Are all Libras the same?

So I'm a Libra.

10 10 1993 born at Ratchaburi / Thailand at 17.32 pm.

I looked at my birth chart but some gave me different results so I'm quite confused as to what is my moon, sun and etc.. I think it's because of the unusual location.

Anyhow. I've been going through a weird time in my life since I broke up with my longest relationship.

I went out with another Libra for almost 3 years. It was both serious for both of us. We were in love. I trust him like a brother and I had the best laughs with him as best friends and at the time I didn't appreciate him at all. I didn't know how good I had it until I don't have it.

To keep this short, I broke up with him because I selfishly wanted to be single and he was heartbroken. I was cruel because he had to move out of our place and so on and If I could go back I would smack myself so hard. I was so so stupid.

I jumped into a new relationship after I broke up with him and that relationship was fun but it was like a car crash. Too fast and too soon. Throughout my time in the second relationship, I missed him so I stayed in touch with my Libra love. I realized he grew up as a person and he didn't need me. I became irrelevant to his time and I don't blame him for this at all.

It's been 3 years since I broke up with him. We didn't talk much since and I had few flings now and then. Every time I'm seeing someone I would always compare back to him. He was the best to me and I messed it up. I never felt any love like his. He also moved on and had another relationship too but it didn't last for him either but I don't know why it didn't last. I doubt it's anything to do with me.

I told him how I truly feel a few times but whatever way I said it or the time I said. It just hasn't been working out. I treated him so bad I understand he'd moved on to better things.

I just feel like I will never be loved like the way he loved me. I suffered from fail relationships for years and I know it's Karma and I've accepted that. But I just miss the love I had with him. I miss him. I still love him. I would do anything to get that relationship back. I would have dreams about us now till to this date.

Recently we started talking again, I said sorry to him for being a such a creep in the past and not respecting his relationship or his needs when I confessed my feelings to him. My friends used to be close to his friends so I told him that I miss us all hanging out together and that I don't want to pretend that I don't know him and that we are strangers. He's talking to me and messaging me but it's nothing out of ordinary.

I want him back so bad. I want what I once had and I won't messed it up this time. He's the one that got away for sure for me. How can I make this work?

What do I need to do?