The Power of One

I understand the need for the attention of another and thats totally ok with me...but what do you feel about yourself? There are people in this world who would literally kill themselves over the reputation they have over peers and loved ones. There are people who would lose their jobs, cry, get angry and say and do things they normally wouldn't do over another person and their own opinions and actions. WOW!!! Is this really life worth living? Love is a great thing and it seems to be defined by many people as some type of attraction or emotional connection with someone but is it love to be alone and be happy with it?

I havent been without a relationship since I was 14. I've been in an 8 year relationship and as you may have guessed the relationship has crash and burned, and it took me a good year to really recover from the hangover of the whole so called "love" thing. Now that I'm completely over it, I look back and I feel soo pathetic at how much I thought I needed her, I realized all this love was only decaying me. I used to believe that I needed her to be there so I can do this and I needed to hear her voice just one time before I go back to work. It was all silly. The silly thing was...I was really freakin serious. I mean, I REALLY needed her there with me to support me so I can feel totally confident with whatever major decisions I made in my life! Once I got over her, it was like as if I put all my limbs back togeather and had to learn how to walk and function properly all over again. This time without the restrictions, without the emotional strain...I feel like ME again...and I LOVE THIS ME!!! LOL

How do you feel about never being in "love"? Does it scare you? Have you even thought of life without love? I think this is the reason here that young people commit suicide (beside positive STD tests 😢 ). People place too much of their hope into the corrupted hands of others...

Truly, everyone has been through that...definitely not minimizing your feelings, because they are important and you should be empowered to feel whatever you want to feel, but be comforted in knowing that you are not alone and most of us have trudged down that dark path. Also, in my experience, young love is different than older love, and since I am older than you 😉 I can say that the way I was at 16 was completely different than 21, and completely different at 25, and completely different than 30. One thing for myself I don't believe I will ever have that pure, honest, 100% love that I had at 16. In my opinion, it's impossible (and probably a good thing) to have that naive all encompassing type of love. Unfortunately, as you get a little older; go through relationships, and hear these horrible stories being told, you become a bit more jaded - well, I do. BUT, there are still a lot of people out that have a certain perseverance that keeps them getting up and dusting themselves off after they've been thrown off the love horse time and time again! Lol. I wish I could be like that (well, not really), but I can't, or I guess I should say I chose not too. I'm glad to see that you are moving on, and you shouldn't feel pathetic because what you went through and what you were feeling at that time for 8 years was VERY REAL, and was a huge part of your life. When you are that young and in a serious relationship, it truly is all you know. Consider it a lesson learned, and trust me when I say, you will be just fine. Enjoy your "ME" time, and I hope you don't feel that you are defined by being or not being in a relationship. There is nothing wrong with you taking time for yourself before you get back into the dating pool!

By the way, I like the title "The Power of One" because I think we do sometimes forget how much power we have individually. Not to say that it's not good to have support from others, but it's good to feel that sweet sense of self and it truly is a "power of one."

USCTaurusgal...I do understand what has happened to me and I know to take this as stepping stone instead of allowing it to rot me from the inside out. The pain just reminded me of how weak I really was. Then I thought to myself, maybe that's exactly how everyone else must feel whenever their hearts are broken as well. I wanted everyone to think about themselves for a change...the most important person in their lives.

I hope that those who walked the same path as me takes in the advice USCTaurusgal has offered. Like I stated before, I've seen what people would do to themselves over the opinions of others...understand that life isn't going to be the same 5 years later (SOO TRUE) and you may not even be living on the same standards as you do today. Seriously, try looking yourself in the eyes in the mirror one time...can you truly do this without cringing or turning away? That's when you have to think about YOURSELF.

thank you for the kind words dxp never seems to stop suprising me 🙂

No problem, and you seem to have a lot of self-actualization for someone of your age. Keep on moving in a positive direction, and remember the sun will shine brightly on you today, tomorrow, and always!