plans and structuring my life to accomplish every goal is how I roll. And of course the universe pisses on my plans every chance it gets. So yeah, no I could stand to be a little passive, especially after the 3rd time getting knocked down. You get to a point where all you can do is sit and wait.

But you know you, your issue very well could be lack of productivity. Are you indecisive and scattered brained?

Not scatter brained but any idea is immediately followed by reasons why I should or shouldn't do it and I go through it all in my mind and then I'm too exhausted to actually do it!

I am the opposite to you lol

God laughs at my "goals"

Nah. God laughs at mine. Me and him are at odds right now *eyeroll* lol.

But anyway, I’m the same. It’s funny, cuz a lot of people think I’m daring or a risk taker to my goals, but I’m not. I overthink EVERY thing. The difference is I don’t talk about my goals, dreams or plans with people. I sit and sit, analyze, map out, wash, rinse, repeat until I’m ready to enact it. By the time I’m making a move, to everyone else it looks random or impulsive. Lol

Recently though, I’ve been considering getting a life coach. I don’t come from a family of much means, let alone a family that really knew much about building wealth, and personal development, so I want to align myself with a mentor who can help me find efficient ways to accomplish my desires.

Consider finding something similar, or join a professional society and cultivate a natural relationship with people who can become a mentor to you.

Oh I am completely impulsive when I actually do something. As soon as I think about it it won't happen

Yeh I see a therapist.. she's really cool but it is challenging. Last time I felt so negative it was awkward but she was cool with it. I'm ok for money it's more like finding something meaningful and fulfilling in career and life/relationships I struggle with. I am a degenerate gambler lol but it works for me financially it's just I know people who do things that they really believe in and I wish I had that kind of peace of knowing you are doing what you are supposed to be doing. Also, recognition like I know someone who owns a shop dedicated to environmental sustainability and everyone thinks she is a heroine and no one gives a fk about me in that regard so I am jealous of that

Ah, well you gotta do something meaningful to get that sort of validation. But you also probably aren’t doing anything meaningful because your motive isn’t genuine. Contradictory energies here, no wonder you’re blocked.

You should take some time to join clubs, or just spend more time in your hobbies. Turning that into a career is a tremendous feat. I’m doing it right now, but it took me 5 years to get my foot in the industry I want. Now I’m here, and it’s a whole new grind. She probably didn’t get her business and the recognition she has overnight.

What do you mean my motive isn't genuine?

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“Also, recognition like I know someone who owns a shop dedicated to environmental sustainability and everyone thinks she is a heroine and no one gives a fk about me in that regard so I am jealous of that.”

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I'm waiting for mine 😕

Hahaha, me too. I find that meditating helps. But it’s such a power struggle, because you really have to be disciplined and dedicated to it.

Why are you meditating?

I really need some sort of epiphany right now. Have so many difficult emotions

^^ That’s why. I know some people like to blow it off as being hippy dippy, but have the ability to control your mind, ground yourself and think rationally in emotionally heightened moments is power move!

Sometimes I sit in the forest and do that I suppose. Do you believe in energies? Like vibrations? I try to elevate my vibration. I have nervous energy I am a Gemini but right now I am plagued by negativity

In general yes, but I’m starting to evolve my thinking; and by that I mean, I think the older your soul is—the less influential LOA and energies are on your journey. Like to me, I’ve noticed you can align your vibration to match what you want, and still be evaded by it.

And sometimes, that’s the lesson, just learning to accept what you can’t control and embracing the flow of your individual life.

I try to fight all the time

Same. But I’m starting to realize it’s kinda a great feeling when the universe tells you “you don’t have to be so controlling.” Other people have the issue of being too reckless with their decisions. I find relinquishing control is easier than learning how to gain control.

Don't you feel too passive though? I am naturally quite reflective. Projectr in human design I don't really make things happen usually I'm more waiting but sometimes I wonder if Im just wasting my life and not being proactive

No. Cuz I’m not a passive type of person, I love control. Not controlling others—I can’t be bothered, but making plans and structuring my life to accomplish every goal is how I roll. And of course the universe pisses on my plans every chance it gets. So yeah, no I could stand to be a little passive, especially after the 3rd time getting knocked down. You get to a point where all you can do is sit and wait.

But you know you, your issue very well could be lack of productivity. Are you indecisive and scattered brained?

Not scatter brained but any idea is immediately followed by reasons why I should or shouldn't do it and I go through it all in my mind and then I'm too exhausted to actually do it!

I am the opposite to you lol

God laughs at my "goals"

Nah. God laughs at mine. Me and him are at odds right now *eyeroll* lol.

But anyway, I’m the same. It’s funny, cuz a lot of people think I’m daring or a risk taker to my goals, but I’m not. I overthink EVERY thing. The difference is I don’t talk about my goals, dreams or plans with people. I sit and sit, analyze, map out, wash, rinse, repeat until I’m ready to enact it. By the time I’m making a move, to everyone else it looks random or impulsive. Lol

Recently though, I’ve been considering getting a life coach. I don’t come from a family of much means, let alone a family that really knew much about building wealth, and personal development, so I want to align myself with a mentor who can help me find efficient ways to accomplish my desires.

Consider finding something similar, or join a professional society and cultivate a natural relationship with people who can become a mentor to you.

Oh I am completely impulsive when I actually do something. As soon as I think about it it won't happen

Yeh I see a therapist.. she's really cool but it is challenging. Last time I felt so negative it was awkward but she was cool with it. I'm ok for money it's more like finding something meaningful and fulfilling in career and life/relationships I struggle with. I am a degenerate gambler lol but it works for me financially it's just I know people who do things that they really believe in and I wish I had that kind of peace of knowing you are doing what you are supposed to be doing. Also, recognition like I know someone who owns a shop dedicated to environmental sustainability and everyone thinks she is a heroine and no one gives a fk about me in that regard so I am jealous of that

Ah, well you gotta do something meaningful to get that sort of validation. But you also probably aren’t doing anything meaningful because your motive isn’t genuine. Contradictory energies here, no wonder you’re blocked.

You should take some time to join clubs, or just spend more time in your hobbies. Turning that into a career is a tremendous feat. I’m doing it right now, but it took me 5 years to get my foot in the industry I want. Now I’m here, and it’s a whole new grind. She probably didn’t get her business and the recognition she has overnight.

What do you mean my motive isn't genuine?

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“Also, recognition like I know someone who owns a shop dedicated to environmental sustainability and everyone thinks she is a heroine and no one gives a fk about me in that regard so I am jealous of that.”

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That’s kinda what you implied. I’m not suggesting that’s your sole motive but it really should be less than a third of your motive.

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Ah, so the epiphany is to just do you, embrace your individuality—because everything else is cyclical. Why conform or rebel for things that are just fads anyway.

Nope, I'm part of it. I'm not unique. Individuality also subscribes to the zeitgeist. No way around it.

That's the epiphany.. and that I no longer mourn the loss of something I never had, the 1970's lol. Also this nostalgic mourning for an other era - turns out, that's been done too by every generation: It was always "better" some 30 -40 years ago.

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I'm waiting for mine 😕

Hahaha, me too. I find that meditating helps. But it’s such a power struggle, because you really have to be disciplined and dedicated to it.

Why are you meditating?

I really need some sort of epiphany right now. Have so many difficult emotions

^^ That’s why. I know some people like to blow it off as being hippy dippy, but have the ability to control your mind, ground yourself and think rationally in emotionally heightened moments is power move!

Sometimes I sit in the forest and do that I suppose. Do you believe in energies? Like vibrations? I try to elevate my vibration. I have nervous energy I am a Gemini but right now I am plagued by negativity

In general yes, but I’m starting to evolve my thinking; and by that I mean, I think the older your soul is—the less influential LOA and energies are on your journey. Like to me, I’ve noticed you can align your vibration to match what you want, and still be evaded by it.

And sometimes, that’s the lesson, just learning to accept what you can’t control and embracing the flow of your individual life.

I try to fight all the time

Same. But I’m starting to realize it’s kinda a great feeling when the universe tells you “you don’t have to be so controlling.” Other people have the issue of being too reckless with their decisions. I find relinquishing control is easier than learning how to gain control.

Don't you feel too passive though? I am naturally quite reflective. Projectr in human design I don't really make things happen usually I'm more waiting but sometimes I wonder if Im just wasting my life and not being proactive

No. Cuz I’m not a passive type of person, I love control. Not controlling others—I can’t be bothered, but making plans and structuring my life to accomplish every goal is how I roll. And of course the universe pisses on my plans every chance it gets. So yeah, no I could stand to be a little passive, especially after the 3rd time getting knocked down. You get to a point where all you can do is sit and wait.

But you know you, your issue very well could be lack of productivity. Are you indecisive and scattered brained?

Not scatter brained but any idea is immediately followed by reasons why I should or shouldn't do it and I go through it all in my mind and then I'm too exhausted to actually do it!

I am the opposite to you lol

God laughs at my "goals"

Nah. God laughs at mine. Me and him are at odds right now *eyeroll* lol.

But anyway, I’m the same. It’s funny, cuz a lot of people think I’m daring or a risk taker to my goals, but I’m not. I overthink EVERY thing. The difference is I don’t talk about my goals, dreams or plans with people. I sit and sit, analyze, map out, wash, rinse, repeat until I’m ready to enact it. By the time I’m making a move, to everyone else it looks random or impulsive. Lol

Recently though, I’ve been considering getting a life coach. I don’t come from a family of much means, let alone a family that really knew much about building wealth, and personal development, so I want to align myself with a mentor who can help me find efficient ways to accomplish my desires.

Consider finding something similar, or join a professional society and cultivate a natural relationship with people who can become a mentor to you.

Oh I am completely impulsive when I actually do something. As soon as I think about it it won't happen

Yeh I see a therapist.. she's really cool but it is challenging. Last time I felt so negative it was awkward but she was cool with it. I'm ok for money it's more like finding something meaningful and fulfilling in career and life/relationships I struggle with. I am a degenerate gambler lol but it works for me financially it's just I know people who do things that they really believe in and I wish I had that kind of peace of knowing you are doing what you are supposed to be doing. Also, recognition like I know someone who owns a shop dedicated to environmental sustainability and everyone thinks she is a heroine and no one gives a fk about me in that regard so I am jealous of that

Ah, well you gotta do something meaningful to get that sort of validation. But you also probably aren’t doing anything meaningful because your motive isn’t genuine. Contradictory energies here, no wonder you’re blocked.

You should take some time to join clubs, or just spend more time in your hobbies. Turning that into a career is a tremendous feat. I’m doing it right now, but it took me 5 years to get my foot in the industry I want. Now I’m here, and it’s a whole new grind. She probably didn’t get her business and the recognition she has overnight.

What do you mean my motive isn't genuine?

You said:

“Also, recognition like I know someone who owns a shop dedicated to environmental sustainability and everyone thinks she is a heroine and no one gives a fk about me in that regard so I am jealous of that.”

oh you mean I'd only want to do it so ppl think I'm a hero?

That’s kinda what you implied. I’m not suggesting that’s your sole motive but it really should be less than a third of your motive.

I try to be a writer but it's because I want people to enjoy my stories but there's no point writing for noone

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Well. Here’s the thing, statistically, there’s going to be at least one person who enjoys your work. Two, you can’t have an audience if you don’t write. Three, sounds like you want a fan base; but you can’t have a fandom without a product. Four, writing isn’t your passion if your goal is to be beloved, your passion is fame. Lol

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Ah, so the epiphany is to just do you, embrace your individuality—because everything else is cyclical. Why conform or rebel for things that are just fads anyway.

Nope, I'm part of it. I'm not unique. Individuality also subscribes to the zeitgeist. No way around it.

That's the epiphany.. and that I no longer mourn the loss of something I never had, the 1970's lol. Also this nostalgic mourning for an other era - turns out, that's been done too by every generation: It was always "better" some 30 -40 years ago.

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Ah gotcha. So how did this influence your life? How has it changed it? Like what’s the ripple effect of this revelation?

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Ah, so the epiphany is to just do you, embrace your individuality—because everything else is cyclical. Why conform or rebel for things that are just fads anyway.

Nope, I'm part of it. I'm not unique. Individuality also subscribes to the zeitgeist. No way around it.

That's the epiphany.. and that I no longer mourn the loss of something I never had, the 1970's lol. Also this nostalgic mourning for an other era - turns out, that's been done too by every generation: It was always "better" some 30 -40 years ago.

Ah gotcha. So how did this influence your life? How has it changed it? Like what’s the ripple effect of this revelation?

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I guess I feel superior knowing something most thinking adults can't wrap their heads around for whatever reason lol. Like they are at the grass roots programmed by the Matrix to keep asking themselves the same question, "why oh why are we unable to learn of our mistakes?" Like a bunch of fuckin kids who are just discovering the world rather than having been in it for the last 30, 50, 60 years..

But aside from that I feel more at peace that neither I or we can make much difference and all that talking, discussing and lecturing is mostly an Ego high.

There's a protocol among humans and we're just following it. Literally, the act of rebelling is basically you just following the predestined, cultural protocol.

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I'm waiting for mine 😕

Hahaha, me too. I find that meditating helps. But it’s such a power struggle, because you really have to be disciplined and dedicated to it.

Why are you meditating?

I really need some sort of epiphany right now. Have so many difficult emotions

^^ That’s why. I know some people like to blow it off as being hippy dippy, but have the ability to control your mind, ground yourself and think rationally in emotionally heightened moments is power move!

Sometimes I sit in the forest and do that I suppose. Do you believe in energies? Like vibrations? I try to elevate my vibration. I have nervous energy I am a Gemini but right now I am plagued by negativity

In general yes, but I’m starting to evolve my thinking; and by that I mean, I think the older your soul is—the less influential LOA and energies are on your journey. Like to me, I’ve noticed you can align your vibration to match what you want, and still be evaded by it.

And sometimes, that’s the lesson, just learning to accept what you can’t control and embracing the flow of your individual life.

I try to fight all the time

Same. But I’m starting to realize it’s kinda a great feeling when the universe tells you “you don’t have to be so controlling.” Other people have the issue of being too reckless with their decisions. I find relinquishing control is easier than learning how to gain control.

Don't you feel too passive though? I am naturally quite reflective. Projectr in human design I don't really make things happen usually I'm more waiting but sometimes I wonder if Im just wasting my life and not being proactive

No. Cuz I’m not a passive type of person, I love control. Not controlling others—I can’t be bothered, but making plans and structuring my life to accomplish every goal is how I roll. And of course the universe pisses on my plans every chance it gets. So yeah, no I could stand to be a little passive, especially after the 3rd time getting knocked down. You get to a point where all you can do is sit and wait.

But you know you, your issue very well could be lack of productivity. Are you indecisive and scattered brained?

Not scatter brained but any idea is immediately followed by reasons why I should or shouldn't do it and I go through it all in my mind and then I'm too exhausted to actually do it!

I am the opposite to you lol

God laughs at my "goals"

Nah. God laughs at mine. Me and him are at odds right now *eyeroll* lol.

But anyway, I’m the same. It’s funny, cuz a lot of people think I’m daring or a risk taker to my goals, but I’m not. I overthink EVERY thing. The difference is I don’t talk about my goals, dreams or plans with people. I sit and sit, analyze, map out, wash, rinse, repeat until I’m ready to enact it. By the time I’m making a move, to everyone else it looks random or impulsive. Lol

Recently though, I’ve been considering getting a life coach. I don’t come from a family of much means, let alone a family that really knew much about building wealth, and personal development, so I want to align myself with a mentor who can help me find efficient ways to accomplish my desires.

Consider finding something similar, or join a professional society and cultivate a natural relationship with people who can become a mentor to you.

Oh I am completely impulsive when I actually do something. As soon as I think about it it won't happen

Yeh I see a therapist.. she's really cool but it is challenging. Last time I felt so negative it was awkward but she was cool with it. I'm ok for money it's more like finding something meaningful and fulfilling in career and life/relationships I struggle with. I am a degenerate gambler lol but it works for me financially it's just I know people who do things that they really believe in and I wish I had that kind of peace of knowing you are doing what you are supposed to be doing. Also, recognition like I know someone who owns a shop dedicated to environmental sustainability and everyone thinks she is a heroine and no one gives a fk about me in that regard so I am jealous of that

Ah, well you gotta do something meaningful to get that sort of validation. But you also probably aren’t doing anything meaningful because your motive isn’t genuine. Contradictory energies here, no wonder you’re blocked.

You should take some time to join clubs, or just spend more time in your hobbies. Turning that into a career is a tremendous feat. I’m doing it right now, but it took me 5 years to get my foot in the industry I want. Now I’m here, and it’s a whole new grind. She probably didn’t get her business and the recognition she has overnight.

What do you mean my motive isn't genuine?

You said:

“Also, recognition like I know someone who owns a shop dedicated to environmental sustainability and everyone thinks she is a heroine and no one gives a fk about me in that regard so I am jealous of that.”

oh you mean I'd only want to do it so ppl think I'm a hero?

That’s kinda what you implied. I’m not suggesting that’s your sole motive but it really should be less than a third of your motive.

I try to be a writer but it's because I want people to enjoy my stories but there's no point writing for noone

Well. Here’s the thing, statistically, there’s going to be at least one person who enjoys your work. Two, you can’t have an audience if you don’t write. Three, sounds like you want a fan base; but you can’t have a fandom without a product. Four, writing isn’t your passion if your goal is to be beloved, your passion is fame. Lol

Lol you're very candid - I like it

I like writing I wouldn't say it's a lifelong passion

I write stories about people and tell them shit about themselves it freaks them out

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So you’re candid too then lol.

Have you considered jumping on Tik Tok. Obviously writing and acting aren’t twins, but they’re cousins. If an audience is what you crave, writing short skits can do just that. Best thing about it, if you’re good, you can streamline any attention you do garner to a blog post (or wherever you house your writing.)

I use to hate this new group of social media influencers. To me, they all reek of a vanity trip! But social media can actually be a clever way to jump start a career and recognition in an area that you desire. If you’re smart and savvy about it, it can do a lot more than leave you labeled as an “influencer.”

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a couple solid of years of good old fashioned depression sorted me out.

How’d you get out of it?

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I'm waiting for mine 😕

Hahaha, me too. I find that meditating helps. But it’s such a power struggle, because you really have to be disciplined and dedicated to it.

Why are you meditating?

I really need some sort of epiphany right now. Have so many difficult emotions

^^ That’s why. I know some people like to blow it off as being hippy dippy, but have the ability to control your mind, ground yourself and think rationally in emotionally heightened moments is power move!

Sometimes I sit in the forest and do that I suppose. Do you believe in energies? Like vibrations? I try to elevate my vibration. I have nervous energy I am a Gemini but right now I am plagued by negativity

In general yes, but I’m starting to evolve my thinking; and by that I mean, I think the older your soul is—the less influential LOA and energies are on your journey. Like to me, I’ve noticed you can align your vibration to match what you want, and still be evaded by it.

And sometimes, that’s the lesson, just learning to accept what you can’t control and embracing the flow of your individual life.

I try to fight all the time

Same. But I’m starting to realize it’s kinda a great feeling when the universe tells you “you don’t have to be so controlling.” Other people have the issue of being too reckless with their decisions. I find relinquishing control is easier than learning how to gain control.

Don't you feel too passive though? I am naturally quite reflective. Projectr in human design I don't really make things happen usually I'm more waiting but sometimes I wonder if Im just wasting my life and not being proactive

No. Cuz I’m not a passive type of person, I love control. Not controlling others—I can’t be bothered, but making plans and structuring my life to accomplish every goal is how I roll. And of course the universe pisses on my plans every chance it gets. So yeah, no I could stand to be a little passive, especially after the 3rd time getting knocked down. You get to a point where all you can do is sit and wait.

But you know you, your issue very well could be lack of productivity. Are you indecisive and scattered brained?

Not scatter brained but any idea is immediately followed by reasons why I should or shouldn't do it and I go through it all in my mind and then I'm too exhausted to actually do it!

I am the opposite to you lol

God laughs at my "goals"

Nah. God laughs at mine. Me and him are at odds right now *eyeroll* lol.

But anyway, I’m the same. It’s funny, cuz a lot of people think I’m daring or a risk taker to my goals, but I’m not. I overthink EVERY thing. The difference is I don’t talk about my goals, dreams or plans with people. I sit and sit, analyze, map out, wash, rinse, repeat until I’m ready to enact it. By the time I’m making a move, to everyone else it looks random or impulsive. Lol

Recently though, I’ve been considering getting a life coach. I don’t come from a family of much means, let alone a family that really knew much about building wealth, and personal development, so I want to align myself with a mentor who can help me find efficient ways to accomplish my desires.

Consider finding something similar, or join a professional society and cultivate a natural relationship with people who can become a mentor to you.

Oh I am completely impulsive when I actually do something. As soon as I think about it it won't happen

Yeh I see a therapist.. she's really cool but it is challenging. Last time I felt so negative it was awkward but she was cool with it. I'm ok for money it's more like finding something meaningful and fulfilling in career and life/relationships I struggle with. I am a degenerate gambler lol but it works for me financially it's just I know people who do things that they really believe in and I wish I had that kind of peace of knowing you are doing what you are supposed to be doing. Also, recognition like I know someone who owns a shop dedicated to environmental sustainability and everyone thinks she is a heroine and no one gives a fk about me in that regard so I am jealous of that

Ah, well you gotta do something meaningful to get that sort of validation. But you also probably aren’t doing anything meaningful because your motive isn’t genuine. Contradictory energies here, no wonder you’re blocked.

You should take some time to join clubs, or just spend more time in your hobbies. Turning that into a career is a tremendous feat. I’m doing it right now, but it took me 5 years to get my foot in the industry I want. Now I’m here, and it’s a whole new grind. She probably didn’t get her business and the recognition she has overnight.

What do you mean my motive isn't genuine?

You said:

“Also, recognition like I know someone who owns a shop dedicated to environmental sustainability and everyone thinks she is a heroine and no one gives a fk about me in that regard so I am jealous of that.”

oh you mean I'd only want to do it so ppl think I'm a hero?

That’s kinda what you implied. I’m not suggesting that’s your sole motive but it really should be less than a third of your motive.

I try to be a writer but it's because I want people to enjoy my stories but there's no point writing for noone

Well. Here’s the thing, statistically, there’s going to be at least one person who enjoys your work. Two, you can’t have an audience if you don’t write. Three, sounds like you want a fan base; but you can’t have a fandom without a product. Four, writing isn’t your passion if your goal is to be beloved, your passion is fame. Lol

Lol you're very candid - I like it

I like writing I wouldn't say it's a lifelong passion

I write stories about people and tell them shit about themselves it freaks them out

So you’re candid too then lol.

Have you considered jumping on Tik Tok. Obviously writing and acting aren’t twins, but they’re cousins. If an audience is what you crave, writing short skits can do just that. Best thing about it, if you’re good, you can streamline any attention you do garner to a blog post (or wherever you house your writing.)

I use to hate this new group of social media influencers. To me, they all reek of a vanity trip! But social media can actually be a clever way to jump start a career and recognition in an area that you desire. If you’re smart and savvy about it, it can do a lot more than leave you labeled as an “influencer.”

I want to be a writer and actor actually

Idk if I would do tiktok but it's a good idea to do something like that, you're right

I like attention lol and I get bitter when I don't get enough

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I like it too. Nothing wrong with it lol. But I recognized there’s no sense in hating influencers or people who put themselves out there to be praised. Though, it will always grind my gears when I see people famous for the dumbest of things, if you have a talent or something to say, find a way to put it out there. Don’t be discouraged by the small following, most people don’t reach a mil in followers overnight, and in this age—going viral is pretty easy.

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Ah, so the epiphany is to just do you, embrace your individuality—because everything else is cyclical. Why conform or rebel for things that are just fads anyway.

Nope, I'm part of it. I'm not unique. Individuality also subscribes to the zeitgeist. No way around it.

That's the epiphany.. and that I no longer mourn the loss of something I never had, the 1970's lol. Also this nostalgic mourning for an other era - turns out, that's been done too by every generation: It was always "better" some 30 -40 years ago.

Ah gotcha. So how did this influence your life? How has it changed it? Like what’s the ripple effect of this revelation?

I guess I feel superior knowing something most thinking adults can't wrap their heads around for whatever reason lol. Like they are at the grass roots programmed by the Matrix to keep asking themselves the same question, "why oh why are we unable to learn of our mistakes?" Like a bunch of fuckin kids who are just discovering the world rather than having been in it for the last 30, 50, 60 years..

But aside from that I feel more at peace that neither I or we can make much difference and all that talking, discussing and lecturing is mostly an Ego high.

There's a protocol among humans and we're just following it. Literally, the act of rebelling is basically you just following the predestined, cultural protocol.

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This would probably be a depressing realization for most lol. But I can see how it does alleviate the anxiety behind a lot of political, or social current affairs.

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a couple solid of years of good old fashioned depression sorted me out.

How’d you get out of it?

It just kinda swallowed up some things that were important to me so it got to the point where those things meant nothing anymore, and once they meant nothing the depression had nothing to feed on so it just died. Now I've got those things back but with a different perspective.

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Yikes! That’s tough. You’re fortunate though, I’m not sure it would work like that for everyone. Some people lose it all, and it just makes the pit that much deeper.

Ok I'll give this a shot. First off, I say this in spiritual terms since it's easier to say. My passion is "WHY". Which is why I love and attracted to psychology, sociology, spirituality and all the different categories in each of those disciplines. This is the combination of everything I've read and understand that rings true in all of them. The mechanics that each spoke of in a different way. A rose by any other name is still a rose.

The you you call "I" or "me" is subjective and fluid. You have the ability to remake it all over time. The I and me is nothing but a set of automated responses and actions based on your life experiences on the past. Your brain is nothing more the a automated computer running off of reprogrammed scripts as far as "I and me" go. That can be rewritten and redone. Even your thoughts are habitual.

As you experience and respond to life you change to adapt. You learn behaviors to adapt over time, you modify this "self" anyway at a slow pace. Day by day.

You are not the same person you where last year and on a minute level, not even yesterday.

That is all a person/human is. A entity of layers of biological data playing out scripts and codes. The truth is most of that is under your control and can be modified to a extent consciously with effort.

The only thing that I see as a constant is the core of you that people call "the soul". Whatever that core is expresses it's self and that data filters up though the upper layers and gets modified indirectly as it passes though those layers. The expression gets changed.

Lets use " talents" as a example to explain this.

If your good at hussling, you could sell drugs or used goods just as easily as stocks, cars, or other goods. It's all about the level of game and society you are operating in.

If you can make medicine you can make poison. Same skill set just different expression.

If you can help you can hurt. Damage repair. Love and hate. Create and destroy. A talent agent or a human trafficker. At it's core, objectively it's the same thing expressed differently. That's it.

When you don't just know but understand. Both yourself and this concept , life gets waaay easier.

I don't know if this revelation can change my life even remotely, as I think my personality and mainly my circumstances are pretty fixed by some kind of black cloud over my head, but today I found out that my messed up father's chart is incredibly similar to mine. I had already made peace with the guy, but I feel like now I understand him better and judge him less. We are so f*cked up in such similar ways, and I also inherited lots of his physical conditions. I'm guessing the propensity for depression comes in the genes. I'm sorry he suffered so much and couldn't keep the suffering to himself. I'm not passing this along.