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Posted by TheLadyScorpio
How strange, when men do not get what they want from us Stinger women.

We are then somehow villainized.

They declare us as evil beings, who have only brought wrath and sorrow into their lives.

Just because we did not give them what they want, just because we did not succumb to their manipulations, just because we could actually think for ourselves.

We are declared - delusional, insane, cold, manipulative, deceiving etc. Even when we have clearly stated our stance and reinforced it as well....

Perspective is such a cruel fickle mistress.



The ego is a fragile beast.

There may or may not be some truth to the negative description depending on the person involved. Problem is no one is objective. We are simply not built to be anything but subjective. Perspective is filtered through feelings and any meaning we've attached to our experiences.

When someone starts off any reflection of "what went wrong" focusing on the other person I already know the ego is at play. At the end of the day it doesn't matter why he/she did whatever they did because we have no control over that person choosing to change that behaviour. So why write pages and pages of whatever "wrong" they did? If one really wants to know what went wrong in an effort to make a change, focus on yourself. What you could have done differently---and let's be real there is always something that you could have done differently. You didn't. Figure out why.

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How strange, when men do not get what they want from us Stinger women.

We are then somehow villainized.

They declare us as evil beings, who have only brought wrath and sorrow into their lives.

Just because we did not give them what they want, just because we did not succumb to their manipulations, just because we could actually think for ourselves.

We are declared - delusional, insane, cold, manipulative, deceiving etc. Even when we have clearly stated our stance and reinforced it as well....

Perspective is such a cruel fickle mistress.



The ego is a fragile beast.

There may or may not be some truth to the negative description depending on the person involved. Problem is no one is objective. We are simply not built to be anything but subjective. Perspective is filtered through feelings and any meaning we've attached to our experiences.

When someone starts off any reflection of "what went wrong" focusing on the other person I already know the ego is at play. At the end of the day it doesn't matter why he/she did whatever they did because we have no control over that person choosing to change that behaviour. So why write pages and pages of whatever "wrong" they did? If one really wants to know what went wrong in an effort to make a change, focus on yourself. What you could have done differently---and let's be real there is always something that you could have done differently. You didn't. Figure out why.

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I agree with everything you have shared, especially that.

Sure, there are the bad apples of our sign but there are just as many that are not.

The lesson of learning to control the beast - ego, is one every Stinger learns and in which many others may not have. There is always responsibility to be upheld by both sides.

Anyways PR, great thoughts.



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I snapped at my 60 year old coworker today. Basically could be my parent. And he's a Pisces male. (I've concluded I don't like Pisces men. I liked them when I was young and they were young and naive lol. Sweet young boys lol)

Anywayyy I did this in front of my team and couldn't stop myself!! Eye rolling and everything after! He's getting under my skin and I couldn't take it anymore.

Checked the Scorpio horoscope after and for today and tommorw it's basically saying be careful of extreme comments that will be difficult to retract.

Ughhh
Now I know why I have been so grumpy.

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Yeah this has been me for the past week and a half. There's something going on with mars and Pluto. I'm so angry at work. This must be an Aries feel like, but with more emotion. Or maybe that's just a Scorpio lol. Usually my Taurus moon grounds me but my moon seems to have left my crazy ass
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i had the hard realization this year that sometimes it's necessary and okay to step backwards in order to successfully move forward. to clear up and close the loose ends, and finish the book.

maybe it's my capness that hates backtracking and rehashing old memories/experiences, but someone from my past keeps attempting to move into my present. and now i need to finally address it.

to be continued...

*Intrigued. Prepares a hot cup of tea and a big bowl of chocolate covered almonds while waiting for the next installment*

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Posted by TheLadyScorpio
How strange, when men do not get what they want from us Stinger women.

We are then somehow villainized.

They declare us as evil beings, who have only brought wrath and sorrow into their lives.

Just because we did not give them what they want, just because we did not succumb to their manipulations, just because we could actually think for ourselves.

We are declared - delusional, insane, cold, manipulative, deceiving etc. Even when we have clearly stated our stance and reinforced it as well.

The recent threads had me flipping through the pages of my past in my mind, this trend seems to occur over and over again.

Perspective is such a cruel fickle mistress.

How glad am I to be with my decent and stable Virgent, no more insanity in my life.


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How dare we see what you are up to and make a run for the exit.
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i had the hard realization this year that sometimes it's necessary and okay to step backwards in order to successfully move forward. to clear up and close the loose ends, and finish the book.

maybe it's my capness that hates backtracking and rehashing old memories/experiences, but someone from my past keeps attempting to move into my present. and now i need to finally address it.

to be continued...
All 2016.

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i had the hard realization this year that sometimes it's necessary and okay to step backwards in order to successfully move forward. to clear up and close the loose ends, and finish the book.

maybe it's my capness that hates backtracking and rehashing old memories/experiences, but someone from my past keeps attempting to move into my present. and now i need to finally address it.

to be continued...

Thinking about this some more I don't think I can step backwards to address the past if it involves another (not assuming that is what you mean, just where my mind went). It may be due to pettiness or fear, I'm not sure. What I do know is I don't own the past anything. Only my future.

I will only put my hand through the fire once.
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How strange, when men do not get what they want from us Stinger women.

We are then somehow villainized.

They declare us as evil beings, who have only brought wrath and sorrow into their lives.

Just because we did not give them what they want, just because we did not succumb to their manipulations, just because we could actually think for ourselves.

We are declared - delusional, insane, cold, manipulative, deceiving etc. Even when we have clearly stated our stance and reinforced it as well.

The recent threads had me flipping through the pages of my past in my mind, this trend seems to occur over and over again.

Perspective is such a cruel fickle mistress.

How glad am I to be with my decent and stable Virgent, no more insanity in my life.


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How dare we see what you are up to and make a run for the exit.

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Hmmm?
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Any Given Wednesday.....

Sun: *I can't wait to create a private world just for us*

Moon: *Why isn't he talking?...He told me this story already....I'm bored....is he getting a grey hair?...Huh, is he still telling that story?*

Mercury: *Why did he say it like that....What is he hiding?...Why is he smiling? What is he hiding!?*

Venus: *Tomorrow? Slow your roll pa'tna. Let's just enjoy breakfast. Geeze*

Mars: *I like the colour of his tie. That will be perfect for later*

Haha, I'm a nut.

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How strange, when men do not get what they want from us Stinger women.

We are then somehow villainized.

They declare us as evil beings, who have only brought wrath and sorrow into their lives.

Just because we did not give them what they want, just because we did not succumb to their manipulations, just because we could actually think for ourselves.

We are declared - delusional, insane, cold, manipulative, deceiving etc. Even when we have clearly stated our stance and reinforced it as well.

The recent threads had me flipping through the pages of my past in my mind, this trend seems to occur over and over again.

Perspective is such a cruel fickle mistress.

How glad am I to be with my decent and stable Virgent, no more insanity in my life.


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How dare we see what you are up to and make a run for the exit.




Hmmm?

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I was saying that as a Scorpio woman. Not toward you! πŸ˜‰

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Does it count if I'm a Scorpio dominant and have a crush on Joni Mitchell?

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Sadly, no. You have Leo bits in your chart. That cancels out everything.


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..... but wait........ *I* have Leo bits.... what does that mean for me? 😭 😱
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It means I've been betrayed!...😒

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Does it count if I'm a Scorpio dominant and have a crush on Joni Mitchell?

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Sadly, no. You have Leo bits in your chart. That cancels out everything.


πŸ˜†

..... but wait........ *I* have Leo bits.... what does that mean for me? 😭 😱

It means I've been betrayed!...😒

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I would never intentionally betray you, PR. It saddens me that I have :/

I'm still gonna sip tea at your make-shift* altar though πŸ˜‰

*Make-shift only because I lack the ability to execute the design.

Us with the Leo bits love being worshipped, but we what we love more is finding people stronger than us to pay tribute to ourselves. Probably why we gravitate towards Scorps and Caps.
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Does it count if I'm a Scorpio dominant and have a crush on Joni Mitchell?

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Sadly, no. You have Leo bits in your chart. That cancels out everything.


But why?

How come it cancels out everything?

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But seriously..
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Well it didn't about 10 days ago, but some crazy Leo broad ruined for y'all, so sorry #youcantsitwithus

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Does it count if I'm a Scorpio dominant and have a crush on Joni Mitchell?

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Sadly, no. You have Leo bits in your chart. That cancels out everything.


πŸ˜†

..... but wait........ *I* have Leo bits.... what does that mean for me? 😭 😱

It means I've been betrayed!...😒


I would never intentionally betray you, PR. It saddens me that I have :/

I'm still gonna sip tea at your make-shift* altar though πŸ˜‰

*Make-shift only because I lack the ability to execute the design.

Us with the Leo bits love being worshipped, but we what we love more is finding people stronger than us to pay tribute to ourselves. Probably why we gravitate towards Scorps and Caps.
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Love,

Phoenix

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Fellow Stinger Ladies, I relate to your dilemma for I feel the same way as well.

I do not feel certain in my decisions, even the most mundane decisions have left me a bit lost, pondering it over and over again.

The level of uncertainty in the air is stifling.

Not quite afloat, but neither am I sinking.

Please new Moon in Stinger, just leave us be.
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Ok, so I'm heading to my parents house on Friday for a belated birthday party for my dad, at which I plan on replacing one of my mom's carefully handpicked portraits, of us kids, with this:

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It's kind of become a tradition, since we've been asking her to take them down forever, so in the past we've either messed up the chronological order of her display (cause VIRGO!) or hid them throughout the house hoping that she'll never find them again but she always did. -__-

So this will be a first, and I'm dying to know who will spot it first.

Scorpio Merc. vs Virgo Merc.

Game on! πŸ˜„

I'll keep you posted, as I'm sure you're dying to know. lol
My guess is the Virgo...but won't say anything and let the Scorpio take credit ?

@Damnata

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Omg that's Dostoiveski's quote about his wife! Awwwwwww

And yeah, it would probably go the way Rabbit said. I have no problem letting the other person take credit if I know it would make them happy to winnnn. I'll just smirk to myself.
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Ok, so I'm heading to my parents house on Friday for a belated birthday party for my dad, at which I plan on replacing one of my mom's carefully handpicked portraits, of us kids, with this:

Image Not Found

It's kind of become a tradition, since we've been asking her to take them down forever, so in the past we've either messed up the chronological order of her display (cause VIRGO!) or hid them throughout the house hoping that she'll never find them again but she always did. -__-

So this will be a first, and I'm dying to know who will spot it first.

Scorpio Merc. vs Virgo Merc.

Game on! πŸ˜„

I'll keep you posted, as I'm sure you're dying to know. lol
My guess is the Virgo...but won't say anything and let the Scorpio take credit ?

@Damnata


Omg that's Dostoiveski's quote about his wife! Awwwwwww

And yeah, it would probably go the way Rabbit said. I have no problem letting the other person take credit if I know it would make them happy to winnnn. I'll just smirk to myself.


DXP crossing over into real life with inspirational quotes.

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I'll never understand the DXP vs Real Life debate. In the end we're all people posting here, even if we might be different in real life. Still people...and probably some strategic bots.

DXP ready to cross over into my life in...I think 9 days time. Time to check my calendar.
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@Hare

Ok, so I'm heading to my parents house on Friday for a belated birthday party for my dad, at which I plan on replacing one of my mom's carefully handpicked portraits, of us kids, with this:

Image Not Found

It's kind of become a tradition, since we've been asking her to take them down forever, so in the past we've either messed up the chronological order of her display (cause VIRGO!) or hid them throughout the house hoping that she'll never find them again but she always did. -__-

So this will be a first, and I'm dying to know who will spot it first.

Scorpio Merc. vs Virgo Merc.

Game on! πŸ˜„

I'll keep you posted, as I'm sure you're dying to know. lol
My guess is the Virgo...but won't say anything and let the Scorpio take credit ?

@Damnata


Omg that's Dostoiveski's quote about his wife! Awwwwwww

And yeah, it would probably go the way Rabbit said. I have no problem letting the other person take credit if I know it would make them happy to winnnn. I'll just smirk to myself.


DXP crossing over into real life with inspirational quotes.


I'll never understand the DXP vs Real Life debate. In the end we're all people posting here, even if we might be different in real life. Still people...and probably some strategic bots.

DXP ready to cross over into my life in...I think 9 days time. Time to check my calendar.




I'm one of those bots.

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You're not strategic enough. Sry to disappoint, wannabe bot.
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@Hare

Ok, so I'm heading to my parents house on Friday for a belated birthday party for my dad, at which I plan on replacing one of my mom's carefully handpicked portraits, of us kids, with this:

Image Not Found

It's kind of become a tradition, since we've been asking her to take them down forever, so in the past we've either messed up the chronological order of her display (cause VIRGO!) or hid them throughout the house hoping that she'll never find them again but she always did. -__-

So this will be a first, and I'm dying to know who will spot it first.

Scorpio Merc. vs Virgo Merc.

Game on! πŸ˜„

I'll keep you posted, as I'm sure you're dying to know. lol
My guess is the Virgo...but won't say anything and let the Scorpio take credit ?

@Damnata


Omg that's Dostoiveski's quote about his wife! Awwwwwww

And yeah, it would probably go the way Rabbit said. I have no problem letting the other person take credit if I know it would make them happy to winnnn. I'll just smirk to myself.


DXP crossing over into real life with inspirational quotes.


I'll never understand the DXP vs Real Life debate. In the end we're all people posting here, even if we might be different in real life. Still people...and probably some strategic bots.

DXP ready to cross over into my life in...I think 9 days time. Time to check my calendar.




I'm one of those bots.


You're not strategic enough. Sry to disappoint, wannabe bot.
Hence why I left out strategic.

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Well you improved your accuracy percentage so well done there.

Still no new software for you.
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I can't find a new peacoat to save my life 😭

Have enough panties and bras to last four years though.....just in case trump wins and I decide to stay πŸ˜›
i got mine at target.. then of course i saw a georgous grey one at khols... almost took the other one back and got it instead. but i stayed with the 1st one! My scarf and hat i got at old navy πŸ™‚ i got a new sweater today too! i need to stop shopping i have SOOOOO many items of clothing that they dont fit in my closet anymore...



lol @ the panties and bras!
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I can't find a new peacoat to save my life 😭

Have enough panties and bras to last four years though.....just in case trump wins and I decide to stay πŸ˜›
what about this?

i have a simliar one but it's so heavy i didnt want to bring it lol its pure wool.



http://www.express.com/clothing/women/red-double-breasted-peacoat/pro/08943214/cat2410006?CID=3158&SearchID=Goo_PLA_D&product_id=98092567&adpos=1o3&creative=77454139364&device=c&matchtype=&network=g&gclid=CKf6jLW7i9ACFUtNfgod9cYPIg
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Ok, so I'm heading to my parents house on Friday for a belated birthday party for my dad, at which I plan on replacing one of my mom's carefully handpicked portraits, of us kids, with this:

Image Not Found

It's kind of become a tradition, since we've been asking her to take them down forever, so in the past we've either messed up the chronological order of her display (cause VIRGO!) or hid them throughout the house hoping that she'll never find them again but she always did. -__-

So this will be a first, and I'm dying to know who will spot it first.

Scorpio Merc. vs Virgo Merc.

Game on! πŸ˜„

I'll keep you posted, as I'm sure you're dying to know. lol
My guess is the Virgo...but won't say anything and let the Scorpio take credit ?

@Damnata


Omg that's Dostoiveski's quote about his wife! Awwwwwww

And yeah, it would probably go the way Rabbit said. I have no problem letting the other person take credit if I know it would make them happy to winnnn. I'll just smirk to myself.


DXP crossing over into real life with inspirational quotes.


I'll never understand the DXP vs Real Life debate. In the end we're all people posting here, even if we might be different in real life. Still people...and probably some strategic bots.

DXP ready to cross over into my life in...I think 9 days time. Time to check my calendar.

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part 2 of DXP cross over will be :

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I can't find a new peacoat to save my life 😭

Have enough panties and bras to last four years though.....just in case trump wins and I decide to stay πŸ˜›
i got mine at target.. then of course i saw a georgous grey one at khols... almost took the other one back and got it instead. but i stayed with the 1st one! My scarf and hat i got at old navy πŸ™‚ i got a new sweater today too! i need to stop shopping i have SOOOOO many items of clothing that they dont fit in my closet anymore...



lol @ the panties and bras!
I was just at kohls and they don't have coats....so weird. You would think we would because winter.

I have to keep looking!

Vacations are always my excuse for a new wardrobe for the year πŸ˜›



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i was just THERE TODAY, they here took all the summer stuff and is on clearnace and rows and rows of sweaters, coats, glittery holiday tank tops .. barf... lol it was odd considering i was just there last week and bought a summer dress lol it was on clearance already.
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I can't find a new peacoat to save my life 😭

Have enough panties and bras to last four years though.....just in case trump wins and I decide to stay πŸ˜›
what about this?

i have a simliar one but it's so heavy i didnt want to bring it lol its pure wool.



http://www.express.com/clothing/women/red-double-breasted-peacoat/pro/08943214/cat2410006?CID=3158&SearchID=Goo_PLA_D&product_id=98092567&adpos=1o3&creative=77454139364&device=c&matchtype=&network=g&gclid=CKf6jLW7i9ACFUtNfgod9cYPIg
Yes! Like that!

It's too late for any shipping though....I procrastinated because of work being so busy.

I might check out macys.

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they have em πŸ˜‰ it's where i got my red wool calvin one lol

http://www1.macys.com/shop/featured/calvin-klein-pea-coats/Gender/Female?cm_kws_ac=pea% 20coat
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I can't find a new peacoat to save my life 😭

Have enough panties and bras to last four years though.....just in case trump wins and I decide to stay πŸ˜›
We have water and electricity and shops here too -.-
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ohhh goody, so we can shower and stuff? no water can and bath bucket? πŸ˜›
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I can't find a new peacoat to save my life 😭

Have enough panties and bras to last four years though.....just in case trump wins and I decide to stay πŸ˜›
We have water and electricity and shops here too -.-
ohhh goody, so we can shower and stuff? no water can and bath bucket? πŸ˜›
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-.-
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what a rollercoaster week

In a time I should feel only happiness due to finally getting to my goal of finding a more suitable job, I have other emotions that are coming up and trying to steal my joy! why?!

having to stay in my current position for a little longer is still draining me and I feel like im just getting a lot of negativity from others. I hate being around that

I know mercury retrograde doesn't start until next month but boy am I feeling it. Yesterday I had 2 people, female friends, from the way distant past come back. so strange

a guy I have a romantic past with and just cant seem to shake the final bits of has been on my mind heavy. I haven't had the strong urge to look back at any social media or anything of his for a looong while, until the past 2 days. and today I did. i think he is dating someone. now im feeling a burning in my heart and a little jealously/envy. After it hurt, i accepted it though. that surprised me because in the past it would have just really crush me harder. maybe i am almost there. just need one last shake. I cant be mad I myself for doing it, I just HAD to.

i wish i had the energy or desire to date, but really i don't. i don't know if ive just been so burned. i know that a lot of it is focusing my energy on myself and getting to my goal.

i feel like all this has made me realize that i need to focus on only the good and that I shouldn't be comparing myself, which has never been easy. ugh! long, much needed vent.
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Posted by PeanutButterandElly
The thought of relationships is starting to make me feel sick...

I can relate to this. It passes with every changing moon...


It just doesn't interest me. It's like my heart doesn't want to mend and move on and would rather stay as is. I feel like if I step ahead I might step on glass
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