gonna finish my coffee and then head out. was thinking earlier how amazing it is to be typing, hell, at 4 o'clock in the morning to ppl who are on the other side of our beloved mother earth. we didn't have anything like this when i was the age of many if not most of the folks on here.
not to be verbose, however, please look into the herb, "holy basil". it's reported to help with stress. i have the product put out by NEWCHAPTER. "supports growth and enlightenment"!!
"happy trails, till we meet again..." (gotta love roy and dale!!)
How do i find the answers? It seems so irrational and i am aware of it, yet still i hang on, dream & desire. It is you i desire ... ours souls are connected, our thoughts are in sync ... to feel the warmth of your body ... to embrace the depth in your eyes ... we are one, now and forever
dont push me for being this way. you must know... it is in my heart. there it will always be. these thoughts that may be so well arranged displayed may also just run through and out of my mind onto the page scarcely thought of twice. what matters... lives in my heart always you know it when i extend my soul and reach out you know that moment listen for those moments be sound and fixed with an open window fresh air, love let those moments in lest you forget leave lace to novelty and all that will perish or those moments will sail right through you leave barriers to the enemies or they sail right passed you and i watch myself not understood nor reverently captured the things i do... dont ever forget for... me... all for you
Sometimes I forget to put myself under this kind of examination. It's easy to look at anyone you know well and consider their upbringing and how it's added up to the person they now are. But then to remember that perspective of yourself... as deeply as we can possibly know it of ourselves... I really do forget. And it's no wonder why I forget... that's what it's all about... letting go... release... nearly synonymous with 'forget'. Then comes the new... in some ways, replacement... change. transition... wave goodbye, turn around and turn it into a wave 'hello'.
I do remember though... I know too well what great distance can kill... I do what i can... I miss everyone already.
...just not by me anymore. cut roses have long wilted. rose lenses have long faded and i see you for what you are ...what you do. i dont want people who need me to be strong for them and cant return the favor when i need to lean myself
until you can be strong for me ... leave me the hell alone and dont ever try me.
the past few nights' sleep have been filled with nightmares. can't remember much.. physically i am feeling weak and tired. yeah, i know to write these things down when i wake up, but i didn't. only 2 things i remember. one from the end of the 2nd dream, someone maybe me yelling "it's the end times".. and in the last dream, this past night, a big spider, which i caught and let go outdoors.i woke up wondering if i should have done things differently..and tried to communicate with the spider. could it have had a message for me... i don't know..
sitting here, i'm remembering from the bullwinker cartoon, "is it a friendly spirit?" as in, "was it a friendly spider?" yeah, i felt it was, friendly...
a month or 2 ago, an electrical short (in the building) caused my son's computer to fry! in it he had all of his business stuff! all the accounts due, taxes, business proposals..... when he took the computer to the computer doctor, the computer doctor laughed because the whole thing had totally fried inside! said he'd never seen anything like it!
archer, all the different stones are a facinating study! i think it's all about intent when working with them.. from what i remember green aventurine is a good luck stone. i do like the green stones alot. and yeah there are alot of stones suggested for the different astro signs, and that's cool. i love to investigate the lore behind the stones and go from there. on another thread i recommended Melody's, LOVE IS IN THE EARTH. it's an incredible book, and i refer to it often! bet you'd love it too!
as far as specifically for sag and cap, well, i think it depends on what resonates with you. what stones do you like?
archer, your colors of choice are very interesting to me. especially yellow. wow, how wonderful is that! ...the lovely yellows, citrine, topaz, amber, yellow jade, and golden beryl! these are so beautiful. yellow is associated with the solar plexus. (refering to Healing with Crystals andnGemstones, by Chocron)"Yellow is the symbol of mind, intellect, high intelligence, wisdom, the mental plane.it is a positive, magnetic vibration that has a tonic effect on the nerves." on a personal note,the first time i was ever able to envision a color while praticing meditation, was with yellow!
blue? well, it's associated with the throat center (5th chakra) communication and the spoken word. it's not a warming color, it's cooling. and said to help with blockages or irritations of the throat and speaking our truth. and you are right it is associated with sag, "signifies high idealism and noble aspirations".( ( info from previously mentioned book)
in regards to meditation, i try the quiet mind techniques, but have found dance and movement as a form of meditation better for me.
They say writing helps so here i am trying again and again to help myself.
All my faith is on the toss.Tried to hold it tight but reality isnt letting me do so.I dont hate but i dont love either.I love nothing today can see no magic can not feel it.Absence of faith,love and magic makes the world ugly.May be this is just a transition phase. Seems this place has nothing more to offer.My desire to wander has come back to me.Slowly i am getting detached..well thats a nice thing.I need no attachements today.They try to hold you,stop you from searching your true destiny.And i need to search.But what am i searching for.Am i searching for something that exist or its just in my mind.Well does really peace of mind exist.Is their anything in this world that would make me feel at ease.Does my ideal world exist and ideal people exist.I need to have faith to belive that they do but i said i dont have any faith. Is it all about seening the beauty in every thing or just apperciating what i consider to be beautiful.But how can i even appreceate lies,manipulation,hypocrisy,games,no ideals..no i cant.And if no lies no hypocrisy then zero character which isnt good either.
...describe what your ideal relationship would be for YOU?
Not so much what he or she would be like, though inevitably the answer to that might be involved with the answer to this question, but what would the two of you together be like. How i
Okay so here's the deal. you look it over and see how many of these things you have done, BUT you have to add up the money amount along the way, then post the amount that you are as the title of the bulletin such as "I'm worth 15.50" or "I'
Sometimes...you hold on because you hope. And hope is never a bad thing. But I feel like a fool, and I shouldn't feel like that. If he really cared...he'd try. And I give up. I don't mean to bombard the cap boards with my woes. But I just gave up
Have you ever felt that you have to worker harder then other people? Whether it?s on the job, in your love life, learning new tasks or in education, does it seem more difficult for then other people?
I used to be on this board in the same situation as a lot of you are in now. A lot has changed with my cap. You just have to know how to handle them and to get to know them even tho it seems as if they don't want you to get to know them. They are shy guys
The Cappy gal I've been seeing is just too much into WORK! She works 6 days a week, not because she NEEDs to, but because she WANTs to. I offered several times to come over any time she asked to help her with yard work, mowi
My Aries boss presented an email today stating that I wasn't at my post when I was suppose to be there. One of my "superior? employees sent an email to my boss stating that I was around for about an hour last week.
I want to know why capricorns are considered to be ruthless. why are they very controlling and authoritative? what , do you guys have ego problems or what?
I just got out of my BIO class and I'm in the lab working on my BIS assignments. I'm trying to work really fast but my energy level has gone down ... UGH! And the lab closes at 4:45pm, so I have less then an hour to get two courses out of the way ...
seriously, you guys are soooo bad at dealing with shit. my housemate is a cap and he is the most judgemental, depressive, misery, grudging person i know. he has the shortest temper and holds grudges for DAYS, WEEKS on end. he is rude and status seeking, a
not to be verbose, however, please look into the herb, "holy basil". it's reported to help with stress. i have the product put out by NEWCHAPTER. "supports growth and enlightenment"!!
"happy trails, till we meet again..." (gotta love roy and dale!!)