One of my friendships ended...

I told them things couldn't be the way they were anymore. It was a very intense, sometimes engrossing friendship that was wonderful when things were great, and surprisingly disheartening, when things were troubled.

I'm feeling weird about it all. Like, I find myself thinking; "Is it really over? I guess I'm never going to hear from this person again, much, if at all. We'll never again get together and talk like we used to. I will probably never hear their voice again."

Even if I wanted to, we can't talk. So much shit was done and said that I ended up disliking the person. I told them as much when they tried to reach out to me recently. I'd like to think they're sorry, but I simply do not know. They're so complicated. It wouldn't matter anyway because I don't know how I could trust them anymore. What's left in a friendship when trust and confidence is gone?

Can't quite wrap my head around the fact that all those times we had are over for good. That person isn't my friend. I wish that wasn't so. Maybe I should have reacted differently? Friends fight sometimes, no? Then again, maybe they could have been a better, nicer person. I think I became the recipient of their misdirected anger and bad moods far too many times. Maybe I just shouldn't think about it anymore. I guess I just needed to vent. If you have any advice, it's appreciated. Otherwise, thanks for reading, whoever you are.

Posted by AnotherTaurusGuy
Have you known them for a long time? People grow apart over time. Be grateful for the good times and try not to dwell on the bad ones.

Yeah, we were friends for years.

I told them their repeated ill treatment of me had hurt me too much. I wonder, does that count as growing apart? It all became so unhealthy. I had to put them at even further than an arms length.