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Posted by ElleDuMonde
I am not enjoying this full moon in sag like I should be.

Everything I say appears to others like I am speaking thru a megaphone apparantly.

I am asked my opinion several times in a three hour meeting and three people are asking me why I am upset.

Wtf?

I don't even care and wouldn't have even said anything if I wasn't asked to.

JFC
😆. I would guess that's exactly what is coming through in your answers.
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Posted by ElleDuMonde
I am not enjoying this full moon in sag like I should be.

Everything I say appears to others like I am speaking thru a megaphone apparantly.

I am asked my opinion several times in a three hour meeting and three people are asking me why I am upset.

Wtf?

I don't even care and wouldn't have even said anything if I wasn't asked to.

JFC
LOL.

Must be hard times for Aries placements. Pisces sun Aries laden coworker flipped out this weekend.

'Elly. Can we talk about what happened last night. You were there. Do you think I was in the wrong and I complain a lot?'

'Um. Well.'

'CAUSE THATS BULLSHIT. AND NOT TRUE. it's fine I expected you to take the managers side anyways honestly' *leaves room swiftly*

*elly stands there blank faced thinking 'great good talk'*

Other coworker: You starting fights in here Elly?

Me: Apparently. And I don't even know how...
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Lol. I love those types of conversations (If I'm in the right mood for it).

Me: *sitting at desk, typing, lifts mug and sips tea*
Co worker: *walks in* "Oh my God can I ask you a question...blah, blah, blah what do you think?"
Me: *sips tea* "Well I---"
Co worker: "Yeah my thoughts exactly. I can just tell from your expression....what an asshole, blah blah blah....thanks for listening anyway" *walks out*
Me: *raise eyebrow, put mug down continues typing*
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...I feel fine when I gather myself after each disappointment. I only feel lonely after another rejection. And everyone is always like 'Wow. You're so cool. You're so gorgeous and smart and talented and sweet and loyal. Omgggg. Anyone would be lucky to have you.' Well that's nice and all but after the third time getting dumped for someone else and getting ghosted twice the self esteem takes a knock....
Ever think maybe that intimidates the men you're meeting? I'm not at all suggesting you stop being you. Just, rather than internalizing their reaction see it as a "we wouldn't fit anyway". I mean if someone can see all those things in you and then feels "this is too much, I need to bounce" would you want to invest in someone like that? That sounds like it's speaks more to them not feeling like they couldn't measure up vs you being the wrong person for them. Doesn't help that the way they go about it may be sh*tty (e.g. ghost). IDK, we all have insecurities, but if they are so strong that you would walk away from something your attracted to or could potentially be a good experience, you have some stuff to work out. Let them do it on someone else's time.
You're not wrong. And it's part of the logic part that I already know. However since I'm not self medicating my over the top emotions with copious amounts of alcohol and smoking it's harder to make the emotions submit lol. There's always the option of SSRI's which I've been on before but I have a small sprinkling of side effects that go with them and was hoping it'd be a last resort and I'd find something else.

And makes me want to dump paint on their cars in the middle of the night. 😄

I'm getting more revengy feely as I get older. I thought we're supposed to get calmer not the opposite. 😕
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Posted by Ellycakes
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I'm learning that sometimes, I like to play with my food before eating it.

Omg, someone please talk me out of waging psychological warfare.
Cancer moon retaliation mode?

Mine passes in like a day or two. Then I skimped sideways onto something else lol.

Waging psychological warfare just expends unnecessary energy. Time you could spend hunting I mean meeting someone else instead!
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Mine usually does too.

Not this time. Not at all.
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I'm learning that sometimes, I like to play with my food before eating it.

Omg, someone please talk me out of waging psychological warfare.
Cancer moon retaliation mode?

Mine passes in like a day or two. Then I skimped sideways onto something else lol.

Waging psychological warfare just expends unnecessary energy. Time you could spend hunting I mean meeting someone else instead!
Mine usually does too.

Not this time. Not at all.
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Idk why though.
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I'm learning that sometimes, I like to play with my food before eating it.

Omg, someone please talk me out of waging psychological warfare.
Cancer moon retaliation mode?

Mine passes in like a day or two. Then I skimped sideways onto something else lol.

Waging psychological warfare just expends unnecessary energy. Time you could spend hunting I mean meeting someone else instead!
Mine usually does too.

Not this time. Not at all.
Idk why though.
Crab boy?

Some get under your skin more than others. Normally it's the ones that made my moon feel all safe and cozy and then they pull the rug out from under me. It makes me feel stupid for having fallen for the act in the first place. So then I'm mad at them and myself lol. Especially when it's clear they could care less, that they were only nice to me in so far as it benefited themselves. Makes me feel I wasted my sincerity and honesty on them.

That's why the Leo is a poop emoji in my phone.
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Crab boy, yes. For a variety of reasons.
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I have an Aqua stellium in the 8th house and sting myself to no end when it comes to life--whether it be through relationships or independently. I'm hard on myself--I'm hard on other people. I start arguments over nothing and destroy what's good in a relationship for the sake of destroying it.. only to build myself/the relationship back up and do it all over again.

In my defense--I feel stronger than I did.. say, 1-2-3-4-10 years ago.. so maybe there's a benefit to this whole thing.

Or not?
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Posted by Ellycakes
I'm not gonna do anything about it but, despite the fact I've tried to to tell myself I don't care, I am a little curious why the barista stood me up and then ghosted. Not cool man. Rude.

My libra bestie despite my insistence against it handed my number out to some dude. -_- she means well. I'm just not in the mood to meet or date after my barrage of recent experiential learning. lol. She almost stole my phone and signed me up for a dating app. Libras. Lol.
Is this guy an extrovert or introvert?

I just noticed you are an extrovert. I'm introverted & have a good Scorp friend who is extroverted. Sometimes she just comes off too aggressive and asks me things that I really can't answer right away. This pushes me further back.

She had a miscommunication issue with a guy recently and I told her I think she was doing too much. She was being crazy OCD and asking too much and ultimately the guy probably thought it was too much work.

Anyway, just a thought. This could not be the case at all, but as I learn more about personality types it makes me realize that depending on how you are you view certain communication differently.
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Posted by Andalusia
It's official. I have to swear off water sign men. The Cancer just baited into into a fight and then said I was being dramatic and he "didn't want to deal with drama".

I'm about to cry, at work no less, from anger and hurt feelings.
Oh no, I know what that's like 😢

Take a little walk is you can. I've done that and cried and came back. Take some breaths it will make you feel a little better at least. I know it's easier said than done
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Posted by ElleDuMonde
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Binge watching the new season of game of thrones.

The tv violence is not good for my current mood I think. Perhaps my cheering is overzealous...
dude.....when you are done with that.....start on Orphan Black!

....and then try Mr. Robot.
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I would recommend Mr. Robot as well!

A very well written show.
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Why are the filters on everyone's thread?
You have to re-save your settings on your profile page. When they reset the website, it messed everything up. I was locked out for 3 days and then had to re-save all my preferences when I was finally able to log back in.

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Ah that's why I couldn't post a while ago. 😆 I thought several people blocked me. I was logged in and could read everything but couldn't post on any threads. I was like "Alright, go back to lurking mode. Haters...."
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Posted by ElleDuMonde
fuck you. 😄

Yay! I can see the word "f*ck" again 😄.

When I read this:

Posted by Ellycakes
Ain't no sparkle motion way a fixed moon would float along for two weeks not having made a move after finding out about a hidden girlfriend lol.
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I was like wut?! and heading straight over to the quote thread with that little gem. Then I quoted it and saw what she really wrote... 😆.

I usually have to reread what Elly writes on a good day, but that made me take a triple take. The Wizard's always f*cking with us 😢.

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My day job said my notice was effectively as of today, even though I gave them a month and still had two weeks left.

I know I'll be better off in the long run, but it sucks leaving all those loose ends and not being able to leave on my terms 😢
*hugs*

Just take this opportunity to move to my city and live down here and we can both make a fresh start. 😄

But seriously, you'll be ok and they'll be ok. It's just a few weeks in the span of a long life. 🙂

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I heart you
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Posted by Andalusia
My day job said my notice was effectively as of today, even though I gave them a month and still had two weeks left.

I know I'll be better off in the long run, but it sucks leaving all those loose ends and not being able to leave on my terms 😢

....Kitten you gave notice. By definition it was on your terms....

You can't control all aspect of the process though. If only...

I'll leave the hugging to the other Scorpies, but I'm sending supportive vibes your way.
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So the attorneys at work insist I should have been a comedian.

I told them that would be great but I hate people and I hate crowds. At best I would be one of those comedians who just gets on stage and insults people, but I've been to shows like that and I would not want to be one of those assholes.



Then I realized I'm already one of those assholes.


Scorp moon realization moment strikes again.
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Yeah but I'm a funny asshole allegedly.

Like I fart confetti, glitter, and silly string or something.

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My day job said my notice was effectively as of today, even though I gave them a month and still had two weeks left.

I know I'll be better off in the long run, but it sucks leaving all those loose ends and not being able to leave on my terms 😢

....Kitten you gave notice. By definition it was on your terms....

You can't control all aspect of the process though. If only...

I'll leave the hugging to the other Scorpies, but I'm sending supportive vibes your way.
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I know. I somewhat knew it was coming. Yesterday was the end of the pay period and the last day of the quarter, so from an accounting standpoint, it made sense to let me go then.

But there was no preparation or foresight involved in the dividing up of my workload and accounts. They just gave them all to another guy that fills in when people go on vacation.

Just another reason I'm glad to be rid of that place. No concern for either their employees or their relationships with customers and businesses.
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Sending positive energy out to all of my favourite Stingers and the dear Virgal in our presence as well.

I would love to (((hug))) you all but as with PR, I suffer from the same predicament and I would hate to make the violation of groping. 😛

Thank god for all the entertainment you lot provide with your daily life bytes, I enjoy lurking amongst your stories immensely.

Much love to you all!
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I saw the Cap i briefly dated the other day. It was at a block party and we didn't speak, but my heart swelled and I felt oddly calmed by his presence. And so incredibly happy for him and how well he seemed to be doing. No bitterness, no jealously, no angst, just - happiness and joy and serenity.

The Scorp and he are the two men I've loved.

First love and a true love, as silly as that sounds.