Fuck depression

My Libra disappeared again. He was still sick but seemed to be moving in the right direction. He was seeing a new dr who had him in therapy along with a new medication.

We were doing well. No arguments, no pressure. We were happy.

And now he's gone.....again. I haven't heard from him in 3 weeks. No replies to my calls or texts. I drove by his apartment once but it was dark.

The last time I saw him, I left feeling good. Two days later he left me a cryptic message that ended with

"I hate myself, I hate myself"

And that was it. I hate depression. It has destroyed both of us.

I'm not walking away.

I tried that already and was far more miserable without him.

So I'm just going to back off. He will be back. The one thing I learned is that he likes to do it alone.

It is hard for the person experiencing it, & it must be hard for you too, not being able to do much to ease his suffering. I hope both of you can weather through it. You already know him enough to know what to do, stay strong.

Posted by DonJohn
damn, is he a heavy drinker?

No

He has severe PTSD and depression

It's always been there but it's been really bad lately. His father's death was a trigger and he hasn't been the same since.

Libras suck, they're selfish as fuck. He's too focused on himself to give a shit about how all this affects YOU.

Posted by HeavyEntertainmentShow
Libras suck, they're selfish as fuck. He's too focused on himself to give a shit about how all this affects YOU.

He's sick. I cant be mad about it. I just have to learn to accept it. I will admit that it's hell though.

When he's healthy, everything is good. He's a great guy.

*oh, were you being sarcastic? It's hard to tell on these boards.

Regardless, my answer would be the same.

Posted by Deedee86

Posted by HeavyEntertainmentShow
Libras suck, they're selfish as fuck. He's too focused on himself to give a shit about how all this affects YOU.

He's sick. I cant be mad about it. I just have to learn to accept it. I will admit that it's hell though.

When he's healthy, everything is good. He's a great guy.

*oh, were you being sarcastic? It's hard to tell on these boards.

Regardless, my answer would be the same.

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I'm never sarcastic when it comes to Libras. I've seen several Libras at their worst, and they all reacted the same way: extreme selfishness. They were only concerned with themselves. Even when the situation affected multiple people, they didn't give a single shit about anyone but themselves.

This time last year I was depressed and suicidal. My Jed's birthday was coming up and I was devastated because I wanted to tell him I love him and I was too terrified of his reaction to do so. On his birthday I was ready to kill myself. But shortly afterwards I found out about his family situation, and my deep concern & love for him overpowered my own selfish urges. Because I am capable of thinking of other people who matter to me.

Your guy is too self-absorbed to raise his head and look around to see if anyone else is hurting.

Posted by Rozaeon

Posted by Deedee86

Posted by HeavyEntertainmentShow
Libras suck, they're selfish as fuck. He's too focused on himself to give a shit about how all this affects YOU.

He's sick. I cant be mad about it. I just have to learn to accept it. I will admit that it's hell though.

When he's healthy, everything is good. He's a great guy.

*oh, were you being sarcastic? It's hard to tell on these boards.

Regardless, my answer would be the same.

Don't mind him really, seems like he doesn't have better things to do than trash this sign when given the opportunity to do so. And for no reasons apparently, so just a brainless hater

And he doesn't seem to know what depression is too so yeah, don't mind what he has to say ^^

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Talk out of your ass all you want, I know exactly what depression is like.

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Posted by Deedee86

Posted by HeavyEntertainmentShow
Libras suck, they're selfish as fuck. He's too focused on himself to give a shit about how all this affects YOU.

He's sick. I cant be mad about it. I just have to learn to accept it. I will admit that it's hell though.

When he's healthy, everything is good. He's a great guy.

*oh, were you being sarcastic? It's hard to tell on these boards.

Regardless, my answer would be the same.

I'm never sarcastic when it comes to Libras. I've seen several Libras at their worst, and they all reacted the same way: extreme selfishness. They were only concerned with themselves. Even when the situation affected multiple people, they didn't give a single shit about anyone but themselves.

This time last year I was depressed and suicidal. My Jed's birthday was coming up and I was devastated because I wanted to tell him I love him and I was too terrified of his reaction to do so. On his birthday I was ready to kill myself. But shortly afterwards I found out about his family situation, and my deep concern & love for him overpowered my own selfish urges. Because I am capable of thinking of other people who matter to me.

Your guy is too self-absorbed to raise his head and look around to see if anyone else is hurting.

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We sound a bit alike.

I went through hell earlier this year, especially June but I tried my best not to burden him because he was hurting already.

Posted by Deedee86

Posted by HeavyEntertainmentShow

Posted by Deedee86

Posted by HeavyEntertainmentShow
Libras suck, they're selfish as fuck. He's too focused on himself to give a shit about how all this affects YOU.

He's sick. I cant be mad about it. I just have to learn to accept it. I will admit that it's hell though.

When he's healthy, everything is good. He's a great guy.

*oh, were you being sarcastic? It's hard to tell on these boards.

Regardless, my answer would be the same.

I'm never sarcastic when it comes to Libras. I've seen several Libras at their worst, and they all reacted the same way: extreme selfishness. They were only concerned with themselves. Even when the situation affected multiple people, they didn't give a single shit about anyone but themselves.

This time last year I was depressed and suicidal. My Jed's birthday was coming up and I was devastated because I wanted to tell him I love him and I was too terrified of his reaction to do so. On his birthday I was ready to kill myself. But shortly afterwards I found out about his family situation, and my deep concern & love for him overpowered my own selfish urges. Because I am capable of thinking of other people who matter to me.

Your guy is too self-absorbed to raise his head and look around to see if anyone else is hurting.

We sound a bit alike.

I went through hell earlier this year, especially June but I tried my best not to burden him because he was hurting already.

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Well, the way I work is: seeing Jed's emotional improvement after spending time with me is all the reward in the world for me, knowing that I make a positive difference in his life. Helping him through it made me happy, and his genuine gratitude made me even happier. That's how I was able to get over it. Helping him helped me.

But YOU have to look out for yourself, because he obviously won't look out for you. Libras love it when things are good & easy because it doesn't require them to make much of an effort. But when the going gets tough, they get going. They are spineless.

Let them leave if it affects them in any way. Depression rarely depends on external factors, but can be contagious. Let them judge if they feel good about it. When I'm low, I prefer to hide and munch on my own feelings until I'm done. People make me even more emotional and it doesn't help at all, none of us.