the dumping garden (Page 8)

Shine.... a ray of hope in a room full of darkness.Drops of rain in scorching heat of June.Thats what dreams are for me.Dont take my dreams away.

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I wish I was like a super genius so I would never have to study.

truth

walls closing in make me want to run to quiet and reliable places. how do i handle this...

So narrow its almost impossible to enter.Its better this way let the road be complicated.Its a different world inside safe from the outer dirt.But all i can see is dirt around.
You said it right let the like be with their alike.And you all leave and spare some place for a beautiful world.Only like allowed to enter.

muuuahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

...CreepyPants out.

😛

love can be so humiliating

i'm sometimes confused by this dxp place.

guilty. here is where there is recognition we feel we deserve and cant find elsewhere in life. there... we are just the next person.

the confusion stems from the multi-personalities...

who's who? i'm sure it helps to mix it up a bit with having more than one persona.

maybe it's a touch of paranoia on my part.. < bet that doesn't make much sense.

like sometimes i wonder if many here are one person. but that's cool if ppl have fun with it. it just kinda throws me off a little...

why does it say on my previous post, "Hide this message"?

and now on most recent post?

somebody explain !

jd,are you OK? what can't you believe?

30 pages...

whoa!

keeping these thoughts and feelings safely in my heart.

I have no clue as to what im gonna say...

or say to what I should say....

SEE!...this is hard!

LOL!

...it's quite freeing. 😉

focus on fear will only help us fail.
holding onto what we do know... what we deeply are... maybe we'll get there. those are my hopes.
i just can't back down from what i want because of fear that i might not be able to have it. pain was never so easy to take.

my profile view count is at 666...

daaaaaaym boi

It seems like every time we get to hang out, I walk away just a little more amazed at how easily she gets me. It's disarming.

there is no reassurance or placation from me that will do you any good... this is all you, love. you have to be able to see it in yourself. i can only encourage you, but it's really all you.

now i'm fuckin pissed... now i know what my ex felt like at work... here, i've set aside personal plans, important plans, as a request by someone else for an appointment

so far... no call. no show.

it's simple... my foot. their ass.

glad i have their number logged... it'll be easier to ignore.

Still nothing. It baffles me, which frustrates me even more. I shrug ... what can i do, but nothing ... move forward and try not to look back... tough.

when i'm in my jeep, man i just want to drive forever.

tripod... i know just what you mean.

🙂

Placeless places that keep no identity,
Keeps no time,
And yet we keep getting older.
Searching for a face I know,
One that looks like love.
Hands so delicately looking through the rubble...
This chaos seeming so unintentional, yet
So fragile and important,
So ethereal ...my hands have separated from my heart
And minding memories of home,
Groping for a foundation,
Blindly feeling for something sound,
Some strong anchor to all these words,
These motions,
Feelings and tender things,
May kill me here,
I never give in.
I start to see myself moving and I don't know why,
Why I've always known and not now.
Did you two ever feel castings of blue light on your skin?
Times you were like a kid and didn't want to shut your eyes.
'I cant take my eyes off of?'
Every song was about '?you'
So close
Moments to savor in bottles lovingly named.
Hearts feeling the same things.
Minds thinking the same things
Spirits leaning on one another
Understanding uncharted and waiting
What do you feel when you read these words?
I never needed to stand on ceremony
Just to stand next to him that I can call mine.
That ours is his
To know
Never again alone.

Cap, according to the Mountain Astrologer, in the weekly calander (May 28-31) it does say,"Silence could be a major theme right now... The Mafia code of omerta (silence) comes to mind.." thanks to moon passing through scorpio.. couple with the blue moon on the 31st, keeping it to oursevles i guess can feel even more intense. been going through some of that myself. it sucks getting through it. rather than playing judge and jury, i pray, "heal me". it helps.

CP, your writing has alot of heart!!


we have a '95 wrangler. sharing it with my 16yr. aries daughter! as you can imagine, she is lovin it too!

bonding by jeep!

heyo thanks tripod.

I never got to drive a wrangler, but a cherokee... regardless... good tunes and open road. too bad gas has to suck so bad! i remember back when it was a buck a gallon.

the silly thing is, i say that like it was so long ago... it really wasnt. these prices have gone up 300 percent in a matter of a few yrs.

it's the insane gas prices that somewhat limit my teen's driving!(the only silver lining) she is 7 minutes from being a taurus, and very concious of her cash flow! costs about 30 $ to fill up.

my son has a cherokee, and is into the whole modifying thing! he lives out west, and the jeep stories he tells are wild!

we discovered ours has a great sound system.when i drive it i'll play the cd she's left there, and it makes me smile > listening to her music! some of her cd's are mixes from her friends, a couple from guy friends. oh yeah!

dang... i might have to look into wranglers for my next car 🙂

she's a cuspie, eh? 😛 sounds flavorful. i hope i have a good relationship like that with any future kids.

cap, i very much relate! had a reading a couple weeks ago, with a trusted psychic. among other things she said, "you really keep alot of things to yourself". just remembering now that years ago another said to me, "you only hurt yourself when you do not speak your truth".. well yeah it does sometimes hurt, but maybe silence also creates a place for "it" to work out,.. for some epiphany to occur! got one of those late last night, and it was amazingly simple to turn it(what was eating at me) around. and danm, if it isn't all about perspective!

"Are you referring to gas prices?"

well, i wasnt talkin 'bout tortillas, lol, but i hear those have gone up drastically in price too and is partly to blame for illegal immigration.

still kinda shaky from the "sleep paralysis" i experienced around 6 this AM.

even though i've heard about it,(coming back from astral traveling) and logically should have remembered and recognised it as a natural phenomenom, i lost it.

still feeling messed up and in distress, but not terrified like i was when this happened.

i have astral traveled before,(mainly when a loved one was in crisis) but i do not remember experiencing anything even close to this, ever.

with every down swing comes an upswing
...promise

haha! well, the thought appears to have made you smile... there's the attitude!
if it swings hard enough, it might end the crap day quicker right? lol

thanks sg! just checked it out > good conversation.

we had some house guests over tonight and it was a great distraction from what i was feeling. there is discussion on another board, but it's all "religious" rhetoric (at least that was my impression) and i'm not into that.

i cant wait 'til this hits 1000.
and thats only slightly sad
...because i said so.

how wonderful Aguaaqi!! thanks.

cynicism and pessimism are only half the perspective.

the whole silence thing...well today i VENTED!!!!

it was a f -u -all.

it started when they both said i could not display a certain bumper sticker

and believe you me , it didn't end there!

and damned if i didn't play the menopausal card! (go mom!!)

if you dont like me for who i am thats your problem not mine