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i don't think of you as a virtual character! you're real.

but on second thought, you could be a middle aged man .... and the rest.... hehe...

no...virtual character

just kidding! I'm pretty real, wait...yeah...definitely real.

Do you know how to share yourself w/out having to be asked a specific question?

ok, virtual character it is.

wait, let me see if i feel different now.... no i don't think so... virtual or real = the same! i.e. real!!!!

wait...that was a dumb question...not what I meant

you say that alana (don't know her) asked specific questions. Do you only share what someone specifically asked of you? Do you not like people to pry? Do you prefer to keep stuff to yourself because of an insecurity? I'm asking because it's a scorp trait...all the scorpio's I know are that way...including mom.

yes, but i'm not as self centered as you. when i give info i always try to think of what the person i'm talking about would like to know about me. if i told you the size of my shoes, that might not interest you— that's y i find it confusing sharing without being asked a specific question!

but you surely have something in mind... teach me!

I've found you!

Ha Ha Ha Ha You can't hide from CancerLady!

uh oh...we've been caught.

Okay...

*Retreating back into the ocean...*

I'm gone...just wanted you to know...THERE IS NOWHERE YOU CAN HIDE!!!!

🙂

Thanks cancerlady...I will remeber that! (close call, eh lizard?)

insecurity, yes, big time! i just don't want to be intrusive/brash/meddlesome/pushy/pushing/obtrusive/meretricious/officious/touting/...
i don't know what the right word for this is, chose one!!!

close call meaning enough for today—

you're leaving work again— hahahahaha....

You called me self-centered...interesting, I am. Thanks for your brutal honesty...I admire that. I...I sometimes wonder if I talk about myself too much. If so, does that mean that I'm not interested in what he/she has to say. I don't want that person to feel that way. But at the same time, I'm used to listening, so I guess I feel weird asking specific questions, unless what's being discussed involves specifications. It's funny though, whenever I'm talking to someone new for the first time, it's weird of course, and I find myself saying "ask a question so we can start a conversation." Why can't I just be self-centered, and start rambling on about myself, instead? (Oooops, there I go again)

yes...we can continue tomorrow. (if you want, of course)

It will be your turn to be self-centered...I'm curious, what kind of bathroom tissue do you use? (until domani!)

i never said it's bad being self centered. and you read all my posts carefully and even got the hidden hints, hahahahaha..... i just said i'm not self centered and tend to see things mostly from another perspective, not mine... which isn't always good, you lose identity!

you're too fast for me. i'll wait for your answer to my last post an then say bye...ok?

I will reply tomorrow, "me tired." Until then, ciao.

🙂

good morning stranger.

just peeked out of fairyland. it's all like back to business. everyone's posts are all over the place, just ours are fairyland for miles and miles. well, mine were all fairyland last night, now i just had to post on other threads, distraction to keep sane. that make sense?

there's a really nice one: "Okay Where are you all from—". you should go there, it's like bringing everyone together! a big family, me luvs it!!!

Eww noone needs to see that kissing and stuff.Hehe,you said where you were going to be.Okay,okay,Tiamat shut up and go away now.

tia 🙂

Hey you, good morning. Or should I say good afternoon. What time is it there, anyway? I don't remember how many hours differece there is between you and the states. Anyway, I understand venturing off to foriegn lands to keep the sanity. Sometimes you need a change of scenery before you can get back to business. Speaking of business...musician? What instruments to you play? Do you have a recording studio? What do you do?

3:43pm here, is it really 8:43am where u are?


earn money mainly as music programmer ? in-store music. work for a music company.
studied music production, composition and songwriting though. and produce music professionally in the spare time. had a few releases in germany as a remixer. occasionally get gigs as a session musician - keys, guitar(not main instrument, not good at it), singing.

have a programming suite at home - record, mix and master in pro studios though, different ones all over germany. staying flexible that way....

music producer = the guy who walks up to girls 13-16y/o and says "baby you look great, i'll make you a superstar! and now take off your clothes and be nice to me!"

can i ask you for a favor? i'm still thinking about things we said last night. gan i go back and ask a few questions before we move on—
i guess being a leo you care for NOW most, less for past or future—? but i need that stepp back...

It's actually 10:25am, right now. Feel free to ask away, sometimes it's nice to be able to reminisce about the past. BTW, I'm busier than normal at work today, so I apologize if it takes long to respond...but I will be anxiously awaiting!

i'm busy too. be patient. i am!

🙂

Ah...patience, if only I could learn!

here we go: first question! there are at least 8 i'm afraid...

ME is enough. well, of course it is! were we togheter i'd only want you (which is ME 😉) but, what is ME? i know what you want, the powerful knight etc., but again, what are you offering?
i got a pretty good picture of what you're offering already (just to be honest), but from your point of view, what is it—

Wow...8 questions...OK!

I'm offering love (hopefully unconditional love), my heart (I'm always willing to risk it), my support (no matter what), my respect (w/out it, what's the point), my honesty (always will be open), my trust (it's hard to trust others, but I will give it a shot), my loyalty (very, very important), my sense of humor (I'm a pretty witty gal), my sensitivity (I usually have to work hard at that one, I can be tactless sometimes), my body (not yours, but will only belong to you for however long), my giving nature (It's what I like to do, most, in any relationship)Does this answer your first question ?

it blows me away... a lot more than you're asking for!

i mean, even if you fail on most things, it would be still a lot!

next one isn't a question but a funny thought:

"it's cool... let's move on as friends"
if you decided to take back your aries guy, i know you don't want him other than as a friend, but if... just tell him "it's cool... let's move on as friends".
an attractive, confident woman who says: you fukced up big time, but you know what, it's cool, let's move on, BUT only as friends, my pal!!!
that would work because i can imagine you saying this very confidently and ? how did you put it again? reserved and ? being pretty good looking, you said—
this combination will definitely prove your ?only friends? point and show him you?re through with him but don?t hate him. he?d probably want you more than life, camp in front of your house?. hahahahahaha?.. and you could take him back?. or leave it.

*blushes ashamed* - bad, bad scorpio?

next question:

how can you be so certain and confident and say: ?You were hesitant to surrender, and when you did...you fell in love!? i mean how can you tell so undoubtedly—

I don't ask for much. It doesn't take much to please me. But as I said b/4, "It's the little things that matter to me, consideration, respect, honesty...not material things. I think the little things are harder to give because we are human and different. That's probably why I'm single. I feel like most men would rather buy you nice things in order to keep you from complaining" It's hard to find a man who are those things. But we'll shall see.

As far as "let's move on and be friedns," "an attractive, confident woman who says: you fukced up big time, but you know what, it's cool, let's move on, BUT only as friends, my pal!!!" That's exactly what I want to do. Like I said b/4, I really liked this guy, he taught me a lot about myself in such a little time. I do want to stay in touch. But, (i thought of this last night), you asked what was it that was preventing me from letting go...sex...sex w/ him was amazing (whole different level). That's where I will have to be careful. I can be friends, but not friends w/ benefits...too emotional...too involved.

As far as the next question, "...you fell in love!" I was only reiterating what you said, "we only fell in love." I assumed you were only kidding. But, YOU said it...just going w/ the flow.

jealous now...

jealous of what?

of the ram

Why would you be jealous of the ram...he's the one who is missing out, right now, in such lovely conversation. The ram is an idiot. Question: Would your g-friend be upset if she found out we were conversing as such?

probably, why?

Than why do it? Just curious. If you know she would probably be upset.

two reasons.

because i feel attracted to you and want that conversation

and

because she only MIGHT be upset IF she found out. hypothetical! only assuming, because i feel guilty in a way!!! this is one case of human failure i was talking about.

if i knew that a certain action would 100% certainly hurt her, i'd leave it.

have you ever been unfaithful?

Once again, thanks for your honesty.

I have been unfaithful. Once, it was horrible. I had been w/ this guy for 2yrs...friends b/4, for 3yrs. There were many reasons why it happened, and even if it didn't, we would have broken up, anyway. I never told him exactly what happened, just that I had hooked up with another guy. We are still friends. We talk every now and then. But, I felt like he deserved better, which is why I had to break up w/ him. That, and other reasons. He was the only guy, I truly adored.