I am confused beyond measure by this Scorpio girl who has been in my life for 10 years. SOS

hello land of scorpios, i am a leo (ahhh) and have somehow been intertwined with this scorpio female for over 10 years

im from a small town. when i was 17 this 13 year old scorpio shows up on the scene with blue hair and a skateboard. we grow up in the same small town, i always had an older set of friends and had my own life. i would always see her, living growing up and we kind of remained distant in those early years. it wasnt until a couple years ago our paths really crossed and it made for quite the encounter. one day i was walking along and she said i couldnt walk by because she didnt like me. i said well too bad im going this way and unless your the bridge troll it doesnt matter if you like me. she didnt really like that and said she wanted to fight, i wasnt really planning to fight but i couldnt let someone talk to me like that so rude. i threw off my jacked and we scrapped for a bit. it was kinda even but i had both her wrists and she said if i let go of her wrists she would let me go. we parted ways and although it seemed random to me, because i dont know why she didnt like me, i felt that she was always afraid insecure and looking for trouble. alot of people are intimidated by her but not me. i stood up to her. she didnt really like that. anyway a year goes by, and one day she comes up to me when i was selling my art at the market. she said she really liked my art and introduced herself. I was confused and surprised. i told her i knew who she was and that my name was kati. she said that she didnt recognize me and i looked different, but offered to let bygones be bygones and start over (which i thought was odd for a scorpio) anyway a year passed we were cool, would socialize in the same group, nothing came up.

then one day i started having dreams about her, like sexual dreams. i brushed it off at first and thought it was weird. then i started feeling attracted to her but thought it was crazy because im usually pretty even keeled and she seemed so wild and punk rock. but when the feelings did not subside i asked her if i could talk to her one day. i told her that i was starting to have feelings for her. she just kinda stood there and didnt say anything, but then invited me to a bonfire. she always tries to be cool and the life of the party, and didnt really make time to give me an answer. i just left it at that.

then a few months go by and i leave that small town to northern california. i move up here and create my own life. i have my own place, pretty independant and make good money. i am away from the small town and am able to be more of an individual. she would call me from time to time and see how i was doing. she said she was going to come up to san francisco a few times but didnt make it. i even told her id come get her, still she just went back home. She likes all my social media posts, shes the first one on my friends list, and she seems to be interested.

i flew back home on halloween ( i was getting lonely lving by myself and wanted to be around friends) it was also her birthday. i attended her birthday, got her a gift and she kissed me. i had to fly home the next day. i thought maybe it meant something. she has always been gay but is such a tomboy she has many guy friends. sometimes she likes them and has a boyfriend, but usually goes back to being single. she hasnt had a girlfriend in a long time, but is interested in girls.

for the next few months after that i thought maybe she liked me. i started planning to see if and when she would visit how i could make it nice and make arrangements to go to sf since she had never been. all her plans and trips to see me fell short. i felt like i couldnt wait around anymore for an answer. i went to vegas for a few weeks to get my mind off things.

this past month i got her christmas presents, she hadnt responded to me. i had to go back home this past week on business. when i was there she was doing very poorly. when i saw her i took her to the hospital. she had strep throat and none of her friends cared about her. it was like i was the only one who was able to make her listen and get through to her. she tried to kiss me (but im not about to get strept throat). i thought about it a few days and decided i would give her an option to come home with me. I told her i would buy her a plane ticket (she has always wanted to go on a plane) and if she liked it she could stay and if not id fly her home. she started cursing at me and saying i cant just do what you want me to do and i was shocked. she tried to bring people into the conversation and it was embarassing for me. i felt really like betrayed that she would act that way after everything ive gone through with her. why does she stalk my social media? why does she kiss me? why does she treat me so crappy when i try to ask her how she feels. why does she scream at me when i want to give her a better life. what is it?

im afraid to even talk to her now. i feel like i got stung or burned. i dont know what i could have done differently to get her attention. i dont know if i should have even been brave enough to tell her my feelings or make an offer of love to her. i didnt know love could look that ugly. i dont know why the universe gave me feelings for her, but i do not understand scoprios at all and i would like some kind of insite. like anything at all because at this point i am confused as fuck, and now, a little hurt

❤️ some leo girl

Posted by yourbreathiscosmic

she has always been gay but is such a tomboy she has many guy friends. sometimes she likes them and has a boyfriend, but usually goes back to being single. she hasnt had a girlfriend in a long time, but is interested in girls.

this past month i got her christmas presents, she hadnt responded to me.

I told her i would buy her a plane ticket (she has always wanted to go on a plane) and if she liked it she could stay and if not id fly her home. she started cursing at me and saying i cant just do what you want me to do and i was shocked.

Ok sounds like your WAAAYYY more invested than her.

You say she's gay but she's also had bf's so...

She didn't respond when you got her a gift...

She reacted badly when you tried to move her in...

She's not the one.

This whole post confuses me haha short sweet and simple, she's not that into you... flee

sound like weird personal issues, some red flags, heck crimson flags if you ask me.

I know you're a leo like moi, and this might be difficult to understand, but listen for a sec, there's a chance this has nothing to do with you and she's just a little fuck up in the head, I know I know, is difficult to think the world is not all about you, is hard for me too, but is a possibility.

also in a astro stuff, I'd say she got some weird venus going on in that chart, maybe a venus-mars square too?

anyway, don't be a virgo and go fishing somewhere else.

Edit: awww this was a necropost goddamit.