leoleo
@leoleo
16 Years
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Posted by -sierra-
maybe she doesn't know why you keep looking at her
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I NEEDED advice. I got GREAT advice, but I needed confidence.
I was working on it. I tried to convince myself that I'd get where I wanted. To give a positive feel to it.
I don't think it's irrelevant that she's a Virgo.
And I did get past the eye contact phase!! We did talk! Too little. But still.
I know it went on painfully long. I say WENT. After reading this I KNOW that you will say I have myself to blame.
I know!!!!! I am sharing this with you since I feel I owe it to you, who have cared in one way or another.
I guess it was good timing with your recent comments in mind.
Was out last night, walking in thoughts. Thinking about her of course.
There was a couple standing the way I was headed.
It looked like her.
Not quite sure I slowed down, picked up my phone as if I got a message or smth. That gave me a chance
to take a closer look. Yeah, there she was. Holding some guy's hand. Kissing.
I pressed the keys to my phone like some maniac. Looking busy. Thinking: Should I turn back or walk by her? By Them.
She saw me.
The guy left. I kept walking her way. She smiled at me. Of course she smiled, she was apparently in love.
She mouthed a hi. Stupid as I am I slowed down. Almost stopped before her. She kept looking at me.
All those things I longed to tell her. They vanished there. All these months of longing. Those short weeks of nice little talks. Those stupid little snacks I brought her. None of that mattered.
I guess I mouthed a hi too. But unlike her I didn't smile.
As I walked by her, she started to walk the other way. But she stopped.
I turned to look at her, and she turned to look at me.
As if she wanted to say something but forgot that HEY, there's NOTHING more to say.
I kept walking.
There was no compassion in that look, she was simply happy.
Maybe she realized afterwards that Mr. Loser just had his heart broken all over the place.
Maybe that's what she saw and liked it. Why do I have to think about it?!
I don't think she's been seeing him that long. This explains why she went away.
I feel empty. But I'll be fine. Thanks to all who gave their time.