Incompatible with life

It's about that time again where I start spiralling and now is around that time.

I fucking hate life, why am I who I am? Why does it have to be like this? I've spent all afternoon watching plastic surgery videos on YouTube wondering how the fuck people afford one procedure let alone multiple.

I think what sent me over the edge was I saw the perfect shoe and there's a weekend sale online and they've been reduced fuck loads and they don't come in size 13au, honestly what's the ducking point of living if I can't wear nice shoes or even clothes for that ducking matter. I went shopping the other day because I got a good pay check and I spent hundreds on everything BUT clothes in my stupid local mall! The only place I can go shopping for decent quality clothes at a good price is the opshop, sure I wear one of a kind shirts and occasionally I find silk but I look like a rich ducking grandpa and I'm not ready to go down my midlife crisis path quite yet. Not to mention in my town op shops don't give you a bag to put your clothes in they just ball it up and bobs your uncle, I want a shopping experience like in America, like in clueless or pretty woman where I've got bags hanging from my arms, why the duck can't I have nice things?!? I went to the uptown clothes store with all the cool people clothes that I know don't fit me and I'm looking for my size, nothing close to.....I asked her if they make much money and I told her there's more guys that are my size and that not very many guys are skinny twigs and the bitch had the nerve to tell me "we don't want everyone wearing our clothes, only the select group" I just didn't know what to say, I really wanted to burn her shitty shop down with her inside but like every other situation I find myself in I just let it pass.

I just feel like I'm not meant to be here, I look on YouTube videos places like Argentina have big size clothes mainly for women. Either way I'm sure I'd find something to wear, at this rate I'd rather wear a burqa

Why censor yourself? You won't offend anybody for saying fuck.

Only thing I can say is find whatever brand it is and look it up online to see if you can order it.

Don't let material things define you. Some day you will realize that shopping and clothes mean absolutely nothing in the grand scheme of things.

For now, take that obstacle and turn it into an opportunity. Do some research and find a company online that sells things that you like in your size. Consider being a supplier for your area. Start an online store or drop ship business.

Yes I think I might be a supplier!