This is my Pisces lady that lives 6 hours away. We tripped on mushrooms together and fell in love (unspokenly). She told me she loved me twice accidentally during that trip and we havnt seen each other since. And barely spoke. She called me a few nights ago hella drunk. Crying because she cant be there for me. Continuously crying. I was rathe brutally honest with her about how hard she is on her self, because she kept saying she wants to make everyone happy but cant. And we laughed, and she cried. And that was that. next day she texted me at 7am to ask if Im "feeling ok". And I asked her the same and if she remembered our ONLY productive conversation we had since I left. And she didnt remember. She wanted to know what we spoke about . "in detail throught text". I told her it wasnt a good idea to text her, and she insisted that she was at work and didnt mind, which was a red flag for me so I said to her "if its not a good time than its not a good time." Than the next day she face timed me. I was being Icy for the first few moments because I wasnt sure if she was gonna blow it off again or not. I put my phone down for one secod to tie my hair and she said . "Ill call you back" and hangs up. I texted her why and she said "something needs my attention." I gave her 5 hours and just texted "." She responded basically saying she doesnt feel comfortable texting cause she feels like she wont be able to get her words out. I didnt answer till a few hours later because I needed to think, an I was out and realized tonight wasnt a good night so I texted her that I was out and asked if I could get at her later. She than texted me a long ass article titled "The dark truths about pisces". Followed with (clifs notes) "this is really me, and im iscusted with my self. And you deserve a better friend than me and im toxic ect ect". I took that as a cry for help and I was DRUNK AF when she texted me.So when i got home I sent a long ass text that honestly was barely legable. Than called her a couple times and she answered "Got work in the moring". (As if she wasnt texting me hella late). So i simply said "ok" and hung up. She texted "please understand its best we arnt friends (like who asked you)" And I didnt answer and went to bed. I woke up at 7am ( still drunk).. and was feeling really sad for her. Someone (and I know this for fact from our past convos) really fucked her up and traumitizzed her in to believing she is respinsible for the feelings of others. So I sent her a VERY long voice note. Telling her about our talk when she drunk facetimes me a few days prior. And explaining to her that I wasnt dissapointed with her (like she expressed she thought). That I was mad, but Im aloud to have my feelings but they are not her responsibility. I told her how heartbroken I am for her, because I see her pain when we last spoke. And that I wish shed let me be there for her. And how I wish I could take her pain and that she needs to do that for her self. And that im here for her, but if she doesnt want my friendship than Ill respect that, and Ill be fine. T
