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Does "harder" mean better? Be honest Scorps, if your not "pushing", "tugging", "fussing" or "fighting" in some way do you feel like something is wrong with your relationship?
In the past yes, harder always meant better.

Now I recognize it as a need for movement....
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One could argue that this mindset/approach means (general you) you're reliant on another for your own personal growth. Movement can occur without tension from the other. Only if you're aware and willing to push yourself.

That last bit sounded more fortune cook-ish than intended 😆. Not directed to you at all Elly, just thinking "out loud" as I found I follow the same idea that it is needed for movement.
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Is this the week of finding out people's hidden bullshit? First smaller things about two guys I had been seeing. Bullshit that a friend had been spreading around too.

Found out some things about the ex scorp. I can't believe it either. 😢
Uh oh.

What happened? 😢
I found out about some things he'd been hiding from me the last year of our relationship after we got back together. Pertinent information that affected the status of our relationship at the time and would have changed how I handled it and possibly us getting back together at all.

And he had literal countless opportunities to tell me and never did until yesterday. I think just out of guilt and loneliness.

I just can't believe it. I always said that he tried to do right by me and that's why I respected him. But he knowingly hid important information because it was to his advantage.

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Oh shit. That sounds serious. How'd you find out? Did he finally tell you about whatever it was, or did someone else?
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Is this the week of finding out people's hidden bullshit? First smaller things about two guys I had been seeing. Bullshit that a friend had been spreading around too.

Found out some things about the ex scorp. I can't believe it either. 😢
Uh oh.

What happened? 😢
I found out about some things he'd been hiding from me the last year of our relationship after we got back together. Pertinent information that affected the status of our relationship at the time and would have changed how I handled it and possibly us getting back together at all.

And he had literal countless opportunities to tell me and never did until yesterday. I think just out of guilt and loneliness.

I just can't believe it. I always said that he tried to do right by me and that's why I respected him. But he knowingly hid important information because it was to his advantage.


Oh shit. That sounds serious. How'd you find out? Did he finally tell you about whatever it was, or did someone else?
He told me. I don't think he ever planned on it either. He was very upset and I called to check on him and try and cheer him up. He turned the conversation to talks about us like he always does and he let one thing slip and I zoned in and just started asking a bunch of questions and he answered them.

I wasn't super even upset last night. But as the magnitude of what he told me sunk in today and I go back and look at the situation with what's come to light, it rewrites that entire last year of the relationship and so much stuff makes sense now that didn't at the time.

I just never thought he'd treat me with that level of disrespect and actual deceit. And he had so many perfect opportunities to tell me. So. Freaking. Many.
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I'm so unhappy. I have been for a long time, and it's not getting better. 😢
I am right there with you. Only maybe this last month would I say I've had days where I'm feeling genuinely happy and hopeful, and it's not dependent on my circumstances. Then normally I'll have a long week of shit lol.

Is it job? Love? Everything?
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Everything
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Is this the week of finding out people's hidden bullshit? First smaller things about two guys I had been seeing. Bullshit that a friend had been spreading around too.

Found out some things about the ex scorp. I can't believe it either. 😢
Uh oh.

What happened? 😢
I found out about some things he'd been hiding from me the last year of our relationship after we got back together. Pertinent information that affected the status of our relationship at the time and would have changed how I handled it and possibly us getting back together at all.

And he had literal countless opportunities to tell me and never did until yesterday. I think just out of guilt and loneliness.

I just can't believe it. I always said that he tried to do right by me and that's why I respected him. But he knowingly hid important information because it was to his advantage.


Oh shit. That sounds serious. How'd you find out? Did he finally tell you about whatever it was, or did someone else?
He told me. I don't think he ever planned on it either. He was very upset and I called to check on him and try and cheer him up. He turned the conversation to talks about us like he always does and he let one thing slip and I zoned in and just started asking a bunch of questions and he answered them.

I wasn't super even upset last night. But as the magnitude of what he told me sunk in today and I go back and look at the situation with what's come to light, it rewrites that entire last year of the relationship and so much stuff makes sense now that didn't at the time.

I just never thought he'd treat me with that level of disrespect and actual deceit. And he had so many perfect opportunities to tell me. So. Freaking. Many.
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Really sorry you have to deal with that.
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Posted by Ellycakes
I'm having an extremely difficult time on my own. I know I live in a very independence driven society. Where the individual is considered highly important.

But honestly it's incredibly difficult for me. Not in a constant loneliness, fear of lacking companionship kinda way. I'm human, so I have those moments. However they don't monopolize my mind or focus.

When I'm not around others, I feel disconnected from myself. It's so difficult to explain to other. I look at my chart, I have sun in the 11th and moon in the 7th, both in emotional connection driven water signs. Truth of the matter is, when I'm in a relationship, when I have a community/friend group, I function way way waaaay better. On my own I am neurotic, overly analytical and more of a cynic. With others I am upbeat yet more calm, self aware. On my own I get stuck in my head.

It's not that I feel uncomfortable with myself or spending time alone. I actually enjoy being by myself and once in a relationship I typically require a lot of time away from my partner in order to be a better partner. i always feel like such a paradox when it come to relationships, of any kind.

Security?
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You got to love all the butthurts that post on the Scorp board discussing how much they don't care for us. I don't know, I must be doing it wrong --along with many other people. Usually when someone doesn't give a f*ck about someone (or a group of people) they don't attempt to engage or think about them. They are out sipping some wine, watching a sunset, having an ice cream, licking a t*tty, a penis...or whatever 1,000,003 other things someone could do for fun rather than post about how much they don't "f*ck with Scorps"....just sayin'.
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Security?



You think? How so?

I never thought of it as a security based maneuver. Then again I've rarely ever felt secure in my life so maybe that's why ha.

Hmmm. Well I guess I was looking at what you wrote:

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I'm having an extremely difficult time on my own....it's incredibly difficult for me. Not in a constant loneliness, fear of lacking companionship kinda way....when I'm in a relationship, when I have a community/friend group, I function way way waaaay better. On my own I am neurotic, overly analytical and more of a cynic. With others I am upbeat yet more calm, self aware...It's not that I feel uncomfortable with myself or spending time alone. I actually enjoy being by myself and once in a relationship I typically require a lot of time away from my partner in order to be a better partner.
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I guess I read this as possibly being a need for security or you saying you simply feel better when your security needs are met. Not unlike all of us, but it may be stronger in you. Not in the sense that you can't do without another person, but if you know you're connected to others, that they are there for you, you can just "be". You can focus on enjoying life, exploring (this included self exploration), loving, laughing...no anxiety that you won't have or will be without if sh*t hits the fan. Please forgive me, but the only analogy I can think of to explain my point better is a toddler that explores with the safety of knowing his/her parent is only a cry away. They look back and make eye contact every so often to know somone will be there if they need them, which allows to be free to enjoy life.

The other day I was watching a little girl learning to ride a bike and her mother helped ride along and the whole time she was saying "don't let go okay?!" Of course the mom did at some point, and it was the security of knowing her mom was there that she could keep peddling. Her anxiety of failing was gone, so she could just "be". Knowing someone is there can make you feel so powerful. I am in no way suggesting your post is childlike. I'm in a piss poor mood and every other thought in my head right now is "f*ck" and "you", so I lack the ability to convey my thoughts right now. Hopefully you understand what I'm trying to say.
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Btw, I've noticed a parent should never say "I won't let go.I promise" to a baby Scorp....

"Keep peddling"

"I don't want to fall..."

"You won't fall. I'm here. Just keep peddling"

"Okay...you won't let go?"

"No. I promise."

*after several paces, father lets go. Scorp rides successfully alone*

"You did it! You're riding!"

*Scorp feels confident and excited* "I'm riding! I did it daddy! I'm riding!!"

"Yes you are.."

*Scorp stops riding and full of smile*

"See, you can ride all by yourself"

"I can. Even though you broke your promise..."

#DatFixedLife
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Is there anywhere I can place an astrological order?

I'd like to order a Taurus moon. May he have a Scorpio Mars and a water or earth Venus. Sun could be negotiable, I'd accept Scorpio, Virgo, Pisces or Capricorn only if there's some fire on the ascendant.

Leo and Gemini Suns Should be screened out. Venus in Gemini is barred from applying.
Moon and Mars out of aspect though.

Preference being third decan Taurus moon and early second decan Mars. At least 10° out of orb so no unpleasant oppositions affect. 😄
I need to create a software program like that....and even have it tap into birth records 😆

Have a checkout cart and everything.....and the deliverable be pics and GPS coordinates.

That would be a scorpios wet dream!

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Weird Science, Scorpio style !! 😄
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No Boundaries Gem vs Territorial Scorp

Scorp: *typing case notes...*

Gem: Hey...

Scorp: *looks up and goes immediately back to screen* Hmph. No.

Gem: Huh?

Scorp: No.

Gem: *fakes confusion* I'm just saying hello.

Scorp: Un huh. No.

Gem: Can I at least ask the question first? *smiles*

Scorp: No.

Gem: Seriously? Have I done something to upset you?

Scorp: Yes. That's the only one you get.

Gem: *starts to leave, stops* Can I at least ask why?

Scorp: You came into my office yesterday right?

Gem: Um yeah when I asked you and ______ out to lunch.

Scorp: Right. And in the afternoon when everyone was in team? You entered my office again when you thought everyone was gone right?

Gem: Hmmmmm....I believe I popped in quickly....

Scorp: You took something without asking right?

Gem: Took? I didn't think it would be a big------

Scorp: You didn't realize I was sitting in the corner of my office did you?

Gem: if I known you were here I would have ask.

Scorp: No. If you thought I wasn't here you should have turned around. Instead you decided to take something without asking. You're not going to spin this.

Gem: it wasn't that big of a deal.

Scorp: Right. That's why it's a no and will continue to be a no from this day forward.

Gem: I think you're over reacting.

Scorp: *looks Gem directly in the eyes* You havent seen me over react. Believe that. I have work to do *goes back to typing*

Gem: Can we at least talk about this.

Scorp: We just did.

New Office Mate: Um, I borrowed your stapler the other day...

Scorp: Don't start....

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No Boundaries Gem vs Territorial Scorp

Scorp: *typing case notes...*

Gem: Hey...

Scorp: *looks up and goes immediately back to screen* Hmph. No.

Gem: Huh?

Scorp: No.

Gem: *fakes confusion* I'm just saying hello.

Scorp: Un huh. No.

Gem: Can I at least ask the question first? *smiles*

Scorp: No.

Gem: Seriously? Have I done something to upset you?

Scorp: Yes. That's the only one you get.

Gem: *starts to leave, stops* Can I at least ask why?

Scorp: You came into my office yesterday right?

Gem: Um yeah when I asked you and ______ out to lunch.

Scorp: Right. And in the afternoon when everyone was in team? You entered my office again when you thought everyone was gone right?

Gem: Hmmmmm....I believe I popped in quickly....

Scorp: You took something without asking right?

Gem: Took? I didn't think it would be a big------

Scorp: You didn't realize I was sitting in the corner of my office did you?

Gem: if I known you were here I would have ask.

Scorp: No. If you thought I wasn't here you should have turned around. Instead you decided to take something without asking. You're not going to spin this.

Gem: it wasn't that big of a deal.

Scorp: Right. That's why it's a no and will continue to be a no from this day forward.

Gem: I think you're over reacting.

Scorp: *looks Gem directly in the eyes* You havent seen me over react. Believe that. I have work to do *goes back to typing*

Gem: Can we at least talk about this.

Scorp: We just did.

New Office Mate: Um, I borrowed your stapler the other day...

Scorp: Don't start....





Lol! Working with a male AND female gem. Basically sums up all of our interactions.

Female gem seriously thinks I hate here, but I've told her not to take my indifference personally

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Posted by Ellycakes
Christ almighty I'm not even 30 yet and people are telling me I'm going to die alone now?
My dad finally gave up last Christmas.

I was expecting the usual convo of where is my life going, why am I not married yet, what do I plan to do about it.

So he looks at me with that look of concern that always precedes all his talks.

But this time...

"How's kek*?"

*kek is my cat

"Kek's fine. Did you finally give up? No more men to try and set me up with?"

"Well not really because I think you need a backup plan, so there's these three guys who are really nice and I told them all you're focusing on other things now"

"Like kek?"

"No, I can't scare them away completely by painting you as a crazy cat lady. It would defeat the purpose."

"There.is.still.a.purpose?"

"As I was saying..how's Kek? She must be what..5-6 years old now? I miss our cocker spaniel but Kek seemed friendly to me although very doglike in temperament bla bla bla"

-.-

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When I decide to Sting,

I check the source of income of my target,

Step 1: Hide, Move on, Forget about it.

Step 2: Keep an eye and put a date on Calendar for him.

Step 3: Ruin the source first, you've temporally dis balanced his life.

Step 4: Now Begin!

Step by step,

Pain by pain,

Keep going!

Break him!

Piece by piece.

Hide,

Give him his space. time to rise.

Come back, become his friend.

Help him rise a bit.

& this time. You get inside his mind.

Become his best friend. Charm his girlfriend, become her friend.

Turning friend zone into a daily bed activity, is just a 2 months task.

Don't tell him it's you.

Make him share what's happening to him.

Tell him, he'll be fine.

Ignore and leave him when he needs you the most.

Put a dent on his "source" again.

Well, I don't do this anymore.

But i have created 3 enemies in last 7 years, who are constantly thinking of taking me down now.

But they can't bring them up, they'll soon lose the hope.

I won't be found.

I am gone.

Much ahead,

Stronger

Better

& Not a Stinger anymore.

Just a happy guy who wants a few things in life.

& I want it all.

Flying high!

Flying high!



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Sometimes I want this world to burn. I NEVER get the things I truly want, and keep getting the things I want to throw away. Geez. Can't anything go right for once? I feel like someone takes pleasure in dangling this carrot in front of me, then when I start getting all fired up and ready to take it, I find that it's a steel rod instead.

Sometimes I want someone to want me so much that they can't resist whatever it is I'm doing to them. I want them to bleed, and like it too. I can't stand the light, lovey-dovey stuff. How about you lick my lips down south while I pull your hair and force you wherever I want you? And you'll have to like it too. I want to know that you're mad with desire for me. I want to know that you're begging for any piece of me that I choose to give.

I can feel you. I know what you want. You're fascinated but you're too scared of the unknown, so you pretend to ignore me. Sometimes, you fool yourself into thinking you can. That knowledge makes a shiver run through me, and I almost want to giggle. But I see you caught in my gaze, like a deer in headlights, when I choose to bestow it on you. I know your heart quivers a little when I smile sweetly at you, because of its delicious juxtaposition against my hungry, piercing eyes. There is never any rest or hint of repose in them, you know, because I never rest.



Well, how was that? *proceeds to hide behind Pisces Ascendant again*
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Am I the only one that has difficulty with change? In any form? I have difficulty with change. If my enviorment changes I'm pissy. If you change your routine in the slightest I will notice and the wheels start spinning...

Problem is my reaction can range from "need to fix" to get it back to what it was to "time to bail" because well unpredictable feels unsafe and I don't do unsafe. Either way, I can't go with the flow without A LOT of inner dialogue supporting that process. And even then...

It's time like this I would like certain aspects of my chart to kick in.

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Am I the only one that has difficulty with change? In any form? I have difficulty with change. If my enviorment changes I'm pissy. If you change your routine in the slightest I will notice and the wheels start spinning...

Problem is my reaction can range from "need to fix" to get it back to what it was to "time to bail" because well unpredictable feels unsafe and I don't do unsafe. Either way, I can't go with the flow without A LOT of inner dialogue supporting that process. And even then...

It's time like this I would like certain aspects of my chart to kick in.


I'm bad with change as well. Any variation of plans and I get nervous. I understand you completely. It's why I surround myself with Aquarius' they help me break out of monotony so I don't get too stale and live a little...though I'd rather be a stick in the mud then change and go out all the time.
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anyone else feeling an energy shift?

every autumn like clockwork my heart gets heavy, my creativity pikes up, my dreams more vivid, and more mystical happenings occur. like all the spirits wanna poke and prod at me now.

lemme sleep!

Yeah my energy shifts, but in a good way. At least that's how I see it. I am more social, my awareness is enhanced, picking up different types of energy and seeing things unfold before it occurs. I'm also more creative and have the energy and drive to carry it through. One year around this time I renovated my bathrooms and redecorated the whole house, which I had been dragging my feet on all spring and summer. Not because I was busy, I just didn't want to do anything else but lounge. The leaves fall, it gets a bit colder and it's like "summer" for me. I literally do my projects and spring cleaning in December. I'm just full of energy. NOT holiday spirit though *grumbles*.



I do notice I get anxious the weeks leading up to my birthday. Slowly builds, so I'm expecting that to happen soon.

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anyone else feeling an energy shift?

every autumn like clockwork my heart gets heavy, my creativity pikes up, my dreams more vivid, and more mystical happenings occur. like all the spirits wanna poke and prod at me now.

lemme sleep!

Yeah my energy shifts, but in a good way. At least that's how I see it. I am more social, my awareness is enhanced, picking up different types of energy and seeing things unfold before it occurs. I'm also more creative and have the energy and drive to carry it through. One year around this time I renovated my bathrooms and redecorated the whole house, which I had been dragging my feet on all spring and summer. Not because I was busy, I just didn't want to do anything else but lounge. The leaves fall, it gets a bit colder and it's like "summer" for me. I literally do my projects and spring cleaning in December. I'm just full of energy. NOT holiday spirit though *grumbles*.



I do notice I get anxious the weeks leading up to my birthday. Slowly builds, so I'm expecting that to happen soon.


same here. i'm just too emotional 'round this time lol.

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yep, the past two years I actually noticed that the sun being in libra has made me melancholy. Its like reliving the whole year in my thoughts before my birthday. good and bad.

So far I'm actually feeling ok. Im purposely trying to protect my emotions... as I was getting anxiety for this time to come around. We'll see how October works out.