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lizard_scorpio
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now a thing about me:

i sometimes think that i'm a freak, because i have never ever been unfaithful to anyone!!!! and i start finding this unnatural because all of my close friends, who are loyal and faithful to their partners, have cheated at some point in their life. similar to your experience, it was only once, even like ages ago, and it was a horrible experience. but they have made that experience and i have never, although there was plenty of opportunities for me. the worst thing about this is though, that i can't feel good about it, and i certainly don't think i'm a better person than anyone else, because i do fancy other women... u get the picture

btw, i don't consider our conversation cheating... but it's my feelings for you that get me in trouble, make me feel guilty. all very confusing right now...
that's what i meant earlier on when i said i was confused, or you confused me... but it's not you really, it's me, because of you...


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What's bad...the fact that you and I are chatting, or the situation with you and your g-friend? Just confused, not trying to pry. I don't know if what we are doing is harmless, but if I were your g-friend, I would be upset. I define cheating as something you do, when you know it's wrong. But I don't know your situation...however, you said you were feeling bad.

As far as the honesty goes...I don't judge...no need to run away. I, too, am enjoying our conversation.
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ha! i have something for you, yeah strike back!!!!

now imagine you're in a long term relationship and you discover strong feelings towards another person, however that might happen!!! now, ha! would that be cheating in your eyes, because this would be something you feel is wrong?

than cheating would be things that we can influence, like having a one night stand or an affair or as you say the way i chat with you now, but ALSO feelings that come up, that we can not influence... only because we know it's wrong to have them while committed to our partner. that would be cruel really.
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whooaaaa...now you are moving way too fast for me! I never described cheating as disovering strong feelings for someone (you can't help that), I described it as someone doing something that they KNOW, they probably shouldn't do, such as us chatting. You know that your partner would be upset, yet you are doing it, anyway. Of course, I would be sad if you decided not to, anymore, but I would understand. I guess I'm asking because what happens when/if we do become attached more than we would want...then what? How do we stop? How does any couple stop from coming together, knowing it's wrong?
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lizard_scorpio
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i thought, you were either not being honest on that one or i must have fooled you really badly.... i must have fooled you then...

it does take a lot more than exchanging a few posts on the internet to fall in love with someone, mind you, but if you were serious about "...you fell in love!", well somehow i wouldn't have objected, you could call it that, in a light playful way, still not kidding though....

..."you are making quite the impression"

you're beginning to heal my wounds, thank you!!! but i have to retreat now, it still hurts pretty bad.

that was quite a ride, very special 🙂

will see you tomorrow—


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K...now I'm confused. "we only fell in love." When you said that, I assumed you were joking. "...you fell in love!", when I said that, I was only joking...you know...going w/ the flow. I don't believe we are in love...hahahahahahha. It takes a little more than this, like you said...just had to clear that up. I hope you don't think I'm some crazy stalker. There is no ocean wide enough...in regards to whatever it is I want. You didn't fool me, unless you WERE serious. Then I would be confused.

"you're beginning to heal my wounds, thank you!!! but i have to retreat now, it still hurts pretty bad." Don't understand. My mind has been in 1000 places today, I'm sorry, but please elaborate b/4 we "stop the car"

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lizard_scorpio
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"you're beginning to heal my wounds, thank you!!! just felt good hearing that!

because i'm confused and feel horrible, because i?haven't got those answers.

and i'm retreating = closing it for today because i need time to think it through = heal my wounds completely.

excuse my cheesy/imaginative language, didn't mean to scare you.

and no, never even thought of you as "some crazy stalker"

i'm really confused, not only your mind has been in 1000 places today!!!

don't stop the car......

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lizard_scorpio
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yep, still hurting badly, but not paying too much attention to it!

didn't post before you - that was plain manipulative, lol, no, rather calculating ?

now let me explain:

i'm going slightly mad here, so i had to wait for your post first, just to prove to myself that i could do it, that i'm still in control of my feelings... don't worry, still feeling for you, just not going crazy! been busy @ work, too...

and no, you didn't scare me away! how could you? remember, i'm my worst enemy, not you... you're asking all the right questions, i just don't have the answers...

but hey, we wanted to start light today and i'm spoiling it already. just still charged from yesterday.....

now a light question for ya:

what is it you work? your profession, your education etc.? and tell me about how you live, too, what you do in your spare time and so on...

now be the self-centered lady you are and just chat on about yourself - i'm ?anxiously awaiting?!!!
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I know how to play the role of "self-centeredness" very well. Here goes:

I'm 24. I live in Arlington, Virginia. I work at George Washington University in Washington, DC. I work in the their Office of Government, International and Corporate Affairs. I'm getting ready to start grad school (my BA is in Political Science). I will either get my Master's in International Education or International Development Studies. Not quite sure, but I can start taking classes, b/4 I'm admitted to any program, to see if I like it (One of the perks of working for a University). What I want to be when I grow up...well, besides being someone who is feared and admired at the same time, I see myself working for a non-profit, concentrating on peace and conflict resolution in Africa. I have two older sisters, one neice (precious) and nephew (bad. Mom is a scorp, dad is a pisces. In my spare time, I like to work out, read and write...oh yeah, and drink! (don't worry, I'm not a drunk). I think my partying days have simmered down. That's ok, i'm discovering new things now. Anything else you want to know?
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lizard_scorpio
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we're all human and different, right?

to be honest, i believe that you can evaluate him and the situation far better than me from that distance, because you're there, you speak to him, you know exactly the background ..... etc.

i can make assumptions though, if that's of any help:

he has a guilty conscience, and he is way into you... probably was too selfish/lazy/or simply too much of a coward to be there for you during the hard times. and now you're over the hard times he wants you back, wants those benefits again without having to work and earn them...

i guess i'm too much emotionally attached to make a fair-minded judgment... jealous... i know it's stupid...lol... fighting that feeling already....
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If your assumption is right on...I'm scared. I know in my mind that I can't be with this guy, my heart couldn't bear it, I'm not strong enough. I had this conversation w/ God last night (not to preach or anything), I asked questions like "Why do I feel this way when He TOTALLY showed me his true colors?" I must be a masochist, or something. It's ridiculous. He gave me the reality check I never thought I would recieve...and I certainly wasn't prepared for it. What should I do? I want to ignore him, but I keep thinking why hold a grudge? Then it's like, I must be crazy to want to keep in my life...he is nothing but negative energy. Then it's like, maybe I can help him realize his negativity, and help him be more positve...What the fukc, Lizard. I'm crazy...that's the answer...I'm crazy!
*sigh*..i want a dog...
Luz
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romeclone
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if you could take any two animals and splice their genes together in order to create the perfect pets, what would you chose and what traits would you want?

no choosing to splice cat and dog.
Gwendylyn Post
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i wish i had a ferret...ferrets are so cute..FERRET BE MINE!!
Luz
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I have a golden retriever/chow mix named Lodi (after the CCR song, don't blame me, my parents named him), a siamese named Seymoure, and a calico named Zoey.

What about you?
phoenix_rising
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I love them! Has anyone ever had one? Know anything about them? Love them? Hate them? My old best friend had a black one named "Conan" (not pronounced like the late night host, but like the barbarian). He was the cutest thing you've ever seen; they
phoenix_rising
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Cortica,


I have a huge dilemma!!!! I started a new job and I am gone all damn day, and I have three big dogs that are use to me being with me every moment! I use to be able to take them to my old job, and we did everything together! This
Suzy-Q!
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Not sure if the pictures worked - if you want to have a look at my puppies, click on my name - they're so cute!!!!!!
Cortica
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I have had cats and dogs as pets and find that I prefer dogs...

I also have a pet bunny, a Netherland Dwarf...he is the cutest, sweetest... and he is smart! He is potty trained! The only problem with the poor guy is that we were told he was femal
Star
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Who has the oldest living horse? My old boy turns 31 in December.
Lawgoddess
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Any ideas?
I've just become the proud grandmother of five white/brindle & white mini bull terriers.
2 boys and 3 girls.
Cortica
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