@HereforTaurusAgain
1 Year
The Betrayal
In case anyone thinks I'm sounding too crazy, I will give one example of how we have been communicating through various mediums:
A while back I posted about this whole scenario with her, commenting that she keeps me on my toes.
About a month ago, when something important in my life happened, she posted a picture on Instagram of the guy she's with and his or their car, and the caption was about her camera keeping her on her toes.
There are many others. For example, I posted on my substack that I was lonely, and then she posted a picture on her Instagram of a guy and a girl sittinf next to each other. She did this the day after I posted about being lonely.
As an update, I recently mentioned this betrayal on my substack.
She rarely posts Instagram stories, but she did after I posted all this stuff. Just a few minutes ago.
I'm blocked on the account she posted on, so I use imginn to check her profile. It shows that she posted a story, and so does the web browser search.
But imginn doesn't let me see what the story is. I just know she posted it.
One of her other accounts hasn't blocked me; I just sent her a friend request that is pending.
Why would a Taurus or anyone do this?
And if anyone knows how to view stories if you're blocked, I'd appreciate the info.
Posted by TedBurundi
As a former "biker" when I was a lot younger, i very much understand that seeing your girl riding on another man's bike felt like the ultimate betrayal. I feel your pain.Piggy Aqua.
It's about breaking the promise. It's not about the bike. And I managed to view the story, and it was related to this.
I've had this happen before; it's just last time I broke up with the girl so I deserved it.
This time I don't know why she would do this.
Wtf does "awareness of each other" mean?
Posted by Flitzpiepe
Wtf does "awareness of each other" mean?
We were friends on Facebook and then she pressed stalking charges against me.
So I saw her in court.
But everything with thr Instagram stories and stuff, when she copies or follows my internet footprint, and then posts something similar right after...
that's been going on for a while. Before and after the stalking charges.
So this is something she could have broken off long ago.
It just sucks because she betrayed me. Like she can't promise again; I can't trust her actions either.
I was hoping for some closure answer here; and I think I just have to deal with the pain.
Ok, so i think im understanding - she has you blocked on everything, yet when you post something she posts something youre seeing as related to what you posted, tgat she would have to have viewed your account to see? Is that the gist?
Posted by Flitzpiepe
Ok, so i think im understanding - she has you blocked on everything, yet when you post something she posts something youre seeing as related to what you posted, tgat she would have to have viewed your account to see? Is that the gist?
That is the gist, yes.
And it extends to me Grindr account and personal phone number. Like literally I just opened your profile and got a text from some number. A random number, and it referenced my Instagram and Substack.
So the evidence is strong for why I belive this.
You know if someone blocks you it's because they don't want you in their life
Keep stalking it's only going to make your mental health worse
Posted by Flitzpiepe
Ok, so i think im understanding - she has you blocked on everything, yet when you post something she posts something youre seeing as related to what you posted, tgat she would have to have viewed your account to see? Is that the gist?That is the gist, yes.
And it extends to me Grindr account and personal phone number. Like literally I just opened your profile and got a text from some number. A random number, and it referenced my Instagram and Substack.
So the evidence is strong for why I belive this.
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Ok. But shes not directly interacting with you? When is the last time she had deliberate and direct contact with you? Not things that appear to be correlated to what youve posted, but could possibly be coincidental. I get how thay could drive you nuts. But are you doing this to yourself by even checking what she posts or does? Like who gives a shit? She took you to court. Has she led you on by directly telling you things, then going back on it? Some of these chicks just like attention . She may very well be checking your shit for validation that she still has your attention. Do you post things that would signal you seen her "response" to your post? Bro, why you even want this bitch?
Ok, so i think im understanding - she has you blocked on everything, yet when you post something she posts something youre seeing as related to what you posted, tgat she would have to have viewed your account to see? Is that the gist?
That is the gist, yes.
And it extends to me Grindr account and personal phone number. Like literally I just opened your profile and got a text from some number. A random number, and it referenced my Instagram and Substack.
So the evidence is strong for why I belive this.
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Ok. But shes not directly interacting with you? When is the last time she had deliberate and direct contact with you? Not things that appear to be correlated to what youve posted, but could possibly be coincidental. I get how thay could drive you nuts. But are you doing this to yourself by even checking what she posts or does? Like who gives a shit? She took you to court. Has she led you on by directly telling you things, then going back on it? Some of these chicks just like attention . She may very well be checking your shit for validation that she still has your attention. Do you post things that would signal you seen her "response" to your post? Bro, why you even want this bitch?
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The last I saw her was in court in 2022. Before that, the last direct communication was in 2014.
Everything else has been this online stuff I mentioned, but it has escalated into Grindr now direct text messages to my phone.
So yes, much of it is attributable to me checking her social media. But her posts are so relevant, and come off as responses or messages.
I don't trust her. I'm in a fit where I've built so much of my life into her, that cutting her off feels like I might die or something.
I don't want her. She betrayed me; she's ugly; her life frankly sucks with this guy, in my opinion.
But I put up with a lot and invested so much.
Ok, so i think im understanding - she has you blocked on everything, yet when you post something she posts something youre seeing as related to what you posted, tgat she would have to have viewed your account to see? Is that the gist?
That is the gist, yes.
And it extends to me Grindr account and personal phone number. Like literally I just opened your profile and got a text from some number. A random number, and it referenced my Instagram and Substack.
So the evidence is strong for why I belive this.
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Ok. But shes not directly interacting with you? When is the last time she had deliberate and direct contact with you? Not things that appear to be correlated to what youve posted, but could possibly be coincidental. I get how thay could drive you nuts. But are you doing this to yourself by even checking what she posts or does? Like who gives a shit? She took you to court. Has she led you on by directly telling you things, then going back on it? Some of these chicks just like attention . She may very well be checking your shit for validation that she still has your attention. Do you post things that would signal you seen her "response" to your post? Bro, why you even want this bitch?click to expand
The last I saw her was in court in 2022. Before that, the last direct communication was in 2014.
Everything else has been this online stuff I mentioned, but it has escalated into Grindr now direct text messages to my phone.
So yes, much of it is attributable to me checking her social media. But her posts are so relevant, and come off as responses or messages.
I don't trust her. I'm in a fit where I've built so much of my life into her, that cutting her off feels like I might die or something.
I don't want her. She betrayed me; she's ugly; her life frankly sucks with this guy, in my opinion.
But I put up with a lot and invested so much.
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So, its been 12 years since she has directly spoken to you? Other than in court. What are the messages in GRINDER saying? Those are direct to you? You say youve invested so much, like what have you invested other tahn time and 1 sided emotionalenergy? What has she invested in return?
To me it sounds like she, in a twisted way, just enjoys the attention youre giving her, and the control she has over you. Its crazy, but nowadays these girls are just attention whores. Like literal attention whores. Thats it. . Not all, but so many, and it seems like every day they just multiply.
Regarless man, if shes not reciprocating any of your positive efforts, shes not worth any more of your time. Your time on this spinning rock is finite, dont waste it being fucked with by anyone, especially when you know youre being fucked with. You can invest everything you want to give, into someone who appreciates it, and gives back.
Ok, so i think im understanding - she has you blocked on everything, yet when you post something she posts something youre seeing as related to what you posted, tgat she would have to have viewed your account to see? Is that the gist?
That is the gist, yes.
And it extends to me Grindr account and personal phone number. Like literally I just opened your profile and got a text from some number. A random number, and it referenced my Instagram and Substack.
So the evidence is strong for why I belive this.
click to expand
Ok. But shes not directly interacting with you? When is the last time she had deliberate and direct contact with you? Not things that appear to be correlated to what youve posted, but could possibly be coincidental. I get how thay could drive you nuts. But are you doing this to yourself by even checking what she posts or does? Like who gives a shit? She took you to court. Has she led you on by directly telling you things, then going back on it? Some of these chicks just like attention . She may very well be checking your shit for validation that she still has your attention. Do you post things that would signal you seen her "response" to your post? Bro, why you even want this bitch?click to expand
The last I saw her was in court in 2022. Before that, the last direct communication was in 2014.
Everything else has been this online stuff I mentioned, but it has escalated into Grindr now direct text messages to my phone.
So yes, much of it is attributable to me checking her social media. But her posts are so relevant, and come off as responses or messages.
I don't trust her. I'm in a fit where I've built so much of my life into her, that cutting her off feels like I might die or something.
I don't want her. She betrayed me; she's ugly; her life frankly sucks with this guy, in my opinion.
But I put up with a lot and invested so much.
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So, its been 12 years since she has directly spoken to you? Other than in court. What are the messages in GRINDER saying? Those are direct to you? You say youve invested so much, like what have you invested other tahn time and 1 sided emotionalenergy? What has she invested in return?
To me it sounds like she, in a twisted way, just enjoys the attention youre giving her, and the control she has over you. Its crazy, but nowadays these girls are just attention whores. Like literal attention whores. Thats it. . Not all, but so many, and it seems like every day they just multiply.
Regarless man, if shes not reciprocating any of your positive efforts, shes not worth any more of your time. Your time on this spinning rock is finite, dont waste it being fucked with by anyone, especially when you know youre being fucked with. You can invest everything you want to give, into someone who appreciates it, and gives back.
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You're right.
The messages on Grindr (how it's spelled on my phone) are basic, but it's the profile pictures which resonate. I mean on a couple occasions they were basically her name and a reference to posts she or I made on social media.
The direct text messages to my phone are similar.
I don't want to invest any more in her. I went through this previously, like I said, and a lot of it is just building habits and associations in my brain with her.
I was just in doubt because she moved in with this guy a while ago, but it was part of her moving abroad, and you need working permits or whatever residence permit you need to work and live there.
So I figured, "o.k., it saves money to live with this guy, and it doesn't do to walk around solo everywhere." And all the social media and stuff I mentioned eased me into finding out she was moving abroad, so I didn't feel betrayed. Just hurt at first, and I still am because she is living with this guy.
But the promise was that she wouldn't ride on his motorcycle or be in any way in an emotional boyfriend-girlfriend, dating type of relationship.
And she made this promise after she was on the motorcycle, which is why it's so pointed that I would see it on Instagram now: the guy is on a bike and her head is behind him in a motorcycle helmet, and then it's a reel, so it cuts to someone sitting on the bike behind him filming. And it's a group biking 200 miles or something. So even if its not a full body image of her on the bike, it's still pretty obvious what's happening.
If she is truly the one behind all the Grindr accounts and stuff, then she has invested a lot: making them all and timing the messages and profile visits. I don't even doubt that she could shove this guy off a cliff for all she cares. It's just the betrayal, which opens up a whole lot of other things I have been putting off: like they could be a romantic partnership doing the deed and making out all day.
She just looks like this whole living abroad thing is rough on her. And that's a relief as far as it shows she could just be doing this until she gets her paperwork straight.
Ok, so i think im understanding - she has you blocked on everything, yet when you post something she posts something youre seeing as related to what you posted, tgat she would have to have viewed your account to see? Is that the gist?
That is the gist, yes.
And it extends to me Grindr account and personal phone number. Like literally I just opened your profile and got a text from some number. A random number, and it referenced my Instagram and Substack.
So the evidence is strong for why I belive this.
click to expand
Ok. But shes not directly interacting with you? When is the last time she had deliberate and direct contact with you? Not things that appear to be correlated to what youve posted, but could possibly be coincidental. I get how thay could drive you nuts. But are you doing this to yourself by even checking what she posts or does? Like who gives a shit? She took you to court. Has she led you on by directly telling you things, then going back on it? Some of these chicks just like attention . She may very well be checking your shit for validation that she still has your attention. Do you post things that would signal you seen her "response" to your post? Bro, why you even want this bitch?click to expand
The last I saw her was in court in 2022. Before that, the last direct communication was in 2014.
Everything else has been this online stuff I mentioned, but it has escalated into Grindr now direct text messages to my phone.
So yes, much of it is attributable to me checking her social media. But her posts are so relevant, and come off as responses or messages.
I don't trust her. I'm in a fit where I've built so much of my life into her, that cutting her off feels like I might die or something.
I don't want her. She betrayed me; she's ugly; her life frankly sucks with this guy, in my opinion.
But I put up with a lot and invested so much.
click to expand
So, its been 12 years since she has directly spoken to you? Other than in court. What are the messages in GRINDER saying? Those are direct to you? You say youve invested so much, like what have you invested other tahn time and 1 sided emotionalenergy? What has she invested in return?
To me it sounds like she, in a twisted way, just enjoys the attention youre giving her, and the control she has over you. Its crazy, but nowadays these girls are just attention whores. Like literal attention whores. Thats it. . Not all, but so many, and it seems like every day they just multiply.
Regarless man, if shes not reciprocating any of your positive efforts, shes not worth any more of your time. Your time on this spinning rock is finite, dont waste it being fucked with by anyone, especially when you know youre being fucked with. You can invest everything you want to give, into someone who appreciates it, and gives back.click to expand
You're right.
The messages on Grindr (how it's spelled on my phone) are basic, but it's the profile pictures which resonate. I mean on a couple occasions they were basically her name and a reference to posts she or I made on social media.
The direct text messages to my phone are similar.
I don't want to invest any more in her. I went through this previously, like I said, and a lot of it is just building habits and associations in my brain with her.
I was just in doubt because she moved in with this guy a while ago, but it was part of her moving abroad, and you need working permits or whatever residence permit you need to work and live there.
So I figured, "o.k., it saves money to live with this guy, and it doesn't do to walk around solo everywhere." And all the social media and stuff I mentioned eased me into finding out she was moving abroad, so I didn't feel betrayed. Just hurt at first, and I still am because she is living with this guy.
But the promise was that she wouldn't ride on his motorcycle or be in any way in an emotional boyfriend-girlfriend, dating type of relationship.
And she made this promise after she was on the motorcycle, which is why it's so pointed that I would see it on Instagram now: the guy is on a bike and her head is behind him in a motorcycle helmet, and then it's a reel, so it cuts to someone sitting on the bike behind him filming. And it's a group biking 200 miles or something. So even if its not a full body image of her on the bike, it's still pretty obvious what's happening.
If she is truly the one behind all the Grindr accounts and stuff, then she has invested a lot: making them all and timing the messages and profile visits. I don't even doubt that she could shove this guy off a cliff for all she cares. It's just the betrayal, which opens up a whole lot of other things I have been putting off: like they could be a romantic partnership doing the deed and making out all day.
She just looks like this whole living abroad thing is rough on her. And that's a relief as far as it shows she could just be doing this until she gets her paperwork straight.
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Man, for your own sake, and mental sanity, you have got to stop looking at any of her social media, and especially assigning any meaning to anything you see of her's, or making excuses for behavior that if she is doing it to twist a knife in you, explains it away. Youre living all in your head and not in reality. I get that you can see relationships in your posts and her posts, and if thats the reality of what shes doing, that's cruel and you dont want that, but if its all coincidence youre keeping yourself stuck. Neither scenariois healthyfor you. I think you know all this already, though. What is there to trust? She took you to court for stalking. If shes actually keeping tabs on you to make posts to egg you on, or sending messages to you indirectly, shes cruel. There's nothing here for you to put your trust into.
Youre holding the keys to your own prison cell, free yourself, man. You've got to stop exerting your energy trying to keep up with how shes exerting hers. The more time you waste on her, focused on her, is less time you have to focus on better, less toxic, prospects. Ignorance will be your bliss. Life is too short, if you were to die tomorrow and could look back after the big game over, would you be happy you spent your last days chasing this dead end to the extent you have, with no reciprocation? I think you already know youre not satisfied with how any of this has went in reality or in your imagination.
I wish you all the best, but especially mental peace, my guy. Good luck
Thanks for input.
This is more to an open audience, but I was infatuated with specific girls long before social media. I just had to fantasize about them.
That's actually probably why I'm into my Leo ex more than if I dated and got to know her during the social media era.
So I don't think ignoring this Taurus' social media well help any. I still see the Leo's and a Gemini's social media, and I can get over them easier.
All these text messages have been coming in for the past few hours. And the Taurus posted on Pinterest, which she hasn't done in weeks.
I still can't get over the betrayal. She's doing all this, and it's clear as day. I just don't know why she would dagger me in the heart like this.
Ok, so i think im understanding - she has you blocked on everything, yet when you post something she posts something youre seeing as related to what you posted, tgat she would have to have viewed your account to see? Is that the gist?
That is the gist, yes.
And it extends to me Grindr account and personal phone number. Like literally I just opened your profile and got a text from some number. A random number, and it referenced my Instagram and Substack.
So the evidence is strong for why I belive this.
click to expand
Ok. But shes not directly interacting with you? When is the last time she had deliberate and direct contact with you? Not things that appear to be correlated to what youve posted, but could possibly be coincidental. I get how thay could drive you nuts. But are you doing this to yourself by even checking what she posts or does? Like who gives a shit? She took you to court. Has she led you on by directly telling you things, then going back on it? Some of these chicks just like attention . She may very well be checking your shit for validation that she still has your attention. Do you post things that would signal you seen her "response" to your post? Bro, why you even want this bitch?click to expand
The last I saw her was in court in 2022. Before that, the last direct communication was in 2014.
Everything else has been this online stuff I mentioned, but it has escalated into Grindr now direct text messages to my phone.
So yes, much of it is attributable to me checking her social media. But her posts are so relevant, and come off as responses or messages.
I don't trust her. I'm in a fit where I've built so much of my life into her, that cutting her off feels like I might die or something.
I don't want her. She betrayed me; she's ugly; her life frankly sucks with this guy, in my opinion.
But I put up with a lot and invested so much.
click to expand
So, its been 12 years since she has directly spoken to you? Other than in court. What are the messages in GRINDER saying? Those are direct to you? You say youve invested so much, like what have you invested other tahn time and 1 sided emotionalenergy? What has she invested in return?
To me it sounds like she, in a twisted way, just enjoys the attention youre giving her, and the control she has over you. Its crazy, but nowadays these girls are just attention whores. Like literal attention whores. Thats it. . Not all, but so many, and it seems like every day they just multiply.
Regarless man, if shes not reciprocating any of your positive efforts, shes not worth any more of your time. Your time on this spinning rock is finite, dont waste it being fucked with by anyone, especially when you know youre being fucked with. You can invest everything you want to give, into someone who appreciates it, and gives back.click to expand
You're right.
The messages on Grindr (how it's spelled on my phone) are basic, but it's the profile pictures which resonate. I mean on a couple occasions they were basically her name and a reference to posts she or I made on social media.
The direct text messages to my phone are similar.
I don't want to invest any more in her. I went through this previously, like I said, and a lot of it is just building habits and associations in my brain with her.
I was just in doubt because she moved in with this guy a while ago, but it was part of her moving abroad, and you need working permits or whatever residence permit you need to work and live there.
So I figured, "o.k., it saves money to live with this guy, and it doesn't do to walk around solo everywhere." And all the social media and stuff I mentioned eased me into finding out she was moving abroad, so I didn't feel betrayed. Just hurt at first, and I still am because she is living with this guy.
But the promise was that she wouldn't ride on his motorcycle or be in any way in an emotional boyfriend-girlfriend, dating type of relationship.
And she made this promise after she was on the motorcycle, which is why it's so pointed that I would see it on Instagram now: the guy is on a bike and her head is behind him in a motorcycle helmet, and then it's a reel, so it cuts to someone sitting on the bike behind him filming. And it's a group biking 200 miles or something. So even if its not a full body image of her on the bike, it's still pretty obvious what's happening.
If she is truly the one behind all the Grindr accounts and stuff, then she has invested a lot: making them all and timing the messages and profile visits. I don't even doubt that she could shove this guy off a cliff for all she cares. It's just the betrayal, which opens up a whole lot of other things I have been putting off: like they could be a romantic partnership doing the deed and making out all day.
She just looks like this whole living abroad thing is rough on her. And that's a relief as far as it shows she could just be doing this until she gets her paperwork straight.
click to expand
Man, for your own sake, and mental sanity, you have got to stop looking at any of her social media, and especially assigning any meaning to anything you see of her's, or making excuses for behavior that if she is doing it to twist a knife in you, explains it away. Youre living all in your head and not in reality. I get that you can see relationships in your posts and her posts, and if thats the reality of what shes doing, that's cruel and you dont want that, but if its all coincidence youre keeping yourself stuck. Neither scenariois healthyfor you. I think you know all this already, though. What is there to trust? She took you to court for stalking. If shes actually keeping tabs on you to make posts to egg you on, or sending messages to you indirectly, shes cruel. There's nothing here for you to put your trust into.
Youre holding the keys to your own prison cell, free yourself, man. You've got to stop exerting your energy trying to keep up with how shes exerting hers. The more time you waste on her, focused on her, is less time you have to focus on better, less toxic, prospects. Ignorance will be your bliss. Life is too short, if you were to die tomorrow and could look back after the big game over, would you be happy you spent your last days chasing this dead end to the extent you have, with no reciprocation? I think you already know youre not satisfied with how any of this has went in reality or in your imagination.
I wish you all the best, but especially mental peace, my guy. Good luck
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I admire your patience.
Ok, so i think im understanding - she has you blocked on everything, yet when you post something she posts something youre seeing as related to what you posted, tgat she would have to have viewed your account to see? Is that the gist?
That is the gist, yes.
And it extends to me Grindr account and personal phone number. Like literally I just opened your profile and got a text from some number. A random number, and it referenced my Instagram and Substack.
So the evidence is strong for why I belive this.
click to expand
Ok. But shes not directly interacting with you? When is the last time she had deliberate and direct contact with you? Not things that appear to be correlated to what youve posted, but could possibly be coincidental. I get how thay could drive you nuts. But are you doing this to yourself by even checking what she posts or does? Like who gives a shit? She took you to court. Has she led you on by directly telling you things, then going back on it? Some of these chicks just like attention . She may very well be checking your shit for validation that she still has your attention. Do you post things that would signal you seen her "response" to your post? Bro, why you even want this bitch?click to expand
The last I saw her was in court in 2022. Before that, the last direct communication was in 2014.
Everything else has been this online stuff I mentioned, but it has escalated into Grindr now direct text messages to my phone.
So yes, much of it is attributable to me checking her social media. But her posts are so relevant, and come off as responses or messages.
I don't trust her. I'm in a fit where I've built so much of my life into her, that cutting her off feels like I might die or something.
I don't want her. She betrayed me; she's ugly; her life frankly sucks with this guy, in my opinion.
But I put up with a lot and invested so much.
click to expand
So, its been 12 years since she has directly spoken to you? Other than in court. What are the messages in GRINDER saying? Those are direct to you? You say youve invested so much, like what have you invested other tahn time and 1 sided emotionalenergy? What has she invested in return?
To me it sounds like she, in a twisted way, just enjoys the attention youre giving her, and the control she has over you. Its crazy, but nowadays these girls are just attention whores. Like literal attention whores. Thats it. . Not all, but so many, and it seems like every day they just multiply.
Regarless man, if shes not reciprocating any of your positive efforts, shes not worth any more of your time. Your time on this spinning rock is finite, dont waste it being fucked with by anyone, especially when you know youre being fucked with. You can invest everything you want to give, into someone who appreciates it, and gives back.click to expand
You're right.
The messages on Grindr (how it's spelled on my phone) are basic, but it's the profile pictures which resonate. I mean on a couple occasions they were basically her name and a reference to posts she or I made on social media.
The direct text messages to my phone are similar.
I don't want to invest any more in her. I went through this previously, like I said, and a lot of it is just building habits and associations in my brain with her.
I was just in doubt because she moved in with this guy a while ago, but it was part of her moving abroad, and you need working permits or whatever residence permit you need to work and live there.
So I figured, "o.k., it saves money to live with this guy, and it doesn't do to walk around solo everywhere." And all the social media and stuff I mentioned eased me into finding out she was moving abroad, so I didn't feel betrayed. Just hurt at first, and I still am because she is living with this guy.
But the promise was that she wouldn't ride on his motorcycle or be in any way in an emotional boyfriend-girlfriend, dating type of relationship.
And she made this promise after she was on the motorcycle, which is why it's so pointed that I would see it on Instagram now: the guy is on a bike and her head is behind him in a motorcycle helmet, and then it's a reel, so it cuts to someone sitting on the bike behind him filming. And it's a group biking 200 miles or something. So even if its not a full body image of her on the bike, it's still pretty obvious what's happening.
If she is truly the one behind all the Grindr accounts and stuff, then she has invested a lot: making them all and timing the messages and profile visits. I don't even doubt that she could shove this guy off a cliff for all she cares. It's just the betrayal, which opens up a whole lot of other things I have been putting off: like they could be a romantic partnership doing the deed and making out all day.
She just looks like this whole living abroad thing is rough on her. And that's a relief as far as it shows she could just be doing this until she gets her paperwork straight.
click to expand
Man, for your own sake, and mental sanity, you have got to stop looking at any of her social media, and especially assigning any meaning to anything you see of her's, or making excuses for behavior that if she is doing it to twist a knife in you, explains it away. Youre living all in your head and not in reality. I get that you can see relationships in your posts and her posts, and if thats the reality of what shes doing, that's cruel and you dont want that, but if its all coincidence youre keeping yourself stuck. Neither scenariois healthyfor you. I think you know all this already, though. What is there to trust? She took you to court for stalking. If shes actually keeping tabs on you to make posts to egg you on, or sending messages to you indirectly, shes cruel. There's nothing here for you to put your trust into.
Youre holding the keys to your own prison cell, free yourself, man. You've got to stop exerting your energy trying to keep up with how shes exerting hers. The more time you waste on her, focused on her, is less time you have to focus on better, less toxic, prospects. Ignorance will be your bliss. Life is too short, if you were to die tomorrow and could look back after the big game over, would you be happy you spent your last days chasing this dead end to the extent you have, with no reciprocation? I think you already know youre not satisfied with how any of this has went in reality or in your imagination.
I wish you all the best, but especially mental peace, my guy. Good luckclick to expand
I admire your patience.
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😆 🤣 thanks! I know, im wasting my own energy 😆... but, I really do feel bad for this guy. Bro is chasing ghosts and its only haunting him.
Ok, so i think im understanding - she has you blocked on everything, yet when you post something she posts something youre seeing as related to what you posted, tgat she would have to have viewed your account to see? Is that the gist?
That is the gist, yes.
And it extends to me Grindr account and personal phone number. Like literally I just opened your profile and got a text from some number. A random number, and it referenced my Instagram and Substack.
So the evidence is strong for why I belive this.
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Ok. But shes not directly interacting with you? When is the last time she had deliberate and direct contact with you? Not things that appear to be correlated to what youve posted, but could possibly be coincidental. I get how thay could drive you nuts. But are you doing this to yourself by even checking what she posts or does? Like who gives a shit? She took you to court. Has she led you on by directly telling you things, then going back on it? Some of these chicks just like attention . She may very well be checking your shit for validation that she still has your attention. Do you post things that would signal you seen her "response" to your post? Bro, why you even want this bitch?click to expand
The last I saw her was in court in 2022. Before that, the last direct communication was in 2014.
Everything else has been this online stuff I mentioned, but it has escalated into Grindr now direct text messages to my phone.
So yes, much of it is attributable to me checking her social media. But her posts are so relevant, and come off as responses or messages.
I don't trust her. I'm in a fit where I've built so much of my life into her, that cutting her off feels like I might die or something.
I don't want her. She betrayed me; she's ugly; her life frankly sucks with this guy, in my opinion.
But I put up with a lot and invested so much.
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So, its been 12 years since she has directly spoken to you? Other than in court. What are the messages in GRINDER saying? Those are direct to you? You say youve invested so much, like what have you invested other tahn time and 1 sided emotionalenergy? What has she invested in return?
To me it sounds like she, in a twisted way, just enjoys the attention youre giving her, and the control she has over you. Its crazy, but nowadays these girls are just attention whores. Like literal attention whores. Thats it. . Not all, but so many, and it seems like every day they just multiply.
Regarless man, if shes not reciprocating any of your positive efforts, shes not worth any more of your time. Your time on this spinning rock is finite, dont waste it being fucked with by anyone, especially when you know youre being fucked with. You can invest everything you want to give, into someone who appreciates it, and gives back.click to expand
You're right.
The messages on Grindr (how it's spelled on my phone) are basic, but it's the profile pictures which resonate. I mean on a couple occasions they were basically her name and a reference to posts she or I made on social media.
The direct text messages to my phone are similar.
I don't want to invest any more in her. I went through this previously, like I said, and a lot of it is just building habits and associations in my brain with her.
I was just in doubt because she moved in with this guy a while ago, but it was part of her moving abroad, and you need working permits or whatever residence permit you need to work and live there.
So I figured, "o.k., it saves money to live with this guy, and it doesn't do to walk around solo everywhere." And all the social media and stuff I mentioned eased me into finding out she was moving abroad, so I didn't feel betrayed. Just hurt at first, and I still am because she is living with this guy.
But the promise was that she wouldn't ride on his motorcycle or be in any way in an emotional boyfriend-girlfriend, dating type of relationship.
And she made this promise after she was on the motorcycle, which is why it's so pointed that I would see it on Instagram now: the guy is on a bike and her head is behind him in a motorcycle helmet, and then it's a reel, so it cuts to someone sitting on the bike behind him filming. And it's a group biking 200 miles or something. So even if its not a full body image of her on the bike, it's still pretty obvious what's happening.
If she is truly the one behind all the Grindr accounts and stuff, then she has invested a lot: making them all and timing the messages and profile visits. I don't even doubt that she could shove this guy off a cliff for all she cares. It's just the betrayal, which opens up a whole lot of other things I have been putting off: like they could be a romantic partnership doing the deed and making out all day.
She just looks like this whole living abroad thing is rough on her. And that's a relief as far as it shows she could just be doing this until she gets her paperwork straight.
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Man, for your own sake, and mental sanity, you have got to stop looking at any of her social media, and especially assigning any meaning to anything you see of her's, or making excuses for behavior that if she is doing it to twist a knife in you, explains it away. Youre living all in your head and not in reality. I get that you can see relationships in your posts and her posts, and if thats the reality of what shes doing, that's cruel and you dont want that, but if its all coincidence youre keeping yourself stuck. Neither scenariois healthyfor you. I think you know all this already, though. What is there to trust? She took you to court for stalking. If shes actually keeping tabs on you to make posts to egg you on, or sending messages to you indirectly, shes cruel. There's nothing here for you to put your trust into.
Youre holding the keys to your own prison cell, free yourself, man. You've got to stop exerting your energy trying to keep up with how shes exerting hers. The more time you waste on her, focused on her, is less time you have to focus on better, less toxic, prospects. Ignorance will be your bliss. Life is too short, if you were to die tomorrow and could look back after the big game over, would you be happy you spent your last days chasing this dead end to the extent you have, with no reciprocation? I think you already know youre not satisfied with how any of this has went in reality or in your imagination.
I wish you all the best, but especially mental peace, my guy. Good luckclick to expand
I admire your patience.
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Off topic, but how have your travels been? You still moving?
taurus women get fat anyway -fat taurus man
“One of the promises she made…”
Did she actually make a promise to you or was this interpreted through some other form of “alternate communication”?
Posted by PilatesBod
“One of the promises she made…”Did she actually make a promise to you or was this interpreted through some other form of “alternate communication”?
We're working on it. I was checking out her dad's instagram last night, and thinking about some arts reels he made.
Today her story on instagram was a cross-post of one of her dad's arts pictures, but more modern.
So we're doing good.
Posted by PilatesBod
“One of the promises she made…”Did she actually make a promise to you or was this interpreted through some other form of “alternate communication”?
We're working on it. I was checking out her dad's instagram last night, and thinking about some arts reels he made.
Today her story on instagram was a cross-post of one of her dad's arts pictures, but more modern.
So we're doing good.
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I hope this is like some form of dark satire
“One of the promises she made…”
Did she actually make a promise to you or was this interpreted through some other form of “alternate communication”?
We're working on it. I was checking out her dad's instagram last night, and thinking about some arts reels he made.
Today her story on instagram was a cross-post of one of her dad's arts pictures, but more modern.
So we're doing good.
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The only "we" is in your head but I 'm stating the obvious
Ok, so i think im understanding - she has you blocked on everything, yet when you post something she posts something youre seeing as related to what you posted, tgat she would have to have viewed your account to see? Is that the gist?
That is the gist, yes.
And it extends to me Grindr account and personal phone number. Like literally I just opened your profile and got a text from some number. A random number, and it referenced my Instagram and Substack.
So the evidence is strong for why I belive this.
click to expand
Ok. But shes not directly interacting with you? When is the last time she had deliberate and direct contact with you? Not things that appear to be correlated to what youve posted, but could possibly be coincidental. I get how thay could drive you nuts. But are you doing this to yourself by even checking what she posts or does? Like who gives a shit? She took you to court. Has she led you on by directly telling you things, then going back on it? Some of these chicks just like attention . She may very well be checking your shit for validation that she still has your attention. Do you post things that would signal you seen her "response" to your post? Bro, why you even want this bitch?click to expand
The last I saw her was in court in 2022. Before that, the last direct communication was in 2014.
Everything else has been this online stuff I mentioned, but it has escalated into Grindr now direct text messages to my phone.
So yes, much of it is attributable to me checking her social media. But her posts are so relevant, and come off as responses or messages.
I don't trust her. I'm in a fit where I've built so much of my life into her, that cutting her off feels like I might die or something.
I don't want her. She betrayed me; she's ugly; her life frankly sucks with this guy, in my opinion.
But I put up with a lot and invested so much.
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So, its been 12 years since she has directly spoken to you? Other than in court. What are the messages in GRINDER saying? Those are direct to you? You say youve invested so much, like what have you invested other tahn time and 1 sided emotionalenergy? What has she invested in return?
To me it sounds like she, in a twisted way, just enjoys the attention youre giving her, and the control she has over you. Its crazy, but nowadays these girls are just attention whores. Like literal attention whores. Thats it. . Not all, but so many, and it seems like every day they just multiply.
Regarless man, if shes not reciprocating any of your positive efforts, shes not worth any more of your time. Your time on this spinning rock is finite, dont waste it being fucked with by anyone, especially when you know youre being fucked with. You can invest everything you want to give, into someone who appreciates it, and gives back.click to expand
You're right.
The messages on Grindr (how it's spelled on my phone) are basic, but it's the profile pictures which resonate. I mean on a couple occasions they were basically her name and a reference to posts she or I made on social media.
The direct text messages to my phone are similar.
I don't want to invest any more in her. I went through this previously, like I said, and a lot of it is just building habits and associations in my brain with her.
I was just in doubt because she moved in with this guy a while ago, but it was part of her moving abroad, and you need working permits or whatever residence permit you need to work and live there.
So I figured, "o.k., it saves money to live with this guy, and it doesn't do to walk around solo everywhere." And all the social media and stuff I mentioned eased me into finding out she was moving abroad, so I didn't feel betrayed. Just hurt at first, and I still am because she is living with this guy.
But the promise was that she wouldn't ride on his motorcycle or be in any way in an emotional boyfriend-girlfriend, dating type of relationship.
And she made this promise after she was on the motorcycle, which is why it's so pointed that I would see it on Instagram now: the guy is on a bike and her head is behind him in a motorcycle helmet, and then it's a reel, so it cuts to someone sitting on the bike behind him filming. And it's a group biking 200 miles or something. So even if its not a full body image of her on the bike, it's still pretty obvious what's happening.
If she is truly the one behind all the Grindr accounts and stuff, then she has invested a lot: making them all and timing the messages and profile visits. I don't even doubt that she could shove this guy off a cliff for all she cares. It's just the betrayal, which opens up a whole lot of other things I have been putting off: like they could be a romantic partnership doing the deed and making out all day.
She just looks like this whole living abroad thing is rough on her. And that's a relief as far as it shows she could just be doing this until she gets her paperwork straight.
click to expand
Man, for your own sake, and mental sanity, you have got to stop looking at any of her social media, and especially assigning any meaning to anything you see of her's, or making excuses for behavior that if she is doing it to twist a knife in you, explains it away. Youre living all in your head and not in reality. I get that you can see relationships in your posts and her posts, and if thats the reality of what shes doing, that's cruel and you dont want that, but if its all coincidence youre keeping yourself stuck. Neither scenariois healthyfor you. I think you know all this already, though. What is there to trust? She took you to court for stalking. If shes actually keeping tabs on you to make posts to egg you on, or sending messages to you indirectly, shes cruel. There's nothing here for you to put your trust into.
Youre holding the keys to your own prison cell, free yourself, man. You've got to stop exerting your energy trying to keep up with how shes exerting hers. The more time you waste on her, focused on her, is less time you have to focus on better, less toxic, prospects. Ignorance will be your bliss. Life is too short, if you were to die tomorrow and could look back after the big game over, would you be happy you spent your last days chasing this dead end to the extent you have, with no reciprocation? I think you already know youre not satisfied with how any of this has went in reality or in your imagination.
I wish you all the best, but especially mental peace, my guy. Good luckclick to expand
I admire your patience.
click to expand
Off topic, but how have your travels been? You still moving?
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Oh I didn't rly have a good time tbh and then ran out of money 😢
“One of the promises she made…”
Did she actually make a promise to you or was this interpreted through some other form of “alternate communication”?
We're working on it. I was checking out her dad's instagram last night, and thinking about some arts reels he made.
Today her story on instagram was a cross-post of one of her dad's arts pictures, but more modern.
So we're doing good.
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The only "we" is in your head but I 'm stating the obvious
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I have to shut down or else it hurts too much.
My life sucks when i think about her: she just feels it, and we suffer together, i guess.
she could be with this guy, loyal to a fault. or they're platonic.
i can't trust anything, because she was on his bike. Even if he sucks, astrology says taurus will stay in it no matter what.
i've never actually spoken to her in person.
he likes cooking which is gross, but if he's a gemini, they like everything and it doesn't always count as if a taurus liked it.
it's not the ignition, it's the remix to ignition
they went to a wedding together, but in the reels she's dancing solo, and the other guy is dancing with another girl
She's actually not ugly. I lied. My thoughts were ugly when I said that.
I was just mad at the betrayal. She's beautiful, in fact more beautiful than I can get or have gotten.
I lash out to compensate for not having her. If I wasn't so weak maybe she'd be with me.
I still don't think the Gemini guy is hot. Never liked him or disliked him.
I'm sorry to her and everyone for calling her ugly.
"I turn my chin music up
And I'm puffin' my chest
I'm gettin' red in the face
You can call me obsessed
It's not your fault that they hover
I mean no disrespect"
-Nick Jonas (https://genius.com/Nick-jonas-jealous-lyrics)
And I don't know if her life sucks. My passions color my judgement.
Her life is alright I guess, like not stuff i would do, but nothing wrong with it and some people take cars and motorcycles seriously.
I just feel so bad without her and maybe I project that onto her. It's difficult reading people from this perspective with a Mars in Scorpio, Venus in Capricorn, and Cancer Moon.
Like I'm cooking up passionate Saturn energy.
Here's my honest, raw, opinion: she hasnt betrayed you in any way. You've never spoken. She has never made any promises or plans to or with you, or anything of any kind of intent directly towards you, to have broken her word to you. Maybe she said something of little consequence and changed her mind.. I once hated avocado.. i was adamant about hating avocados... now, i love avocados.. does that make me fake? Does that make me a liar? No, i simply had a change of mind after being presented with a better way than i had experienced before.. thats how life should work, IMO. We evolve. We move. We shift. Riding on someone's motorcycle isnt an inherit value, youve assigned "loyalty" as a value to what she said. I ride bikes, i love bikes, cars, anything that goes fast, im all about.. so ive had guys and girls, married, single, gay, straight, doesn’t matter, tell me they could never ride on something like my bike. But they're curious. They want to. They're just scared.. eventually I'll get them on the back and most times they fall in love with it, just like i did. Thats growth! Thats good! In most cases its just replacing a fear with a healthy respect of what could kill you, amd thats a good thing. Youre assigning a value to someone based on something as trivial as that is bonkers in my opinion.You've assigned meaning to the things she's said and done, completely separate of you, only put out in the ether. But we say things, things that don't really matter in the grand scheme of life. The only thing you know of this woman is what she has curated for SM, and the world to see. Thats not even reality, for 90% of people on SM, its cap, so you only know what she allows you to see, BUT SO DOES EVERYONE ELSE WHO FOLLOWS HER!
Honestly I think youre selfish because youve said what you can provide her is better than what she has. That her life sucks. Those little glimpses of you between lashouts, is likely what you really think. Who says thats what she wants? You dont know her well enough to assign to her what she wants and/or needs in a relationship.
Youre infatuated with an idea of who you think she is, and youre assigning meaning to keep yourself linked to a person who is in no way, in reality, linked to you. Every bit of what youre experiencing is in your own head. Good news is once you see this, you can end the toxic relationship you have with your own imagination. You said it yourself - once you actually knew her, youd lose interest and be able to walk away. The love of the person youve created in your mind is stronger than the actual person.. probably a let down, if youre honest. It would be completely different if you guys had talked a lot, she expressed interest in you In a romantic way, you got to actually know her, how she thinks, how she was raised, her previous relationships. what scars she carries, then you can learn her values and ascribe values to her. Youre in no way being fair to her as a human. You've changed your mind about all the negative things youve said about her in just this post alone.. but she cant say somethingbas inconsequential as she wouldnt ride on a bike and change her mind and you make a judgement call on her character?
Ok, so i think im understanding - she has you blocked on everything, yet when you post something she posts something youre seeing as related to what you posted, tgat she would have to have viewed your account to see? Is that the gist?
That is the gist, yes.
And it extends to me Grindr account and personal phone number. Like literally I just opened your profile and got a text from some number. A random number, and it referenced my Instagram and Substack.
So the evidence is strong for why I belive this.
click to expand
Ok. But shes not directly interacting with you? When is the last time she had deliberate and direct contact with you? Not things that appear to be correlated to what youve posted, but could possibly be coincidental. I get how thay could drive you nuts. But are you doing this to yourself by even checking what she posts or does? Like who gives a shit? She took you to court. Has she led you on by directly telling you things, then going back on it? Some of these chicks just like attention . She may very well be checking your shit for validation that she still has your attention. Do you post things that would signal you seen her "response" to your post? Bro, why you even want this bitch?click to expand
The last I saw her was in court in 2022. Before that, the last direct communication was in 2014.
Everything else has been this online stuff I mentioned, but it has escalated into Grindr now direct text messages to my phone.
So yes, much of it is attributable to me checking her social media. But her posts are so relevant, and come off as responses or messages.
I don't trust her. I'm in a fit where I've built so much of my life into her, that cutting her off feels like I might die or something.
I don't want her. She betrayed me; she's ugly; her life frankly sucks with this guy, in my opinion.
But I put up with a lot and invested so much.
click to expand
So, its been 12 years since she has directly spoken to you? Other than in court. What are the messages in GRINDER saying? Those are direct to you? You say youve invested so much, like what have you invested other tahn time and 1 sided emotionalenergy? What has she invested in return?
To me it sounds like she, in a twisted way, just enjoys the attention youre giving her, and the control she has over you. Its crazy, but nowadays these girls are just attention whores. Like literal attention whores. Thats it. . Not all, but so many, and it seems like every day they just multiply.
Regarless man, if shes not reciprocating any of your positive efforts, shes not worth any more of your time. Your time on this spinning rock is finite, dont waste it being fucked with by anyone, especially when you know youre being fucked with. You can invest everything you want to give, into someone who appreciates it, and gives back.click to expand
You're right.
The messages on Grindr (how it's spelled on my phone) are basic, but it's the profile pictures which resonate. I mean on a couple occasions they were basically her name and a reference to posts she or I made on social media.
The direct text messages to my phone are similar.
I don't want to invest any more in her. I went through this previously, like I said, and a lot of it is just building habits and associations in my brain with her.
I was just in doubt because she moved in with this guy a while ago, but it was part of her moving abroad, and you need working permits or whatever residence permit you need to work and live there.
So I figured, "o.k., it saves money to live with this guy, and it doesn't do to walk around solo everywhere." And all the social media and stuff I mentioned eased me into finding out she was moving abroad, so I didn't feel betrayed. Just hurt at first, and I still am because she is living with this guy.
But the promise was that she wouldn't ride on his motorcycle or be in any way in an emotional boyfriend-girlfriend, dating type of relationship.
And she made this promise after she was on the motorcycle, which is why it's so pointed that I would see it on Instagram now: the guy is on a bike and her head is behind him in a motorcycle helmet, and then it's a reel, so it cuts to someone sitting on the bike behind him filming. And it's a group biking 200 miles or something. So even if its not a full body image of her on the bike, it's still pretty obvious what's happening.
If she is truly the one behind all the Grindr accounts and stuff, then she has invested a lot: making them all and timing the messages and profile visits. I don't even doubt that she could shove this guy off a cliff for all she cares. It's just the betrayal, which opens up a whole lot of other things I have been putting off: like they could be a romantic partnership doing the deed and making out all day.
She just looks like this whole living abroad thing is rough on her. And that's a relief as far as it shows she could just be doing this until she gets her paperwork straight.
click to expand
Man, for your own sake, and mental sanity, you have got to stop looking at any of her social media, and especially assigning any meaning to anything you see of her's, or making excuses for behavior that if she is doing it to twist a knife in you, explains it away. Youre living all in your head and not in reality. I get that you can see relationships in your posts and her posts, and if thats the reality of what shes doing, that's cruel and you dont want that, but if its all coincidence youre keeping yourself stuck. Neither scenariois healthyfor you. I think you know all this already, though. What is there to trust? She took you to court for stalking. If shes actually keeping tabs on you to make posts to egg you on, or sending messages to you indirectly, shes cruel. There's nothing here for you to put your trust into.
Youre holding the keys to your own prison cell, free yourself, man. You've got to stop exerting your energy trying to keep up with how shes exerting hers. The more time you waste on her, focused on her, is less time you have to focus on better, less toxic, prospects. Ignorance will be your bliss. Life is too short, if you were to die tomorrow and could look back after the big game over, would you be happy you spent your last days chasing this dead end to the extent you have, with no reciprocation? I think you already know youre not satisfied with how any of this has went in reality or in your imagination.
I wish you all the best, but especially mental peace, my guy. Good luckclick to expand
I admire your patience.
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Off topic, but how have your travels been? You still moving?click to expand
Oh I didn't rly have a good time tbh and then ran out of money 😢
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I hated to like the comment. That sucks! What made it not a good time? Some of the things you had said and some of the pics made me stop putting things off in the travel dept.. it really did. Did you go alone?
Posted by Flitzpiepe
Here's my honest, raw, opinion: she hasnt betrayed you in any way. You've never spoken. She has never made any promises or plans to or with you, or anything of any kind of intent directly towards you, to have broken her word to you. Maybe she said something of little consequence and changed her mind.. I once hated avocado.. i was adamant about hating avocados... now, i love avocados.. does that make me fake? Does that make me a liar? No, i simply had a change of mind after being presented with a better way than i had experienced before.. thats how life should work, IMO. We evolve. We move. We shift. Riding on someone's motorcycle isnt an inherit value, youve assigned "loyalty" as a value to what she said. I ride bikes, i love bikes, cars, anything that goes fast, im all about.. so ive had guys and girls, married, single, gay, straight, doesn’t matter, tell me they could never ride on something like my bike. But they're curious. They want to. They're just scared.. eventually I'll get them on the back and most times they fall in love with it, just like i did. Thats growth! Thats good! In most cases its just replacing a fear with a healthy respect of what could kill you, amd thats a good thing. Youre assigning a value to someone based on something as trivial as that is bonkers in my opinion.You've assigned meaning to the things she's said and done, completely separate of you, only put out in the ether. But we say things, things that don't really matter in the grand scheme of life. The only thing you know of this woman is what she has curated for SM, and the world to see. Thats not even reality, for 90% of people on SM, its cap, so you only know what she allows you to see, BUT SO DOES EVERYONE ELSE WHO FOLLOWS HER!Honestly I think youre selfish because youve said what you can provide her is better than what she has. That her life sucks. Those little glimpses of you between lashouts, is likely what you really think. Who says thats what she wants? You dont know her well enough to assign to her what she wants and/or needs in a relationship.
Youre infatuated with an idea of who you think she is, and youre assigning meaning to keep yourself linked to a person who is in no way, in reality, linked to you. Every bit of what youre experiencing is in your own head. Good news is once you see this, you can end the toxic relationship you have with your own imagination. You said it yourself - once you actually knew her, youd lose interest and be able to walk away. The love of the person youve created in your mind is stronger than the actual person.. probably a let down, if youre honest. It would be completely different if you guys had talked a lot, she expressed interest in you In a romantic way, you got to actually know her, how she thinks, how she was raised, her previous relationships. what scars she carries, then you can learn her values and ascribe values to her. Youre in no way being fair to her as a human. You've changed your mind about all the negative things youve said about her in just this post alone.. but she cant say somethingbas inconsequential as she wouldnt ride on a bike and change her mind and you make a judgement call on her character?
If I was genuinely making all this up in my head—assigning value, as you say—then why did her social media blow up as soon as I had this revelation? Why all the texts to my phone from strange numbers? Why Grindr profiles viewing and messaging me?
There's a timing that is impossible to ignore. And what's more, is that the content she posts is relevant to my revelation, as are the texts and Grindr stuff.
It's like her and I are having a conversation through these mediums or channels, an ongoing conversation.
So yes I assigned value, but she understood the value i assigned. A meeting of the minds. That's what any communication is. Genuinely.
Do I always understand her, or can I read her mind? No.
"She moves in mysterious ways."
-Bono
Has anything good come from this betrayal? Yes: I'm working through it with her, even though I can never trust her the same way again.
I'm focused more on people and stuff I care about more, and not adventuring on side quests.
I'm hurt more, yes. I feel like i know more about her, her world.
Do I sometimes want to throw it all off? Yes. I haven't spoken to her directly, ever, and she's living with this guy, and they could be doing whatever with each other. I don't know. And you're right to focus on thid part and say i'm assigning value to social media, when she's not actually in my life as a physical presence. That other guy is.
And yes I feel wasted, wasting away, because I'm almost 40 years old and spent however long pining after this woman while we live seperate lives, or parallel lives.
I couldn't have been with her before, maybe, because i was too immature. Maybe i'm still and will always be too different, for her. She's a muse, and maybe that's all.
I just want to be with her, in this relationship, and maybe I'll drift off to another, after the manner of former past flames.
Maybe not.
Posted by Flitzpiepe
Here's my honest, raw, opinion: she hasnt betrayed you in any way. You've never spoken. She has never made any promises or plans to or with you, or anything of any kind of intent directly towards you, to have broken her word to you. Maybe she said something of little consequence and changed her mind.. I once hated avocado.. i was adamant about hating avocados... now, i love avocados.. does that make me fake? Does that make me a liar? No, i simply had a change of mind after being presented with a better way than i had experienced before.. thats how life should work, IMO. We evolve. We move. We shift. Riding on someone's motorcycle isnt an inherit value, youve assigned "loyalty" as a value to what she said. I ride bikes, i love bikes, cars, anything that goes fast, im all about.. so ive had guys and girls, married, single, gay, straight, doesn’t matter, tell me they could never ride on something like my bike. But they're curious. They want to. They're just scared.. eventually I'll get them on the back and most times they fall in love with it, just like i did. Thats growth! Thats good! In most cases its just replacing a fear with a healthy respect of what could kill you, amd thats a good thing. Youre assigning a value to someone based on something as trivial as that is bonkers in my opinion.You've assigned meaning to the things she's said and done, completely separate of you, only put out in the ether. But we say things, things that don't really matter in the grand scheme of life. The only thing you know of this woman is what she has curated for SM, and the world to see. Thats not even reality, for 90% of people on SM, its cap, so you only know what she allows you to see, BUT SO DOES EVERYONE ELSE WHO FOLLOWS HER!Honestly I think youre selfish because youve said what you can provide her is better than what she has. That her life sucks. Those little glimpses of you between lashouts, is likely what you really think. Who says thats what she wants? You dont know her well enough to assign to her what she wants and/or needs in a relationship.
Youre infatuated with an idea of who you think she is, and youre assigning meaning to keep yourself linked to a person who is in no way, in reality, linked to you. Every bit of what youre experiencing is in your own head. Good news is once you see this, you can end the toxic relationship you have with your own imagination. You said it yourself - once you actually knew her, youd lose interest and be able to walk away. The love of the person youve created in your mind is stronger than the actual person.. probably a let down, if youre honest. It would be completely different if you guys had talked a lot, she expressed interest in you In a romantic way, you got to actually know her, how she thinks, how she was raised, her previous relationships. what scars she carries, then you can learn her values and ascribe values to her. Youre in no way being fair to her as a human. You've changed your mind about all the negative things youve said about her in just this post alone.. but she cant say somethingbas inconsequential as she wouldnt ride on a bike and change her mind and you make a judgement call on her character?
If I was genuinely making all this up in my head—assigning value, as you say—then why did her social media blow up as soon as I had this revelation? Why all the texts to my phone from strange numbers? Why Grindr profiles viewing and messaging me?
There's a timing that is impossible to ignore. And what's more, is that the content she posts is relevant to my revelation, as are the texts and Grindr stuff.
It's like her and I are having a conversation through these mediums or channels, an ongoing conversation.
So yes I assigned value, but she understood the value i assigned. A meeting of the minds. That's what any communication is. Genuinely.
Do I always understand her, or can I read her mind? No.
"She moves in mysterious ways."
-Bono
Has anything good come from this betrayal? Yes: I'm working through it with her, even though I can never trust her the same way again.
I'm focused more on people and stuff I care about more, and not adventuring on side quests.
I'm hurt more, yes. I feel like i know more about her, her world.
Do I sometimes want to throw it all off? Yes. I haven't spoken to her directly, ever, and she's living with this guy, and they could be doing whatever with each other. I don't know. And you're right to focus on thid part and say i'm assigning value to social media, when she's not actually in my life as a physical presence. That other guy is.
And yes I feel wasted, wasting away, because I'm almost 40 years old and spent however long pining after this woman while we live seperate lives, or parallel lives.
I couldn't have been with her before, maybe, because i was too immature. Maybe i'm still and will always be too different, for her. She's a muse, and maybe that's all.
I just want to be with her, in this relationship, and maybe I'll drift off to another, after the manner of former past flames.
Maybe not.
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Youre wild, homie!
I hope rather it be this life, or the next life, or however many lives you think you got in ya, that the next restraining order in your future involves a bedpost and fuzzy handcuffs, with less court hearings.. cop uniforms may put a little extra heat in this twinflane daydream, if youre spicy.
Good luck, my guy!
I followed her step-brother on Instagram, and I'm not sure if he knows I'm the guy she brought to court, but I've been getting a positive vibe from him.
I also messaged the Taurus on Pinterest and follower her on Spotify: no blocks, at least yet.
So I'm not sure what to make of this. Deep down I feel like we will never be together, but it's a mental block that she does. When she's ready, she will block or unblock mentally.
"Putting up a wall" as they say with Taurus.
I feel really good in my private life otherwise, but really tightly wound and high strung with her.
Genuinely she could be keeping me at arm's length for life—and just metaphorically, not literally.
That's how little i can read her.
Did I read that you have never actually spoken to her?
Posted by Wizardzzz
Did I read that you have never actually spoken to her?
Yes, that is correct. She spoke to me once, but I was too shy.
She posted on Facebook that she was having an art show, an exhibit in a small town square.
I went, and was so nervous. I wore a bright royal blue polo-type shirt, True Religion jeans, and a reddish/orange and spring-mud Brown North Face zip-up.
We were friends on Facebook.
I saw her, from afar. I was so nervous.
I saw her dad—a celebrity in my eyes, and her sister. Two Hollywood celebrities on People Magazine's cover, as far as I was concerned.
I reached for a business card in the little card holder, and the wind blew over an art. I was petrified. The sister noticed, because the art was near my hand and the business cards.
She fixed the art, so I wouldn't be blamed. It was the nicest thing anyone did for me in a while, and I had a super crush on the sister for a while.
The Taurus was talkinh to someone: locked in.
Keep in mind, I had bright red fake Oakleys on, with dark lenses.
She turned to talk to me.
I was looking away, but I don't remember if my face was pointed at her.
She said something about a dog, which the person she was just speaking to had. I only knew it was directed at me by the tone of her voice and my sense of sound.
I walked away.
Later she posted a sexy photo of her legs on Facebook, which she never does, mentioning something about a free pin which I didn't take. (I took a business card!)
Next I saw her dad in court, years after this happened...
Ok, so i think im understanding - she has you blocked on everything, yet when you post something she posts something youre seeing as related to what you posted, tgat she would have to have viewed your account to see? Is that the gist?
That is the gist, yes.
And it extends to me Grindr account and personal phone number. Like literally I just opened your profile and got a text from some number. A random number, and it referenced my Instagram and Substack.
So the evidence is strong for why I belive this.
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Ok. But shes not directly interacting with you? When is the last time she had deliberate and direct contact with you? Not things that appear to be correlated to what youve posted, but could possibly be coincidental. I get how thay could drive you nuts. But are you doing this to yourself by even checking what she posts or does? Like who gives a shit? She took you to court. Has she led you on by directly telling you things, then going back on it? Some of these chicks just like attention . She may very well be checking your shit for validation that she still has your attention. Do you post things that would signal you seen her "response" to your post? Bro, why you even want this bitch?click to expand
The last I saw her was in court in 2022. Before that, the last direct communication was in 2014.
Everything else has been this online stuff I mentioned, but it has escalated into Grindr now direct text messages to my phone.
So yes, much of it is attributable to me checking her social media. But her posts are so relevant, and come off as responses or messages.
I don't trust her. I'm in a fit where I've built so much of my life into her, that cutting her off feels like I might die or something.
I don't want her. She betrayed me; she's ugly; her life frankly sucks with this guy, in my opinion.
But I put up with a lot and invested so much.
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So, its been 12 years since she has directly spoken to you? Other than in court. What are the messages in GRINDER saying? Those are direct to you? You say youve invested so much, like what have you invested other tahn time and 1 sided emotionalenergy? What has she invested in return?
To me it sounds like she, in a twisted way, just enjoys the attention youre giving her, and the control she has over you. Its crazy, but nowadays these girls are just attention whores. Like literal attention whores. Thats it. . Not all, but so many, and it seems like every day they just multiply.
Regarless man, if shes not reciprocating any of your positive efforts, shes not worth any more of your time. Your time on this spinning rock is finite, dont waste it being fucked with by anyone, especially when you know youre being fucked with. You can invest everything you want to give, into someone who appreciates it, and gives back.click to expand
You're right.
The messages on Grindr (how it's spelled on my phone) are basic, but it's the profile pictures which resonate. I mean on a couple occasions they were basically her name and a reference to posts she or I made on social media.
The direct text messages to my phone are similar.
I don't want to invest any more in her. I went through this previously, like I said, and a lot of it is just building habits and associations in my brain with her.
I was just in doubt because she moved in with this guy a while ago, but it was part of her moving abroad, and you need working permits or whatever residence permit you need to work and live there.
So I figured, "o.k., it saves money to live with this guy, and it doesn't do to walk around solo everywhere." And all the social media and stuff I mentioned eased me into finding out she was moving abroad, so I didn't feel betrayed. Just hurt at first, and I still am because she is living with this guy.
But the promise was that she wouldn't ride on his motorcycle or be in any way in an emotional boyfriend-girlfriend, dating type of relationship.
And she made this promise after she was on the motorcycle, which is why it's so pointed that I would see it on Instagram now: the guy is on a bike and her head is behind him in a motorcycle helmet, and then it's a reel, so it cuts to someone sitting on the bike behind him filming. And it's a group biking 200 miles or something. So even if its not a full body image of her on the bike, it's still pretty obvious what's happening.
If she is truly the one behind all the Grindr accounts and stuff, then she has invested a lot: making them all and timing the messages and profile visits. I don't even doubt that she could shove this guy off a cliff for all she cares. It's just the betrayal, which opens up a whole lot of other things I have been putting off: like they could be a romantic partnership doing the deed and making out all day.
She just looks like this whole living abroad thing is rough on her. And that's a relief as far as it shows she could just be doing this until she gets her paperwork straight.
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Man, for your own sake, and mental sanity, you have got to stop looking at any of her social media, and especially assigning any meaning to anything you see of her's, or making excuses for behavior that if she is doing it to twist a knife in you, explains it away. Youre living all in your head and not in reality. I get that you can see relationships in your posts and her posts, and if thats the reality of what shes doing, that's cruel and you dont want that, but if its all coincidence youre keeping yourself stuck. Neither scenariois healthyfor you. I think you know all this already, though. What is there to trust? She took you to court for stalking. If shes actually keeping tabs on you to make posts to egg you on, or sending messages to you indirectly, shes cruel. There's nothing here for you to put your trust into.
Youre holding the keys to your own prison cell, free yourself, man. You've got to stop exerting your energy trying to keep up with how shes exerting hers. The more time you waste on her, focused on her, is less time you have to focus on better, less toxic, prospects. Ignorance will be your bliss. Life is too short, if you were to die tomorrow and could look back after the big game over, would you be happy you spent your last days chasing this dead end to the extent you have, with no reciprocation? I think you already know youre not satisfied with how any of this has went in reality or in your imagination.
I wish you all the best, but especially mental peace, my guy. Good luckclick to expand
I admire your patience.
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Off topic, but how have your travels been? You still moving?click to expand
Oh I didn't rly have a good time tbh and then ran out of money 😢click to expand
I hated to like the comment. That sucks! What made it not a good time? Some of the things you had said and some of the pics made me stop putting things off in the travel dept.. it really did. Did you go alone?
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Yeh well I saw stuff but I just never felt like I should be doing it. I don't know what that means. Like, it just didn't feel inspiring or an adventure. Kind of sad
Ok, so i think im understanding - she has you blocked on everything, yet when you post something she posts something youre seeing as related to what you posted, tgat she would have to have viewed your account to see? Is that the gist?
That is the gist, yes.
And it extends to me Grindr account and personal phone number. Like literally I just opened your profile and got a text from some number. A random number, and it referenced my Instagram and Substack.
So the evidence is strong for why I belive this.
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Ok. But shes not directly interacting with you? When is the last time she had deliberate and direct contact with you? Not things that appear to be correlated to what youve posted, but could possibly be coincidental. I get how thay could drive you nuts. But are you doing this to yourself by even checking what she posts or does? Like who gives a shit? She took you to court. Has she led you on by directly telling you things, then going back on it? Some of these chicks just like attention . She may very well be checking your shit for validation that she still has your attention. Do you post things that would signal you seen her "response" to your post? Bro, why you even want this bitch?click to expand
The last I saw her was in court in 2022. Before that, the last direct communication was in 2014.
Everything else has been this online stuff I mentioned, but it has escalated into Grindr now direct text messages to my phone.
So yes, much of it is attributable to me checking her social media. But her posts are so relevant, and come off as responses or messages.
I don't trust her. I'm in a fit where I've built so much of my life into her, that cutting her off feels like I might die or something.
I don't want her. She betrayed me; she's ugly; her life frankly sucks with this guy, in my opinion.
But I put up with a lot and invested so much.
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So, its been 12 years since she has directly spoken to you? Other than in court. What are the messages in GRINDER saying? Those are direct to you? You say youve invested so much, like what have you invested other tahn time and 1 sided emotionalenergy? What has she invested in return?
To me it sounds like she, in a twisted way, just enjoys the attention youre giving her, and the control she has over you. Its crazy, but nowadays these girls are just attention whores. Like literal attention whores. Thats it. . Not all, but so many, and it seems like every day they just multiply.
Regarless man, if shes not reciprocating any of your positive efforts, shes not worth any more of your time. Your time on this spinning rock is finite, dont waste it being fucked with by anyone, especially when you know youre being fucked with. You can invest everything you want to give, into someone who appreciates it, and gives back.click to expand
You're right.
The messages on Grindr (how it's spelled on my phone) are basic, but it's the profile pictures which resonate. I mean on a couple occasions they were basically her name and a reference to posts she or I made on social media.
The direct text messages to my phone are similar.
I don't want to invest any more in her. I went through this previously, like I said, and a lot of it is just building habits and associations in my brain with her.
I was just in doubt because she moved in with this guy a while ago, but it was part of her moving abroad, and you need working permits or whatever residence permit you need to work and live there.
So I figured, "o.k., it saves money to live with this guy, and it doesn't do to walk around solo everywhere." And all the social media and stuff I mentioned eased me into finding out she was moving abroad, so I didn't feel betrayed. Just hurt at first, and I still am because she is living with this guy.
But the promise was that she wouldn't ride on his motorcycle or be in any way in an emotional boyfriend-girlfriend, dating type of relationship.
And she made this promise after she was on the motorcycle, which is why it's so pointed that I would see it on Instagram now: the guy is on a bike and her head is behind him in a motorcycle helmet, and then it's a reel, so it cuts to someone sitting on the bike behind him filming. And it's a group biking 200 miles or something. So even if its not a full body image of her on the bike, it's still pretty obvious what's happening.
If she is truly the one behind all the Grindr accounts and stuff, then she has invested a lot: making them all and timing the messages and profile visits. I don't even doubt that she could shove this guy off a cliff for all she cares. It's just the betrayal, which opens up a whole lot of other things I have been putting off: like they could be a romantic partnership doing the deed and making out all day.
She just looks like this whole living abroad thing is rough on her. And that's a relief as far as it shows she could just be doing this until she gets her paperwork straight.
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Man, for your own sake, and mental sanity, you have got to stop looking at any of her social media, and especially assigning any meaning to anything you see of her's, or making excuses for behavior that if she is doing it to twist a knife in you, explains it away. Youre living all in your head and not in reality. I get that you can see relationships in your posts and her posts, and if thats the reality of what shes doing, that's cruel and you dont want that, but if its all coincidence youre keeping yourself stuck. Neither scenariois healthyfor you. I think you know all this already, though. What is there to trust? She took you to court for stalking. If shes actually keeping tabs on you to make posts to egg you on, or sending messages to you indirectly, shes cruel. There's nothing here for you to put your trust into.
Youre holding the keys to your own prison cell, free yourself, man. You've got to stop exerting your energy trying to keep up with how shes exerting hers. The more time you waste on her, focused on her, is less time you have to focus on better, less toxic, prospects. Ignorance will be your bliss. Life is too short, if you were to die tomorrow and could look back after the big game over, would you be happy you spent your last days chasing this dead end to the extent you have, with no reciprocation? I think you already know youre not satisfied with how any of this has went in reality or in your imagination.
I wish you all the best, but especially mental peace, my guy. Good luckclick to expand
I admire your patience.
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Off topic, but how have your travels been? You still moving?click to expand
Oh I didn't rly have a good time tbh and then ran out of money 😢click to expand
I hated to like the comment. That sucks! What made it not a good time? Some of the things you had said and some of the pics made me stop putting things off in the travel dept.. it really did. Did you go alone?click to expand
Yeh well I saw stuff but I just never felt like I should be doing it. I don't know what that means. Like, it just didn't feel inspiring or an adventure. Kind of sad
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That sucks, man. Were you stressed most of the trip, or just underwhelmed by the whole experience in general?
Ok, so i think im understanding - she has you blocked on everything, yet when you post something she posts something youre seeing as related to what you posted, tgat she would have to have viewed your account to see? Is that the gist?
That is the gist, yes.
And it extends to me Grindr account and personal phone number. Like literally I just opened your profile and got a text from some number. A random number, and it referenced my Instagram and Substack.
So the evidence is strong for why I belive this.
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Ok. But shes not directly interacting with you? When is the last time she had deliberate and direct contact with you? Not things that appear to be correlated to what youve posted, but could possibly be coincidental. I get how thay could drive you nuts. But are you doing this to yourself by even checking what she posts or does? Like who gives a shit? She took you to court. Has she led you on by directly telling you things, then going back on it? Some of these chicks just like attention . She may very well be checking your shit for validation that she still has your attention. Do you post things that would signal you seen her "response" to your post? Bro, why you even want this bitch?click to expand
The last I saw her was in court in 2022. Before that, the last direct communication was in 2014.
Everything else has been this online stuff I mentioned, but it has escalated into Grindr now direct text messages to my phone.
So yes, much of it is attributable to me checking her social media. But her posts are so relevant, and come off as responses or messages.
I don't trust her. I'm in a fit where I've built so much of my life into her, that cutting her off feels like I might die or something.
I don't want her. She betrayed me; she's ugly; her life frankly sucks with this guy, in my opinion.
But I put up with a lot and invested so much.
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So, its been 12 years since she has directly spoken to you? Other than in court. What are the messages in GRINDER saying? Those are direct to you? You say youve invested so much, like what have you invested other tahn time and 1 sided emotionalenergy? What has she invested in return?
To me it sounds like she, in a twisted way, just enjoys the attention youre giving her, and the control she has over you. Its crazy, but nowadays these girls are just attention whores. Like literal attention whores. Thats it. . Not all, but so many, and it seems like every day they just multiply.
Regarless man, if shes not reciprocating any of your positive efforts, shes not worth any more of your time. Your time on this spinning rock is finite, dont waste it being fucked with by anyone, especially when you know youre being fucked with. You can invest everything you want to give, into someone who appreciates it, and gives back.click to expand
You're right.
The messages on Grindr (how it's spelled on my phone) are basic, but it's the profile pictures which resonate. I mean on a couple occasions they were basically her name and a reference to posts she or I made on social media.
The direct text messages to my phone are similar.
I don't want to invest any more in her. I went through this previously, like I said, and a lot of it is just building habits and associations in my brain with her.
I was just in doubt because she moved in with this guy a while ago, but it was part of her moving abroad, and you need working permits or whatever residence permit you need to work and live there.
So I figured, "o.k., it saves money to live with this guy, and it doesn't do to walk around solo everywhere." And all the social media and stuff I mentioned eased me into finding out she was moving abroad, so I didn't feel betrayed. Just hurt at first, and I still am because she is living with this guy.
But the promise was that she wouldn't ride on his motorcycle or be in any way in an emotional boyfriend-girlfriend, dating type of relationship.
And she made this promise after she was on the motorcycle, which is why it's so pointed that I would see it on Instagram now: the guy is on a bike and her head is behind him in a motorcycle helmet, and then it's a reel, so it cuts to someone sitting on the bike behind him filming. And it's a group biking 200 miles or something. So even if its not a full body image of her on the bike, it's still pretty obvious what's happening.
If she is truly the one behind all the Grindr accounts and stuff, then she has invested a lot: making them all and timing the messages and profile visits. I don't even doubt that she could shove this guy off a cliff for all she cares. It's just the betrayal, which opens up a whole lot of other things I have been putting off: like they could be a romantic partnership doing the deed and making out all day.
She just looks like this whole living abroad thing is rough on her. And that's a relief as far as it shows she could just be doing this until she gets her paperwork straight.
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Man, for your own sake, and mental sanity, you have got to stop looking at any of her social media, and especially assigning any meaning to anything you see of her's, or making excuses for behavior that if she is doing it to twist a knife in you, explains it away. Youre living all in your head and not in reality. I get that you can see relationships in your posts and her posts, and if thats the reality of what shes doing, that's cruel and you dont want that, but if its all coincidence youre keeping yourself stuck. Neither scenariois healthyfor you. I think you know all this already, though. What is there to trust? She took you to court for stalking. If shes actually keeping tabs on you to make posts to egg you on, or sending messages to you indirectly, shes cruel. There's nothing here for you to put your trust into.
Youre holding the keys to your own prison cell, free yourself, man. You've got to stop exerting your energy trying to keep up with how shes exerting hers. The more time you waste on her, focused on her, is less time you have to focus on better, less toxic, prospects. Ignorance will be your bliss. Life is too short, if you were to die tomorrow and could look back after the big game over, would you be happy you spent your last days chasing this dead end to the extent you have, with no reciprocation? I think you already know youre not satisfied with how any of this has went in reality or in your imagination.
I wish you all the best, but especially mental peace, my guy. Good luckclick to expand
I admire your patience.
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Off topic, but how have your travels been? You still moving?click to expand
Oh I didn't rly have a good time tbh and then ran out of money 😢click to expand
I hated to like the comment. That sucks! What made it not a good time? Some of the things you had said and some of the pics made me stop putting things off in the travel dept.. it really did. Did you go alone?click to expand
Yeh well I saw stuff but I just never felt like I should be doing it. I don't know what that means. Like, it just didn't feel inspiring or an adventure. Kind of sad
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That sucks, man. Were you stressed most of the trip, or just underwhelmed by the whole experience in general?
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Yeh underwhelmed. It's a bit stressful always thinking where to stay and so on but then when I had an apartment for a month I got super bored. Dunno lol. Maybe I was caught in the middle because I wasn't a rich tourist staying in luxury hotels and going on hot air balloon rides but I also wasn't a young backpacker staying in hostels and partying every night. I did some sightseeing, some trekking, snorkeling, surfing, ate a lot of different food etc. It just wasn't exciting to me. I did like some stuff. I guess it's an identity problem
@Wizardzzz, I get that. So you stayed in 1 place for longer periods of time before moving to the next? I couldnt do that either, that would bore me also. I enjoy living like a vagabond. My goal, after I knockout all the other traveling I want to to, is sell everything I have, buy a decent size boat, and move around the coasts over everywhere lol. Like as soon as people outside of whomever is on the boat with, start to learn my name, im onto the next. Obviously when the reality of all the work involved in sailing creeps in, stress starts to push out the idealized version.. but still worth it lol. Its probably a mental illness, but ah, nobody's perfect 😆.
Just out of curiosity, because i know youre a gambler, and play poker at a high level, are you usually harder to impress? Like do you repress some excitement when you start to get excited about something?
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@Wizardzzz, I get that. So you stayed in 1 place for longer periods of time before moving to the next? I couldnt do that either, that would bore me also. I enjoy living like a vagabond. My goal, after I knockout all the other traveling I want to to, is sell everything I have, buy a decent size boat, and move around the coasts over everywhere lol. Like as soon as people outside of whomever is on the boat with, start to learn my name, im onto the next. Obviously when the reality of all the work involved in sailing creeps in, stress starts to push out the idealized version.. but still worth it lol. Its probably a mental illness, but ah, nobody's perfect 😆.Just out of curiosity, because i know youre a gambler, and play poker at a high level, are you usually harder to impress? Like do you repress some excitement when you start to get excited about something?
I stayed longer some places and other times moved around a lot. Idk it just didn't give me the feeling I wanted. Felt flat.
Umm from poker I sometimes used to win a lot of money in a very short space of time. Rather than steadily earning it like sometimes Id win 5 figures in a few hours. And money won is more fun than money earnt lol. You just wanna spend it. Equally dropping a few thousand in a day wasn't a big deal. It's not that I was rich it's just you kinda get used to it like that. I don't rly care about money in the way most people do. Win and lose it's just volatile I guess. But then I've been broke at least as often as having money to blow. I guess that's the problem, there's no regulation. Yeh I don't get excited about poker no more
The boat idea sounds good. Idk yeh part of me would like that . As long as I m not bored 🤣
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@Wizardzzz, I get that. So you stayed in 1 place for longer periods of time before moving to the next? I couldnt do that either, that would bore me also. I enjoy living like a vagabond. My goal, after I knockout all the other traveling I want to to, is sell everything I have, buy a decent size boat, and move around the coasts over everywhere lol. Like as soon as people outside of whomever is on the boat with, start to learn my name, im onto the next. Obviously when the reality of all the work involved in sailing creeps in, stress starts to push out the idealized version.. but still worth it lol. Its probably a mental illness, but ah, nobody's perfect 😆.Just out of curiosity, because i know youre a gambler, and play poker at a high level, are you usually harder to impress? Like do you repress some excitement when you start to get excited about something?
I stayed longer some places and other times moved around a lot. Idk it just didn't give me the feeling I wanted. Felt flat.
Umm from poker I sometimes used to win a lot of money in a very short space of time. Rather than steadily earning it like sometimes Id win 5 figures in a few hours. And money won is more fun than money earnt lol. You just wanna spend it. Equally dropping a few thousand in a day wasn't a big deal. It's not that I was rich it's just you kinda get used to it like that. I don't rly care about money in the way most people do. Win and lose it's just volatile I guess. But then I've been broke at least as often as having money to blow. I guess that's the problem, there's no regulation. Yeh I don't get excited about poker no more
The boat idea sounds good. Idk yeh part of me would like that . As long as I m not bored 🤣
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I think I get you. You enjoyed that high and low of winning big, having a good time, then back to reality, right?
I didnt want to say anything because I didnt want to be that guy talking about having a great time when you said your trip wasnt what you hoped for.. but, what you just said, winning big and blowing it.. thats been me all year long.. and i think im ruined 😆. Bro, I dropped more money on tattoos this year alone than most most people make In a year. 6 figures on just trips. Cars, motorcycles. Blew every single dime.of my savings. Actually in the red a little. At first I was kinda stressed, but ive been back at the grind for less than a week and its looking good again. So now my brain is going overtime spending the money before its even replenished...thats dangerous 😳.
Like you said, it comes and goes so easily. Seems like when you stress over it, it stays just out of reach, but when you say fuck it let's have a good time, shit just works out most of the time. Oh, ive been broke. Filed bankruptcy. Had the church dropping food off on my porch. I know where i came from. It was less fun. I aint telling you anything you dont already know. Money is a tool. You can spend your entire life saving money, squirreling it away, investing in whatever your little heart desires, hoping one day youll have enough to live one when you retire.. my luck, id die the day i was able to retire and my family would get it and blow it all in the good time i wanted to have while I was alive.. nay, im here for a good time, not for a long time.
What country are you from, anyway?
Posted by Flitzpiepe
@Wizardzzz, I get that. So you stayed in 1 place for longer periods of time before moving to the next? I couldnt do that either, that would bore me also. I enjoy living like a vagabond. My goal, after I knockout all the other traveling I want to to, is sell everything I have, buy a decent size boat, and move around the coasts over everywhere lol. Like as soon as people outside of whomever is on the boat with, start to learn my name, im onto the next. Obviously when the reality of all the work involved in sailing creeps in, stress starts to push out the idealized version.. but still worth it lol. Its probably a mental illness, but ah, nobody's perfect 😆.Just out of curiosity, because i know youre a gambler, and play poker at a high level, are you usually harder to impress? Like do you repress some excitement when you start to get excited about something?
I stayed longer some places and other times moved around a lot. Idk it just didn't give me the feeling I wanted. Felt flat.
Umm from poker I sometimes used to win a lot of money in a very short space of time. Rather than steadily earning it like sometimes Id win 5 figures in a few hours. And money won is more fun than money earnt lol. You just wanna spend it. Equally dropping a few thousand in a day wasn't a big deal. It's not that I was rich it's just you kinda get used to it like that. I don't rly care about money in the way most people do. Win and lose it's just volatile I guess. But then I've been broke at least as often as having money to blow. I guess that's the problem, there's no regulation. Yeh I don't get excited about poker no more
The boat idea sounds good. Idk yeh part of me would like that . As long as I m not bored 🤣click to expand
I think I get you. You enjoyed that high and low of winning big, having a good time, then back to reality, right?
I didnt want to say anything because I didnt want to be that guy talking about having a great time when you said your trip wasnt what you hoped for.. but, what you just said, winning big and blowing it.. thats been me all year long.. and i think im ruined 😆. Bro, I dropped more money on tattoos this year alone than most most people make In a year. 6 figures on just trips. Cars, motorcycles. Blew every single dime.of my savings. Actually in the red a little. At first I was kinda stressed, but ive been back at the grind for less than a week and its looking good again. So now my brain is going overtime spending the money before its even replenished...thats dangerous 😳.
Like you said, it comes and goes so easily. Seems like when you stress over it, it stays just out of reach, but when you say fuck it let's have a good time, shit just works out most of the time. Oh, ive been broke. Filed bankruptcy. Had the church dropping food off on my porch. I know where i came from. It was less fun. I aint telling you anything you dont already know. Money is a tool. You can spend your entire life saving money, squirreling it away, investing in whatever your little heart desires, hoping one day youll have enough to live one when you retire.. my luck, id die the day i was able to retire and my family would get it and blow it all in the good time i wanted to have while I was alive.. nay, im here for a good time, not for a long time.
What country are you from, anyway?
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Well I do wish Id saved it and invested in a business because I was an online tournament grinder. I'd play like 1000 tournaments a month and sometimes Id lose for 2 or 3 months and be like shitttt and then I d go on a big upswing and have money again but after some years I was getting tired of it and I should have had an exit plan. Especially since the game has changed now. Idk if I can do it again lol. I thought of travelling around different casinos and making money like that. Live poker players are pretty bad compared to online.
Sounds like you had a good time tho. How do u make money? I'm from England, stuck here again 🙄
Posted by Flitzpiepe
@Wizardzzz, I get that. So you stayed in 1 place for longer periods of time before moving to the next? I couldnt do that either, that would bore me also. I enjoy living like a vagabond. My goal, after I knockout all the other traveling I want to to, is sell everything I have, buy a decent size boat, and move around the coasts over everywhere lol. Like as soon as people outside of whomever is on the boat with, start to learn my name, im onto the next. Obviously when the reality of all the work involved in sailing creeps in, stress starts to push out the idealized version.. but still worth it lol. Its probably a mental illness, but ah, nobody's perfect 😆.Just out of curiosity, because i know youre a gambler, and play poker at a high level, are you usually harder to impress? Like do you repress some excitement when you start to get excited about something?
I stayed longer some places and other times moved around a lot. Idk it just didn't give me the feeling I wanted. Felt flat.
Umm from poker I sometimes used to win a lot of money in a very short space of time. Rather than steadily earning it like sometimes Id win 5 figures in a few hours. And money won is more fun than money earnt lol. You just wanna spend it. Equally dropping a few thousand in a day wasn't a big deal. It's not that I was rich it's just you kinda get used to it like that. I don't rly care about money in the way most people do. Win and lose it's just volatile I guess. But then I've been broke at least as often as having money to blow. I guess that's the problem, there's no regulation. Yeh I don't get excited about poker no more
The boat idea sounds good. Idk yeh part of me would like that . As long as I m not bored 🤣click to expand
I think I get you. You enjoyed that high and low of winning big, having a good time, then back to reality, right?
I didnt want to say anything because I didnt want to be that guy talking about having a great time when you said your trip wasnt what you hoped for.. but, what you just said, winning big and blowing it.. thats been me all year long.. and i think im ruined 😆. Bro, I dropped more money on tattoos this year alone than most most people make In a year. 6 figures on just trips. Cars, motorcycles. Blew every single dime.of my savings. Actually in the red a little. At first I was kinda stressed, but ive been back at the grind for less than a week and its looking good again. So now my brain is going overtime spending the money before its even replenished...thats dangerous 😳.
Like you said, it comes and goes so easily. Seems like when you stress over it, it stays just out of reach, but when you say fuck it let's have a good time, shit just works out most of the time. Oh, ive been broke. Filed bankruptcy. Had the church dropping food off on my porch. I know where i came from. It was less fun. I aint telling you anything you dont already know. Money is a tool. You can spend your entire life saving money, squirreling it away, investing in whatever your little heart desires, hoping one day youll have enough to live one when you retire.. my luck, id die the day i was able to retire and my family would get it and blow it all in the good time i wanted to have while I was alive.. nay, im here for a good time, not for a long time.
What country are you from, anyway?click to expand
Well I do wish Id saved it and invested in a business because I was an online tournament grinder. I'd play like 1000 tournaments a month and sometimes Id lose for 2 or 3 months and be like shitttt and then I d go on a big upswing and have money again but after some years I was getting tired of it and I should have had an exit plan. Especially since the game has changed now. Idk if I can do it again lol. I thought of travelling around different casinos and making money like that. Live poker players are pretty bad compared to online.
Sounds like you had a good time tho. How do u make money? I'm from England, stuck here again 🙄
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I didnt see the notification for this, my bad
I have a question for ya! Out of everywhere youve been, what has been your favorite, and why?
Did I read that you have never actually spoken to her?
Yes, that is correct. She spoke to me once, but I was too shy.
She posted on Facebook that she was having an art show, an exhibit in a small town square.
I went, and was so nervous. I wore a bright royal blue polo-type shirt, True Religion jeans, and a reddish/orange and spring-mud Brown North Face zip-up.
We were friends on Facebook.
I saw her, from afar. I was so nervous.
I saw her dad—a celebrity in my eyes, and her sister. Two Hollywood celebrities on People Magazine's cover, as far as I was concerned.
I reached for a business card in the little card holder, and the wind blew over an art. I was petrified. The sister noticed, because the art was near my hand and the business cards.
She fixed the art, so I wouldn't be blamed. It was the nicest thing anyone did for me in a while, and I had a super crush on the sister for a while.
The Taurus was talkinh to someone: locked in.
Keep in mind, I had bright red fake Oakleys on, with dark lenses.
She turned to talk to me.
I was looking away, but I don't remember if my face was pointed at her.
She said something about a dog, which the person she was just speaking to had. I only knew it was directed at me by the tone of her voice and my sense of sound.
I walked away.
Later she posted a sexy photo of her legs on Facebook, which she never does, mentioning something about a free pin which I didn't take. (I took a business card!)
Next I saw her dad in court, years after this happened...
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lol
taurus don't do subliminal messages buddy boyo
Posted by Flitzpiepe
@Wizardzzz, I get that. So you stayed in 1 place for longer periods of time before moving to the next? I couldnt do that either, that would bore me also. I enjoy living like a vagabond. My goal, after I knockout all the other traveling I want to to, is sell everything I have, buy a decent size boat, and move around the coasts over everywhere lol. Like as soon as people outside of whomever is on the boat with, start to learn my name, im onto the next. Obviously when the reality of all the work involved in sailing creeps in, stress starts to push out the idealized version.. but still worth it lol. Its probably a mental illness, but ah, nobody's perfect 😆.Just out of curiosity, because i know youre a gambler, and play poker at a high level, are you usually harder to impress? Like do you repress some excitement when you start to get excited about something?
I stayed longer some places and other times moved around a lot. Idk it just didn't give me the feeling I wanted. Felt flat.
Umm from poker I sometimes used to win a lot of money in a very short space of time. Rather than steadily earning it like sometimes Id win 5 figures in a few hours. And money won is more fun than money earnt lol. You just wanna spend it. Equally dropping a few thousand in a day wasn't a big deal. It's not that I was rich it's just you kinda get used to it like that. I don't rly care about money in the way most people do. Win and lose it's just volatile I guess. But then I've been broke at least as often as having money to blow. I guess that's the problem, there's no regulation. Yeh I don't get excited about poker no more
The boat idea sounds good. Idk yeh part of me would like that . As long as I m not bored 🤣click to expand
I think I get you. You enjoyed that high and low of winning big, having a good time, then back to reality, right?
I didnt want to say anything because I didnt want to be that guy talking about having a great time when you said your trip wasnt what you hoped for.. but, what you just said, winning big and blowing it.. thats been me all year long.. and i think im ruined 😆. Bro, I dropped more money on tattoos this year alone than most most people make In a year. 6 figures on just trips. Cars, motorcycles. Blew every single dime.of my savings. Actually in the red a little. At first I was kinda stressed, but ive been back at the grind for less than a week and its looking good again. So now my brain is going overtime spending the money before its even replenished...thats dangerous 😳.
Like you said, it comes and goes so easily. Seems like when you stress over it, it stays just out of reach, but when you say fuck it let's have a good time, shit just works out most of the time. Oh, ive been broke. Filed bankruptcy. Had the church dropping food off on my porch. I know where i came from. It was less fun. I aint telling you anything you dont already know. Money is a tool. You can spend your entire life saving money, squirreling it away, investing in whatever your little heart desires, hoping one day youll have enough to live one when you retire.. my luck, id die the day i was able to retire and my family would get it and blow it all in the good time i wanted to have while I was alive.. nay, im here for a good time, not for a long time.
What country are you from, anyway?click to expand
Well I do wish Id saved it and invested in a business because I was an online tournament grinder. I'd play like 1000 tournaments a month and sometimes Id lose for 2 or 3 months and be like shitttt and then I d go on a big upswing and have money again but after some years I was getting tired of it and I should have had an exit plan. Especially since the game has changed now. Idk if I can do it again lol. I thought of travelling around different casinos and making money like that. Live poker players are pretty bad compared to online.
Sounds like you had a good time tho. How do u make money? I'm from England, stuck here again 🙄click to expand
I didnt see the notification for this, my bad
I have a question for ya! Out of everywhere youve been, what has been your favorite, and why?
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NZ for a year was my favourite cos I had a job at surftown and then at a ski town and it was chill there like easy life and fun
Posted by Flitzpiepe
@Wizardzzz, I get that. So you stayed in 1 place for longer periods of time before moving to the next? I couldnt do that either, that would bore me also. I enjoy living like a vagabond. My goal, after I knockout all the other traveling I want to to, is sell everything I have, buy a decent size boat, and move around the coasts over everywhere lol. Like as soon as people outside of whomever is on the boat with, start to learn my name, im onto the next. Obviously when the reality of all the work involved in sailing creeps in, stress starts to push out the idealized version.. but still worth it lol. Its probably a mental illness, but ah, nobody's perfect 😆.Just out of curiosity, because i know youre a gambler, and play poker at a high level, are you usually harder to impress? Like do you repress some excitement when you start to get excited about something?
I stayed longer some places and other times moved around a lot. Idk it just didn't give me the feeling I wanted. Felt flat.
Umm from poker I sometimes used to win a lot of money in a very short space of time. Rather than steadily earning it like sometimes Id win 5 figures in a few hours. And money won is more fun than money earnt lol. You just wanna spend it. Equally dropping a few thousand in a day wasn't a big deal. It's not that I was rich it's just you kinda get used to it like that. I don't rly care about money in the way most people do. Win and lose it's just volatile I guess. But then I've been broke at least as often as having money to blow. I guess that's the problem, there's no regulation. Yeh I don't get excited about poker no more
The boat idea sounds good. Idk yeh part of me would like that . As long as I m not bored 🤣click to expand
I think I get you. You enjoyed that high and low of winning big, having a good time, then back to reality, right?
I didnt want to say anything because I didnt want to be that guy talking about having a great time when you said your trip wasnt what you hoped for.. but, what you just said, winning big and blowing it.. thats been me all year long.. and i think im ruined 😆. Bro, I dropped more money on tattoos this year alone than most most people make In a year. 6 figures on just trips. Cars, motorcycles. Blew every single dime.of my savings. Actually in the red a little. At first I was kinda stressed, but ive been back at the grind for less than a week and its looking good again. So now my brain is going overtime spending the money before its even replenished...thats dangerous 😳.
Like you said, it comes and goes so easily. Seems like when you stress over it, it stays just out of reach, but when you say fuck it let's have a good time, shit just works out most of the time. Oh, ive been broke. Filed bankruptcy. Had the church dropping food off on my porch. I know where i came from. It was less fun. I aint telling you anything you dont already know. Money is a tool. You can spend your entire life saving money, squirreling it away, investing in whatever your little heart desires, hoping one day youll have enough to live one when you retire.. my luck, id die the day i was able to retire and my family would get it and blow it all in the good time i wanted to have while I was alive.. nay, im here for a good time, not for a long time.
What country are you from, anyway?click to expand
Well I do wish Id saved it and invested in a business because I was an online tournament grinder. I'd play like 1000 tournaments a month and sometimes Id lose for 2 or 3 months and be like shitttt and then I d go on a big upswing and have money again but after some years I was getting tired of it and I should have had an exit plan. Especially since the game has changed now. Idk if I can do it again lol. I thought of travelling around different casinos and making money like that. Live poker players are pretty bad compared to online.
Sounds like you had a good time tho. How do u make money? I'm from England, stuck here again 🙄click to expand
I didnt see the notification for this, my bad
I have a question for ya! Out of everywhere youve been, what has been your favorite, and why?click to expand
NZ for a year was my favourite cos I had a job at surftown and then at a ski town and it was chill there like easy life and fun
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Ah, sweet! Do you surf or ski? So that's a good place to ski and surf? Didn't realize that.
I think thats where @walk-on-by is from.
This sucks.
That video of her on the bike? Well, the guy who posted it got married, and all these stories on Instagram showed it.
She's there of course; the guy she's with is friends with the married couple.
Her outfit is casual, like she got invited, cool, but she's been to weddings before.
She's with the guy, but nothing I could use as evidence; like it's doubtful.
It's hard. It was kind of random that I would check the groom's instagram, and that all these stories expire in about 12 hours. I could've missed them and maybe missed some already.
Still no word on if she knows I exist.
Bruh
I like your style , you're a refeshing type of crazy, but don't interact with real people, maybe you should use an AI to roleplay as your secret CIA girlfriend. But this one already sent you in court, that's not a sign she's secretely interested in you.
Taurus women can't do subtlety, or secret messages, if she was interested she'd pounce on you with the grace of a hippopotamus.
Also: I know you're gay and doing hookups on grinder, probably don't even like women. Stop harassing random women
Yes i am looking on grindr...
according to instagram, two years ago she was looking for a house in a small city—could be anything
The thing is, the guy she's living with has a job in a different major city, and it might fixed because his industry is in that city
He could be super rich and afford two homes for all i know.
but they still live in their major city together as of this past july or so.
she recently asked if "we" could sign up for a car-based marathon that takes place in March. "We" apparently means her and the guy...I don't know who else she would be registering with.
Maybe she's leaving these little things for me to find on social media: she could've just called or checked the marathon web site.
I also followed her sister on Spotify, and then when I checked the Taurus' account, I was blocked. But when I checked a minute later, I was unblocked.
(Another Taurus woman who i follow on instagram did the same thing yesterday—blocked then unblocked me.)
So as Minotaur or someone says, this is the labyrinth. I can't find my way out (mwahahaha ☺️)
I would appreciate RollerGirlOrc's or another female Taurus' perspective, or if you're watching, Taurus, if you can be like Pisco and tell me your side of the story.
I did the math–she was on the bike for 400 miles or kilometers or so.
I should add for clarity: she works remotely, so she is not tied to any one city per se. That's why house shopping is important: the guy is tied to one city more or less, because he is so into his industry.
She has also lived in the country for two years now, or it will be two years in November or something. As i understand the paperwork, this means she can bring her spouse over, who will have all the same rights as her longer-stay permit.
So the fact that her and i are not legally married, and that she is plotting a marathon in March with someone who isn't me and is probably the guy she's living with, bodes ill for me.
Basically the whole "living with a guy while I get my paperwork in order" has reached its end, and she has nkt reached out to me or anything.
I might as well quote her new social media post:
"This fall I will not be available for lessons on Saturday because… we bought a house!! 🎉🏡 it will be many weekends of hard work to build our home but we are so excited!
Also… we are training for a half marathon!! 🎉🏃♀️
As you can imagine both of these things take a lot of time and energy! I want to thank everyone for the support and patience with this small change in my availability this fall and winter. I appreciate every one of you!!
See you in our next lesson!"
So yeah,
and she posted a picture of herself st the Olympics, on this same profile, and it was the only picture i saw of her there (you may remember me mentioning the olympics in a previous thread).
How could I possibly be tuned to this stuff? Literally I posted about the house and marathon a few hours ago...
It's not even that she's married to this guy or whatever or buying a house with him—i really don't care when women do that, or when she was dating guys in the past.
How could I possibly be complaining about all the stuff, I've been posting, as if she were communicating to me directly, as if we were in it together—and there's more i didn't even mention yet.
How is this a Taurus thing? Like can anyone specifically a Taurus PLEASE explain this to me?
I think I've proved that all these texts and Grindr and other stuff were happening, and now this, AFTER i just posted about the house and MARATHON?
Why would a Taurus do this? Clearly she has been leading me on, so why would a Taurus do this? Like I've invested so much, and here she is doing this, and idk please someone explain, ANDS please!!!!!!!!
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As you know, I've been on this rollercoaster ride concerning a Taurus woman.
Long story short, we've had this awareness of each other, and through various mediums I believe she was communicating with me, but I've also been disgnosed with schizophrenia.
One of the promises she made, under these conditions, was that she would never, even in the direst of emergencies, ride on a motorcycle with the guy she's with. If she were to do so, I should consider it a betrayal and a rejection of my love for her and that we never will nor ever had anything between us.
Well, there's a video of her on Instagram riding on a motorcycle with him, on the back too.
I just found out. The timing is deliberate, because the video was posted after she made the promise.
Also they were in a romantic photograph together recently, and previously their photos were platonic. At least, even if they were in intimate situations, their looks came off as platonic. Now it's romantic, intimate, and I could dare say...
I have nowhere else to turn.
The guy might be a Gemini Rooster, because he said he's a Rooster, and an old photograph on social media indicates his birthday might be Gemini.