Factory Settings

What are your factory settings?

Like 2moon said he's a people pleaser

Have you done anything to overcome this? Like downloaded some apps into your brain?

Or resigned yourself to it?

Me, I'm disconnected.. I had a horrible childhood and it made me unable to properly connect with anyone or anything. I used to like travelling for that reason because feeling disconnected moving all the time felt normal but now I'm living in a foreign country feeling unattached to anything and it's wearing thin.

my misfortune is that i live in a very extroverted, collectivist society

like today i just wanted to have lunch by myself plus was listening to a podcast on loudspeaker (moderate volume, not loud enough to bother anyone and sat alone) but everyone else just wanted to squeeze themselves together for lunch.

like wtf don't you get enough skinship from your family at home?

just eww everyone's so desperate to belong in a tribe

but i have venus in the 11th 🤷🤷

Posted by virgoOPPP
my misfortune is that i live in a very extroverted, collectivist society


like today i just wanted to have lunch by myself plus was listening to a podcast on loudspeaker (moderate volume, not loud enough to bother anyone and sat alone) but everyone else just wanted to squeeze themselves together for lunch.


like wtf don't you get enough skinship from your family at home?


just eww everyone's so desperate to belong in a tribe


but i have venus in the 11th 🤷🤷

You're likeable but wish you weren't haha. Maybe you need to dl the resting bitch face app to discourage people of coming near you

I learned to stop pleasing others. People respect and remember you if you balance a lack of remorse with good business sense.

Today a major player tried to force a large payment from me to sort out an outstanding debt. If you don't have your cards laid out and demand things, especially when your information is incorrect, I will give you a smoking gun lesson in economics..

Back in the day I would cover my backbone and bend over backwards. No more.

2moon should probably try to remember his First Memory.

Because That (memory/& situation) is when Person gains/Becomes Conscious..& whatever That thing iS (that happened/the situation of the first memory)

= Activated him/something iNside him.

For me : Born into Russia, in a fuckin Shithole - windows barbed, fuckin Ghetto inside & outside,

& some bitch staring at me, with The most Hate ive Ever seen in some1.

Like she wanted to Kill me.

(I was maybe like 1.5 -2 y.o. idk - cant say for certain)

The moment i observed this (as my Virgo sun/conscious mind=me).

The moment i Processed what was happening.

The situation went into my lion moon

("Moon" means : your Subconscious/Inner -self).

& Instantly = that actived "Gladiator/Warrior" in me.

So i was like "Aight bet, bitch, we'll see - ill fuckin Kill you".

I.e. became Turnt up.

6 months later that bitch died (dunno why) , cos it was the 90's & mob was going crazy in Russia.



Point iS = that thing activated the "warrior" in me.

& whole Life been tryin to subdue Lion.

I.e. be woke asf & find a way out, or else go into moon (which is already infected with evilness)

& crash & burn.

Cos i dont back down from shit.

Which is a Huge problem.

So now i made it out, sort of.

Take that you will from this.

I had a mediocre childhood and was very introverted and disconnected as well. Always struggled to connect with others. After graduating university something drastically changed. I felt more in control of being able to attain what I wanted. I’m still heavily introverted but I can connect with others better. I’m often adored by others now so it’s a whole other experience (it really flatters my Leo placements, this was something I was completely lacking growing up). Definitely changed what I would consider as factory settings. I apparently come off very outgoing when in reality people severely drain me and I think I just learned to get by better socially. Maybe I naturally changed without realizing in response to how much better I’ve been treated as an adult than as an adolescent?

My answer is pretty much the same as op and everyone else's no different. I'd like to thank each and everyone of you for sparing me the time and energy writing my life.

I’m a true INFP. Frolicking through a meadow chasing butterflies. Extreme idealism followed by disappointment that nothing ever measures up to my ideals.

Posted by SassyKiwi
I had a mediocre childhood and was very introverted and disconnected as well. Always struggled to connect with others. After graduating university something drastically changed. I felt more in control of being able to attain what I wanted. I’m still heavily introverted but I can connect with others better. I’m often adored by others now so it’s a whole other experience (it really flatters my Leo placements, this was something I was completely lacking growing up). Definitely changed what I would consider as factory settings. I apparently come off very outgoing when in reality people severely drain me and I think I just learned to get by better socially. Maybe I naturally changed without realizing in response to how much better I’ve been treated as an adult than as an adolescent?

Funny thing is I'm not introverted. More extrovert than introvert. I talk to people, it just doesn't mean anything to me

When I was younger, definitely an INTJ-A. Nowadays, I'm very friendly and approachable so maybe ENTJ or ENFJ, depending on the circumstances.

For me, life is too short to remain in the shadows. Probably that's the Leo placements talking there, lol! 😁

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Posted by Wizardzzz
Me, I'm disconnected.. I had a horrible childhood and it made me unable to properly connect with anyone or anything. I used to like travelling for that reason because feeling disconnected moving all the time felt normal but now I'm living in a foreign country feeling unattached to anything and it's wearing thin.

Do you have any siblings?

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Yeh a sister but we were never companionable

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Me, I'm disconnected.. I had a horrible childhood and it made me unable to properly connect with anyone or anything. I used to like travelling for that reason because feeling disconnected moving all the time felt normal but now I'm living in a foreign country feeling unattached to anything and it's wearing thin.

Do you have any siblings?
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Yeh a sister but we were never companionsble
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She older?


I too have a sister who is 8 years older, whom doesn't feel like a sibling because of age gap. So ive always had a bit of only child syndrome, though im not.

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No she's 18 months younger but we never had a relationship worth mentioning, unless you count squabbling on car journeys. I remember 2 days when we were friendly but that's about it

Im living in my factory settings for the most part

My default is to be easily triggered by calling me ugly, fat, weird (I think only touchy stinky creeps pushing their political anger on others are weird), anything that seems objectively incorrect to me, and crying openly/expressing my emotions about it. Because my child self who was engrossed in literature was captivated with deep emotional turmoil and angst in characters, but irl that doesn't apply to women, much less mid ones. So training myself not to cry at work is the most major deviance I've made from my default, it used to be all I ever did at work lol. I cry much less in general

I used to try hard to live out my NN but not anymore sad to say. other than perfect work attendance (cap NN) it's in the 5th house so maybe the dancing fits with that.

Posted by virgoOPPP
my misfortune is that i live in a very extroverted, collectivist society


like today i just wanted to have lunch by myself plus was listening to a podcast on loudspeaker (moderate volume, not loud enough to bother anyone and sat alone) but everyone else just wanted to squeeze themselves together for lunch.


like wtf don't you get enough skinship from your family at home?


just eww everyone's so desperate to belong in a tribe


but i have venus in the 11th 🤷🤷

It's funny there are so many of those who live and breathe same-sex coworkers to the point they chatter for half an hr past clock-out time and lose track of time. Could never be me. Or anyone who hangs out on forums/boards/threads lol

It also fucks with me how they dodge trouble for all the gossiping and sex talk. It's probably my ASC square Pluto at fault but the second those cliques swindle me into that behavior, here comes HR and my psychiatrist saying "wtf, just say hi and bye, don't be an idiot, no one there wants to be friends w you". Like 🤯

I know people who make it their mission to "adopt" new coworkers by making plans w them outside of work quickly. How does anyone have the energy. It's those people who say "our company is a family" lord have mercy and then all those "friends" collect tons of blackmail on each other to keep themselves out of trouble.

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Posted by SassyKiwi
I had a mediocre childhood and was very introverted and disconnected as well. Always struggled to connect with others. After graduating university something drastically changed. I felt more in control of being able to attain what I wanted. I’m still heavily introverted but I can connect with others better. I’m often adored by others now so it’s a whole other experience (it really flatters my Leo placements, this was something I was completely lacking growing up). Definitely changed what I would consider as factory settings. I apparently come off very outgoing when in reality people severely drain me and I think I just learned to get by better socially. Maybe I naturally changed without realizing in response to how much better I’ve been treated as an adult than as an adolescent?

Funny thing is I'm not introverted. More extrovert than introvert. I talk to people, it just doesn't mean anything to me

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What about ever feeling inspired or disturbed by what others have said? Has anything anyone (even a stranger or an author) ever said or wrote that has strongly moved you spiritually, mentally and/or emotionally?

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I had a mediocre childhood and was very introverted and disconnected as well. Always struggled to connect with others. After graduating university something drastically changed. I felt more in control of being able to attain what I wanted. I’m still heavily introverted but I can connect with others better. I’m often adored by others now so it’s a whole other experience (it really flatters my Leo placements, this was something I was completely lacking growing up). Definitely changed what I would consider as factory settings. I apparently come off very outgoing when in reality people severely drain me and I think I just learned to get by better socially. Maybe I naturally changed without realizing in response to how much better I’ve been treated as an adult than as an adolescent?

Funny thing is I'm not introverted. More extrovert than introvert. I talk to people, it just doesn't mean anything to me
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What about ever feeling inspired or disturbed by what others have said? Has anything anyone (even a stranger or an author) ever said or wrote that has strongly moved you spiritually, mentally and/or emotionally?

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Oh yeh, not so much what they said but their attitude towards me. It hurt me deeply. But then they had a car accident and broke their back, which I dare to say was karma. Not that I feel mistreated but they needed to learn humility

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I had a mediocre childhood and was very introverted and disconnected as well. Always struggled to connect with others. After graduating university something drastically changed. I felt more in control of being able to attain what I wanted. I’m still heavily introverted but I can connect with others better. I’m often adored by others now so it’s a whole other experience (it really flatters my Leo placements, this was something I was completely lacking growing up). Definitely changed what I would consider as factory settings. I apparently come off very outgoing when in reality people severely drain me and I think I just learned to get by better socially. Maybe I naturally changed without realizing in response to how much better I’ve been treated as an adult than as an adolescent?

Funny thing is I'm not introverted. More extrovert than introvert. I talk to people, it just doesn't mean anything to me
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What about ever feeling inspired or disturbed by what others have said? Has anything anyone (even a stranger or an author) ever said or wrote that has strongly moved you spiritually, mentally and/or emotionally?
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Oh yeh, not so much what they said but their attitude towards me. It hurt me deeply. But then they had a car accident and broke their back, which I dare to say was karma. Not that I feel mistreated but they needed to learn humility

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Are you the same Wizardz who’s a Gemini? Was it a family member?

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Me, I'm disconnected.. I had a horrible childhood and it made me unable to properly connect with anyone or anything. I used to like travelling for that reason because feeling disconnected moving all the time felt normal but now I'm living in a foreign country feeling unattached to anything and it's wearing thin.

Do you have any siblings?
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Yeh a sister but we were never companionsble
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She older?

I too have a sister who is 8 years older, whom doesn't feel like a sibling because of age gap. So ive always had a bit of only child syndrome, though im not.
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No she's 18 months younger but we never had a relationship worth mentioning, unless you count squabbling on car journeys. I remember 2 days when we were friendly but that's about it
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Did you play sports?

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I did. I was pretty energetic. She was the type to sulk in her room listening to depressing music. I don't blame her, we had a fucked up loveless upbringing but still we are chalk and cheese personality-wise

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I had a mediocre childhood and was very introverted and disconnected as well. Always struggled to connect with others. After graduating university something drastically changed. I felt more in control of being able to attain what I wanted. I’m still heavily introverted but I can connect with others better. I’m often adored by others now so it’s a whole other experience (it really flatters my Leo placements, this was something I was completely lacking growing up). Definitely changed what I would consider as factory settings. I apparently come off very outgoing when in reality people severely drain me and I think I just learned to get by better socially. Maybe I naturally changed without realizing in response to how much better I’ve been treated as an adult than as an adolescent?

Funny thing is I'm not introverted. More extrovert than introvert. I talk to people, it just doesn't mean anything to me
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What about ever feeling inspired or disturbed by what others have said? Has anything anyone (even a stranger or an author) ever said or wrote that has strongly moved you spiritually, mentally and/or emotionally?
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Oh yeh, not so much what they said but their attitude towards me. It hurt me deeply. But then they had a car accident and broke their back, which I dare to say was karma. Not that I feel mistreated but they needed to learn humility
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Are you the same Wizardz who’s a Gemini? Was it a family member?

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Yes, Gemini. No it was someone I met and always had difficulty with although I had a lot of feeling for her but I couldn't connect but I'm not a bad person but she treated me as such. Well, she changed tho. People learn

Posted by MidAtBest
Im living in my factory settings for the most part

My default is to be easily triggered by calling me ugly, fat, weird (I think only touchy stinky creeps pushing their political anger on others are weird), anything that seems objectively incorrect to me, and crying openly/expressing my emotions about it. Because my child self who was engrossed in literature was captivated with deep emotional turmoil and angst in characters, but irl that doesn't apply to women, much less mid ones. So training myself not to cry at work is the most major deviance I've made from my default, it used to be all I ever did at work lol. I cry much less in general


I used to try hard to live out my NN but not anymore sad to say. other than perfect work attendance (cap NN) it's in the 5th house so maybe the dancing fits with that.

Are you borderline? You never confirmed

I have been diagnosed with that but the quiet borderline type. I've had major meltdowns but only in front of one person. It's more common in women

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Im living in my factory settings for the most part
My default is to be easily triggered by calling me ugly, fat, weird (I think only touchy stinky creeps pushing their political anger on others are weird), anything that seems objectively incorrect to me, and crying openly/expressing my emotions about it. Because my child self who was engrossed in literature was captivated with deep emotional turmoil and angst in characters, but irl that doesn't apply to women, much less mid ones. So training myself not to cry at work is the most major deviance I've made from my default, it used to be all I ever did at work lol. I cry much less in general

I used to try hard to live out my NN but not anymore sad to say. other than perfect work attendance (cap NN) it's in the 5th house so maybe the dancing fits with that.

Are you borderline? You never confirmed

I have been diagnosed with that but the quiet borderline type. I've had major meltdowns but only in front of one person. It's more common in women

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Yeah I was diagnosed multiple times between 15-19. Your childhood must have been painful. And you're Gemini? I feel like our androgyny plays into our fear of abandonment also, unless you're born in the hyperliberal EU. I think the self-mutilation/harm aspect is a defining indicator, which can be kept hidden and quiet. Also I feel like Gems with BPD aren't serial monogamists like the stereotype bc we have such specific standards (and are mercurial- can live off porn perhaps lol)

I have to force myself to live a normal life because if I had it my way I'd eat whatever I want 24/7 because I love food. I'd also get fucked up with drugs and alcohol daily. Not because I hate life, reality, or feel depressed, but simply because I like to feel something intense and different. So mostly out of boredom. I realize I can't live that type of life because I'll die, and be unable to enjoy everything else in life. I consider myself lucky because I have a high tolerance for pain and suffering, so forcing myself from indulging in the bad things I want to do is actually pretty easy.

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But then they had a car accident and broke their back, which I dare to say was karma. Not that I feel mistreated but they needed to learn humility

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I believe Geminis are never bullies, and people with BPD tend to attract those who would use and abuse them (maybe the exception being histrionic BPDs). No shame in joy over karma, especially when it validates your experience at the hands of this person. My first ex (I was 15, he was 18) was a Cancer sun-Mercury, Leo moon-Venus, Virgo Mars. Popular, cheated on me while telling others I was the cheater, would pin me down and hold my eyelids open, if I had a bruise he punched it till it got worse, spanked me till I cried, sexually tortured me, put out a cig on my buttcheek, called me fat at 105 lbs, and would publicly slander me so his friends wouldn't crush on me. When I was 19 and first tried H he told me I would only ever be known as a worthless junkie bitch bc I refused to meet him. Threatened to send women to beat me up bc I dumped him, threatened to send my nudes to my college, posted a Facebook status saying that I shit on the floor. At age 30 he was murdered bc he stole someone's vehicle. They set him up with a drug deal and shot him in the face from afar with a shotgun (closed casket). I was very pleased. No one at the time believed my abuse except my dad who witnessed it bc he was so popular (and Richys kind friend Trevor).

Sanch better chill w the jokes or she's gonna need a machete to fight the DXP lotharios off her yard

Some Mrs Puff-Mr Krabs brazy shit

Posted by God-of-the-Gaps
My household (aqua dad, cap mom, libra sister)

Houseful of Saturn 😭 sounds like a nightmare

"Do Not Disturb"

Ah you mean...well to me means how you are with no worries or weighted down by life and circumstance..

Playful, very kind, and adventurous.

I'd say loving but at my age it freaks people out if you are too affectionate just because....to that I say, something is wrong with you people, some I feel bad for some who had bad experiences but to the others fuck off grenches 🖕

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Holy shit, no wonder Virgos have always been after me, I look like a project 😳 😅 . My virgo Mars has got this, though

You overthink too much. Virgos like to slap things. You probably just have a really slapable face.

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Do you love cloudy, ands, dory and I bc we're projects

Rank us from most to least fixable pls

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Holy shit, no wonder Virgos have always been after me, I look like a project 😳 😅 . My virgo Mars has got this, though

You overthink too much. Virgos like to slap things. You probably just have a really slapable face.
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Do you love cloudy, ands, dory and I bc we're projects

Rank us from most to least fixable pls
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Lmao I don’t want the responsibility of fixing anyone. I’d drop you all off at the fire station. I don’t think I’ve ever made anyone better. Only worse. Ands is the least fixable though. He also doesn’t do the introspection thing.

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Ngl I was just telling my sister all about him at lunch

She loves his cheekbones and bone structure

Obv is victim to pretty privilege to the nth degree

Delayed emotional reactions in high stress situations. Saving grace more times than not! Except when it comes to my furry assholes. It's enough for them to give me a strange look & I'm ringing the bells like the whole village is on fire! Thank you Pluto in the 6th!

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Posted by virgoOPPP
my misfortune is that i live in a very extroverted, collectivist society

like today i just wanted to have lunch by myself plus was listening to a podcast on loudspeaker (moderate volume, not loud enough to bother anyone and sat alone) but everyone else just wanted to squeeze themselves together for lunch.

like wtf don't you get enough skinship from your family at home?

just eww everyone's so desperate to belong in a tribe

but i have venus in the 11th 🤷🤷

It's funny there are so many of those who live and breathe same-sex coworkers to the point they chatter for half an hr past clock-out time and lose track of time. Could never be me. Or anyone who hangs out on forums/boards/threads lol


It also fucks with me how they dodge trouble for all the gossiping and sex talk. It's probably my ASC square Pluto at fault but the second those cliques swindle me into that behavior, here comes HR and my psychiatrist saying "wtf, just say hi and bye, don't be an idiot, no one there wants to be friends w you". Like 🤯


I know people who make it their mission to "adopt" new coworkers by making plans w them outside of work quickly. How does anyone have the energy. It's those people who say "our company is a family" lord have mercy and then all those "friends" collect tons of blackmail on each other to keep themselves out of trouble.

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it's weird tho coz when i blatantly isolate myself, one of the guys gave me a little tap on the shoulder and was like 'hey, you're flying solo' like uhh yeah? we're not in the hunting and gathering era anymore. we don't have to desperately stick to groups to survive. it's like you have to report your comings and goings just coz you have lunch with them regularly.

though there is that one guy who mentioned he likes the mandalorian coz he knew i'm a fan so i'm prob gonna hang out with him for lunch and just wear giant headphones everywhere else to avoid people. i fare better with people one at a time coz i feel there's something about groups that forces people to be shallow, dumb and obnoxious.

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i fare better with people one at a time coz i feel there's something about groups that forces people to be shallow, dumb and obnoxious.

Real af. When I overhear their convos I'm always in shock that this is how people spend their lives

Posted by Wizardzzz
What are your factory settings?

Like 2moon said he's a people pleaser

Have you done anything to overcome this? Like downloaded some apps into your brain?

Or resigned yourself to it?

Factory settings: Irritable and impatient, also somewhat shy/insecure

The irritability and impatience never really fully went away. But I am self aware enough to know what to do to help minimize or help put it at ease. This did take more than a decade of progress though. This one is more of a long story. But I will say that what started this is that...unlike most typical Aries stereotypes of where Aries argues and then forgets, I do and always remember. I remember pretty much all instances of pushing people away.

Leo Moon had a lot to do with overcoming this shyness. However DXP, the mafia games, Nights's games (because he moved towards more video and audio recordings instead of just text), vocaroos, and zoom chats (brought out a side of Leo Moon that I didn't really see before) probably all helped as well.

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Posted by Wizardzzz
What are your factory settings?
Like 2moon said he's a people pleaser
Have you done anything to overcome this? Like downloaded some apps into your brain?
Or resigned yourself to it?

I've been back to this thread three times 🙄


I don't understand the question.


Help.


What do you think my default settings should be?

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I bought a crap phone and the screen would go off after like 30 secs and it won't run some apps and the camera is poor and the GPS seems unreliable but oh well I use it anyway. If it was the only phone I would ever be allowed to own then maybe I'd buy some extra ram for it and mount a better camera on it (idk technology much lol) or maybe I just use it as it is and resign myself to it's limitations.

So😅 how did you come out of the factory? Have you had to force updates and add/uninstall things or maybe they won't uninstall but you can try to ignore them running in the background. Do you have default settings you can't change? Did you try to install apps which would or wouldn't work?

Keeping how I really feel, my interests, my dreams, my opinions, just about everything to myself where I feel safer. It’s not that I dont have any of these, in fact it’s the opposite. Things so sacred to me I preferred for a long time to keep to myself.

Naturally I feel safer to expressive and feel myself in isolation. I learned quite quickly though that I cant expect other ppl to read my mind. I always tend to assume ppl could pick up on what I’m feeling, but then getting hurt when they don’t, and misunderstand me.

I’ve made more effort over the years to be more vocal and unembarrassed of expressing how I feel and what I like, what makes me happy etc. I don’t know why I was so embarrassed. But learning to not be embarrassed and make a fool out of myself has been my “maturity”.

Another default of mine that is probably more obvious and probably something I should fix but I have a love hate relationship with it so I’m not sure I want to fix it, is how often I daydream. Full on fictional scenarios 24/7 that I’m always only half present. I love it because it brings me joy, but hate it because it makes me useless in the real world. I still don’t know how to fix it 🫠

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Delayed emotional reactions in high stress situations. Saving grace more times than not! Except when it comes to my furry assholes. It's enough for them to give me a strange look & I'm ringing the bells like the whole village is on fire! Thank you Pluto in the 6th!

I think we are the same person lol I feel like I’m like this too, and I hate it😣 I think I remember you having moon in the 12th house right? I read that can give delayed emotional reactions

Posted by PilatesBod
I’m a true INFP. Frolicking through a meadow chasing butterflies. Extreme idealism followed by disappointment that nothing ever measures up to my ideals.

I went from INTJ to ISTP to INTP. I’m overdue for a follow up. But I just realized your first sentence deeply embodies my Jupiter in Sag in the 1st house. I’ve actually recently used that exact expression to describe a part of myself. Except I expect some disappointments to be part of life due to the nature of life. I don’t know if that expectation and awareness limits me when it comes to manifestation but it’s given me something to introspect on.

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Delayed emotional reactions in high stress situations. Saving grace more times than not! Except when it comes to my furry assholes. It's enough for them to give me a strange look & I'm ringing the bells like the whole village is on fire! Thank you Pluto in the 6th!

I think we are the same person lol I feel like I’m like this too, and I hate it😣 I think I remember you having moon in the 12th house right? I read that can give delayed emotional reactions

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That's unfortunate! I really mean it coz I genuinely found it to be a blessing in disguise. Yes it is indeed in the 12th. My saving grace (probably?) is that it tries my Uranus in Scorpio, mc in cap and fortune in Turus as some grounding force.

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Delayed emotional reactions in high stress situations. Saving grace more times than not! Except when it comes to my furry assholes. It's enough for them to give me a strange look & I'm ringing the bells like the whole village is on fire! Thank you Pluto in the 6th!

I think we are the same person lol I feel like I’m like this too, and I hate it😣 I think I remember you having moon in the 12th house right? I read that can give delayed emotional reactions

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LoL

That's unfortunate! I really mean it coz I genuinely found it to be a blessing in disguise. Yes it is indeed in the 12th. My saving grace (probably?) is that it tries my Uranus in Scorpio, mc in cap and fortune in Turus as some grounding force.

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Posted by virgoOPPP
i fare better with people one at a time coz i feel there's something about groups that forces people to be shallow, dumb and obnoxious.

Real af. When I overhear their convos I'm always in shock that this is how people spend their lives

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Example 1 in-thread: anyone who utters the words "candy crush saga"

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Delayed emotional reactions in high stress situations. Saving grace more times than not! Except when it comes to my furry assholes. It's enough for them to give me a strange look & I'm ringing the bells like the whole village is on fire! Thank you Pluto in the 6th!

I think we are the same person lol I feel like I’m like this too, and I hate it😣 I think I remember you having moon in the 12th house right? I read that can give delayed emotional reactions

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LoL


That's unfortunate! I really mean it coz I genuinely found it to be a blessing in disguise. Yes it is indeed in the 12th. My saving grace (probably?) is that it tries my Uranus in Scorpio, mc in cap and fortune in Turus as some grounding force.

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I hate it because it makes me feel like I’m a bad person if I don’t react right away or like I’m fake 😥

I wish I could be like a regular person and react in real time. It’s weird because when I’m alone I will feel things more, but around other ppl it’s like I’m in buffering mode. It makes therapy difficult too because I will be crying and really feeling something one day, but when I’m recalling how I’m feeling to my therapist, the reaction is underwhelming, so they can not truly grasp how much it effects me. Because of that I’ve given up on therapy. 😅

Posted by Wizardzzz
What are your factory settings?

Like 2moon said he's a people pleaser

Have you done anything to overcome this? Like downloaded some apps into your brain?

Or resigned yourself to it?

As nature intended.

Posted by Wizardzzz
What are your factory settings?

Like 2moon said he's a people pleaser

Have you done anything to overcome this? Like downloaded some apps into your brain?

Or resigned yourself to it?

Going MIA and get lost in movies and songs. I need a lot of space.

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Posted by Wizardzzz
What are your factory settings?
Like 2moon said he's a people pleaser
Have you done anything to overcome this? Like downloaded some apps into your brain?
Or resigned yourself to it?

Factory settings: Irritable and impatient, also somewhat shy/insecure

The irritability and impatience never really fully went away. But I am self aware enough to know what to do to help minimize or help put it at ease. This did take more than a decade of progress though. This one is more of a long story. But I will say that what started this is that...unlike most typical Aries stereotypes of where Aries argues and then forgets, I do and always remember. I remember pretty much all instances of pushing people away.

Leo Moon had a lot to do with overcoming this shyness. However DXP, the mafia games, Nights's games (because he moved towards more video and audio recordings instead of just text), vocaroos, and zoom chats (brought out a side of Leo Moon that I didn't really see before) probably all helped as well.

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This is interesting. When is Night’s next zoom game? That’s great that Night’s games and vocaroos brought you out of your shell.


Are you a March or April Aries?

What house is your sun in?

Your rising sign?

When you say you do not forget, do you mean that you recall how you felt?


I’m very patient and easy going/laid back (Sun in 2nd house?) Others that I know describe me as such. Friends in my social groups consider me a leader. I have the ability to take charge at a moment’s notice. I’m assertive and am self-assertive. It’s interesting - our differences. It goes to show that we all have our own journey in life.


My default factory settings: I can be too passive, but am speaking up when it is absolutely necessary.

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He moved off of dxp. He's now doing Online Survivor and post episodes of the game (there's now multiple seasons) on Youtube. I'm not sure when he's doing the next one. He invited me to join the previous one that took place last fall.

I'm an April Aries (10th house Sun) with Cancer Rising.

I remember pretty much everything in regards to previous conflicts, how I felt, what took place leading up to it, what was said at the time, and what happened after.

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Posted by Bluemoon86

Posted by victoria-sakura

Posted by Wizardzzz
What are your factory settings?
Like 2moon said he's a people pleaser
Have you done anything to overcome this? Like downloaded some apps into your brain?
Or resigned yourself to it?

Factory settings: Irritable and impatient, also somewhat shy/insecure

The irritability and impatience never really fully went away. But I am self aware enough to know what to do to help minimize or help put it at ease. This did take more than a decade of progress though. This one is more of a long story. But I will say that what started this is that...unlike most typical Aries stereotypes of where Aries argues and then forgets, I do and always remember. I remember pretty much all instances of pushing people away.

Leo Moon had a lot to do with overcoming this shyness. However DXP, the mafia games, Nights's games (because he moved towards more video and audio recordings instead of just text), vocaroos, and zoom chats (brought out a side of Leo Moon that I didn't really see before) probably all helped as well.
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This is interesting. When is Night’s next zoom game? That’s great that Night’s games and vocaroos brought you out of your shell.

Are you a March or April Aries?
What house is your sun in?
Your rising sign?
When you say you do not forget, do you mean that you recall how you felt?

I’m very patient and easy going/laid back (Sun in 2nd house?) Others that I know describe me as such. Friends in my social groups consider me a leader. I have the ability to take charge at a moment’s notice. I’m assertive and am self-assertive. It’s interesting - our differences. It goes to show that we all have our own journey in life.

My default factory settings: I can be too passive, but am speaking up when it is absolutely necessary.
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He moved off of dxp. He's now doing Online Survivor and post episodes of the game (there's now multiple seasons) on Youtube. I'm not sure when he's doing the next one. He invited me to join the previous one that took place last fall.

I'm an April Aries (10th house Sun) with Cancer Rising.

I remember pretty much everything in regards to previous conflicts, how I felt, what took place leading up to it, what was said at the time, and what happened after.

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You have a great memory!! ❤️ I think it has to do with your Cancer rising!! I have a Cancer Mars and can recall details that my best friend forgets. With your sun in the 10th house, you are definitely meant to be out in the public. I would say you have quite a bit of sensitivity as well.


“He moved off of dxp. He's now doing Online Survivor and post episodes of the game (there's now multiple seasons) on Youtube. I'm not sure when he's doing the next one. He invited me to join the previous one that took place last fall.”


Ok cool! Did you do the game last fall?


I reached out to him after Dazed’s death because I was touched by his video tribute to Dazed. I told him I would join the next game… would be so awesome to see you there!! He told me to keep an eye on his YouTube for it.

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I do have quite a bit of sensitivity. I think that's how I sometimes come off like a water sign.

I got the taurus mercury cancer rising tag team, plus mercury sextile rising by orb of 1 degree, which probably plays a huge part for good memory. You have cap rising too right? I find Cap energy in general has pretty good memory too.

I did do the game last fall. It was great. 😁 So if he does another one, I'll see you there. 😁

Just want to do my own thing all the time and hyperfocusing on that one thing.

I’ve come to realize that I’m not so much a people-pleaser as I am someone with a savior mindset. I often jump in to help or fix things for others, even when they haven’t asked. I genuinely care, but I’m starting to see that sometimes it’s more about my need to feel needed.

I’m learning that letting them handle things on their own helps them develop. At the same time, I remind myself it’s better to teach and support rather than take over and do everything for them.

It’s definitely not easy, but I’m hopeful this shift will help me set healthier boundaries.

I like your topic @Wizardzzz - Deep 🙂